A/N: Here's the latest chapter of Need You In My Arm's. We are getting more of Adam's POV. Hopefully you will find things getting interesting. Really haven't gotten any views besides from CassieTheNinja. That's okay though because I love where this story is heading and thats what counts. Hope you read,which if your on this page your planning to do, review and ENJOY!
Chapter 7: Love hurts.
***Adam's POV***
Tiana was sitting on her hood across the parking lot in that cute red car parked next to his. Of course she picked that car it's beautiful, just like her. I wanted to desperately run to her and just hold her forever, but I respect her beliefs more than anything and if she wants a break then I'll grant her the wish. But my heart has grown into a gaping hole since she left and I have to be near her. If only for a second, that will keep me sane for the next few days. I walk to her slowly. She still has no idea I'm even in the parking lot. I finally reach the red car and clear my throat causing her to look up and see me. Boy I almost melted when I saw those hazel eyes again. But her eyes seemed different as if she lacked any spark to keep being peppy. She seemed like a scared puppy and I knew at that moment that her emotions exactly mirrored mine. She can hide it from everyone else, but I know her too well.
"Ad...Adam. Wha...what are you doing here?" she asked lost for words.
"Umm actually I was about to take a drive. Clear my head ya know. But what about you. Why are you here all by yourself?" I thought I knew the answer. If she admits it then maybe she can find it in her heart to forgive me. I want to tell her over and over that I loved her and hoped that it would be okay. Her head is hung very low and she rarely stole the occasional in my direction.
" That sounds cool I guess. I guess I wanted a place to think ya know, and I knew if I was alone it would help. Boy was that a lie!" she said sarcastically. I knew this was all my fault. I didn't mean to put her through pain. If only I could turn back time and tell her more how much I care about her. Or I could pick her brain about what exactly I did wrong. That was one thing I've been thinking about since she left. Instinctively i cup her chin and lift it so she can look into my eyes. Her eyes looked borderline watery.
"Tiana what's the matter. This isn't like you."
"Nothing's wrong. Just leave me be kay" she said emotionless.
"Ti you need to talk to me. I don't like seeing you like this. Baby. Please say something." I pleaded.
She chuckled humorously, " Adam don't call me that. Baby. Haven't felt like that in a while. Besides why the hell do you care anyways. To make yourself feel better. I don't need pity so just go." She didn't say that did she. Shit her eyes are dark brown and that means she's pissed. Usually she allows people to help her and I know Im only an ex-boyfriend but I wish she wpuld open up. Why does she have to shut me out. Doesn't she know I'll support her through anything. It's frustrating but I just got to be patient.
"Ok I'm sorry. I shouldn't have called you baby. But I do care. Believe that. Just let me in as a friend."
She glared at me coldly. But something in her eyes told me that her anger was only on the surface and she is very emotional at the moment. "I said I was fine okay! Now you're pissing me off with your fucking presence. Besides don't you have to talk to the lovely Barbra". Her words dripped with anger and hurt. Did she really think I didn't care. If only she knew. But what the hell does Barbra have to do with this. I didn't want Barbra. The girl huge wanted was sitting right in front of him currently spewing venom. Wait! This probably has something to do with my new storyline. Is that what this is about. Damn, shes mad about work of all things. This is absolutely ridiculous. I can't control this stuff so what is the real problem?
My calm exterior started to fade and quickly. My mind raced at an hour a minute. Does she want to push me away or something . "Shit. Is this really what this is about. I didn't ask for this storyline alright. This is really petty even for you."
Her emotionless features flashed into utter disgust and a scowl grew on her face. "Petty huh. You don't know a dam thing about how I'm feeling. Ya know why? Because it was always about your ass. Now I meant what I said. Get out of my face and go to her. Only a matter of time anyways." She was seething in rage. She had no dam right to take it out on me. What a bitch she can be at times.
"Is that what you want huh. You want me to leave and go off and date. Why so you can rack up the pity. I fucking love you and yet you can't see that. Screw this I'm out of here." I turn around to walk away only to hear sick chuckling.
"You don't love me. You always did miss things more once it was gone. I'm glad we're over Addy. Hell I wish I never loved you at all. The only thing that would be better is..."
"I fucking get it! Your happy! Your such a bitch sometimes that you fuck yourself over. So screw you. I'll do what I please from now on. My dear you can rot in hell. And when you realize that you need help guess what. I won't care." With that I stormed off. Each step over to my car harder than the last. My anger was uncontrollable now. She wished she never loved me. Those have to be the hardest words I've ever heard. I didn't mean what I said no matter how much I wanted to. I got into my car and drove off. I took one last glimpse at her and shaw she was smiling manically. I guess she got what she wanted.
The show wasn't for another few hours so I just wanted to relax at my hotel. Tiana's words burned like acid. Did she really mean that? She must of really wanted to hurt me to low blow me like that. Groaning loudly in frustration and defeat, i plopped down on the couch. As I landed I felt a pain on my right side near my pocket. I take the item out of my pockets and chuck it on the coffee table in front of me while trying to readjust myself to a comfortable position. I end up laying on the couch just starting at the ceiling for a bit. Staring into space got me no where so I turn over to watch something on TV. The Devil's game should be on so I could check that out. Reaching for the remote I notice the object that was in my pocket for the first time. My eyes bug open as I sit up and notice that I'm wearing my favorite pair of jeans
I reach over and grab the velvet box off the table and just stated at it for a minute before I finally had the balls to open it up and see what was to be my fate. The large ring danced in the light of the room. Her ring. All of the memories are flooding back. I was going to sweep Tiana off her feet and make her dreams come true. That was before she broke up with him. And now theres this ring to add insult to injury of what never was and what never will be.
Dam Tiana. She wished she never loved me! Well screw her. If only it was that easy. I know that I will always love her. But right now I can't deal with anything. I just need to be preoccupied. I quickly close thighs box and throw it across the room. Grabbing my jacket I rushed out of the room to head to the arena. I got there ten minutes later. I ran into a stage tech who handed me my script. Skimming through I knew tonite would be a breeze on the work end. I walked towards my locker room when i bumped into something...or someone.
"Oh my gosh. I'm so sorry," said a voice. I glanced down and saw I ran into Barbie. I just nodded and glanced away. I just had an arguement over this girl and it's kind of akward. "Umm so Adam. Kinda need to run my lines and since your here and your in the script I was wondering if we could work together?" She asked nervousness evident in her voice. I mean I don't blame her. We really don't speak and she has a slight reputation of being with different guys.
"Uh sure. Just come with me, we could rehearse in my locker room" I turned her around and led her to her locker room. As we got in I plopped on the couch and she sat at a nearby loveseat. My mind started fading and I honestly haven't paid attention to what's going on. I was snapped out of my thoughts when I heard Barbie snap her hands in my face. "Huh. I'm sorry, what?"
"I said what's wrong. You seem to be lost in space, and by the look on your face and the fact that your out of it you proved me right." Was it that obvious. I didn't want to really tell her I mean is it really any of her buissness? But I could see the genuine concern on her face, so perhaps I should tell her.
"Well I really don't want to talk about it, but I guess my relationship's over. It kind of pisses me off." Her mouth opened in shock. I mean I can't blame her. Tiana and I were perfect, what could g o wrong. Everything apparently. She got up and sat next to me, gently rubbing my back. It did make me feel better. Just a little.
"Honey, I'm so sorry. Is there anything I can do?"
"Nah, not really. If you don't mind can we just drop it?" I felt bad, and getting pity only made it worse. It was nice to get some concern from someone though.
"Topic dropped. But hey Adam why don't you go out to the club with me. Hell it might make you feel better. Or we can just go out to eat. Your choice but no isn't an answer." She smirked. I really didn't want to do anything but this girl is going out of her way to make me feel better. Plus its not like she's wrong. I flash her a genuine smile, one of the first all week and agreed. We talked and rehearsed for about a half hour more before she had to leave. We both craved pizza and since Chicago was tomorrow we agreed to go to dinner then. Barbra is really cool. Glad she came to see me today. Although my life is going through the ringer there might be some good out of all of this. I can't help but wonder though what Tiana's doing.
