Chapter 7 life sucks more then you thought
Hey! I'm sooooooo sorry please forgive me I was so busy but I promise I will try to update like I said I would. Luckily, I already started on other chapter and will update on Saturday. If I don't then I will kick myself for not doing it or probably because something bad happen so lets not hope for the second one. Ok now let us dance because y'all are being amazing and I love y'all very much so I hope you enjoy.
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After Blaine called Finn he went to his living room and sat down on the black leather couch. He looked around the dark blue color room trying to keep his mind out of the guy he meet that is just like Kurt but just different. All the words that Finn said earlier still fresh in his mind and it hurt him knowing that not only was he suffering but all the people that loved Kurt were as well. Nobody was entirely the same when Kurt had left.
"Blaine you have to try to forget Kurt and try to move on its not that hard," His parents would say.
However, he knew they were wrong. When you meet Kurt it was, hard to forget him because how could someone forget an amazing, talented and just plain perfect person so easily and now with Richard, with the same looks Kurt had and constantly reminding him of Kurt was harder. Richard looked just like Kurt. They could be twins if someone saw them both at the same time, the difference apart from personality was that Kurt was dead and Richard was full alive. Blaine did not know how he would be able to see Richard without thinking about Kurt. Finn might be right but his heart was telling him something else. Richard had Kurt's looks, his voice, and beautiful blue-green eyes and his beautiful red li- no Blaine no Kurt is dead and this guy is Richard.
Now that he thinks about him, he doesn't really know him apart that he came here and that he meet him at the coffee shop. Maybe he should learn more about him tomorrow try to have a nice conversation for once in two years. Oh yeah tomorrow he was going to meet him again. Thank god, for that stupid person for drowning the school so he won't have to go to school and meet Richard again instead. He knew that meeting Richard might help him see Kurt even if it was wrong but he missed Kurt so much that "using" Richard to see some things about Kurt wouldn't be so bad. Was he kind of using Richard for needs of Kurt? No of course, not he just barely meet the guy but he was kind of lonely as he mostly never went out and mostly spent his day at school, studying, at the coffee shop, at the bar, or crying in his bedroom remembering all the good times he had with Kurt.
Maybe Finn was right maybe it was time to try to move on but it would take some time and he had to take it very slowly. But he in his mind it kept telling that he wasn't really moving on because Richard was just like Kurt but just a different mind. Stop Richard is not Kurt no matter what Kurt is never coming back he is gone and not coming back and he is not Richard. And I am going to prove it by meeting him tomorrow. No matter how much I want to hug him, hold him, kiss him and cry telling him how much I had missed him. But that's what he would do to Kurt. Blaine was afraid of putting his feelings that he has for Kurt into Richard but once again Kurt was gone no matter what.
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Blackbird singing in the dead of night open your wings and learn
"Ahh what do people want from me". Blaine opened his eyes and move over, putting his hand on his bedside table looking for his phone. He opened it and was surprised to see his dad name on top of the screen. He clicked the green button and put it next to his ear.
"Hello" Blaine said almost in a whisper afraid of what his father might say.
"Hello Blaine we would just wanted to call you that in two months we will be going to New York for a important meeting but might as well visit you while we are there." Blaine's father had his emotionless voice like the one he always has, cold and like he knew what he wanted and that he would always win no matter what and Blaine felt like them visiting him was some what being force like they might as well go check on him I guess. He knew that his father loved him as his mother would always said but sometimes he wished his father would show it more.
"so Blaine we expected to be welcome when we go to New York and I would love if you could join us in the meeting as my others friends will be bringing their sons too and I also heard that Mr. Thomas daughter will be attending maybe you could get to meet her."
Not this again. Blaine rolled his eyes and just sign at his father's wishes. "Dad we been through this I do that want to meet no girls ok and fine I will go I have no choice I guess." Blaine made a deal with his dad that when he needed him to go to his meetings with him he had to go if not he would have to study to become a lawyer. That was the only way he was able to become something in performing arts.
"Ok so we will see you soon son bye."
"Bye dad." he hangs up and looks at his clock. He saw it was only six and decides might as will get up and start his morning jogging. He wonders why everyone wanted to wake him up so early this days but he let it pass. He remembers that today was his last day without going to school and would have to go back. However, today was more important because he would meet Richard again. He promises that he would put Richard and Kurt very far apart and would just try to be nice without almost breaking down in tears when he saw the resemblance. Should he tell someone else apart from Finn? He was just so confused and scared. He wanted someone to tell him that it was ok to fell this way. Blaine could feel tears started to build up so he try to hold them. He got ready and started running to the park near his apartment. It wasn't central park but just as pretty as it. He looked around and saw a small boy with light brown hair looking at a Wicked poster. That reminds him of Kurt then of Richard. "Why the hell did it have to be me."
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Blaine got back to his apartment and took a quick shower. He dressed in a simple black dress shirt with blue jeans. He took a long time getting his hair to stay still even with all the hair gel he had used and he was sure the store was running out of it because of him. He got his wallet, his keys, check him self in the mirror one last time and left his apartment walking to the elevator. He got in and saw another young man older then him with red hair, freckles, and glasses. He was wearing a suit and looked like he was about to puke or die that very moment still with a smile on his face. Blaine just simply smiled and stood on the other side of the young men. "You can do this Blaine yes you can there is no turning back"
"Excuse me but you seem a little tense" the young man spoke.
"Well I could say the same thing about yourself" Blaine replied giving him a dapper smile
"Well you see I'm going to a job interview and if I get the job I will be able to propose to the life of my life" the man look at his feet his face getting red but still with a big goof smile.
"Oh well I hope it goes well…"
"Eric" the man responded
"Oh well I hope you get the job Eric and that you two will live happy together, Blaine by the way" Blaine moved closer to Eric and raised his hand to shake Eric's
"Thanks I hope it goes well too Blaine" the door open and both boys were staring at the lobby now
"Well goodbye Blaine nice meeting you" Eric called as he walked away
"Yeah good luck" Blaine waved goodbye and started walking the other direction
"What a nice guy hope he meets someone as special just like I did" Eric thought holding the small black box in his palm
"That lucky bastard" Blaine didn't take it well when people talked about marriage because it made him sad and depressed on what he was missing. That is why sometimes he did not hang out with his friends as some were getting married or some are in love. But right now the only thing he had to worry about was getting his ass to that coffee shop without being to sweaty.
He finally arrived and saw that Richard was all ready there sitting in the same table from yesterday. Richard looked up to see Blaine and waved at him. Blaine waved back and got in line to order his medium drip. He ordered his drink, paid for it, walked to the table, and sat down not looking up to see Richard. When he found the courage, he lifted his head up and saw Richard smiled at him and begin to talk.
"So tomorrow I'm going to school do you think we might see each other" Richard just kept smiling at him waiting for an answer.
Blaine shrugged "maybe but probably not as your classes are in the other building from mine" Blaine saw Richard face go down and disappointment in his eyes but quickly smiled at Blaine again and said it was ok. They kept having small talk but didn't really seem like both really knew about each other apart from what movies they like and the their favorite food. Which by the way Blaine noticed that Richard was nothing similar to Kurt.
"So are you seeing anybody?" Blaine asked before he noticed the word that just had came out.
"Yeah I am I'm seeing this girl her name is Gail and we are getting married in six months". Blaine congratulated him but was disappointed and sad that not only was he taken but straight.
"She must be really pretty," Blaine asked without looking up to look at Richard. Will trying to move on was not going to happen anytime soon now.
"Yeah she is" Richard stared at Blaine a bit worried on how he was acting the same way like from yesterday when they first meet.
"So how about you are you seeing anybody" Richard asked Blaine as he took a sip from his coffee.
"Well...no my boyfriend-"
"Wait what did you just say?" Richard cut Blaine from finishing what he was saying". Blaine was taken back by Richard reaction but decided it was probably nothing,
"I said my boyfrie-"
"You're gay" Richard once again interrupted Blaine and almost yelled the last part
"Yeah I am I don't think their is a problem" Blaine whisper and looked scared
"Oh no I can't hang.. Blaine I just can't I have to go." Richard got up and looked around not knowing what to do. "
"I have to go I can't stay... I can't be near you" Richard looked at Blaine seeing tears running down his face. He got his messenger bag and left as quickly as he could. Blaine just sat there tears running down his face and saw that people were now staring at him. He got up and started running to his apartment.
"What's wrong with me being gay?"
"Is Richard homophobic?" Blaine was upset on how quick he lost a possible friend because of who he was.
But he couldn't get over on how Richard looked. He didn't look mad he looked more sad and scared but Blaine didn't care because he was tired of fighting with people on who he was. He was sure that Kurt wouldn't have given up so easily but he wasn't Kurt. After Kurt's death, this is the only time he felt lonely and scared. He wanted Kurt to tell him it was going to be all right. He wants to be hugged by him and tell him he was perfect just the way he was. The only thing that he wanted was Kurt. However, he could not have him. Not anymore.
Ok my good people I made this one longer then any of the other chapters so I hope you liked it. If there are something wrong with it I am sorry but it's late and I'm tried and sick right now so sorry. I feel bad for making Blaine suffer but it has to go this way for now. Now Richard will appear again and don't hate him so much because everything will be better…maybe. Now I will only be able to update on weekends so I am so sorry I truly am but school and all that jazz is hard and I have freaking algebra man how the hell did I get that class if mostly I just draw Klaine stuff in my notebook. I'm trying and I promise I will try hard to update but if sometimes its gets to hard please bare with me I have to get to high school how else will I get a job to get enough money and meet Chris and Darren. I love all of you guys for reading this story because ya'll make me smile when I see that people actual want to read it so here is a happy dance for all of you :):). So for better things I hope you like it please review and thank you so much for reading this story. Klaine is going to get married in New York.
