Hello ladies ( and a few gents :P )! Sooo, I have to correct myself- first there`s the "Fluff Part 2"- Chapter, before we can start a little drama ;) Happy to tell you, that I wrote the ending of the story yesterday and I actually like it- I hope you will too! Now I just have to write a little more stuff in between ;) I have 14 Chapters so far, by the way and a few more to come, I guess… So, I hope you all will stay tuned and enjoy what I have to share. Thanks for the nice reviews btw, they always make my day- so please keep writing :D Now- READ! :*
Chapter 7.
The park was dark and quiet. The crickets sang, a scream of an owl and a subtle breeze beneath the trees.
But every now and then, the silence was broken by laughter.
Two hours had gone by and Jane and Maura had talked and talked about everything and nothing.
Maura felt drunk- with happiness.
She couldn`t even remember the last time, she had laughed so much, talked so much and felt so damn comfortable.
Jane made it so easy for her. She was funny and smart and so very different from all the people she had to deal with in her everyday life.
She was fresh. And wild. And Maura loved it.
It made her feel- so alive.
"Gosh, my ass hurts- that bench is damn hard... ouch!", Jane stood and lay down on the grass just by the lake.
Maura had to smile silly at the view.
She walked over to Jane and lay down beside her quietly and she noticed, she just couldn`t stop grinning.
"Just look at that. So beautiful."
Jane gazed up into the stars and her eyes had softened. So had her voice. She half whispered.
Maura nodded silently and for the first time tonight, no one of them had the urge to speak.
The wind blew a hint of Janes scent over to Maura and she inhaled deeply as if it was the last breath, she would wanna take.
She wrapped herself up in that unique smell and wanted to hold that breath until she turned blue.
Jane tried to stay focused and NOT think about, how easy it would be to just- STOP!
She clenched her jaw.
Mauras heartbeat was calm and strong and it echoed in her ears- so hypnotizing.
Jane knew, Mauras body was just inches away from her. If she could only roll over and wrap her arm around her slim waist and snuggle her face into those heavenly blonde curls of hers. But she could not. And it felt like choking.
"Is that a star or is it moving?", Jane broke the silence.
"What do you mean?", Maura asked and focused her eyes on the night sky.
"Over there... see... it looks brighter than the other ones and I swear, it winks at me... look!".
Jane pointed her finger to the sky, gettin all excited and Maura tried to follow.
She turned her face, where the finger was, but couldn`t figure out which one Jane meant.
"Got it?", Jane asked impatiently.
"No...uhm...", Maura kept searching.
"It`s not that hard- come over here...", Jane said and opened up her arm to Maura, so she could lay down on it, to take a closer look to where Jane was pointing.
Maura froze for a moment, staring down at the cosy space, Jane was offering to her.
Why was her heart freaking out right now?!
She really felt dizzy and she hoped that Jane wouldn`t notice, how nervous she was about being so close to her.
She slowly placed her head on Janes arm, right next to her, so Janes curls tickled her cheek.
She would pass out. BREATHE.
Jane, still staring at the sky, pulled her a little closer, so she could follow her finger- and their foreheads met.
Skin on skin. So warm.
Maura couldn`t think. She didn`t noticed the stars. All she could think of was- SO. DAMN. WARM.
"There.", Jane whispered right next to her ear and that hot breath stroke her skin and a wave of heat was washing over her, rolling through her body like a force and her stomach twisted. It felt weird. But this time, she knew what it was.
"Uhm... I... oh... yeah. That. That`s Venus. On clear nights like this, many people mistake her for a UFO. It looks like she is changing her colour and she blinks, just like you noticed. But it`s just Venus, don`t worry.", Maura said and was relieved that she finally found her voice again.
Should she move away now?
She did not. Jane did neither.
"Who said, I was worried? I was NOT... worried. At all.", Jane defended her honour and Maura couldn`t help but laugh at her pouting like a child.
"Of course not. I`m sorry. You were just... curious, right?!", Maura giggled.
"Would you stop laughing?! YES, I was just curious. I`m always interested in learning new things... and since you know EVERYTHING, I thought I'd use your wisdom to teach me.", Jane went on.
Maura couldn`t stop laughing. ,
Jane turned her head to watch her and Maura was immediately aware of Janes eyes on her.
She could feel the softness of Janes breath on her neck. It made her stop giggling right away.
"No. No, I don`t.", Maura said into the silence.
Jane hadn`t noticed, that she was staring at her and she blinked at the sound of Mauras voice in the dark.
"You don`t- what?", Jane asked softly without taking her eyes off Mauras face.
Those long lashes. Those soft lips. Those dimples.
Maura couldn`t force herself to face Jane. She kept concentrating on the stars.
"I don`t know... anything.", she said sadly and sighed.
Jane was just looking at her, letting that information sink in.
"My head is full of information and knowledge of all kinds of things. Science... But I don`t know a single thing about life. I don`t feel like... I have one. My life is empty. I`ve got my work- and that`s all. I`ve got no family. No friends. I don`t even know what love feels like. I forgot how it felt to feel comfortable around people, to laugh like this, to talk... until tonight.".
All those words just bubbled up as if they had waited inside of her head for a very long time, to finally be spoken out loudly.
Jane inhaled deeply, when she noticed the pain on Mauras face. The loneliness. The resignation.
Maura felt Janes glare burning little holes into her skin. Had she said too much?
Jane was at a loss for words. Her brain was a black hole right now.
Instead of saying anything, she just curled her arm up a little tighter around Mauras body, squeezing her arm with one hand. Her thumb rubbing little circles on her bare skin.
Maura faced Jane for just one second at the sensation of the contact, just to find two incredibly sad dark eyes, looking back at her with such seriousness, it made her heart crumble.
Quickly she returned her gaze to the night sky and forced a crooked smile, which made her look even more sad than before.
"Sorry. That sounded... I didn`t meant to ruin- this.", her free hand gestured while she let out a heavy breath.
Jane remained silent, continuing to rub the back of Mauras hand.
"You could never.", the husky voice said quietly.
Maura looked at her, when she felt tears fight their way up.
Jane could feel it and she was horrified, cause she knew, she couldn`t stand to see her cry.
She tried a smile. A little, understanding, heartfelt smile.
Maura couldn`t help but laugh a little at the fact, how happy she felt, just looking at that face of an almost stranger.
What that face did to her. How those eyes made anything else around them disappear. How that smile made the sun rise inside of her heart. How her stomach kind of ached, when they touched, or by the sound of her laughter or... ugh. What the hell was going on?
I managed to take my eyes of her face, that was pure art to me. Perfection.
We lay there in silence for a while, letting our thoughts wander.
I tried to stay out of her mind- I knew I couldn`t handle, what I`d might hear.
Suddenly we both jumped a little, as we saw a shooting star flashing on the black night sky.
Our heads bumped into one another and we both laughed and screamed for a moment, like "LOOK! THERE! MAKE A WISH!" and then we both pressed our eyes shut and fell silent.
I didn`t know what to wish for. My heart wanted to wish for a life with her- happily ever after. Which was impossible and I wanted to slap myself for that mushy crap popping up in my brain. STOP BEING ALL SILLY, RIZZOLI!
But then, without any warning, I heard her voice loud and clear in my mind, as if she was directly talking to me. Her wish.
It was, like she was screaming it into the night.
My throat went tight. My chest was heavy and my heart ached. DON`T START CRYING NOW, RIZZOLI!
Her voice echoed in my ear. "I wanna have THIS forever. Please...".
I inhaled deeply. Breathe. Slowly. Breathe. Slowly.
I heard her sigh.
I was afraid to look at her.
"Well... did you make your wish?", I heard her say quietly.
My head was a mess. So was my heart. My thoughts were race cars, running in circles, loud and fast and I couldn`t think one straight thought.
So I looked at her. And she looked back at me.
A little shy smile playing on her lips and those adorable dimples showed. Oh my.
And my mouth began to speak, without asking for permission.
"What more could I wish for?".
WHAT. THE. HELL.
The smile disappeared. Her eyes softened. She searched my face, my eyes for- I don`t know what- and it made me feel so terribly naked, that I just couldn`t suppress a nervous laugh.
Her smile was back. Beautiful and bright and warm and perfect. And she squeezed my arm, that was still slung around her slim figure, while she snuggled up a little closer, letting out a satisfied sigh.
They didn`t know, how much time had gone by and how long they were staring at the sky, wrapped up in each other- not saying a word.
The world was peaceful.
Maura asked herself, if she ever felt so much at ease, like she did now- snuggled up in the arms of a woman she barely knew.
Thinking about it, this situation was more than bizarre- but she didn`t care.
Her breath was steady and slow and she felt warm and fuzzy and sleepy.
"Okay, come on.", Janes raspy voice woke her up softly.
Maura opened her eyes and blinked.
Jane sat over her, grinning sheepishly down on her.
"You´re about to fall asleep and I couldn`t stand to wake you, so... we`ll better be going...", and she offered her a hand.
Maura sighed but she tried not to look too disappointed.
Jane pulled her to her feet and without thinking, Maura linked her arm into Janes and they started walking.
"Where do you live, by the way?", Maura asked curiously.
Jane smirked. "I told you, I am a vampire, so where do you think I live?", she grinned.
Maura pondered for a second. "Oh! You live in a grave then?"
Jane laughed out loud and heartfelt.
"Oh, the cliché! No. I live by the Forest Hill Cemetery, actually- very quiet, very peaceful out there.", she stated honestly.
Maura looked at her and suppressed a smile. Her cute dimples showed.
"You`re not kidding me, are you?", but Jane shook her head laughing.
"I`m not! Totally serious here. I have a nice little house... well, it`s TINY compared to yours actually... but it was cheap, cause no one wanted to live that close to the cemetery, you know... because of the ghosts and zombies and of course- the vampires.", Jane explained.
Maura giggled and looked up to Jane, who seemed so strong and tall beside her and who made her feel so incredibly safe, even if she was skinny as hell.
"Seriously?! There are people who would NOT buy a cheap and beautiful house, just because it`s next to a cemetery?! That is ridiculous!", Maura said and shook her head.
Jane looked down on her with a wry smile, saying "You only say that, because you know ME and you think, I`m not dangerous...".
"I say that, cause there is not a single evidence that either one of the myths you just mentioned actually exists. Of course, now I know YOU, but to be honest, you wouldn`t scare me away...", Maura grinned playfully.
Jane stopped walking abruptly and Maura turned around to see her staring back at her with a challenging look on her face.
Maura couldn`t help but laugh hard at the expression.
"Funny, huh? You think, your science knows everything and just because I`m being nice to you, I couldn`t hurt you, huh?".
Jane had come closer but Maura didn`t shy away, she giggled even harder.
Now she was standing right in front of her, only inches apart and Maura felt the strange sensation of every single hair on her body standing up straight.
Her laughter died down as she looked up into Janes serious black eyes, which seemed to glow like fire in the dark right now.
They pierced right through Mauras body and left her feeling weak and shaken.
The look on Janes face was wicked and Maura didn`t know, if she liked it or if it scared her.
"Hm.", Jane observed her closely, her eyes wandering down her neck and Mauras heart seemed to explode in her chest.
Jane raised a hand to trace away a curl of Mauras golden ponytail from her shoulder and the burn it left, when Janes fingers tickled her skin, was sending shivers down her spine.
Jane noticed the pulse on Mauras neck, strong and fast, saw the blue of her veins shimmering under her sun tanned skin and the more she focused, the more she could hear her blood rush and her heart beat.
It almost deafened her. Her vision blurred. She made a step. Closer. Her smell was overwhelming. She began to lose control...
Maura noticed the change in Janes look. The fire in her eyes. The... she couldn`t tell... hunger? Lust? Wanting?
She tried to break the tension and poked Jane in her belly, "What- are you going to bite me now?!" , she joked, but as Jane didn`t answered and not even laughed, she felt slightly uncomfortable.
Jane was breathing heavily and her hot breath stroke Mauras cheek. SO. CLOSE.
Maura swallowed hard. Her giggle had died.
"You know...", Jane breathed and bend her head down slowly, "...it would be so easy to just...", she whispered and she opened her mouth a little.
Maura stopped breathing. Not because she was afraid. No. She thought this was a joke. But because Janes lips wandered closer and closer to her neck and she couldn`t hide the fact, that her whole body was craving for her touch. It ached.
Do it! Please, please, please, DO IT!, Maura begged in her head.
She could feel Janes heat on her sensitive skin and she suppressed a moan, cause she thought it would be inappropriate. Jane was only joking- right?!
Meanwhile Jane vanished in Mauras heavenly scent. It felt like a trance. She had closed her eyes and she cautiously braced Mauras neck with her sharp teeth.
Maura let out a shaky breath.
Oh my god, what is happening here?!, Maura asked herself, while her body screamed and yelled like never before- MORE!
The tremble in her breath pulled me back into reality.
My lips were on her neck. My teeth were either.
Just a little bite and I could have tasted her sweet warm blood on my lips. It was almost irresistible.
But then it echoed in my ear. THIS IS MAURA!
Quickly I took a step back and I stared at her in shock.
She stared back at me so vulnerable, full of question, confused and shaken and... disappointed?
Say something, Rizzoli! NOW!
So I forced a fake laugh.
"Sorry, I almost forgot, you are not a virgin anymore... I hope you didn`t mind- you know, vampires are so damn hard to control...", I smirked and I could hardly manage to look her in the eye.
The urge to kiss her- at least- was so overwhelming, that I couldn`t trust myself to stay in control.
I tried not to stare at her neck, at that pumping vein under her skin.
For a second, she just stared back at me, then she tried to laugh.
"Oh. Uh... no, I didn`t mind...", she cleared her throat, "The stories are true it seems. I admit, I felt kind of hypnotized by you. You could have just bitten me, I guess.", she said a little out of breath and she laughed a nervous little laugh.
Oh, she had no idea, how much I wanted her... it almost hurt. No. I did hurt.
"To damn you for all eternity?", I asked her seriously and the confused look in her eyes made me break inside.
I looked down to my feet as I said, "No, I could never do that.".
"Come on, let`s go.", I tried a half smile and pushed her to walk on.
She seemed confused, cause she didn`t talk much on the rest of our way to her house.
Mauras mind was spinning. Jane was weird. She couldn't` t tell, what had just happened.
One second, Jane was funny and playful und sarcastic and in a blink of an eye, she was all serious and kind of- sad.
Was this a sign of depression maybe?
Whatever it was, it didn`t change the fact, how she made her feel.
Maura had to face the fact, that she had felt more than physically attracted to Jane this evening.
Lying in her arm, feeling her hair on her face, smelling her scent, feel her breath on her skin and then- her teeth... she got weak, just thinking about it.
She had to admit to herself, that she had never been so aroused in her life- not even when she had sex with random men.
She always thought, she might be kind of asexual- that sex just wasn`t her thing, cause she could hardly think of anything to turn her on.
But this- HER... it almost knocked her off her feet.
And her stomach twisted at the thought of letting her go in just a few minutes. She wanted her to stay.
But there was nothing she could do and so they reached her front door in silence.
Maura fumbled her keys out of her bag and Jane just stood there, watching her.
"So.", Maura exhaled and smiled a sad smile, when she finally found the courage to face Jane.
Janes smile seemed so sad, she almost grimaced.
Was she feeling the same?
But Maura wouldn`t dare to ask or even make a move.
Jane made two steps towards her and pulled her into a tight, long hug.
Mauras heart pumped to the max. She so wanted to grab Janes face and kiss her... hours and hours.
But instead, she just buried her face in Janes soft curls and inhaled as deep as she could.
Finally Jane let go of her. DON`T! Maura wanted to say.
"Good night, Maura. This was...perfect. Thank you.", Jane stated very softly and then she turned around to go.
"Jane!", Maura said quickly.
Jane turned around and their eyes met. Mauras brain was blank.
Say something!
"Thank YOU. I can`t remember the last time, I had so much fun.".
Jane just smiled and then she was gone.
The silence hit her like a hammer.
Jane was gone. And it felt like choking. It felt horrible.
When she opened her front door, her house had never been so empty, so painfully quiet, so cold.
She felt like crying- but why?
And while she was searching for Bass to talk to, at least, she realized, that they hadn`t fixed another "date".
Panic was creeping up her spine.
They hadn`t exchanged numbers, nor did she know her full address- Forest Hill Cemetery was huge and she wasn`t even sure, if that wasn`t just a joke.
Why hadn`t she even asked for her surname? DAMN IT!
It took her hours to fall asleep that night.
