Eric,

I'm a bit irritated at you. I asked you to just forget about the letter I wrote to you where I talked about "my Eric". Like I told you I was just exhausted and to be honest I've had a pretty crazy couple of months. I'm probably on emotional overload between all the crap with Bill and his betrayal, and then the whole amnesia thing with you. To top that off, it all ends up with this huge knock down drag out war with Hallow and the witches. There are a couple of other things that went on that just added even more stress.

For the love of mercy, I'm surprised I haven't had a freakin' nervous break down. Now on top of all that, I have to deal with the entire aftermath. I'm just sick to death of all the damn vampire and sup drama! I JUST WANT TO BE NORMAL! Doesn't anyone get that. I want to find a nice young man who gets up and goes to work then comes home for a nice dinner. I want to go grocery shopping and eventually have kids with him. I want out of the drama.

You know the ironic thing is that even though it was crazy and really short, I felt more normal and happy during that time you stayed with me than I have my entire my life. That sucks because now I don't even have that, and no one remembers it but me. Like you said in your letter maybe this "duality of Eric" just doesn't exist. Maybe I just saw what I wanted to see and was living a fairy tale while it lasted.

Eric, I'm sorry you are struggling with this memory loss I know it's really probably driving "Mr. Control" crazy. Honestly though, I don't think you would believe me if I told you about your time here. It was so unlike you. So unlike Eric Northman, Sherriff of Area Five, I think you would be upset with the truth, and I think you would probably blame me; eventually resenting me. It's just better if we just drop the whole issue and move forward.

That said, I want to tell you for the five hundredth time, we will not be physically involved. I know you are very talented in the bedroom and I know what I'm missing, but I just can't let another vampire into my bed or even take the risk they would steal into my heart. I can't take that heartache again, Eric. Bill's betrayal almost destroyed me, I can't risk something even worse, I just can't. Please try and understand. Thank you for your offer of true friendship, A girl can never have enough friends.

See ya soon.

Your Friend,

Sookie