He couldn't believe what he was hearing. How could Adam let his off so easily? Not even going to say he was sorry for cheating on him? After all he went through? Tommy couldn't believe a word of it. This wasn't his baby. His baby would never want to lose him, but this man…This imposter living inside his lover's body would just allow him to leave. He couldn't believe it. So he said his farewells, leaving Adam's present which he had gotten his boyfriend on the counter and stormed out the door.
Tommy bit his bottom lip as he ran down the stairs of Adam's complex and into his black convertible. H-Holy shit. He didn't even know what to think anymore. A-Adam was up there about to screw some guy. How the fuck could all this drama happen in the matter of less then 24 hours? He didn't even know. Who was this Adam Lambert? This Adam with black hair and excessive amounts of make-up? Who the fuck was it? It wasn't his high school sweetheart…Or was it? Could it be that Adam has been holding onto his dirty little secret all of his life, but Tommy was just too clueless to figure it out? No, that's not possible. The blond knew everything about his boyfriend (ex-boyfriend?). That was the understatement of the year. For fuck's sake! He didn't even know Adam could sing. And look at him. He got second place on American Idol. Maybe he was the terrible boyfriend that led all this to happen to Adam. Maybe he was the one that ruined Adam's life and tore their once peaceful and loving relationship to shreds.
No. Tommy shook his head, it on the steering wheel while turning his car on, driving out of the parking lot and into the open road. His windows were open, letting the cool breeze whip around his heated and sad face. He needed to think this through…
To be honest, the blond felt bad for saying all that shit to Adam. He loved Adam. And he always will. How could Tommy just have abandoned his love like that? In his time of need. He didn't mean too. It was all just too much for the bassist. Seeing his lover in tattered pieces like that. He couldn't handle it, so he dealt with it inappropriately. The blond just left him, calling him a junkie druggie. Which was technically what he was, but Adam probably didn't want to hear that. He probably wanted to hear an 'It's alright, I'll love you now matter what, we'll get through this together….'
But now he knew that Adam needed him. But then again, maybe not. He is the one that said he could do all willy-nilly like that. If Adam did indeed want Tommy to stay, wouldn't the brunet have fought him to stay? No…That's stupid. He's probably hyped up on heroine or something.
That made Tommy flinch, knowing his baby was in a helpless state right now. Hurting himself with those needles. And cutting himself. Why the hell was he cutting himself? He saw those scars and the holes penetrating his skin. He was inflicting harm to himself, and that just about tore Tommy's heart out of his chest, knowing his baby was hurting himself on purpose. Was it because of him? Because he was away for so long? Was he the cause of this entire shitty situation and Adam's wounded and mangled body and mental self? No…he couldn't have been...
Tommy needed to do something. So he would. He would make this night romantic for him and Adam. They were going to watch a movie, and make love. That's what they were going to do whether Adam liked it or not! And no, they have never made love before. They've done everything in the above, but never got down nitty gritty, and that's what Tommy was determined to do tonight!
With a small smile on his tear stained face, Tommy started running errands. First he stopped at the movie rental place and rented 'Velvet Goldmine', knowing his was his and Adam's favorite movie. Then, he quickly drove to the nearest deli and ordered a vegan burger for Adam. His favorite food (and like old times at lunch in high school). And lastly, Tommy drove to the flouriest to get more blue roses. They were unique and beautiful, just like his Babyboy. He was going to make it up to him. Even if it killed him.
Then, like the wind, Tommy quickly drove back and locked his car, carrying the blue roses in one hand, and having the bag of food and the movie in the other. He didn't need to have a full out speech of apology for Adam. He was just going to kiss him softly on the lips and go down to his neck. They were going to have a nice night tonight. It only seemed logical, right? Jesus, they're seeing each other after nine years, and this is what happens. So much drama and they're even out of high school!
He sighed and opened the door, looking around frantically. It was dark, and he flipped on a switched. It was very quietly, but Tommy saw Adam's red mustang out front, so his boyfriend didn't go anywhere. Getting slightly worried, Tommy set the supplies down on the coffee table in the middle of the living room and went into the kitchen, looking around and seeing nothing.
"Babyboy?" he called out, looking left and right and not being able to see his lover. "Adam, where are you?" he called again. He checked the bedroom, the library, and various other rooms where Adam was not. He was beginning to get worried until he opened the door to the bathroom where his eyes widened, and his hands flew up to his mouth before the tears started to streak down his face. "Holy shit, Adam…"
