I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT!
Chapter 6
(Rose)
"I started running with the wrong crowd last year and was raped. The guy beat me and raped me, then left me outside of my house and took off. I crawled upstairs and ran into Emmett. I had to tell him what had happened. The look on his face...I thought he was going to kill me or the guy. I prayed it would be me," I told her fighting tears.
"Why are you telling me all of this?" She asked.
"I pushed Emmett away, but at nights when I would have nightmares, Emmett was the one who hold me. No matter how hard I pushed him away, he was there. Bella, I know how real those dreams are," I said.
"How did you get passed them?" She asked as a tear slid down her face.
"Emmett would sneak into my room and hold me every night."
"You had Emmett, I have no one," She said.
"Bella, you have all of us. You can wake any one of us up if you need to and we will help you."
"Thanks Rose," She said softly.
"I think mom and dad are having a date night tonight. We are all going to be here eating pizza and hanging out. Why don't you join us? I know you aren't real comfortable, but you can sit with me and I won't let the guys even look at you," I said.
"Ok." She said. "I guess I can do that." She seemed unsure, I knew I had to do my damnest to prove she was safe or this wouldn't work. It was probably going to be my only chance.
(Bella)
I sat on the bed after Rose left. Was it really possible that she wanted to be my friend? I wasn't sure how to act with people my age group, if we weren't partying with alcohol and sex.
I went downstairs, Esme was straightening up the kitchen. The woman was always cleaning or moving something around. "Anything I can help with?" I asked.
She jumped. "Oh Bella, you scared me," She laughed. I didn't know it was possible for someone to be as happy as she was all the time. "If you want you can organize the pantry."
"Sure thing," I walked over to the pantry. It was a mess. "Damn." I muttered.
"Language Bella. I know, Emmett doesn't know how to put anything away."
I quietly got to work putting all the breakfast items on one self and baking goods on another. It was a slow process.
"Why did you adopt? Are any of them your biological children?"
She shook her head and smiled. "No. We got married when I was twenty. We wanted a big family, but as Carlisle began working in the hospital, he saw tons of kids that needed strong families. So we decided to look into adopting."
"Do you ever regret not having your own kids?" I asked.
"No, never. We love all of you so much. To us, we don't look at you as adopted, or as in your case foster kids. I might as well have given birth to you," She explained.
"Wow, most foster parents do it for the money."
"I know that, but we don't care. We don't do it for the money, we don't need it. We told Victoria not to pay us, however she does. So we put that money away in savings for you. If you stay here until you graduate, we will give it to you then, if you can't handle it here, then we will give it to you when you move on," Esme explained.
"Are you for real?" I asked. I didn't know people this nice truly existed.
"Bella, we have a heart for children."
"Even the bad ones like me," I sighed.
"Oh Bella," She said with sad eyes. "Come here." I walked towards her slowly, but stopped before I got to close. "Bella, the man that raped you didn't just hurt you physically, he hurt you mentally too. He had no right to do those things to you, but he did. It doesn't make you a bad person."
"You don't know. There are things that aren't in the files," I said.
"Bella, I know that. I'm not blind, but I do know that you were bounced from place to place and no one cared about you," She said sadly.
"No one has ever said these things to me before," I whispered. I was fighting tears and she knew it. She hesitated, but reached out to hug me. I tensed a bit.
"Bella, it's ok. You are safe now and we love you. We wont allow those things to happen to you and we will fight for you," She said soothingly. I relaxed. For the first time ever, or that I can remember, I cried into a 'mother's' arms. Jake was the only one to really see this side of me and he didn't see it much.
"It's going to be ok sweetheart. You aren't alone in any of this."
"I feel like it sometimes," I whispered.
"I know you feel alone," Esme whispered. "I also know that its too soon for you to trust me or any of us, but take it one day at a time. We wont give up on you, if you don't give up on us."
(Esme)
It was the first time that Bella had allowed me to hug her. I knew we still had a long ways to go, but I was thankful for this first step. We got back to work after a little while and continued cleaning and organizing.
I looked over to see my husband standing there in the entry way. "Hey. How was your shift?" I asked.
"Long, very long," He responded. A glass jar dropped to the floor and shattered. I looked over to see Bella had dropped the container we kept the spaghetti in. There was glass and spaghetti every where. Bella was standing against the door trembling.
"I...I...I'm sorry," She said shaking.
I walked over to her avoiding the glass. "Bella, it's ok," I said putting my arm around her. She started to calm down.
"Bella, are you ok? I'm sorry I scared you, but why don't you step over here and I will clean that up," Carlisle said.
"Are you sure?" She asked quietly.
"Of course Bella, I don't want you to get cut."
I helped her walk away from the glass. "I'm sorry," She whispered again.
"Bella, do you know how many things get broken? Usually, it's Emmett that breaks stuff." Carlisle said laughing.
"Um Esme, I got it done," She whispered.
"Thank you Bella, it looks really nice." I said hugging her.
She left the kitchen. "Is that really Bella?" Carlisle asked coming over to me.
"That was really her. She allowed me to actually hug her this morning and we cried together."
"Oh Esme, I'm so glad." He said.
"Do I get my wife to myself tonight?" He asked running his hands up underneath my shirt.
"Mm," I moaned into his mouth as I placed my hands on his waist pulling him closer to me. "You my sweet husband, need some rest, or you will be asleep by 9pm."
"Rest is exactly what I need," He said lifting me up bridal style and whisking me off to our bedroom.
We laid together in our bed, kissing and touching. We loved being intimate, it was our best form of fore play. We never said much, we just laid tangled in each others arms and legs kissing, moving slowly.
We emerged from our room around 1pm. Rose and Bella were watching talk shows in the living room. Rose glanced up at us and gave us the knowing look. Probably the same look we gave her, when her and Emmett stroll into the house with wrinkled clothes. "Alright girls. Please be good. Mom and I are leaving now. Call only in an emergency, make it life or death emergency. You know the rules, please don't break them. Oh and don't wait up. We might not be home until morning." Carlisle told them.
"Have a great time, be 'safe', and trust me, we won't call." Rose said. I had never seen a blush as deep as Bella's. I couldn't help but laugh.
(Rose)
Bella looked at me after they left. "Are they always like that?"
"Oh yeah. We have all walked in on them at least once. Although, I think Emmett managed to twice. Basically, if their door is shut, no matter what time of day it is, means something is going on. Don't bother to knock, all you hear is them panting and them acting like they weren't going at it."
"Ewe!" She groaned.
Bella got a little uncomfortable when everyone got home, although, she tried to hide it as well as she could, I saw it in her eyes. She was ready to run. I was hoping the night would go well, but if it didn't and she had nightmares, I would call mom and dad, then hold her until she was calmed down. I wasn't worried about them being gone.
"Lets do make overs," Alice squealed.
"Um Alice, this is Bella's first night here with us without mom and dad. Lets not scare her too much."
"How bad could it be?" Bella asked.
"Have you seen her room?" Edward asked.
She shook her head. "No. Why?" She asked stepping closer to me, not looking at Edward.
"Come on Bella, lets go." Alice giggled.
"You lead the way Jasper," Emmett said. I put my arm through Bella's and we walked up the stairs. Bella seemed the most relaxed I had seen her yet. Alice jumped on Jasper's back kissing him as he opened the door.
"What the hell Alice, did someone drink Pepto-Bismal by the gallons and puke pink everywhere?" Bella asked. Alice rolled her eyes and giggled. "That's a no on the make over." Bella told her.
"I won't give up," Alice said jumping up and down on Jasper's back.
"What is the matter with her?" Bella asked me.
"I'm not sure," I grinned.
We got tired of Emmett's whining about being hungry by 6pm and ordered pizzas, while Alice and Jasper went to get the movies. They invited Bella to go with them, but she said no.
Bella stayed as far away from Emmett as she possibly could, which was a bit awkward trying to keep him off of me, but he seemed to understand right away what the problem was. He kissed me and went up to the game room, leaving Bella and I alone.
"They don't care you all fuck?" She asked.
"We aren't supposed to do it under their roof, but they know we are together. They didn't like it at first, but couldn't stop us, so they put Alice and I on birth control and talked to the guys. I'm not sure how long Alice and Jasper have being doing it, but it's been less than a year for me and Emmett," I explained.
(Bella)
It was sort of nice to let loose a bit. "Rose, do you have a cigarette?" I asked.
"Oh yeah, I'll be right back." She said skipping off. Within what seemed like seconds, she was back. "Here." She said handing me one.
I went outside and lit it. "Mind if I join you?" Edward asked.
I slid over as far as I could to get away from him, "Knock yourself out."
He sat down, but kept a distance, "Are you ready for school Monday?"
"I'm from Seattle, how bad could it be?" I asked.
"I guess you're right," He sighed.
We sat there silently, while I finished. "Is Alice always that happy?" I asked him.
"Pretty much. Jasper said she isn't even a calm sleeper some nights." He chuckled.
Once we finished eating, the guys moved the coffee table out of the way, while we all went and got pillows and blankets. "We usually sleep downstairs in the living room," Rose explained.
I started to panic. There was no way I could sleep in the same room with everyone. Especially the guys, I didn't care how nice they seemed, they were still guys. "I, um, I talk in my sleep and have nightmares." I said.
"Don't worry about it Bella, we won't let anything happen to you," Alice said.
"Bella, you can sleep next to me," Rose said smiling softly. I was so convinced in the beginning that she was such a bitch, that it was hard to believe how sweet she really was.
"Which one are we going to watch first?" Alice asked once we were all settled.
"Lets watch 'Paranormal Activity' first," Emmett grinned putting it into the DVD player and turning off all of the lights. It wasn't halfway into the movie, when I noticed Alice was already sitting on Jasper's lap shaking. I rolled my eyes at her, every time she jumped.
Emmett too looked scared. Rose would randomly poke him and say boo, each time he would jump like a girl. It was pretty funny.
When the movie was over, Rose stretched and stood up. "Smoke break," She said looking at me. I got up and followed her. "Are you having fun?" She asked.
"I actually am," I said. "I just don't know what sleeping will be like."
"I'm glad, you really relaxed, even with Emmett, Jasper, and Edward," She said. "Oh and when it comes to nightmares tonight, I'll be right next to you. Don't worry about waking anyone else up, they all heard me when I had nightmares."
"They seem nice." I said.
"They are, they have always been like big protective brothers. You really are safe with them, if anyone tried to hurt you, they would kill them first."
(Edward)
Rose and Bella had come back in and Emmett started the second DVD. We had all been sitting around drinking pop and eating popcorn. Bella sat on the opposite side of the couch from me and began you yawn. Without thinking, I threw the blanket over to her. She jumped. "Sorry, didn't mean to scare you." I laughed.
"It's ok," She said softly.
She reached into her pocket and flipped her cell phone open. "Hello," She whispered. "Oh nothing, just watching some movies." She said getting up and going into the kitchen. Alice glanced at me and we both shrugged.
Bella was back minutes later, looking sad all over. She climbed back on the couch and pulled the blankets up around her tightly. I noticed tears slipping down her cheeks.
(Bella)
I was shocked to see James' name pop up on my cell phone. "Hello," I answered.
"What are you doing bitch?"
"Just wanting some movies," I said taking the phone into the kitchen.
"So you been to busy with your new family to talk to me?"
"No, but you could have also called me," I told him.
"Listen here you stupid bitch, you are my whore and you will not tell me to call you. You know better than that!"
"Sorry," I said.
"I know you are and you should be. When are you coming back to fuck me? I need some good ass! These bitches here don't do anything for me."
"I don't know when I can get back there," I told him.
"I will tell you one thing, you better come to me, you don't want me coming for you. You got that bitch. You are mine! I better not catch you with any guys!" He laughed this evil laugh and hung up.
I stood there in the living room looking around. I was torn, I didn't know how to live without James, it had been too long. I knew they wouldn't take me to see him and deep down I was scared of him. How could I ever learn to be like them, when my past kept following me?
I covered up on the couch and couldn't fight the tears, this had been a fun night and I didn't want to ruin it. I was getting tired, but fighting sleep, I knew I would have nightmares tonight and didn't want to have them in front of everyone. I felt torn.
"Rose, can I have another cigarette?" I asked.
"Sure, you ok?" She asked.
I nodded, not trusting my voice. "They are in my middle drawer under my bed. Don't look in the shoebox." Rose said.
"What's in the shoe box?" Edward asked.
"Um...some..." Rose was at a loss for words.
"Toys Edward." Emmett laughed.
"Dear God," Edward gasped.
I walked upstairs and grabbed a few cigarettes, I would pay her back later, then headed into my room to change into some comfortable clothes. I was shaking so bad, I could barely walk.
I sat down on the back porch, tears streamed down my face. No matter how hard I tried, I don't think it was meant for me to be happy. My past was going to continue to follow me for years to come. I took the cigarette and burned it into my ankle along with the other ones. It didn't even hurt, I don't think there was a part of me that could even feel physical pain anymore.
"You ok Bella?" Edward asked sitting down next to me.
"I just need to be alone. I don't feel like talking, playing, or even being nice, so please just leave."
He sat there silently for a few moments. "No, I can't leave you alone. Something happened and I'm worried about you."
"Edward, you don't need to worry, I can take care of myself," I whispered.
"Who called?" He asked.
"Why does it matter?"
"You seemed fine until after that call. I saw the change," He said.
"James, my boyfriend. He was just mad that I hadn't called him," I said in a shaky voice. I knew I couldn't tell him the truth.
"Boyfriends shouldn't make their girlfriends cry," He said softly.
"Please just go away." I begged tearfully.
"Bella," He whispered.
"Fine, all he wanted was for me to go there and fuck him. He doesn't give a damn about me except for when I give him a piece of ass."
He put his arm around me. For the first time, I didn't really jump. I felt comfortable with him. "You are so much more than that. You don't deserve him."
"Edward, in one way or another, I deserve everything I get," I whispered.
He pulled me to tightly. "I wouldn't hurt you."
"Everyone that says that will at some point hurt me," I replied.
"You wait and see," He said.
"I'm with James, Edward. I can't cheat on him."
"You could break up with him," He suggested.
"It's not that simple. You don't just break up with James."
"So what happened to your family?" He asked suddenly.
"Um well my dad is dead, and my mom and her husband are in prison. What about your family?" I asked.
"Well, I don't remember all the details, just what I've been told by mom and dad. My dad used to beat me. One night he took me to the hospital, dropped me off and never came back. Don't know what happened to them."
"That sucks," I said leaning into him closer. I felt and odd pull to him. "I feel safe with you." I whispered turning to where I could face him. Our eyes met, the house could have caught on fire, but I was to locked in his gaze to realize. He leaned in and kissed me softly on the lips. I jerked back, frozen in place. I wasn't sure what had just happened. I wasn't scared, I was shocked. I got up slowly and walked back into the house, not looking back at him.
"Bella, you ok?" Alice asked as I covered up on the couch. I just nodded and laid down.
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