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Chapter 6: Broken hearted

I spent the rest of the night battling my conscious. Ok so suppose Jasper was in love with me. I have no idea why he would…but suppose he did, what difference did it make. Edward hurt me so bad. And a small part of me wanted to hold on to what we had.

I wish I didn't still love him. Some part knew I always would…he was my first love. The one who introduced me to a whole new world. He made me feel things I never thought I would ever feel.

But I made up my mind he didn't deserve another chance. What happens when another problem presents itself. Better yet what would happen the next time he looses his temper. What I saw in his eyes that afternoon scared me. It was as if he was a Dr. Jackal/Mr. Hyde. I couldn't risk my life just to give him another chance. It was way to valuable.

As for Jasper, I wouldn't bet against Alice if my life depended on it. And if she said we belong together. Then I believe her. But right now I needed sometime to focus on me. And I guess it wouldn't hurt to get to know Jasper as well. After all I knew absolutely nothing about him except for his days with Maria.

I was on a mission to know more.

"Bella?" Esme called from the hall. Since I couldn't handle another minute in Edwards room, Alice allowed me to sleep the rest of the night in her room. God I loved my little pixie. I sat up and told Esme to come in. She was carrying a tray of pancakes and sausages with fresh squeezed orange juice. "What did I do to deserve all this." I asked as my mouth watered from the aroma.

Esme smiled adoringly as she watched me dig in like a savage with an empty belly. "I hope it's good. I haven't cooked in ages. I finally have use for the kitchen." She said happily. "It's delicious Esme. God if you are such a good cook now, I would love to know how good you were back then." She grinned. I'm sure had she been a human her cheeks would be flushed with color.

"I called your father and told him you'll be staying here a little while longer. He knows something is wrong but I wanted to leave it to you to tell him. Maybe you should stop by later to have a talk with him." I sighed. I can't hide from the world. After all there wasn't going to be a wedding. Although a part of me doubted marrying Edward it still hurt like hell. Here I was giving up my life to be with him and here he was leaving…again.

"It would be silly to ask how your feeling wouldn't it?" I forced a smile and looked into Esme's golden brown eyes. "Of course not. I don't know what to say I'm feeling right now. Apart of me is happy that it happened now rather than later. I had my doubts but I was willing to give Edward what he wanted to make him happy. I see now that was my mistake. I won't deny that I'm hurt by him leaving once more, but I don't deserve this. I don't deserve to be miserable."

The tears were flowing down my cheeks as my body trembled with emotion. Esme removed the tray and hugged me. "I know it hurts Bella but you'll get through this. I know you will. Just know you have us here to help you through this. Regardless of what may happen we only wish to see you happy." She kissed me on my cheek.

"Thank you Esme for everything." I said trying to smile through the pain. "Anytime love." she said before walking out the door. I got up and walked into the bathroom to take a nice hot shower wishing it could wash my pain away. No luck. I brushed my teeth and washed my face then walked back into the room to find a pair of cargo shorts and a tank top laying on the bed. I couldn't help but smile. Once again I found my self wondering how did I get so lucky.

I quickly changed and pulled my hair into a ponytail then walked downstairs into the living room to find Emmett and Jasper playing a boxing game on the wii. It certainly was a sight to see. I couldn't even see their fists. "Ha!" Jasper yelled triumphantly.

"Pay up you lose." "No you cheated!" Emmett whined. Jasper grinned wickedly. "And how did you manage to come to that conclusion." "My remote kept going offline." He said holding up the controller." Jasper gave him the "your pitiful look" I couldn't hold it in anymore. I burst out in laughter and they both turned and looked at me. I didn't miss Jasper's adoring smile that made my heart skip a beat.

"Nice to know someone finds me loosing a game amusing." Emmett murmured. "Are you kidding me?" trying to suppress my laughter. "Em how old are you?" "Five." Jasper answered. I giggled again. "I'll show you five." Emmett said crouching into an attack position. "Don't you even think about it." Esme yelled from upstairs. Emmett glared at Jasper. "Lucky" he mouthed before flittering upstairs to sulk alone I'm guessing.

Jasper shut off the game and sat beside me flicking through the channels quietly. "What no how are you feeling Bella?" I asked in mock anger. "I'm an empath I know what your feeling." he joked trying to hide his amusement. "Where's Alice?" I asked wondering why she hasn't attacked me yet. I know she put out my clothes. "She had some errands to run." He said stopping at the movie Dracula. "You have got to be kidding. Of all movies…"

"Bella would you like the remote?" He asked handing it to me. "Oh no I know the remote is a mans prized possesion. I would never take that away from you." he scoffed. "Where do you get all this?" He asked in bewilderment. "A man is hardly a man if he can't share his possessions with a woman." He gazed at me leaving me frozen in a trance. How could I get to know him better if he keeps looking at me like that?

"What should we label that emotion as?" He asked softly. "Umm dazzlment." did that even make any sense? He laughed looking away and freeing me of his enchanting gaze. I peeked up at him taking in his features. Really looking at him now it was as if I had never laid eyes on him before.

Unlike Edward Jasper definitely had no boyish features. His honey colored curls caressed and framed his face. Jasper was stunning. Of course I knew that all vampires were beautiful…but Jasper was…there wasn't a word to describe his beauty.

"Is everything alright?" Jasper asked watching me from the corner of his eye. His lips were twisted away so I couldn't see the corner twisted up into a smile. "Yea..uhh Esme want's me to go visit my dad and-" "I'll take you." He said turning off the TV and standing up. "No you don't have to..I uhh I'll wait for Alice."

"Bella it's not to say I will hurt you. Now come on I'll take you to go see Charlie." He said stretching out his hand for me. I sighed in defeat and took it while standing up. He lead me to the garage to his BMW and held the door open for me. I got in and before I could grab my seatbelt he was already slamming his door.

I was nervous. "Don't worry I'll stick to the speed limit if it makes you feel any better." "Isn't it pain-" He cut me off. "I'm willing to suffer and besides I hate to feel your fear especially if I'm the cause of it. He looked down at his hand witch were on the steering wheel. Did he still feel sorry for my birthday.

"Jasper there's no need to blame yourself for what occurred on my birthday nor what took place afterwards. It wasn't your fault. I was the one who cut myself. I should have been more careful." I said resting my hand over his witch were gripping the steering wheel.

"Bella don't be ridiculous." He said gazing at me. "If I'm being ridiculous then so are you. If it makes you feel any better to hear me say it, Jasper I forgive you." I said sincerely. He held our gaze for an immeasurable moment then cleared his throat. I noticed my hand was still on his and I quickly retract it and placed them in my lap.

I felt my cheeks flush and I was wishing I had my hair down to hide behind. I felt his cold hand gently cupped my chin and smiled so adoringly at me. Was that look always there? Since when did he start looking at me like that? "There is absolutely nothing you should be embarrassed about." He whispered softly. His cool sweet breath tickling my face. Causing my face to heat even more. I quickly looked away. He chuckled and finally started the car and pulled out of the Cullen garage.

"Would you like me to come with you?" He asked after pulling up to the house. He couldn't have drove any slower although he kept it under seventy witch impressed me especially because he wasn't complaining about going so slow. I truly appreciated that. "I don't know if that would be a good idea as much as I would love you to." I said whishing he could. But I didn't want Charlie getting the wrong idea.

"Don't worry he'll probably be to enwrapped in his emotions to think of something between us." I took a deep breath. "It's gonna be ok Bella just relax." I nodded and stepped out the car. Jasper didn't speed to me witch let me know Charlie was watching like a nosey neighbor looking for some juicy gossip.

Jasper placed his hand on the small of my back sending me waves of calmness and courage. Before I could ring the bell he door was opened and Charlie surprised me with a hug. "Oh Bella I'm so glad your alright." Huh where was my father? "Umm" "Esme called me." He explained. "She didn't want to say what happened to you. I was afraid tha-" He sighed and looked up at Jasper.

"Afternoon chief Swan. I don't believe we've been formally introduced." He said smiling brilliantly. Did he just dazzle my father? "Dad?" I asked. "Uhh no I don't believe we were." He said giving him the fatherly death glare. It wasn't even necessary. "I'm Jasper Hale." "Right you're a twin right?" He asked. "Yes my sister Rosalie." "Well come inside. Looks like it's 'bout to start raining any minute." He said stepping aside.

We walked into the living room. Jasper and I sat on the sofa while Charlie took the chair beside me. Watching…

"So what is it that Esme wanted you to tell me yourself." "Well." I felt another wave of calmness pulsate through me. I looked up at Jasper who wore a smile. "You two-" Dad asked bringing me back to focus on the task I so wish I didn't have to do. "No" I quickly replied. I wish. I thought. "Jasper is here for support dad."

"Support. Bella please. What's going on?" Worried evident in his tone. I felt a knot form in my throat and I quickly tried to swallow it but to no avail. I quickly Looked at Jasper again then back to my father who was sitting calmly. Thank god for Jasper. "Dad." I took a deep breath. "The wedding is off." I said hoping he would leave it at that…yea right. "Why Bells what happened? Your not pregnant are you?" He asked nervously. My eyes bulged from shock and utter embarrassment. "What?! No dad….Edward." Gosh why was this so hard. "Edward left."

There I said it. "He did what!" Charlie roared. I quickly looked at Jasper. "Sorry." He smiled apologetically. I could immediately sense the calmness. "What happened Bella?" he asked. How could I even answer that question? "I wish I knew." I said softly. "Bella I'm sorry but I am through with that boy." "Dad please." I whimpered. He stared at me as I allowed the tears to fall freely. Jasper pulled me to him and began soothing me by running his fingers through my hair. "Bella I'm sorry." Charlie said softly. "I just don't want to see you go back to that state you were in."

"Esme thinks it would be best if she stays with us." I looked up at Jasper shocked. He simply rubbed my back. "I don't know…but then It's really not my decision to make." he said quietly. "Bells?" "As much as I would love to stay here dad I think it would be better if I stay with the Cullen's." He nodded. "I'm sorry kid."

My lips trembled. I felt awful. "Dad please." "It's ok Bells." he looked up at Jasper. "You guys better take good care of my Bella. "We will try our best sir." Jasper replied continuing to rub my back. "Bella why don't you go upstairs and pack some of your things." Jasper said softly. I stood up and looked at Charlie.

"I'll behave if that's what that look is for." Charlie stated. I simply walked upstairs and opened my closet door to pull out my bag to find a sheet of paper sitting on the rocking chair. I picked it up and immediately knew who it was from. The question was did I want to read it?

JPOV:

While Bella and I were at Charlie's Esme, Alice, and Rose were setting up the guest room for Bella. We never mentioned it to Bella simply because we already knew how hard it would be to be stuck in a room where Bella and Edward spent so much time. And beside we all owed her this much.

"What exactly happened?" What was the best way to explain what happened with out pissing Charlie off as well as myself. "Bella and Edward got into an argument about Jacob. Edward became upset and decided it was best if they called off the wedding." Would that be good enough.

"This is all about Jacob?" He said talking to himself. "That ridiculous." "You took the words right out of my mouth sir." "Call me Charlie…son." He forgot my name. "Charlie." I corrected. "Will she be ok?" He asked. Charlie truly loved his daughter. "I know she will. With all of our help she'll pull through. Is it possible you could alert Ms. Renee about the wedding. I don't think Bella could go through that again." He simply nodded looking at me intensely. He saw right through me.

Before he could expose me I felt Bella's emotions spike. And a whimper followed by a thud. I quickly ran as fast as I could in human speed to Her room. Cursing Edward every step of the way. Charlie was close behind. I opened the door to find Bella in a corner with her legs pulled up to her chin. Not to far away was a letter. I quickly grabbed it and fold it into my pockets. "Bella?" I asked. Her eyes focused on me. "I need to leave." She whispered. "Bella what's the matter?" Charlie asked. "I can't be here anymore dad. I'm sorry. I love you." "I love you to Bells. I hope you get better." He looked up at me.

"Take good care of her son." He said watching me. There was a double meaning to that statement. Did that mean I had his blessing? Jazz your reading to much into it. I said to myself. He walked over to me and embraced me. "Take good care of her. Bella deserves happiness." he whispered. I simply nodded. "I'll send Alice to get her things later." "Sure anytime she's welcomed." I lead Bella down the stairs and to the foyer. It was poring outside.

"Will you call Bella?" Charlie asked. "Of course dad. I'm sor-" "Don't be sorry Bella you just focus on getting better." He said as they hugged. Charlie looked over at me and shook my hand.

"I'll do whatever I can to bring Bella back to you sir." I felt compelled to say it. "You better. I'm holding you responsible." was he threatening me? He had to be joking. I opened the door for Bella. It pained me to see her this way. She was trying so hard to stay strong for everyone else. Pretending that everything was fine. But I could feel her pain. Her heart was broken whether she wanted to admit it or not. And hopefully I would be the one to put it back together.

"Could you tell me what that was about?" I asked once in the car. She was silent. "Bella?" I asked. "He didn't leave." She whispered. Could a vampire's frozen heart break?

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Ok so what did you guys think? On sunday Love Changes hit over 1k witch is amazing.

So to reward you I stayed up till 5:30 am this morning to write this! You can say I got a little carried away lol so I really hope you all enjoy and make me happy by telling me what you think. Also there is going to be a new character that would be introduced in a later chapter and I need a name. Tell me what suggestions you all have. It would be a boy... a little boy. So any cute names you have please tell me. I'm thinking of Riley. Anyways till next time....