When
the Lights Went Out -- A YNM fanfiction
by Thyphy
CH. 7 - Brightness
Hisoka's POV
After
that embrace that took us the beginning of the night, we had dinner
and went sleep.
He was so happy. Me either, but still, I don't
feel comfortable to tell him yet. And I might never tell him. I can't
say that. It's something he will have to figure out with time. And
that may apply to my answer to his feelings.
He told me to sleep on his bed and he would sleep on the couch. I didn't want him to, but he's so difficult that I had no choice but having his bed. He gave me more comfortable clothes to change into: A white silk shirt and blue shorts.
I can't sleep, no matter how good the sound of the rain may be. I can't close my eyes.
As I open the door to leave the room, a cold breeze hits my face. The door that leads to the balcony is open. And Tsuzuki is there... in the rain.
"Tsuzuki!
Get out of the rain!"
"Hisoka?"
"Now!"
He looks at me so surprised, that he stops his actions and just stares at me. Dumbfounded.
"What
is it?"
"You
look great in the blue shorts"
"Baka! And you're a mess
with your wet clothes!!"
When
he finally decides to enter the room, I can see him more clearly:
Black pajamas in a soft fabric all wet.
Tsuzuki, to tell the
truth, you look gorgeous.
"I'll
get you a towel"
"Thank
you"
When
I come back with the towel and another black and dry pajamas, he's on
that couch using only the pants of the pajamas. He looks at me and
smiles unsure if he should do so.
I think he should. I like seeing
his smile.
As
I approach him, I drop the pajamas on his hands and put the towel on
his head, rubbing it playfully to dry his hair.
Tsuzuki giggles.
As I never thought he could.
I don't know why, but suddenly I felt like embracing that baka.
"Hisoka"
"Hai,
Tsuzuki"
"Don't you think it's wrong?"
"It
what?"
"Ah,
the whole thing. I being in love with you... You know we are-"
"I
don't think it's wrong"
"Really... ?"
"Yes.
I don't mind."
I
never had love. I never loved.
I could have died without having
the chance to love or be loved. Why should I refuse your feelings and
ignore mine? It wouldn't make any sense.
"Thank you."
When I finish drying his hair, I close the balcony's door and light up the candles again. Tsuzuki just glances at me and leaves the room, going towards the toilet to change his clothes.
And then I sit on that couch again and just wait for him
The pajamas' shirt is next to my feet and soaks the carpet. I wonder why Tsuzuki was there in the rain. Did he want to catch a cold?
A
thunder echoes outside, making me look again at the balcony. There
are two white chairs and table as well as a big fern near the
fence.
I didn't know Tsuzuki had a fern.
"Hisoka?"
I
turn back my gaze to you and realize black suits you more than any
color.
And I blush because of the sight
"The rain outside was so great that I had to go there"
Ah, so that's the explanation.
As Tsuzuki talks, he sits next to me.
"I
thought you wanted to catch a cold, so that you wouldn't have to work
tomorrow"
"Haha. I didn't think about it"
"Yeah,
normally you don't think about things before you have 'em
done"
"Ahh... it was mean, Hisoka."
"It's
the truth"
As
you look at me, My random blushes start again
It's so odd. You're
acting as if everything was ok. Why did you tell me you loved me?
"Ne,
Tsuzuki..."
"Mm?"
"Aren't
you waiting an answer?"
"... It would be great if you
had an answer. But I just wanted to tell you. I couldn't keep it any
longer."
"... baka"
He
looks surprised at me and then I feel my heart going crazy and my
body starts to move itself. When I realize what I'm doing, I already
have my lips on his.
I kissed him
I feel his arms fighting to
embrace me, thus, I take some distance and look deep into the
amethyst pools... and just feel like drowning in them.
So I kiss
him again. And his arms finally seizes my waist
I
can feel the mixture of our emotions altogether and my sanity evades
my being, so that I can let the feelings drive me drunk.
While you
cast feather-like kisses on my lips, my hands work on your hair and
your strong arms place me on your lap.
"Tsuzuki...!"
"The
magical frog was kissed and then, an astonishingly beautiful prince
appeared"
This time you could see me blush from closer, and you smile because of it.
What can I say? What should I do?
"The
prince is so beautiful, that his beauty reaches the limits of the
green forest and makes everything shining"
"Tsuzuki...
It's so corny"
"Wait. It's not finished."
"Mnn..."
"And
in a dark land far away, that brightness reaches the most gloomy
creature, making it shine with happiness"
"You're not a
gloomy creature"
"Come on, it was just a...
fairytale."
"Ah, I thought you were serious."
"It
was an analogy"
"Let's go back to the real world"
"Real
world? What do you mean?"
"We DO have to wake up early
tomorrow. Despite the prince being a prince, and the gloomy creature
being the baka it is, they still have to work."
"It was
a cruel analogy"
"You'll have to get used to it."
"No
way. Now that I know that you can give me such soft and loving
kisses, I don't want to have to deal with your rude side
anymore."
"What!? Rude!? You idiot! Just let go of
me!"
"No. I want you to kiss me like that
again!"
"Baka!"
This is how our night finishes. Eventually -just like I said before- if we stay together for too long, we'll end up like that. But this time, we knew our true feelings, so our fight had a kissing in its end, so that we know we can just forget the stupid fights and don't waste our so precious time together.
Some things will continue being the same, because the wind will blow the leaves, keep the soot, and whisper this warm feeling called happiness.
Actually, it means 'Yes, Tsuzuki, you still have to deal with the cranky Hisoka.'
OWARI
