A/N: First off I want to apologize for not having updated this in months. I have not given up on my stories, especially not this one. A lot of shit has been going on and well, life has been busy as can be. So thank you all for still loving the story and I promise that I am not abandoning it!


Everyday another one of his belongings was gone, and it was almost like she could breathe a little more. The separation was real, and as much as he seemed to dislike it, he had come to accept it in his own terms from what she could tell. The road to divorce was getting shorter, and she was ecstatic, maybe that made her a bad person, but she had tried her hardest. There was only so long someone can stay unhappy before reaching a breaking point. She hated to admit it, but part of her wondered if she ever truly loved him, or did she just love the idea of being in love with him? Having only had a couple of boyfriends in her life, one that she didn't exactly even know if she could count, well, she wasn't precisely sure what she had been looking for when it came to love in New York. Jesse had been a fluke in high school. He was her complete opposite on so many levels, the one who you would think she would be perfect with. However, no matter how much she tried to deny it - her heart was Finn's. Their high school relationship was definitely not one that could be considered perfect. They unquestionably had their fair share of ups and downs, and to other people maybe it wasn't worth it, but to Rachel, Finn had been worth it. Parting ways after high school had been hard, extremely hard, but she knew he would always be a part of her. What she hadn't imagined was that he would come back into her life, and she would realize that she had never stopped loving him.

She had been unhappy with Patrick for a long time, and having suffered two miscarriages and a stillbirth did not help. It was those times when she saw that Patrick wasn't too affected like she was. Sure, he may have told her they could try again, but did he care? Did he only want a child to please his mother? All these questions often plagued Rachel's mind, and now that the marriage was coming to an end, she knew they held a huge part of why things had come crashing down. Granted, Rachel firmly believed that even if that all had not transpired the two would have eventually fallen apart. While she wasn't sure, she was truly ever in love with Patrick, she had a pretty strong feeling that Patrick never loved her. He was the type of guy who was charming on the outside, but inside? He was not the same at all. He would be married again before they knew it, his mother would make sure of that. It was all about image with that family, and for some reason her mother-in-law had assumed she would be perfect for that, clearly they were wrong. On the other hand, perhaps Rachel was just Patrick's act of rebellion? These were questions she'd never have an answer for and well, that was all right with her.

She watched as he headed down the hallway with a box in his hand, informing her he'd be by again tomorrow to pick something up. Rachel had only nodded and told him if she wasn't home he could let himself in. While she had full intentions of changing the locks, she figured she'd wait until the rest of his stuff was out. She had avoided telling him she was actually going away for the weekend. Then again, she avoided telling everyone that. She just said she had plans, and no one asked questions. Closing the front door, she headed back to the bedroom and pulled out her luggage that she had shoved into the closet when Patrick had stopped by. The last thing she needed was his questioning, especially given the fact she was going away with another man. Not that Patrick knew of Finn at all. As much as she loved Finn still after all this time, she wasn't proud of her infidelity. However, she was drawn to that man, and she just wasn't able to not be with him.

When a knock came at the front door, all she could do was groan, expecting it to be Patrick having forgotten something. Which, of course, she would have simply informed him that he was coming back the following day so why couldn't he just wait. However, instead she was pleasantly surprised to see Finn standing there. "Hey, babe," he gave her a crooked smile before leaning in and capturing her lips in a quick kiss.

As much as Rachel did not want the kiss to end, she knew that doing it in the open was not the best idea, and she quickly pulled away. "Hi," she smiled back and motioned for him to come inside before closing the door, "I didn't expect you so soon. I actually thought you were Patrick coming back."

"Oh man, I missed him?" Finn rolled his eyes as he wrapped his arms around Rachel's waist and followed her into the bedroom. Plopping down on the bed, he leaned back and smiled, "is this a new bed set?"

Shoving something into her bag, she looked over at him and nodded. As weird as it was, Rachel had decided to buy a new bed set once Patrick left was a good idea. A fresh start without any reminders of him, well at least in the bed. "Yes, I just.. thought I needed to change things up. I am actually considering painting," she chewed on her bottom lip as she looked around the bedroom.

Pushing himself up into a sitting position, Finn pulled Rachel into his lap causing her to squeak, "Why don't we break them in?" he gave her an eyebrow waggle and all she could do was laugh.

"Finn!" she pulled out of his grasp and went back to packing, "I'm not sure she can 'break in' a bedspread," all she could do was giggle and shake her head. As much as Finn had grown up and matured, there were still signs of that young boy he used to be still in there. "Shouldn't we be heading out anyway?"

"But the idea of you naked right now seems so amazing in my eyes, baby," he smirked as he reached for her hand to tug her back, but Rachel was not having it. "Fine, fine. Let's hit the road and then I can get you naked in the hotel."

A soft blush arose on her features as she zipped up her bag and threw her arms around his neck, "Thank you."

"For what?"

"For waiting for me. I know it has been hard the last couple of months and so unfair to you and-," However, before Rachel could even finish what she was saying she was cut off by Finn's lips crashing onto her own. She knew that they should be heading out, especially since she was still weary about Finn and her spending more time than needed in her apartment until after everything would be said and done. Never the less, instead of pulling away, she found herself wrapping her arms around his neck and deepening the kiss. "Finn," she whispered softly as she finally finding the strength to pull away.

"Wha-" he leaned in again, but Rachel pressed firmly against his chest and took a step back, leaving Finn with a look of confusion on his face.

Blushing softly, she reached up to push some hair out of her face and smiled, "Shouldn't we be hitting the road? Don't want to hit traffic now do we?" Finn rarely used his car, leaving it mostly for the nanny, since a great deal of time it was a hassle to even try to drive around the city and taxis had the ability to work just fine. However, for their little getaway, he knew he was going to need to use it. "Besides, I'm kind of excited for our little road trip. It's been a while since I've been in the passenger seat of a car."

"Fine, fine," he told her with a smirk as he leaned down to press a kiss to the top of her head, "But I can't wait until we get to the hotel room."


When Rachel had informed of that the separation was happening, and Patrick had finally accepted it? He had been ecstatic. He knew on some level they were probably terrible people for being so happy about this, but he loved Rachel, and he hated seeing how miserable Patrick had made her. She had been through so much and it pained him to know that her husband hadn't even cared, not that he ever really raised his voice on that subject. Talking about her soon-to-be over marriage wasn't at the top of his list. He was there for her to talk to, but he didn't want to pry about Patrick. He did however still want to kick that fucker's ass for having tried to force himself on Rachel that night. It was after then that Rachel knew she couldn't even let him believe she was wanting to mend things, and well, he was just going to be there for her.

He knew that soon enough she was officially going to be out of the marriage, and the two of them could formally start being a couple. Things were still very low-key, especially given Rachel was married to someone who was a little more in the public eye because of his family. It was one of the main reasons he had suggested them getting out of town for the weekend. He hadn't wanted to lie to his family, he had informed them he was going away with the girl he had been seeing. Kurt, who had often tried to pry kept begging Finn to meet this mysterious woman, but he had continually denied his brother's request. It was up to Rachel when they could start telling people in his eyes. He knew she wasn't ashamed to be with him, there was just a lot of stuff they still needed to figure out. Somehow, Kurt had just assumed that Finn was seeing a sister of one of his friends down at the firehouse, since on more than one occasion the guys had indeed tried to hook Finn up, but he was far from right on that assumption.

Kurt had been more than willing to take on the babysitting gig of his niece and nephew, and had basically shoved Finn out the door. Telling him to have fun, but not too much fun. Finn knew that Kurt just wanted to see him happy, and Rachel was the one that made him happy. Once they arrived at the hotel, Finn made good on his promise and was immediately trying to have his way with Rachel. She was trying to protest, but he could see she wanted him just as much as he wanted her.

"Finn!" she squealed as he threw her on the bed. Sliding up against the pillows, Rachel's eyes stayed on Finn's as he crawled to her, his lips immediately claiming hers. "I want you," she whispered softly as their kiss broke.

"I want you, too," and he did, more than anything. Before either of them knew it, clothes were scattered about and Rachel had apparently used all of her strength to turn them over so that Finn was under her. Licking his lips, he let his eyes scan her body, she really did have curves in all the right places. "You're beautiful."

Leaning down, Rachel let her mouth hover right over his ear as she spoke above a whisper, "And you're so sexy." Reaching down, Finn's dick was taken into her hand and she positioned him at her opening before sinking down at him. Throwing her head back, Rachel let out a loud groan, just as Finn did the same. His hands immediately finding a home on her waist as he helped her start to move up and down on him. "Finn," she moaned softly.

"Uhh," Finn grunted as he picked up his pace, "Fuck, babe." Pushing himself up slightly, Finn immediately began to to pay attention to Rachel's chest with his mouth. Smirking at the little purrs he began to hear come from her mouth as their pace began to pick up. "Ugh, so tight," he groaned as he roughly pulled her mouth to his, "I fucking love your pussy."

Normally, he would have been scolded by Rachel here, but instead she just moaned and brought her one hand up to rest on the back of his neck as the other came up to play with her breast. He pulled his head back to watch her, just the sight of her was threatening to push him over the edge. Her hair was wild and sticking to her face, she was biting down on her lip hard to contain the loud moans that were threatening to escape, "Finn.. harder. Please."

Holding onto her tightly, he flipped them over. Reaching down, he grabbed her one leg and threw it over his shoulder as he started to pound into her. His eyes looking down to see himself slide in and out of her. He knew that he was being rough, but the sounds coming from her assured him that she was enjoying every minute of it. "Fuck, fuck," he gritted through his teeth, "I'm so fucking close, baby. You need to come for me, I need you to come for me."

Rachel threw her head back and moaned loudly as she scraped her nails down Finn's back causing him to hiss at the pain, "Oh god. Oh god. Yes, yes, right there." Rachel met his thrusts as much as she could before her body started to tense and she was set over the edge. Riding her orgasm out, it wasn't long until she felt Finn explode into her, and after a few more thrusts he collapsed on her chest. "Wow," she sighed happily after checking her breath.

"Definitely," he smugly smiled as he began to leave lazy wet kisses against her chest as he snuggled against her, "I love you."

Running her fingers through his now damp hair, Rachel smiled brightly, "I love you, too. Always have."


It had all been going so great, they had taken a nap before getting up and going out to get some food. Eventually finding themselves back at the hotel for rounds 2 & 3, but then it all came to a halt at the phone call. Christopher had taken quite a big fall and it was looking like a broken arm. While, Kurt had informed Finn that he was okay, just really wanted his daddy, her heart broke. With a decision by both of them to cut the weekend short, they headed back into the city. Rachel had tried to sooth Finn the entire car ride, she knew how worried he was about Christopher, even if Kurt said he was doing okay. The hospital apparently had been backed up, so they were just getting settled into the room when Finn arrived. He had offered to take Rachel home, but she declined. She didn't care anymore if people knew or not, Rachel loved him and adored his kids.

They headed into the hospital and immediately went to find out where Christopher was. Rachel continued to rub Finn's back slowly as she pressed a kiss to his arm, "Yes, my son-," he was so worried, "My son Christopher Hudson was brought in and-"

Before Finn was even able to finish, Kurt's voice cut him off, "There you are! We were wondering when you'd get here. He just got his x-ray and the doc-," Kurt trailed off as Finn, holding onto Rachel turned to look at him. It was like a deer caught in the headlights, "Uhh.. he wants to see you."

"Okay," Finn nodded and looked down at Rachel. She have him a reassuring smile and nodded. "I love you," he whispered softly before leaning down to give her a soft kiss on her lips before heading down the hallway to Chris' room.

Rachel's gaze left Finn's retreating figure and landed on Kurt, who was staring at her in awe, "I had no idea. I can't believe I had no idea. He's just been so happy and he has never been this happy with anyone but you. I can't believe it." Taking a step towards Rachel, he quickly grabbed her hand and noticed the lack of ring, "I thought you were married."

"I was- I am..," she took a deep breath, "I'm separated. Finn already knows all of this though."

"How long?"

Gulping softly, she stared at the face of her once close friend, "A few months. I love him, Kurt."

Reaching up, Kurt tapped his finger against his chin, "You're going to get divorced, right? This is not just some fling or-."

"No, never," she sighed softly, "There's a lot that's been going on. My feelings for Finn are genuine and I'm sorry..."

Raising his eyebrow, "Sorry?"

"For not telling you," pursing her lips, "There's just-."

Kurt held his hand up and shook his head, "I think that is a story for another time. Oh, and believe me I will make sure this happens. So expect me to call you sometime soon," pursing his lips, "Go ahead. He'd want you in there."

Rachel nodded, "Okay." Before heading off down the hall, she stopped and hugged Kurt briefly. When she arrived at the room, Finn was sitting on the edge of the bed as the doctor prepped Chris for his cast. "Hi."

Finn held his hand out for her to take. Heading into the room, she took it and slipped into his embrace as he kissed her temple. Everything seemed like it was slipping into place someway or another.


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