Hey guys! I hope you had a very Merry Christmas! I also wish you guys a Happy New Year, since im not too sure if I'll be updating either this or It Girl before New Years. (: Well the drama unravels in this chapter. More to come!
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If you ever leave me, baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
'Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don't have it anymore.
"What do you mean the wedding's off, Christina?" Mama rose her voice as Christina walked away from the kitchen. She didnt wanna deal with this right now. "What's going on between you and Logan? You guys seemed perfect."
"Well, that's not the case."
"Christina, you can't just call the wedding off, you guys were already-"
"MA, it's off, that's that!" She waved off her mother and left the house.
"Honey, just let it go." Papa said putting his arm around Mama. "The most we can do is be there for her."
"But i just dont understand how they were doing so well & then all of a sudden the wedding's off.."
"I know, I know. Just let it be." He said rubbing her arm.
Christina drove off to spend some time with Felicia and Rodney. She didnt want to be near anyone else, especially Logan. Since they called it quits, nothing's been the same. They havent talked nor heard from each other all day. Well, they have always tried to take their own time to think about things after breakups/fights. But Christina had a feeling that things were gonna play out differently this time.
"I know how you feel, Christina. Trust me. I've gotten frustrated with Rodney a lot and its no joke."
"He didnt get it though!"
"I'm sure he did, it's just all in your head. Have you ever thought that maybe you reacted a bit too dramatically? Have you tried putting yourself in his shoes? It always works."
"Why would I put myself in his shoes when I was the one-"
"There you go again, talking about you, you, you. Christina, do you really think Logan was leaving it up to you? He tried really hard. Not to make you feel guilty but he was trying really hard to do everything at once. Hell, he was even looking up wedding stuff during breaks at the studio as I've heard."
"Now you guys tell me this!"
"Well, I didnt think you needed an explanation because I thought you knew Logan well enough." Felicia shrugged. "I dont know, 'Stina. You're my sister and all and I love you. But i dont think it was necessary to put it all on him like that. Take some time to yourself. Hit the club with the girls. Something. Get your mind right." Christina was starting to feel guilty about her actions. She definitely wanted him back. She wanted to rewind time and make last night better. What if it was a little too late? If he thought that she was happy without him, he was wrong. It was a miscommunication. Misunderstanding. And well, it was killing her. How else could she fix this?
There's no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm makin'
To keep you by my side
To keep you from walkin' out the door.
- Logan's POV -
I sat in bed all day, looking at the ring next to my bed. It was over. It was really over. It irritated me so much that Christina would take something so small and turn into something huge - so huge that it had the tendency to break us apart. Whatever though. She gave up, so I wasnt sure if I should put it in any effort. She wasnt happy, and if it takes us to be apart to make her happy.. then so be it.
'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday, it'll rain, rain, rain
"You alright, Loges?" Kendall asked opening my door.
"I guess." I said bluntly, fiddling with the ring in my hand. He closed the door and sat on the end of my bed.
"What's really up?"
"I dont know, man..."
"This is surprising.. this whole breakup between you and Christina."
"I know.. we werent coming to an understanding though."
"That's it?"
"It's not what it seems like Kendall." Kendall rose his eyebrow, signaling for him to continue with his explanation. "She wouldnt let it go. Her anger. Her frustrations. Everything. She was holding a grudge against me and it was hard for her to be happy. She wasnt happy anymore. And not only did it irritate me that she was holding an unnecessary grudge agaisnt me, but maybe she was better off doing her own thing." Kendall nodded silently. "It was all a mess dude. I love the girl but if she isnt happy, what am i supposed to do? Especially if i'm trying to provide my best for her."
"I understand. That isnt like Christina though. It's weird."
"I know, that's what kills me. That isnt like her at all. I didnt want things to end the way they did last night. Hell, I didnt even want it to end. But,.. i dont know. I really dont."
"It's cool. I get ya'. Take some time to yourself man. Do some things with your bros. There's just a lot of tension between you two. & I'm sure.. in due time, things will be better." Kendall smiled, making me smile back.
"YOU GUYS. CLUB. TONIGHT. LETS GO." Carlos said busting into my room holding up a club flier.
"What club is it?"
"I dont know, its a new one." Carlos looked at the flier. "The Social Apartment 24. Hosted by Massive Ent. Opens at 9:30." Carlos looked up smiling. "Coooome on guys, it sounds sick! We need to do something besides play games all day and watch tv!" He was right. Besides the studio, we had no lives. And this "Social" sounded pretty sick, anyways. It's been awhile since we've had some bro time. It was perfect to get my mind off of things.
"I'm down. Let's go. Bro time." I said. Kendall looked at us and nodded.
"Yeah, I'm down. What about James?"
"Oh you know he'd be down. I'll tell him." He closed to the door to tell James about the event.
"Damn it's been awhile, I'm kind of excited." I said getting up to stretch.
"Should we ask Rodney to come?" Kendall asked.
"Uhhm, no. I dont think he would. He loves spending time with Felicia and Nico when he can."
"True. The club isnt for him right now." Kendall and I laughed. "What about Sierra?"
"Uh yeah, sure. She's like a bro." Kendall nodded and excused himself out of my room to call Sierra. I was excited for tonight. I was gonna let all of these troubles and stress go. I needed a break from everything.
I'll never be your mother's favorite
Your daddy can't even look me in the eye
Ooh, if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing
Sayin' "There goes my little girl
Walkin' with that troublesome guy"
But they're just afraid of something they can't understand
Ooh, but little darlin' watch me change their minds
Yeah for you I'll try I'll try I'll try I'll try
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make you mine
- No POV -
After grabbing some dinner at BJ's, the guys got ready for the club. They all decided to look spiffy for tonight - all in jeans, dress shirts, sweaters, ties, vneck sweaters and sneakers. The guys planned to pre-game so FreightTrain was their designated driver for the night. After a couple of shots and beer, they finally headed over to meet Sierra at the club. Once they got there, they spotted Sierra waiting in the VIP line, talking to a security guard guiding the doors. They were all stunned to see how amazing she looked, even if she was in a simple longsleeve grey dress and pale pink pumps. Her hair was loosely curled and her eyes were bold to the dark eyeshadow and eyeliner she put on and her eyelashes were long and curled.
"Hey! You guys made it! Let's go, the party just started!" She said giving them a round of hugs. She scrunched her face when they said their hello's - she could smell the alcohol on their breaths but she quickly laughed it off and lead them inside the club. Carlos was right, the club was pretty sick. It was packed. The mix had the right songs. There was the bar for more drinks. And there were a lot of pretty females.
James decided to help himself to the pretty females on the dance floor and got to dancin'. Kendall wasnt sure if he wanted more drinks or if he wanted to dance as he was sobering up.
"Brooooo, let's get more drinks!" Logan said to Carlos. They were both pretty tipsy. Carlos nodded and headed to the bar while Kendall stopped Logan.
"Wait, are you sure? You're pretty tipsy already Loges."
"I'm good Kendall. I'm gooooooooooood." He smiled, his eyes slowly opening and closing.
"Noooo. I dont think you need anymore drinks man. Just go out there and dance!" But it was too late. Carlos already brought over a glass for him and they started chuggin' away. Kendall was worried those two would get into trouble but at the same time, they were always pretty smart about their actions. Well, at least ONE of them was. He didnt know about Carlitos.
Logan was definitely feeling the alcohol and well, he wanted to have a jollly good time tonight. The first person that came to mind was Sierra, and boy was she looking good to him. He spotted her dancing to the side so he came up behind her and slowly worked with her movements. She was surprised but she let him dance on him anyway. She eased up knowing it was Logan.
On the other hand, Christina walked in with Felicia. Rodney told Felicia to keep her company for the night and to watch her to make sure she didnt drink and drive or something. Christina went straight for the bar ordering shots while Felicia had a glass of Mai Thai - a tropical mixed alcohol beverage, but not as much alcohol in it. She didnt know the guys were at the same club she was at, and hell, she could careless. She wanted her time to just drink and have fun from all this stress.
'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday, it'll rain, rain, rain.
As the two were having a conversation at the bar, Christina swore she saw Logan on the dance floor, but didnt say anything. She didnt wanna make it seem like she was going crazy. Plus she went to the club to get her mind off of him. But it was weird, the guy dancing on some girl looked familiar. They both looked familiar.
On the dance floor, the guys were enjoying their time dancing from girl to girl. Logan was still dancing on Sierra and it's been awhile.
"Hey, I gotta go to the bathroom." Sierra turned around smiled.
"Alright go, I'll be here."
"No come with."
"Why?"
"Wait for me outside or something. I dont want anyone else dancing with you." She smiled and followed his lead. Carlos watched them go and shook his head laughing. He ran off to the bar to get more drinks for himself because he was starting to sober up.
"Yo man! Can i get another?" Carlos winked. Christina turned around, confused. That voice was familiar.
"Carlos?"
"Oh man! Christina! Whaaat's up sis! Whattttt's up Licia!"
"What're you doing here? Where are the guys?" Licia asked behind Christina.
"Oh, around. We're just havin' bro time." He nodded and smiled.
"So.. Logan's here."
"Yeah. I dont know where he went though."
"Oh okay." She watched Carlos down another drink before leaving.
"I'll see you later sis, be safe!"
"That was awkward." Christina said turning back to her sister.
"It's okay. It's only awkard if you make it awkward."
"True. Well I have to go to the bathroom, so I'll be back." Felicia nodded. Christina gave her purse to leave with Felicia before making her way to where the bathroom was. She fixed herself as she walked and stopped in her tracks as soon as she got to the restroom area.
"Oh.. my.. god." She whispered to herself and covered her mouth. She stared at Logan passionately kissing Sierra for a minute. Once they pulled away and looked at each other, Christina ran back to Felicia, tears pouring down her cheek.
"What happened?"
"I saw him.. he.. he kissed her."
"Kissed who? What's going on Christina?"
"He kissed Sierra." Felicia's eyes widened.
"No way…"
On the other hand, Logan and Sierra made their way back to the dance floor when Carlos approached them.
"Duuude! Christina and Felicia are here!" Logan's eyes widened at the sound of her name. Immediately, Sierra felt guilty for their kiss.
"Christina..? Where is she?"
"Uh, over there!" Carlos pointed towards the bar. He was right, Christina and Felicia were there, but they were making their way to the door.
"Hold on.." Logan said walking towards the sisters. He wanted to talk to her. He was definitely sobering up by now and he was wondering if she had seen him and Sierra kiss. Logan finally caught up them outside of the club and he gently grabbed her arm. She slowly turned around and yanked her arm away from him.
Oh, don't just say (don't just say) goodbye (goodbye),
Don't just say (don't just say) goodbye (goodbye)
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make it right
"Get the hell away from me Logan."
"Christina can we just—"
"No, Logan. Get the hell away from me. Seriously."
"Christina.." He tried grabbing her arm once again.
"Don't touch me."
"I just wanna talk to you.."
"Seriously, he's like a five year old. What doesn't he understand?" Christina said to Felicia out of anger.
"Christina, just be mature for 5 minutes." He started to get restless. She gave him a look before getting closer to him.
"Be mature?" She scoffed and walked to the side in order for them to talk.
"What's going on with you?"
"I saw you kiss her in front of my face."
"I didn't kiss her.. She kissed me." The biggest lie Logan could ever tell, but he was scared. He was really scared. He definitely fucked up again.
"Oh so your face just fell onto hers. Great explanation."
"Im sorry—"
"Bullshit. What are we, in high school? I'm done with this. I don't need this. I don't even know why Im taking the time to talk to you, we're over with."
"It's not like that for me."
"Oh yeah? It obviously is if you had the time to kiss her."
"Im sorry. I wasn't in my right mind."
"Whatever. Goodnight Logan. I don't wanna talk to you or see you at all." With that, she left Logan standing there.
"Come on buddy, get back inside." Freight Train patted his shoulder, signaling him to get back inside.
"What happened?" Felicia asked as she tried keeping up with her sister.
"Nothing. Just keep him away from me."
'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday, it'll rain, rain, rain
The song featured throughout this chapter is It Will Rain - Bruno Mars.
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