Right now I'm sitting in the Lima Bean, drinking coffee and planning my date with Rachel. I'm starting to think that maybe this date isn't a good idea. I know that I told Rachel there was no pressure, but it doesn't seem like a good idea anymore. I want to be with Rachel more than anything, but just a few days ago she told me she was in love with Quinn. There is no way that she's over the blonde bitch yet. Plus, I know for a fact that Quinn has been trying to get Rachel back. She keeps telling Rach that telling her to pick between the two of us wasn't fair and she was sorry. I also know that the only reason that they're not back together yet, is because Rachel agreed to this date with me.
I'm pretty sure that Quinn knows about me taking Rachel out and she's not happy about it. I'm not too thrilled about it either. About Quinn knowing, not the date. Having a date with Rachel is like a dream come true. This is so hard! I don't want to be a rebound, but I also don't want to lose what could be the only chance I have to make the little diva mine. Is that selfish? I want Rachel so badly, that I'm not really taking her feelings about Quinn into consideration?
Ugh! What should I do? The date is tomorrow and I'm not even sure it's a good idea anymore. I could really use some advice right now, but who do I call? I obviously can't talk to Rachel about this and Britt is at motocross practice. Why don't I have more friends? I'm an awesome person. I might be a bitch sometimes, but I do it with humor. That's a good thing right?
"San," I look up to see Tori smiling at me. Why didn't I think of her before? She's been totally cool to hang out with, despite the little crush she has on me, she's like really cool about helping me get Rachel "Can I join you?"
"Yeah." I smile as she sits across from me "I'm actually glad you're here."
"Oh?" She smiles "Why is that?"
"I need some friendly advice. I figured since we're kind of friends now, you could possibly help me out?" I just sounded kind of lame, but I don't care. I'm in need of a friend right now and Tori is cool
"We're kind of friends?" She gasps, placing her hand on her chest "I'm hurt." The two of us just laugh as I shake my head. I'm pretty good at picking friends, aren't I? "What can I help you with, San?"
"I'm really confused about this whole date with Rachel." I confess
"Why?" She asks, sipping her coffee "Shouldn't you be super excited?"
"I am." I sigh heavily "But, Rachel said so herself. She's in love with Quinn. There is no way that she's over her. Not when those very words came out of her mouth a few days ago." Tori nods, placing her fingers under her chin as if she's thinking
"I get where you're coming from. Nobody wants to be a rebound, but do you really want to back out on this date? You've waited so long, San. This could be your chance to prove to Rachel that you're better for her. You want that, don't you?" I nod. Tori knows that I want that. I want nothing more than to be the one to treat Rachel the way she deserves, but is it really the time for that?
"I feel so selfish. Do I really want her so bad that I'm not even considering that her feelings for Quinn are still there? It isn't fair to either of us."
"You told her that she didn't have to make a decision when the date is done, right?" I nod "Alright then. Take her on the date and show her a good time. Show her that she deserves nothing but the best and you're it for her." This chick is being really cool about this. Did she not admit on crushing on me like a couple weeks ago?
"I guess I did already plan out the whole date." I smile at the thought of the date actually happening "It would be a shame to let all that effort go to waste."
"Exactly." She says, pulling her phone out of her pocket. I raise my eyebrow as my friend blushes at the text she just read. Well that's interesting
"What's that all about?" I tease
"Nothing." She says, shoving her phone in her pocket. I give her a look as if to say 'Really?' "I'll tell you eventually. Right now though, we're talking about you." Tori sounds serious, so I just nod
"I'm a little hurt." I joke as I take a sip of my coffee "Didn't you just admit to having a crush on me? Am I really that easy to get over?" I smile when Tori laughs and shakes her head
"It was just a crush, San." She sips her coffee"They're not that hard to get over."
"I know." I sigh playfully "I just didn't know I was so easy to get over."
"You weren't, trust me." I can tell by Tori's smirk that she's teasing me "I spent hours crying, eating ice cream, and listening to sad music. It's a miracle I'm out of the house right now."
"Shut up!" I laugh as I shake my head. This girl is such a smartass! Between me, Britt and Rachel, she's going to fit right in
Tori and I spent the rest of our time together just hanging out, talking about all the possible things I could do for Rachel on our date. Since Rachel and I are going to Breadstix, I figured that part of the date is out of the way, but I want to do more. This is my chance to prove that she's it for me. I'm sure of it. There's no one else who makes me feel like Rachel does. How do I show her that though? Planning a date for Rachel and I shouldn't be this hard! We've been best friends forever! I know everything she loves and everything she hates. You would think that would make this easier, wouldn't you? Well, it doesn't.
I'm so thankful that Britt doesn't have motorcross practice today. Now I have her and Tori to help me out with tonight's date. After all, Brittany knows Rachel just as much as I do and Tori seemed pretty keen on helping out. Which is exactly why I'm currently in my room looking for something to wear. Brittany should be here any minute to help me out with that. She seems to think that I'm going to show up on my date in a suit. I made one joke about dressing like a 'gentleman' and now she thinks I'm hopeless. I guess it's cool though. I wasn't sure what I was going to wear anyway
"San?" I hear Britt shout from downstairs
"In my room, B!" I shout back as I toss yet another hideous outfit the floor. These are all wrong! None of these outfits seem to fit the look I'm going for. I want it to say 'Love me not Quinn', but that might be a little to much pressure to put on an outfit
"Why are all of your clothes on the floor?" Britt ask as she walks into my room and throws herself on my bed
"I think you were right." I mumble, throwing myself onto the bed next to my best friend "I am hopeless. I can't find a single thing to wear on this date."
"I didn't say you were hopeless." Britt giggles "I just said, you were completely insane for wanting to wear a suit."
"It was a joke!" I groan into my pillow. I don't know what I'm doing. If it was anyone else I'd cancel the date, but this is Rachel. I've waited too long for this opportunity. I just need a little help!
"Ok, you need to relax." Britt says, rubbing comforting circles on my back "What are you and Rachel doing tonight?"
"Breadstix at seven." I groan again. "That doesn't seem like enough! This is Rachel! The girl I that I love! I need to do more. What do I do though?"
"Does a movie get you the girl you love?" Brittany jokes, that's when I remember something. I grab my laptop and start typing like crazy "What are you doing?"
"There's this small theater outside Lima that's showing a tribute to, wait for it, Barbara Streisand." I shriek once I find a site to purchase the tickets "I saw an ad for the showings last weekend and it made me think of Rachel."
"That's perfect!" Britt smiles and claps. I think she's almost as excited as I am. Seriously. She once told me that Pezberry was her Otp. She spent an hour explaining to me what the hell 'Pezberry' and 'Otp' means. It was actually pretty cute, but that's just Britt
"Santana?" I smile when I hear Tori shouting from downstairs. I told her she could just walk in whenever she likes. I don't know if it's because I trusted her and like our growing friendship, or if it's because I'm lazy and don't like walking downstairs to open the door. Probably the first
"In my room!" Britt and I laugh when we hear her running up the stairs. Tori busts through the door and stops to look around the room
"Did your closet throw up in here?" I open my mouth to answer, but she stops before I can "It doesn't matter. I'm here to save the day." She smiles as she tosses a bag she was holding onto the bed "Open it!" I chuckle at her excitement as I open the bag
"Wow." I whisper as I pull out a small red dress. It's nothing too fancy, but it's not exactly casual either. It's not very long. I stand up and press it against my body and notice it stops at my knees "It's perfect. Where did you get this?"
"I made it." Britt and I both give her a look of disbelief. She made this dress? "I like to design dresses. Brittany told me that you were having trouble finding a dress that was appropriate for a first date. I thought I'd create something between dressy and casual."
"Why? I know I asked for help, but you didn't have to do this." Don't get me wrong the dress is perfect, but Tori didn't have to make me a dress! That's insane!
"You're my friend and you needed help." She puts it simply "Just wear it! Come on, you were going to wear a suit!"
"It was a joke!" I laugh as I run into my bathroom to put on my new dress
It's two hours later and I'm so ready for this date! Britt and Tori just spent the last hour doing my hair and make up. I'm not even going to deny it, I look good. This dress is amazing! This girl has to do something with her interest in fashion. I so need to introduce her to Kurt and Mercedes. I can't imagine what the three of them can create together.
"You look great, Santana!" Britt says while I stand in front of my mirror "Thanks, Britt." I smile, turning around and hugging my best friend "Thank you too, Tori." I say before hugging her as well. These two have been a huge help tonight
"No problem. It was actually a lot of fun." Tori says before we pull apart "Now stop being mushy! It's," she looks at her watch "6:30! Go get your girl!" I nod before make my way towards the door. I chuckle when I hear Britt tell Tori
"The dress really is better than a suit."
I'm standing outside the Berry household, freaking out. I've been here a million times and I've never been this nervous! I've actually never even used the doorbell, but that's what I just did. I rang the doorbell to a house I've just walked into a thousand times before. Leroy opens the door and gives me a confused look, probably wondering why I'm ringing the doorbell
"San, did you really make me get up from couch to open the door for you?" He groans as we walk into the house "You know I love you, but you have a key!"
"I know." I chuckle "I guess I'm just nervous. I don't know much about first date etiquette." I frown slightly when he gives me another look of confusion
"First date?" He asks "Is that why you're all dressed up?"
"Yeah. I asked Rachel out, didn't she tell you?" I feel a little hurt when Leroy shakes his head no. Why wouldn't she tell them? She wouldn't shut up for days when Quinn first asked her out
"She told us you guys were hanging out again, but she didn't say you guys were dating. She never even told is why you guys were fighting." Am I really stuck in this position? Do I really need to be the one to tell him what happened between Rachel and I? "Will you please explain it to me? Rachel's still in the shower, so I know you'll have time."
"Sure, Leroy." I sigh, walking towards the living room with him following me. I don't want to do this, but I feel like I have to. Leroy and Hiram are like my second parents and I refuse to lie to them. I never have before and I'm not starting now
"Speak." He says, throwing himself on the couch. I take a deep breath before I start to explain
"Well, it all started when I told Rachel I was in love with her." I wait for Leroy to gasp, or something to show his shock, but he doesn't. Instead he nods his head impatiently for me to continue "She told me she was sorry, but she was in love with Quinn-"
"Ouch."
"Thank you, Leroy." I say sarcastically
"Sorry." He apologizes, placing his hands on mine
"Anyway," I sigh "I got really upset after that. I didn't even want to see her, because it was too hard. What was I going to do? Pretend that it never happened? Pretend that I didn't confess my love for the most amazing girl I've ever met? I couldn't do that. So, I did my best to avoid her. We started talking again after her and Quinn started fighting, because according to Quinn, Rachel said my name while kissing her." Leroy gasps, placing his hand on his chest
"No."
"Yes." I chuckle at his response "So, I decided to kiss her. I mean, if she's thinking about me when kissing her girlfriend, then she has to have some sort of feelings for me, right?" He just nods "So, I kissed her. I just had to show her how much I loved her. After I kissed her, I sang to her in glee club."
"Awwww." I smile at Leroy. I knew he'd respond like that. The man's a romantic
"When the song was over, I told her I loved her then ran. I didn't want to hear her say, 'I'm sorry, Santana, but I'm in love with Quinn.' My heart couldn't take it," I take a deep breath and run my fingers through my hair. This is hard. I thought Rachel would of already told her fathers what was going on "but Rachel ran after me. We kissed again and I knew I couldn't wait. I asked her to go on a date with me."
"That's so romantic!" I laugh, shaking my head at Leroy. This guy's enthusiasm is contagious "Wait! I have one more question." Damn it! I thought we were done! "When and how did Quinn and Rachel break up?" I wasn't expecting that. That seems like something he would know. Maybe not why, considering all I just had to explain to him, but wouldn't he know when his daughter and her girlfriend broke up?
"Well, they broke up on Tuesday." By the look on Leroy's face I know exactly what he's thinking "I know they just broke up and it might be too soon for Rachel, but we made a deal. No pressure. She doesn't have to be with me right now. I just want to show her I can treat her the way she deserves. If she needs time, then I'll give her that. I've been waiting for her for so long, I can wait a little longer."
"Ok." He nods "I just don't want you getting hurt, Santana. You have to know that she was serious about Quinn. She use to stay up late and plan the Faberry wedding." I nod sadly before turning my head away from Leroy. I know she use to do that. I've seen the wedding book. She use to ask my opinion on her dress! "I'm not trying to hurt you, Sweetie. I just want you to know what you're getting yourself into."
"I do know what I'm getting myself into!" I shout, jumping off the couch. "I know she loves Quinn! I know she wanted the wedding, the kids, the growing old! She even once that she wants Quinn to carry their children, so they have her natural beauty! Cam you believe that? Out of those two, she says Quinn was the beautiful one! It made me sick!" My shouting is kind of scaring me. I've never shouted at either of the Berry dads before "I'm so sorry." I sob "Maybe this date was a bad idea."
"You're not going to cancel on me, are you?" Leroy and I turn around to see Rachel standing on top of the steps and that's all it took. One look of the most beautiful in the world and I forget everything. Her love for Quinn, the fights, her rejecting me, it was all gone. The only thing that mattered is that Rachel was right here, ready for me to take her on a date
"Of course not." I smile, taking her by the hand "We'll see you later, Leroy." I say before I drag Rachel towards the door. I smile when I hear her giggle at my excitement. Can you blame me? I've finally got a date a Rachel!
"Home by midnight!" I laugh at Leroy beofre I open the door. My smile quickly fell when I see someone standing on the other side
"Hello, Rachel." Fucking Quinn Fabray!
