Healing Confinement Chapter 7
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Warning: In case you missed it in the summary and the other chapters this deals with self injury and might be triggering. If you are easily triggered you might want to click that "x" at the top right corner of the screen. You have been warned so read at your own risk.
Author's Note: Yes I'm still working on this story and I know it's slowly coming along. So I'd like to thank the readers that have stuck with me this long. I apologize once again for the slow upload. I don't have a lot of time to sit and write much since, if you have read in the previous chapters, life is very busy for me now but I do write every chance I get. On top of being busy being a mommy I've also have been working on some of my original stories which you can find on my fictionpress account which the link to that is in my profile. I do plan on finishing this story since I enjoy working on it and I'm excited as you guys are to find out how it ends so please bear with me.
A few weeks had went by since I ran into Minako in the hallway and she had started coming to group once more. She never spoke a word in there but I can't say I blame her because neither did I. I barely even spoke to Dr. Gail in our private therapy sessions which I happened to be in one right now. The only people I really wanted to speak to was Tai and my brother. I wanted to reassure them that everything would be fine and to apologize for hurting them but it'd mean nothing if I'd hurt myself again.
"Visitation day is tomorrow, do you have anyone coming to visit?" Dr. Gail asked. Visitation day? I heard everyone talking about it for the last few days but never really thought anything of it till now.
"I don't know." I told Dr. Gail before I could bite my tongue. I hadn't talked to anyone from the outside world since the phone call with T.K. I knew after that phone call he wouldn't come and I don't think he'd be able to hold himself together after actually seeing me here with his own eyes. I don't think I'd be able to hold it together either. I wasn't sure about my parents but I was sure none of my friends would come... that is if I had any left anymore. I was sure by now everyone heard that I was in the nut house and they would want nothing more to do with me. And as for Tai showing up, that was hoping for the impossible.
"I guess we'll just have to wait and see but I'm sure someone will come." She tried to look cheerful.
"Maybe." I answered and then we fell into silence until it was time to leave. The rest of the day was uneventful until dinner. I sat with Aya, Hikaru, and Kyuo like I usually did.
"So you're pretty good when it comes to fashion sense right?" Aya blurted out at me.
"What? uh... not really why?" She had taken me off guard.
"Well because you're gay and aren't gay guys good at that and decorating and stuff?" Hikaru gave her a dirty look but didn't say anything.
"Well I guess that's just a stereotype last time I checked not all of us are like that. Take Tai for example he's horrible when it comes to decorating and matching clothes together and he's really into sports. No one even had a clue that he was gay until he came out." I told her remembering the time Tai asked me for help when he was picking out a suit for the homecoming dance. He picked out a Tie and shirt that even the most straight guy could tell clashed.
"You must really love him, every time you talk about him you just light up and get this silly grin on your face." Aya said causing me to blush. "Is he coming tomorrow?"
"Probably not. And I wouldn't blame him if he didn't." I said with the reality of never seeing him again sinking me into a deeper bout of depression.
"What do you mean? I'm sure he's missing you just as much as you're missing him!" Aya stood up and shouted at me causing people around us to stare.
"After everything that had happen... I still haven't heard from him since he found me that day." I felt like I was on the verge of tears.
"Yama... I'm sorry I didn't mean to bring up painful memories. Sometimes I don't think before I speak. But I'm sure things will work out maybe he just needs time to work everything out about what happened just like you do." Aya said seeming like a whole different person and taking her seat again. Hikaru and Kyou looked at me with sympathetic eyes and nodded in agreement. I tried to give her a smile to try to make her believe that her words made me feel better but after not smiling for such a long time it felt weird. "You'll see Yama trust me." She said with a big smile. I don't know how she could always be so up beat and optimistic all the time just being in the same room with her wore me out.
We finished the last bit of our dinner and made our way to our own rooms to turn in for the night. I once again couldn't sleep and spent the night staring at the ceiling. Maybe I should talk to the doctors about getting something to help me sleep. I'm not sure how many more nights of hardly any sleep that my body can take and I know it isn't helping my appearance any, which made me grateful that there were no mirrors in this place.
