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Chapter 7
Edward
I drove back to my house with the biggest smile plastered all over my face. If going out with girls a second time was always like this then I'd have to do it more often. But I knew in reality that wasn't the case. It was only Bella. She had a pull that attracted me to her so I just had to see her again. No doubt about it. I wanted to see into the depths of her glorious chocolate eyes. I wanted to hear her beautiful bell-like laugh. I wanted to taste her luscious full lips. But most of all I just wanted to be with her.
I didn't want to rush into anything which is why I told myself that under no circumstances would I sleep with her and I didn't even plan to kiss her. Not like that anyway. But when the time came I just couldn't resist. I could smell her as she was in such close proximity to me and she did the sexiest thing by trying to look cute and crinkling up her nose which made her irresistible. And the kiss itself… well that's just another story. Hands down the best kiss ever and it's not like there was any groping involved either.
There's also something mysterious and endearing about her. It seems like she has some kind of secret that I can't wait to unravel. At the end of the date she wouldn't let me walk her to her door. Maybe she's self-conscious about living in a smaller house than me, or in her case, apartment. I'm sure she'd tell me some time and I couldn't wait to learn all her secrets.
Once I arrived home I strolled upstairs, removed my clothes and flopped into bed with thoughts of only Bella.
My Bella.
Bella
He kissed me passionately and I ripped his shirt off his now sweaty body. I gazed over Edward's sculpted figure in delight as he un-zipped my dress.
"Bella."
He ran his hands all over my body and I moaned with the pleasure of it as I began to undo his belt.
"Bella honey. Can you hear me?"
He began sucking on my neck and wrapped his hands round the clasp of my bra ready to remove it.
"Bella wake up."
I then noticed someone shaking me violently and looked up to see Mike's face hovering over mine. I peered round the room taking in my surroundings and realised that I was in my apartment.
In my bed.
With Mike.
You've got to be kidding me.
"Oh."
"Morning Bella," Mike started laughing, "It seemed like you were having a good dream?"
"A good dream?" I asked.
"Very good by the looks of it." He smiled. Oh damn it. I hope he didn't hear me say Edward's name.
"I hope I was the star of the dream," he continued. Phew.
"Of course," I smiled fakely, "now I hope you had a good reason for breaking me out of my lovely dream?" I was just getting to the good bit.
"Sadly, yes. I would love to have watched you all day but Alice is on the phone."
That's all? "And it couldn't wait?"
"She said it's important."
I groaned and took the phone out of Mike hand raising myself to lean on the headboard.
"I'll leave you alone." Mike mouthed while leaving the bedroom and shutting the door behind him.
"Thanks for waking me Alice!" I said annoyed. I looked at the clock and saw that it was only eight thirty. She could have waited; it was a Saturday for crying out loud.
"Bella!" she screeched, "anything you'd like to tell me?"
"What?" I asked utterly confused.
"Well why did I have some fireman come round my house asking me what you liked for dinner?" she yelled, "Does Mike know about your date with the fireman last night?"
"Ah… that."
"Yes Bella. That. You have some explaining to do."
"Look Alice it's complicated." She just didn't get it. I was doing nothing wrong.
"Well uncomplicate it."
"It's not that simple Alice. Look will you please meet me for a coffee or something and we can talk? Please." I pleaded.
"Yes fine. I'll meet you at Starbucks in an hour. Don't be late"
She hung up.
How the hell was I going to explain this to Alice? She doesn't understand about me and Edward. She just doesn't understand that… I mean it's not like I'm doing anything wrong because…well because…
Oh I don't know!
Damn you Alice. She was making me face up to the very things I wanted to ignore and I didn't like it.
After dressing in my knee high brown boots, skinny jeans and vest top I went to go and meet Alice. This wasn't going to be pretty. I spotted Alice through the coffee shop window at a table in the corner and went over to her. I smiled at her quickly before sitting down but she ignored me.
"Hi," I said shyly.
"Hello," she replied, "I got you a cappuccino."
"Thanks." I took a sip in need of something to do with my hands.
"So Bella?" asked Alice seriously, "what's going on? You're going out with some other guy?"
"He's just a friend. I met him when you started the fire at your apartment and then at the club and we got on really well so I agreed to go out with him again. It's no big deal."
"Does he know he's just a friend?" she asked, "because when he came to my house he looked like he was preparing for some big date."
"You must have got the wrong impression."
"So you've told Mike about him then?"
"Not exactly," I was growing more uncomfortable by the second.
She looked at me sternly, "and it's not like you've kissed him or anything."
I looked down taking a sip of my cappuccino as I started to blush furiously.
"Bella!" she shrieked drawing attention to our table
"It was only one peck on the cheek… or the urm… lips." I spoke quickly trying to calm her down.
She composed her face and suddenly became more serious, "why Bella? This isn't like you."
"I-I don't know," and then it all came out, "I just met him and we clicked. I mean I've never had that kind of connection with someone. I couldn't just ignore it. I know I should have done… I know it's wrong because of Mike but I just can't not see Edward. I tried to convince myself he's only a friend but some of the things I want to do to him… well you just don't do them with your friends. And Mike, my husband. How can I do this to him? I just can't but I have to… I just have to. I've tried to ignore the guilt but it's still there and I've tried to ignore how I feel about Edward but that's still there too."
"Do you love him Bella?"
"Who?" I wasn't sure about either of them.
"Edward, do you love Edward?"
"I-I … I don't know. But I could and I think in time I will."
"Well do you love Mike?"
This was such a basic question. He was my husband, of course I should say yes, but I couldn't. I just didn't love him. Edward had shown me that, even if I didn't love him… yet. Mike was just someone I lived with. Someone I was married to. Not the love of my life.
"No." I answered coldly but truthfully.
Alice took a deep breath, "ok then."
Ok then. That's it?
"Don't just say that Alice. Tell me what to do… I need to know what to do." I pleaded with her thumping my fists on the table.
"I don't know Bella." She shook her head making her spiky hair jump up and down, "I know that seeing Edward behind Mike's back is wrong but I also know that if you have the chance of love you can't just throw it away. I love Jasper and it's the most amazing feeling ever. But I mean you can't keep seeing Edward and not tell him you're married. I'd say you have three options."
"I'm listening."
"Option A. You break it off with Edward and tell him about Mike and then never see him again." Hearing those words made my heart feel hollow. I couldn't never see him again.
"Option B. You keep seeing Edward for a while and see if it blossoms into anything. If it does then be with Edward instead of Mike. If not then go back to Mike."
Interesting.
"Or option C. Leave Mike for Edward."
Christ! I wasn't ready for that yet
"I pick B." I said without hesitation.
"I thought you might," she looked at me disapprovingly, "but don't take too long to make up your mind because it's not fair on Edward. You don't want him to fall in love with you just as you decide to break up with him and be with Mike."
"Oh God. Don't worry, I understand. I'll make up my mind as quick as I can but it won't be easy."
"I know. Let's say that if you still haven't made your mind up in a month then you go back to Mike."
A month? I'm sure that was enough time.
"Yes ok. If I haven't decided in a month then I'm back to Mike. And Edward might even finish it off with me first. You never know."
"I doubt it, he seemed smitten. Maybe he's the love of your life Bella," Alice grinned suddenly seeming excited about my predicament, "but don't let Mike or Edward find out because then you'll end up alone."
"Of course not. I don't want to hurt either of them."
"Yes but Bella you do understand that in the end you will hurt one of them. You'll hurt whoever you don't choose."
"I know." How could I forget?
"Thank you for this Alice. You're such a good friend." I stood up to give her a hug.
"You help me with boy problems so I help you in return," she smiled, "and if you ever need a cover for Mike then I'm your girl."
"Thanks Al. I better get going." I picked up my bag, "I'll see you soon."
"See ya Bella."
I walked out the door ready to face the whirlwind of a month ahead of me.
This is going to be fun.
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