I had been starring at my reflection in the mirror for the past 34 minutes. The blue rings under my eyes betrayed I hadn't been sleeping. Luckily, it didn't betray why. It didn't betray I had only been thinking about Bella and her smile, eyes, red cheeks, kindness and her voice.
I looked at my clothes on my bed. A blue jeans with a white shirt or a grey t-shirt from The Beatles, my favorite one. What was I going to wear to impress on Bella? I wore the grey t-shirt and looked at myself in the mirror again. It was ok, I guess. Yeah, she was going to like this one, she liked The Beatles. I was so stressed for this date, I looked like a total fool. I shouldn't been stressing for a stupid date! No, it wasn't a stupid date. It was far from being a stupid date! I looked at the clock. Shit, was it this late already? I hadn't prepared anything for Bella! I had been planning to do something special for her.
"Knock knock," I heard her say when she walked into the room. The special thing was going to be for a next time. Shit. She smiled brightly at me while stepping inside. I couldn't help but smile back. She was so beautiful in her jeans and blue sweater that was 2 sizes too big for her. Under her trousers she was wearing a pair of blue Converse. She was so beautiful, so Bella.
"I didn't know what we were going to do tonight, so I brought some chips." She said while showing me a handful of bags. "And since I didn't know what kind of taste you liked, I brought my favorites."
"Great! And I have some other snacks!" I took the snacks out of my closet and sat on my bed. Bella was still standing in the doorway. I pat on the bed to make her understand she had to come sit next to me. She came next to me, touching her legs against mine, which made me feel a warm glow inside of my entire body. Be a man, Edward!
"Let's see, we have salt and pepper, my all time favorite. But we also have pickles, barbecue and paprika. Choose." I looked at the bags.
"Salt and pepper!" I said without hesitation. How is it possible to find someone that likes everything you like? Or can she just read my mind?
"God, where were you a year ago?" She said as she was smiling. But deeply in her eyes, I saw she was serious. I took the snacks and put them on my lap.
"What do you want to eat? I have delicious popcorn, just like yesterday. Or I have sweet chocolates or nice M&M's, my addiction."
"I thought you couldn't eat all those things?" She said, surprised.
"Yeah, well, since I'm in the hospital, I think I could sin for once. And we are surrendered by doctors. I won't die any time soon." I opened the chocolate box and hold one in my hand for her. "Want one?" She grabbed it out of my hand and smirked at me. She looked at the chocolate and hesitated for a moment before putting it in her mouth and chewing on it. Her eyes fell wide open.
"Oh God, they really are good!" She said and smiled. She looked inside of the paper. "Generosity is one of the most fundamental qualities of living together." She read the quote from her chocolate. "What does yours say?"
"There is nothing greater than the love of food." I smiled and looked at her. Her eyes turned teary and her face turned sad. "Oh shit, I'm so sorry Bella! I totally forgot!" I was so stupid!
"No, it's ok." She said, not very convincing. She tried to smile but failed at looking cheerful.
"I really am sorry." I put my hand on her leg. We both looked at it laying there, before I pulled it away. What was I fucking doing?
"It really is ok, Edward." She said, like I didn't put my hand on her leg a second before. "I haven't thrown up my food anymore since a week." She said. She proudly smiled, making her cheeks look red.
"I want to talk with you. About you. I want to know more of you."
"Ok, shoot your questions." I answered. "Or let's play truth or dare! Girls like to play truth or dare, don't they?"
"How do you know girls like to play truth or dare?" She winked at me. She looked incredibly cute while doing that.
"I have an amazing sister that made me play truth or dare almost every day, just to tell about her life. She likes to talk about herself. So, Bella, truth or dare?"
"Truth." She said enthusiastically. Should I ask her what I was dying to know? Yes, I should.
"Boyfriend's name." I asked. I couldn't believe I really asked that out loud. But I had been wondering who that guy from the other day, in the garden, was.
"I…" She said, hesitating, "I don't have a boyfriend. I actually never had one." It felt like my heart skipped a beat. Did she really just tell me she's single? Oh my God!
"Why not? I mean, you're very attractive." I said in an attempt to flirt with her. I really sucked at that shit! But it looked like it worked! No, it looked like she was confused. She didn't dare to look at me but her face turned all red. I had been putting us in an awkward situation. "Sorry, I didn't mean to say this."
"Like I said before, I was fat. No boy wants a fat girl. And I guess I had this depressed look on my face that made the boys run away." She answered honestly, like this question never had been awkward.
"What was your girlfriend's name?"
"You mean, the girl that ditched me because I was sick?" She nodded her head, "Kate..." I answered. My voice sounded like I was disgusted by her. I kinda was, though.
"You had other girlfriends before her?"
"I had some flirts. But Kate was the first girl I ever dated. And I ever loved." But not the last one, was my thought at that moment. "Now it's your turn!" I said. She thought about a question; she put her finger under her chin and tapped on it.
"Your biggest secret." She said.
"If I told you, it won't be a secret anymore." I said to her. She pouted at me, which made me break and confess the secret I tried to hold. "Definitely my tattoo."
"You have a tattoo?" She asked me. I could hear the excitement but shock in her voice. Who would expect that I, Edward Cullen, have a tattoo. Especially THAT tattoo. "Show me!" She said while crawling back towards me. She firstly took my arms and looked at them to look if she could find the tattoo. She couldn't find it there. She grabbed my shirt and tried to pull it off.
"You won't find it." I said to her.
"Then show me!" She said, letting my shirt go and sitting on her knees. I sighted and hesitated if it was a good idea to show it to her. Oh God, this was going to be awkward! Even more than the question I asked her before.
"You're sure you want to see it? It's not on a very common place, you know."
"As long as it isn't on your dick, it's ok to me." I smiled a bit stressful, making her think she was right. I took off the button of my jeans. "Ooookay Edward, I don't want to see it!" She put her hand in front of her eyes.
"No, it's not on my… not on that private part!" I said. I took of my boxershort and showed her my tattoo.
"YOU HAVE A TATTOO ON YOUR BUTT?" She asked without really expecting an answer. I felt the blood drain into my head, I was sure I looked as red as a tomato. Or maybe even more red. I put my trouser back on as I heard Bella shatter. The sound of her loud laugh was beautiful and made me forget what I just confessed to her. "Ok, you'll have to tell me how it comes you have a bear tattooed on your butt!" She said when she stopped laughing. She had tears in her eyes, though.
"You're sure?" I asked before starting my story. "We were at a party 4 years ago. I was getting drunk with my friends. I think it was at Jessica Stanley's birthday party or something. I actually don't remember a lot, you probably understand how drunk I was back then. All I know is that I woke up the next morning with a grizzly tattooed on my butt." Bella started to shatter again, tears were streaming down her face again. "But I guess I'm lucky. My best friend, Tom, has a huge Winnie The Pooh tattooed on his chest." Bella was literally rolling on the floor. She couldn't restrain her laugh and coughed. I couldn't help it and started to laugh myself.
"What's your secret?" I asked her, while we both tried to stop laughing.
"I don't have any." She said, while blinking the tears away that were all over her face.
"You don't have any awkward secret you want to tell me?" I asked her.
"My favorite animal is a moose." We laughed again before ending in a long silence. It seemed to me that there were a lot of silences between us. Maybe it was because I liked to stare at her and her beauty. And maybe it was because Bella was thinking What a goof, I shouldn't be here with such a sad guy. She was looking down at her hands. She was playing with her nails.
"And so the bear falls in love with the moose." I shushed to her. I still don't understand why I said that at the time. She pulled up her head, looking into my eyes. Her brown eyes were shining, like little diamonds.
"What a stupid moose."
"What a sick bear."
I know in the original version, Edward says "what a sick, masochistic lion". But since I didn't know in what way Edward was being masochistic, I decided to take that away. If you liked the chapter, give me your review. And if you hated the chapter, give me your review too. I really need to know.
