It turned out that my legs weren't really supposed to be functioning, just my legs lost circulation so I could move them, but walking would never be possible. (A/N: So I made this part up, I don't think that this has ever happened before. Let's pretend that it can shall we.) I was crying for a couple hours with Edward who was hugging me tightly to his chest. I couldn't ever walk, and I could move my legs only a few hours before this. "Bella, I think that you are beautiful." Edward whispered into my ear. I giggled for half of a second and went back to being depressed. "Listen Bella, I will like you no matter what your condition. I can't imagine me not liking you. Your blood, it sings to me, but then I look at your face and all the traces of blood lust disappear." Edward stated.
"Really, are you sure Edward, or are you just saying that?" I asked him while sniffling trying to hide my curiosity again.
"DAMN IT IZZY! HE MEANS IT!" Jasper yelled up the stairs only for me, Edward probably already knew that he was going to say that.
"Thanks Jasper." I said this at a normal level knowing that everyone in the house.
"Bella, I heard that Jessica wanted you to go along with them to Port Angela's to go dress shopping. You going?" Edward asked me.
"I…I don't even know her. Why does she want to hang out with the cripple all of a sudden?" I laughed a little; I really liked picking on myself although it was wrong.
"You hang out with the mysterious Cullen's, Hale's and the one Swan. Everyone is suspicious." He laughed, "But Bella, I won't let you go alone if you do go."
"I don't think that I will, I mean if they want me just to get to you all, then why don't they just go straight to one of you guys?" I asked with no hint of joking.
"I guess that they are afraid of us. Intimidated if you will, and they just can't believe that you got to hang out with us so quickly." I had a question in mind when the door to my room opened.
"Edward man, you may want to leave, Charlie is going to be home in two minutes and he is coming straight up to Izzy, he does love her more than she will ever know." Emmy said. "Izzy you're up, good, and the crying has stopped, even better. Listen, Dad is really concerned about you, but just play it off like you normally do." He chuckled at me and ran to down the stairs.
"Well I guess I will see you Monday at school." He paused; great I forgot that today was Friday. "You know what; do you want to hang out with me tomorrow?" He asked and I could tell he was secretly hoping for a yes, but wouldn't show that.
"Of course Edward, what time are you-" I got cut off by Edward.
"Around 6AM or so, now I have to go. Until tomorrow." And with that he was off out of my window, conveniently on the first floor, so he didn't have to jump down a story or anything.
I heard a crash and heavy breathing outside of the door. "CHARLIE! GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF! YOU CAN'T SEE IZZY UNTIL YOU CALM DOWN! I WON'T LET YOU." Emmy yelled at Charlie who apparently was upset about something.
"WELL EMMETT SHE DESERVES SOMEONE WHO CARES ABOUT HER AND I KNOW THAT EDWARD WILL BREAK HER HEART IN THE END! YOU HEARD HER YESTERDAY, AND EVERYONE ELSE DID TOO! YOU CAN'T LET ME NOT SEE MY LOVING DAUGHTER. SHE'S ALL I HAVE LEFT OF RENÉE!" Charlie screamed back to Emmett, and then I thought the worst thought ever. "He's just using me to remind him of Renée. That's it. I don't mean anything else to him." And this thought didn't want to leave my head. I rolled over to where I had secretly hidden my song book and started writing furiously and sadly. (Okay so technically I wrote this, but it is like her situation with emotions)
Happiness is all around me.
Smiles, bright and teethy.
Tell me that you are happy in this big ole world.
And I see the world as happy,
Never sad and lonely,
Why can't anyone see this?
Where are these feelings?
Why do I feel this way?
The sky may be blue,
But why is there no color through my eyes?
Life was happy,
Sunshine and lullabies,
But then a cloud came along.
Where did it go?
The world went black as my parents drifted.
What happened?
How can it be that they were once happy with each other?
Don't you worry they'll be fine,
But I will never be whole again.
Where are these feelings?
Why do I feel this way?
The sky may be blue,
But why is there no color through my eyes?
Life was happy,
Sunshine and lullabies,
But then a cloud came along.
Where did it go?
I went away,
Far away from the evil.
I can't have any regrets,
For I have done nothing wrong.
Running was the best,
Never felt so alive.
Please don't take that away.
Where are these feelings?
Why do I feel this way?
The sky may be blue,
But why is there no color through my eyes?
Life was happy,
Sunshine and lullabies,
But then a cloud came along.
Where did it go?
Is being happy the cause of these horrible events?
My mother always told me no,
But I believe otherwise from this moment on.
Take things to heart,
And never let things run wild.
The only way that this is going to work,
Is me being happy.
Never have I felt so happy then when I'm with him.
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I put the song book back down in the secret hole and realized that the yelling had stopped, and it was like silence outside the door. "Emmy, Charlie, are you there?" I asked in a normal sounding voice. When no one responded I got upset really fast. "Why does this always happen to me?" I muttered and opened my door to find blood in front of it.
"EMMY?!" I was starting to get frantic and didn't want to leave my room. I rolled back into my room to the computer where I could contact someone, anyone. Edward's name popped up on the screen and I breathed out a sigh of relief. I open a conversation window and start a conversation.
BellaBaby152: Hey.
Edwardluvsyou: Hey.
Edwardluvsyou: What's wrong?
BellaBaby152: I don't know where Emmett is and Charlie isn't here, that I know of, but there is blood in front of my bedroom door, so I'm not going to even try to leave my room.
Edwardluvsyou: Are you sure that they aren't there?
BellaBaby152: Well I was listening in on what they were yelling about and then I decided to block them out as I was writing a song **blushes**. Next thing I know, I'm worried sick about where they are.
Edwardluvsyou: Bella, I'll have Alice look into it. Brb.
BellaBaby152: Okay
I waited for a few minutes until I finally sighed and was about to move when a message came up on my screen.
Edwardluvsyou: Don't move Bella. I don't want you to move from your desk until I get there alright?
BellaBaby152: What's wrong Edward?
Edwardluvsyou: I'll explain when I get there Bella. I miss you.
BellaBaby152: I miss you 2
Edwardluvsyou: I'll be there in less than 5 minutes. Don't move.
Edwardluvsyou has signed off
So I sat still just like Edward told me to, I had trust in Edward. Soon there was a tap on the window, but I didn't move. Honestly I was scared out of my mind. I heard my window being moved up and then a low thump on my floor. "Shh Bella, it's me." Edward was trying to calm me down, but why? He wiped away the tears that I didn't know were running down my face.
"Are you okay Bella?" He asked very concerned about my health, or emotional state.
"What's…going on?" I asked.
"I need to take you to my house alright? No one will bite alright?" He was trying to make me laugh, but I was scared. No one could cheer me up other than Emmy, and he was MIA.
"Edward, I'm scared." I said with my voice shaking with fear.
"Don't worry Bella, will you please come to my house?" he pleaded with me like we were running out of time, but right now I couldn't over analyze things as my own strength on holding with reality was fading.
"Bella?" I heard him say, but I was gone into unconsciousness.
