Ok, so today an anonymous reviewer told me I was weird. But that's cool. He/she is right! I am weird. Even my friends think I'm weird . . . and they're EXTREMELY weird. No offence to them. Although I do have some normal friends I swear. That's you Kaz and Rebecca. Everyone else is as crazy as or crazier than me. Although some of them are much better a pretending to be normal. So now I'm done my little rant. This story is getting more and more depressing by the minute. But I promise once we jump ahead (next chapter) and after the first chapter after the jump (which is super depressing damn my hide) it WILL get better. So this is in Max, it is the last chapter before the jump and it's following from chapter 5 NOT chapter 6 because that was filler. Now that we're all up to date I will disclaim and then continue the story!

Disclaimer: I do not own and have never owned any of the characters from Maximum Ride. They belong to James Patterson and a good thing too because he's an amazing writer! However I do own my OC who is, as of yet, unnamed. Although now I have TWO name choices. So many decisions to make so little time to think about them!

Enjoy . . . or cry at its awfulness. Damn I'm depressing.

By the time the younger members of the flock were starting to wake up I had started to pull myself together. Iggy had comforted me all morning but I had been uncontrollable until he'd reminded me how the others would react to seeing me falling to pieces. He wouldn't let me out of earshot. I think he was worried I would run off or try to kill myself with a sharp stick. Maybe he was right. I had tried it before, and I'd never had as much reason as this. I was well and truly devastated. He hadn't even said goodbye. The last time I saw him I was half asleep. He was gone, and for some reason, that I still didn't understand, I was to blame. I was dying on the inside, but when Nudge woke up, shook her wings and trotted over to me, I pasted a fake smile on my face. When she asked me what was for breakfast, I said we'd stop somewhere nice. When Gazzy woke up, I ruffled his hair, like I do every morning. But Angel . . . Angel knew. As soon as she woke up and stretched her pale arms, I knew, she would know. And when she looked at me, the sadness, shock and sympathy in her eyes almost killed me again.

"I'm sorry Max" she whispered throwing her arms around me in a bear hug, "he's gone isn't he?" And all I could do was nod, I was so choked up. She hugged me harder and I felt her tears begin to wet my shirt. I pulled her closer, then we were crying silently together, tears sliding down our cheeks, slowly making their way to the ground. There was a hole in her hearts that would never mend. He was gone and we were lost.

It was the most difficult thing I had ever done to tell Gazzy and Nudge. I couldn't say it out loud and in the end Angel had to explain to them. My poor baby. She should never have to do something so hard. I did that to her. Fang and I did that to her. Life was so cruel. Once Gazzy and Nudge understood what Angel was trying to say they looked to me for guidance. But I just closed my eyes and shook my head. They came to me with tears in their eyes and pulled their bodies in close to mine and we cried. But, they were noisy, gulpy tears, so painful to the ears, and the heart. I felt little Gazzy's body shake with every breath. But Nudge . . . Nudge was so much worse. Nudge nearly broke my heart. Between tears she managed to take my hand and choke out,

"I just wish he would have said goodbye."

"Me too sweetie, me too" and in my heart I knew, he would have if it weren't for me. My heart cracked for the little girl whose father figure, older brother and friend hadn't said goodbye. Then my heart cracked for the other older brother who had lost his friend, his brother and a guide in his dark, sightless world. My heart tore when I looked at the small boy heaped in my arms whose self esteem and tiny pride would be demolished by this sweeping blow. But, when I looked at the last little member of my flock, the youngest, my baby, I thought my heart would stop, because she would always have to live with my pain as well as her own.

By now there were so many holes in my heart that I didn't even know how it was holding together. But then that little girl, that sweet little girl whose life had been changed forever, she broke my heart. She was my undoing. Her 7 words were branded into me never to be forgotten, and they would cause me greater pain and understanding then any other part of my life. My 6 year old mind-reading little sister turned to face me with tears in her eyes and whispered,

"He never told you he loved you."

It was at that moment I felt my heart break for the girl who had lost her best friend, her oldest companion, her co-leader and the only one she could ever love, who had loved her back. Me. I sank to my knees in front of my flock. I was dead; my heart was completely and utterly broken. End Max.

A small shadow wept in the darkness for the pain of these poor children. Yes Max, she thought, life is cruel you know that now better than most. But I'm going to fix it for you. I need some time, but I can fix it. In a few years, life will be kind to you and your family. I'll see to it. You'll see I'll fix it. With that, the small shadow once again slipped away from Maximum Ride and her flock, this time with a plan. No one saw her, no one heard her. No one ever did.

Ok, so as you can see my OC can read minds (thank you kaylormonkey). Well now I'm super depressed and pretty close to tears. That's bad isn't it, to be brought to tears by your own story? Stupid me. Also I never cry ever. So it's super weird. Now, I believe some people are having trouble reading my chapter 6 because I used the word darn with an m. Apparently that pops up parental control which is weird. So if anyone couldn't get hold of it, let me know and I'll send you a copy without the ahem "swear word". Although you will have to either sign in or give me your e-mail, because I can't send to anonymous because there's no reply. I just couldn't honestly have Fang say darn. That would just be sad. Ok so I'll update soon I hope. Thanks all reviewers, Cat.

Ps yes kaylormonkey I know, Fang is an absolute idiot!

Lol Fnick always makes me smile.