This chapter was gonna be longer but after all the reviews I wanted to update as quickly as possible. Thank you so much. There's gonna be a lot more drama in the next chapter and I promise I'll try to update soon. :-)

"Are you feeling any better?" Dan passed Blair a drink as she sat down at the table.

"Yeah, I guess"

"You remember that we have the big family meal today?"

"Yep and Serena will be there"

"And Chuck" Blair nearly spat her drink out "he let Serena know and she told Nate and he just text me to let me know"

"I still have my phone switched off" Blair wondered whether Nate had bothered to try and contact her even thought she told him not too.

"He wants to know if you're still going."

"My mum and Cyrus will be there. I have to go"

"Are you sure it's a good idea"

"I did a lot of thinking last night" Blair ignored Dan's question "I don't think me and Nate ever realised what we were getting ourselves into. We should have listened to you"

"I didn't know you as well last year. I didn't know how well you and Nate work together"

"We don't at the moment" Blair had never even let it cross her mind that Serena and Chuck would come back into the picture "we were stupid to think it would be easy, that we'd be happy"

"But you have been up to now haven't you?" Dan knew she had.

"No" Blair felt tears slip down her cheeks "yes. It's been the best year of my life."

"Once Serena and Chuck are gone it will be like that again. Just wait" Dan wanted her to be convinced, he hated seeing her so lost.

"I can't pretend this week never happened. Things have changed between us. Nate's in love with Serena and I'm the only thing in his way of them being together. I don't want him to end up hating me for trapping him"

"Then end things" Dan watched the panic in Blair's face, she wasn't going to do that. "Or not, calm down"

"I'm just not ready to loose him yet. I-I- he means so much to me. I know it's selfish but I need him" Blair groaned and rested her head on the table "so basically I spent the whole night going back and forth. Should I divorce him so he can be happy and me miserable or stay with him and end up miserable anyway."

"They both end in miserable"

"But at least if I stay with Nate I might be able to prolong the happiness a bit more. And I know Nate won't leave me so it's up to me to decide" Dan knew she was right. Nate would never actually leave Blair for Serena; he was the type of guy that let others make the big decisions for him. Blair normally loved it but not this time.

"Did you actually get any sleep last night?" he didn't know what else to suggest, it was hard being best friends with two people who never admitted how they actually felt.


Blair waited as Nate climbed out the car "why are you always late? I thought you'd come with Serena"

"I thought it would look weird if I turned up without you." Nate leant back in the car for something "and I bought you something which is why I'm late" he handed Blair a photo frame with a picture of them on their wedding day. Blair felt tears spring to her eyes instantly, you couldn't even guess that it was fake; they were both staring into each others eyes as if they were madly in love.

"It's beautiful" Blair leant over and kissed Nate's cheek softly.

"I thought it was about time we had some pictures up" Nate took hold of her hand "you're the most important person in my life. If I have to choose between you and Serena I will. And I'll choose you. I'll always choose you. I want you to come back home"

"Really?"

"Yes" Nate took the photo frame and placed it back in the car "now let's get inside. They'll think we're not coming"

"Blair, Nate you two look wonderful" Eleanor hugged her daughter and son in law before allowing them to greet everybody else.

"Are you ok Blair? You look like you've been crying"

"Nate just reminded me of how lucky I am to have him" Blair squeezed Nate's hand and watched Chuck and Serena exchange glances, she wasn't going to let them win tonight.

"You've turned her soft" Cyrus laughed.

"I never thought I'd see the day" Lilly guided Blair over to the dining table "now lets make ourselves comfortable and we can all catch up" Blair quickly positioned herself in between Nate and Dan and facing Jenny and Eric.

"So tell us about the reunion" Eleanor tried to start up a conversation.

"Oh no, we won't bore you with that"

"It was amazing" Serena gushed "Nate and I really enjoyed catching up with everyone" Blair wished she'd sat nearer to Serena now so she could kick her under the table.

"Where were you Blair?"

"I was-" she looked at Nate for help "there"

"She left with me so she wasn't there for long" Chuck smirked as everyone looked from him to Blair. They all knew the history they shared.

"Sorry for asking but why the hell would you leave with Chuck if it wasn't to sl-"

"She was tired" Nate cut Jenny off "and she was upset with me. I'm not always the world's best husband" Nate laughed awkwardly.

"It is interesting though." Serena smiled "was it weird? It's understandable if you still have feelings for each other, you were in love once"

"So were we" Dan leant towards Serena "and there's definitely no feelings left there. People do move on don't they Blair?"

"Well I never fully moved on from Nate but that's because we were meant to be" Blair smiled sweetly and stroked Nate's face lovingly; she knew she was getting to them. "But yeah I have moved on from Chuck." The adults sat back not wanting to get involved with whatever was going on.

"But when we kissed you must have felt something" Chuck was going to wait until the end of the meal to drop the bombshell but the way Blair was looking at Nate was getting to him, he couldn't last any longer.

"What kiss?" Nate looked from Chuck smug face to Blair's guilty face.

"Blair" Eleanor couldn't keep quiet any longer "what's going on?"

"I think she told me she felt something a little like hatred" Dan knew by saying this Nate would realise that he knew but he had to help Blair.

"I told her to tell you Nate but she wouldn't. And she was going to kick me out if I said anything" Dan rolled his eyes as Serena pouted at Nate trying to look like the innocent one.

"This is pathetic" Blair stood up "I'm leaving. Come on Nate." He didn't move. "Well I'm going". Blair headed for the lift with Chuck following.

"Leave me alone Chuck"

"I'm sorry I had to do it"

"And why's that?" Blair rushed out as the lift doors opened and headed for fresh air.

"I love you Blair" he tried to reach out for her but she pushed him backwards.

"No Chuck. I want to know why you and Serena won't leave us alone. If you loved me you'd let me be happy with Nate"

"You'll never be happy with Nate" Chuck managed to get hold of her and pulled her close "I love you and I know you love me too. Just say it"

"This whole thing" Blair managed to get out of his grip "this situation is just too complicated." Nate watched as Blair rushed off after Chuck's words hating himself for being the reason behind her unhappiness. If he stopped being selfish and let her go then she could be with Chuck and wouldn't have to lie anymore.


"I knew I'd find you here" Nate sat down on the steps that they'd spent so many of their high school years on. He gently wiped Blair's tears away. "I'm sorry today was a disaster. I know you wanted to impress your mum"

"Why are you sorry? You didn't do anything wrong" they sat in silence for a couple of minutes not sure how they should really be feeling. "You can't be angry at me for kissing Chuck. We're not really together"

"That doesn't stop you from being jealous of Serena" Nate pointed out.

"I'm just worried she'll realise we're fake. I want to do better than her for once" Blair looked at Nate "are you angry that I kissed him?"

"No" Nate lied "I'm upset that you didn't tell me. Dan and Serena both knew. You've always spoke to me about everything"

"It wasn't a big deal. It didn't mean anything"

"It's Chuck. It's always a big deal" and it always means something. Nate wrapped an arm around Blair as she shivered.

"I'm sorry"

"I know"

"So we're still ok?"

"If you forgive me for last night I'll forgive you"

"I forgave you as soon as I saw you today" Blair leant her head on his shoulders "thanks for all the voicemail messages by the way. I told you not to bother trying"

"I know you. You would have been angry if I hadn't" Blair laughed gently, he knew her too well.

"I've never been able to stay angry with you for long"

"Good" Nate kissed the top of her head lightly "I hate it when we're not friends"

"Can we go home now? And pretend this week never happened?"

"Sounds like the perfect plan" Nate pulled her up "shall I ring Henry?"

"No lets walk" Blair held her hand out for Nate to take.

"I told Serena that she's not welcome in our house tonight and that she come tomorrow to pack her bags" Nate smiled as Blair opened her mouth wide.

"You did what?"

"You're right. She's coming between us and I'm fed up of it. Like I said I'll always choose you" Blair squealed and hugged him.

"I love you Nate" Blair blushed "as a friend and fake husband of course". Nate took her hand again and continued walking thinking over why part of him was disappointed at being labelled as a friend again and was jealous of Chuck.