Carlos just stood in his and Jen's room with crossed arms glancing at his best friend who was looking constantly to the ground, still sitting on his bed. None of them made a sound for minutes that felt like hours. Carlos knew that if he didn't say anything Logan sooner or later would speak up 'cause he hated this akward silence. His point was proven when Logan finally gathered all his courage to say what was on his mind. "I kept thinking today.. about everything.. what I've done and what this means now and.. honestly I still have no idea.. bu-" "Well that's just great! Tell me something I don't know.", Carlos interrupted him and rolled his eyes. "Would you let me finish first, Carlos?", Logan finally looked up to his friend grinning at his friend's impatience. "Sure..", Carlos sighed. Logan stood up and took a step closer to Carlos. "Those feelings you were talking about that night..", Logan paused. "I... I had them, too." All of the hopes Carlos had just broke into a billion pieces. "had..", he repeated sadly and looked down to the ground. Logan noticed how heartbroken Carlos was in that moment and took his hand. "I've had them forever. I just didn't know if you felt the same way.. and then.. when I thought you'd never feel the same way about me I gave the relationship with Camille another chance and moved on.." Carlos still looked down to the ground. He couldn't look into his best friend's beautiful brown eyes for the next words he had to say.. if he did he'd probably burst into tears and he didn't want to be weak one again. Logan always made him weak. "How could you ever think I would not feel that way about you, Logie. I've loved you forever. And that feeling will never go away." Logan opened his mouth but no words came out. How was supposed to reply to that? There was no logical way to deal with feelings. No statistics or polls would help here. The smart boy was pretty lost. But seeing Carlos heartbroken like that he finally found the right words to say. "Carlos, I...", Logan held his hand tighter. "I still.. have those feelings." Carlos eyes widened and he looked up to his friend. "I thought they were gone. I thought when I got married everything I ever felt for you would just disappear and I could have that perfect relationship with Camille. But I can't and I never will be able to have that.. when you told me that you loved me. Everything was back immediately. All this time I just tried to deny the fact that I still..", Logan paused another time and looked to the ground again. Carlos let go of Logan's hand and leaned in for hug. "You don't have to say it, Logie", he whispered in his ear. "I know.." Logan took a deep breath, pulled away from their hug softly and gave Carlos one of those crooked smiles he couldn't stand. They were just too perfect. Logan was just too perfect. "I love you.", Logan smiled even more while saying it. Carlos couldn't believe those words where actually coming out of his best friend's mouth. All this time when they were standing this close to each other Carlos tried to hold him back. All these years trying to fight that desire to just to lean forward to Logan and kiss him. After those beautiful 3 words, he couldn't fight it anymore. He didn't care about anything in that moment and just leaned forward to kiss his friend just like Logan kissed him the other night. It felt like the world stopped for a second when their lips touched again. Logan's lips matched perfect on his. Just for this moment he had everything he had ever wanted until reality crashed his mind and he immediately pulled away from the kiss. "I'm sorry.", Carlos cheeks turned lightly pink when he realized what he just had done. "Never apologize for kissing me, Carlos..", Logan rolled his eyes. "There's nothing to apologize for." He smiled which made Carlos grin back immediately. Though Logan's expression changed in the next moment and turned into a sad and depressed look again. He took a step backwards and let himself fall down on Carlos' bed. "I have to tell her.", he run his fingers through his hair when he faced the situation he was in again. Carlos eyes widened and he sat down next to him. "Logie, no. You can't do that! It was only a kiss.. or two.. but you can't just throw everything away because of that! She'll leave you! You love Camille!" Logan nodded. "Yeah.. Yeah, I do. But.. I love you, too.", Logan stated as if it was the most obvious thing ever. Those three words still left Carlos speechless. He had no idea how to response to them. He knew he should've stopped Logan. He should've said that all of this wasn't worth ruining his relationship with Camille. If he only knew what he could've stopped from happening with those few sentences already that night Carlos would've said them. But that night he was way too egoistic and let Logan go to Camille. He wanted him so badly. He didn't even think about the consequences. And those consequences should be even worse than Carlos could've imagined when he watched his friend making his way to destroy everything the smart boy had ever wished for...
