Author's Note - Another long chapter! I really like this one :D Tell me what you think!


Dan's POV

I sat on the park bench, my mind filled with hate and sadness. I tried to be angry instead of sad, but I just couldn't do it. I hadn't felt really sad in a long time, not counting my existential crisis stuff, but that wasn't sadness, it was more regret and curiosity. I was sad now. I was mad. I was hating Vanessa and everything she reminded me of. Something I didn't have the guts to tell anyone, not even Phil... especially not Phil.

I needed something to get my mind off it... off her. There was nothing though. I couldn't just leave, I would need to take the car, but first I'd have to track down Jess and Phil and let them know they'll need to take the subway, or I could call or text Phil, but they're expecting me to drive them home, and I just didn't want to deal with all that.

I ended up taking a walk. I was still fairly close to downtown, but on the outskirts, in a park I'd been to a couple of times a while back. I sat down after thirty minutes or so, and pulled out my phone. I was going to text Phil to see what he was up to with Jess, but I found myself somehow getting to MySpace. I hadn't gone onto the website (Not counting when making videos) since I was in early high school, but for some reason I did then. I saw her and... and Vanessa. That's why I did it; to see them. I saw old friends from middle school too, but... she was so beautiful, and I needed to see her face again.

I started to cry. Not tear up, cry. I looked around me; I was near a walking path, and no one was around. I let the tears come. I didn't weep or whimper, only sat there, the tears streaming down my face. I wanted to smell the Corner Coffee shop, with it's sweet, coffee scent, and I wanted to hear the girl's voice, her voice. I wanted to watch as Vanessa would approach us, and I would be forced to leave... I wanted to redo it, all of it.

The air around us was absolutely wonderful, in a way I can't explain, even now. It brought chills through me, and I could smell pine trees and delicious treats. We sat on a bench, near a path. There were several people biking and walking and running on it, and as it got later, the people started to disappear. It got quite cold, but we both stayed put, me and her. I looked at her and smiled, and she smiled back. We didn't speak for a while, but finally, as she often did, she broke the ice.

"Danny, it is beautiful, isn't it?" she smiled, the sweet smile she always did, her blond hair swiveling in the wind. Her fringe was still long enough to be pulled back into the single ponytail, tied with light blue ribbon.

I just nodded, not saying anything for a long while. How could I compete with her beauty? That was just it; I couldn't. But she chose me, I never chose her. "It does look quite nice..."

I thought about Vanessa. What would she say if she saw me here? Especially with this pretty, no, beautiful girl... I didn't want to think about it.

I could hear a faint piano in the distance. It was playing a familiar song, but it was not seasonal.

"Christofori's Dream," she said, listening in after she noticed I was paying attention to the music. "Very pretty song."

I nodded. "So that's what it is..." I said, "I knew it sounded familiar."

She giggled a little, and I could feel the space between us growing smaller and smaller. She was the one to lean in first, closing her eyes slowly. I did the same, only guessing she would kiss me, and that I should copy her.

Before our lips touched, I opened my eyes for a brief moment, studying the girl next to me, the one I would kiss.

I was glad she would be my first.

The memories hurt me. I didn't want to think about them, it hurt me.

And then my phone vibrated. I wiped my tears away, and looked at the text. Thank God Phil texted when he did, because otherwise I would have gotten all wrapped up in bad memories I so wanted to forget.

Hey! Jess's friend just suddenly decided to show up in London, so can you pick her up from the airport and take her back to the apartment? She said she was going to get a hotel room, but she could come over for a while first. Her name is Kelsi, by the way.

I quickly texted back.

Sure, whatever. But she better not have dyed hair.

No, seriously though, why does everyone dye their hair?!


Phil's POV

Jess and I had spent countless minutes running around town after we left Starbucks, not caring that Dan had ditched us. We went into many shops, Jess buying herself some books she wanted, and then we found ourselves in a sweet smelling shop. By the looks of it, I would guess it was a sweet shop.

"Oh, wow!" Jess said, a huge smile on her face. "How are we going to survive without buying everything?"

I smiled broadly. "I don't know." I shook my head, smiling still. "I guess we'll just have to resist the urge."

She laughed, smiling even bigger, and then dragging me with her to an area with many hard and gummy candies. It smelled absolutely amazing over there, and the sweets looked so good, I could have very well eaten every single one, then and there.

"Which one looks the best?" Jess asked, her face lit up with happiness.

"I'm not sure," I said, studying the candy. "They all look so delicious! But that lollipop looks so good." I picked up a swirling purple and green lollipop. It was actually pretty big, but not too big, and it had a strange bubblegum like scent coming from it.

"It looks so good!" she said cheerfully. "Let's get it!"

I payed for the lollipop and we walked outside, where there was a small bench right outside the shop. "Well, what are we waiting for?" I asked, taking off the clear plastic wrap. "Let's try it!"

Jess nodded, still smiling. "You taste it first."

I nodded, smiling, and took a big lick. "Mm, it's so good! Here, have a taste." I held it out to her, and without grabbing it out of my hand, she took a huge lick herself.

"That's so good!" she took another lick. "For some reason, it reminds me of chocolate chip cookies... and I love it!"

"Hm, it sorta does taste like chocolate chip cookies." I said, laughing a little and taking another lick. "So, do you like London as much as you used to?"

Jess hesitated, for some reason, and then said, "I think so," she seemed a little unsure. "I don't really remember living here much."

I nodded. "Well, do you like it now then?"

She grinned. "Yeah, of course! So, when are we going to see the London Eye?"

I laughed. "Hm, I'm not sure. Not today probably, since it's pretty expensive and Dan is who knows where."

Jess giggled a little. "Alright then." we sat in silence for a moment, and then she spoke again. "Is there an ice-skating place near here?"

I thought for a moment. "Actually, I think there is. But I'm a terrible skater."

It was true. The last time I went ice-skating, I fell on my face and got a horrible bloody nose. I was sort of afraid Jess would want to go, which I pretty much already knew she wanted to, but I was willing to try again. I mean, that was when I was nine.

"That's okay, I can help you." she said, smiling. She stood up, but I stayed seated. "Are you coming or not?" she laughed a little.

I laughed as well and stood up. "Yes, I'm coming."


Dan's POV

I sat, tired and still a bit angry and sad, waiting for Jessah's friend in the airport. I had already met five subscribers, and I was not wanting to meet anymore. It's not that I didn't like meeting them, I was just tired and annoyed and ready to go home.

Finally, after about twenty minutes, a pretty tall girl with light brown hair and dark brown eyes appeared out of nowhere.

"Um, do I know you?" I asked rudely, without thinking at all.

"Not yet," she smiled. "I'm Jessie's friend."

"Oh, right..." I sighed a little, and put on a smile. "Sorry. You're called Kelsi, right?"

She nodded. "And it's totally fine!" she was a very hyper girl. "You can call me Kels, by the way."

Her hair was pretty long, and tied back into a loose ponytail. She was wearing ripped jeans, and a shirt that said 'I [heart] the full moon' and had a werewolf on it. The last thing I noticed, yet it was the thing that stood out the most, was the cast on her right arm. It was in between a light and dark blue in color, and it had a few drawings on it. I tried to pretend I hadn't seen the cast.

"Okay then, Kels. Did Jess tell you I was going to take you to our apartment for a little while?" I asked.

Kels nodded. "And I'm totally fine with that." she smiled really big at me. "Oh, and I'm a huge fan."

"Oh, are you?" I asked sarcastically.

We got all of Kels's luggage, and got into the car. I finally decided to mention it.

"So, how'd you do it?"

She sighed. "Roller blading."

"How did you know I was talking about your arm?"

"A lot of people ask, so I just assumed."

I nodded a little. "I won't mention it then."

She looked at me, a confused look on her face.

"I know what it's like to want to forget something."


Phil's POV

Ice-skating went much better than expected. I didn't fall on my face, which was great. Jess was really good, and I loved to watch her. I didn't know what it was about her, but I felt like everything about her was perfect.

Afterwards, we went back to Starbucks and got hot chocolates. We also finished the delicious chocolate chip cookie lollipop, and decided we would have to get another one someday.

At Starbucks, I decided I needed to ask Jess something.

"Jess?" she looked up at me. "What's your favorite color?"

She laughed. "Purple. What's yours?"

"Blue," I said, smiling.

"Why?" she asked.

"I don't know, I just wanted to know more about you." I replied.

"You want to know more about me?"

"Yeah, of course!" I smiled. "Tell me about yourself."

"Okay," Jess thought for a moment. "Well, my favorite movie is Ella Enchanted, though I don't really like the book. And my favorite book would have to be The Hobbit, but my favorite book series is Harry Potter."

"What about video game? What's your favorite video game?" I asked.

"Hm, hard question." she laughed a little. "I really like The Legend of Zelda games, and my favorites have to be Ocarina of Time and Majora's Mask, and also probably Spirit Tracks, since it was the first one I ever played. I also really like Viva Pinata and Guitar Hero as well."

"What about Pokemon?" I asked.

"Oh, yes, of course!" she said smiling. "I almost forgot."

After a while of more talking, we decided it was best to head home, as it was getting pretty dark. We took the Underground, pretty much silent the entire time. Once we got off and started to head up the stairs to our apartment, Jess hugged me, out of nowhere. At first I was surprised, but then I just hugged her back.

"Thank you," she said softly.

"I don't know what I did, but you're welcome." I said laughing.

She pulled back from out hug, and laughed, but tears were streaming down her face.

"Jess..." I didn't know what I was going to say, so I just asked what anyone would ask. "Why are you crying?"

She wiped her tears on her hand, and then smiled. "Because I'm so happy, Phil... So, so happy."