When the Lights Went Out -- A YNM fanfiction
by Thyphy

CH. 7 - Brightness

Hisoka's POV

After that embrace that took us the beginning of the night, we had dinner and went sleep.
He was so happy. Me either, but still, I don't feel comfortable to tell him yet. And I might never tell him. I can't say that. It's something he will have to figure out with time. And that may apply to my answer to his feelings.

He told me to sleep on his bed and he would sleep on the couch. I didn't want him to, but he's so difficult that I had no choice but having his bed. He gave me more comfortable clothes to change into: A white silk shirt and blue shorts.

I can't sleep, no matter how good the sound of the rain may be. I can't close my eyes.

As I open the door to leave the room, a cold breeze hits my face. The door that leads to the balcony is open. And Tsuzuki is there... in the rain.

"Tsuzuki! Get out of the rain!"
"Hisoka?"
"Now!"

He looks at me so surprised, that he stops his actions and just stares at me. Dumbfounded.

"What is it?"
"You look great in the blue shorts"
"Baka! And you're a mess with your wet clothes!!"

When he finally decides to enter the room, I can see him more clearly: Black pajamas in a soft fabric all wet.
Tsuzuki, to tell the truth, you look gorgeous.

"I'll get you a towel"
"Thank you"

When I come back with the towel and another black and dry pajamas, he's on that couch using only the pants of the pajamas. He looks at me and smiles unsure if he should do so.
I think he should. I like seeing his smile.

As I approach him, I drop the pajamas on his hands and put the towel on his head, rubbing it playfully to dry his hair.
Tsuzuki giggles. As I never thought he could.

I don't know why, but suddenly I felt like embracing that baka.

"Hisoka"
"Hai, Tsuzuki"
"Don't you think it's wrong?"
"It what?"
"Ah, the whole thing. I being in love with you... You know we are-"
"I don't think it's wrong"
"Really... ?"
"Yes. I don't mind."

I never had love. I never loved.
I could have died without having the chance to love or be loved. Why should I refuse your feelings and ignore mine? It wouldn't make any sense.

"Thank you."

When I finish drying his hair, I close the balcony's door and light up the candles again. Tsuzuki just glances at me and leaves the room, going towards the toilet to change his clothes.

And then I sit on that couch again and just wait for him

The pajamas' shirt is next to my feet and soaks the carpet. I wonder why Tsuzuki was there in the rain. Did he want to catch a cold?

A thunder echoes outside, making me look again at the balcony. There are two white chairs and table as well as a big fern near the fence.
I didn't know Tsuzuki had a fern.

"Hisoka?"

I turn back my gaze to you and realize black suits you more than any color.
And I blush because of the sight

"The rain outside was so great that I had to go there"

Ah, so that's the explanation.

As Tsuzuki talks, he sits next to me.

"I thought you wanted to catch a cold, so that you wouldn't have to work tomorrow"
"Haha. I didn't think about it"
"Yeah, normally you don't think about things before you have 'em done"
"Ahh... it was mean, Hisoka."
"It's the truth"

As you look at me, My random blushes start again
It's so odd. You're acting as if everything was ok. Why did you tell me you loved me?

"Ne, Tsuzuki..."
"Mm?"
"Aren't you waiting an answer?"
"... It would be great if you had an answer. But I just wanted to tell you. I couldn't keep it any longer."
"... baka"

He looks surprised at me and then I feel my heart going crazy and my body starts to move itself. When I realize what I'm doing, I already have my lips on his.
I kissed him
I feel his arms fighting to embrace me, thus, I take some distance and look deep into the amethyst pools... and just feel like drowning in them.
So I kiss him again. And his arms finally seizes my waist

I can feel the mixture of our emotions altogether and my sanity evades my being, so that I can let the feelings drive me drunk.
While you cast feather-like kisses on my lips, my hands work on your hair and your strong arms place me on your lap.

"Tsuzuki...!"
"The magical frog was kissed and then, an astonishingly beautiful prince appeared"

This time you could see me blush from closer, and you smile because of it.

What can I say? What should I do?

"The prince is so beautiful, that his beauty reaches the limits of the green forest and makes everything shining"
"Tsuzuki... It's so corny"
"Wait. It's not finished."
"Mnn..."
"And in a dark land far away, that brightness reaches the most gloomy creature, making it shine with happiness"
"You're not a gloomy creature"
"Come on, it was just a... fairytale."
"Ah, I thought you were serious."
"It was an analogy"
"Let's go back to the real world"
"Real world? What do you mean?"
"We DO have to wake up early tomorrow. Despite the prince being a prince, and the gloomy creature being the baka it is, they still have to work."
"It was a cruel analogy"
"You'll have to get used to it."
"No way. Now that I know that you can give me such soft and loving kisses, I don't want to have to deal with your rude side anymore."
"What!? Rude!? You idiot! Just let go of me!"
"No. I want you to kiss me like that again!"
"Baka!"

This is how our night finishes. Eventually -just like I said before- if we stay together for too long, we'll end up like that. But this time, we knew our true feelings, so our fight had a kissing in its end, so that we know we can just forget the stupid fights and don't waste our so precious time together.

Some things will continue being the same, because the wind will blow the leaves, keep the soot, and whisper this warm feeling called happiness.

Actually, it means 'Yes, Tsuzuki, you still have to deal with the cranky Hisoka.'

OWARI