Sylver - Secrets

You said there's no solution here to find
You went away and left it all behind
I tried to open up your heart
But we always ended up apart

All the secrets I can not reveal
Secrets made you cold as steel
All the secrets that you tried to hide
You didn't need me by your side

I used to think our love was so sincere
But after every fight you disappeared
You tried to put the blame on me
But you won't get away so easily

All the secrets I can not reveal
Secrets made you cold as steel
All the secrets that you tried to hide
You didn't need me by your side

You said there's no solution here to find
You ran away and left it all behind
I tried to open up your heart
But we always ended up apart

All the secrets I can not reveal
Secrets made you cold as steel
All the secrets that you tried to hide
You didn't need me by your side

Secrets I can never tell
Secrets get me in a shell
Secrets that we try to hide
You didn't need me by your side...

All the secrets I can not reveal
Secrets made you cold as steel
All the secrets that you tried to hide
You didn't need me by your side




Bella's POV

It's been a week days since my visit. There are no indications that he is still present in the area; however, on my journeys to and from school, as I ate my dinner, as I tried to rest at night; I felt as though someone or something was watching me. I prayed over and over that it was Edward, yet my naive nature seemed to have dimmed with the growing pain and I soon realised that if it was anyone; it wasn't him.

Today was one of those days, yet I've never been more grateful to have a stalker in my life.


I had finally found it! I had spent so many days looking; trying with all my might to find my place of happiness.

The meadow.

I took a step out of the trees and walked across the grass. The place that had once brought me so much happiness and joy; now left an ache in my heart. It wasn't as bright and cheerful as it had once been; once seemed, now it was darker; an oppressive shade of grey. Perhaps it was merely my attitude that made it seem that way, or maybe with Edward's departure, the flowers had slowly died as had my heart.

I sat on the cool grass for a while, taking in the scenery which now seemed bland. I was lost in my thoughts for some time which is why I didn't hear the approaching footstep's until they were directly beside me. I gasped as I looked up at the figure. Relief coursed through my body as I realised who he was, however the voice of an angel intruded in my mind; warning me to run.

Stand up slowly Bella...be very careful.

Edward's voice sounded in my head as I carefully moved to lift myself from the ground.

"Well this is a surprise Bella."

"Hello Laurent." I smiled as I moved a step away from him. "I thought you were with Tanya's family?" I tried to be conversational as I backed away from him.

Stand still Bella. Don't move.

I stilled my actions immediately; trusting the voice in my head for protection.

"Oh, I was." He took a slow step towards me; watching me as though I was prey. "They are a lovely family...although...I must say that their way of life is proving difficult for me." he smiled at me.

I let out a small chuckle which I hoped wouldn't show my nerves. "It must be a big change for you."

Dammit Bella you need to get away from him.

I started to move away from him and soon it appeared as though we were circling each other. There didn't appear to be an escape.

"You have no idea how much I long for some human blood. No taste compares..." he eyed my neck in an obvious fashion as he completed his final statement.

"I'm sorry Bella...but I feel it's time to give in." He spoke with a smile before releasing a snarl.

Run Bella! Edward's voice screamed in my head and I tried to turn; to follow his orders. I managed one step before I was thrown to the ground. I let out a scream of terror as I realised my desire to live. A week before, I had stood in my room begging for death to find me; now I wanted to fight but I was unable to.

Laurent grabbed my arms and flipped me over so that I was lying on my back; looking up at the snarling monster above me. I thrashed about as hard as I could; screaming in fear, yet nothing seemed to make a difference. My arms hurt from the intensity of his grip and I knew that this was the end. He reached a sharp nail to my face and, pressing hard onto my skin, created a long cut along my chin. The horrid smell of blood filled my senses as he lowered his mouth to lick at the small cut.

Everything was dimming around me as I started to lose consciousness. The last thing I can recall is Laurent's weight lifting off of me and a blur of black standing protectively over my body.

"Edward..." that was my last thought as the darkness took me.


I awoke to the smell of burning. The smelt of burnt grass made my throat feel dry and itchy and as I slowly came to my senses; I noticed the crackling sounds of high flames sounding in my ears. My heavy lids opened after much effort; fluttering slightly as my eyes became accustomed to the light. A large figure was sitting beside me. He was almost folded in on himself; his arms resting against his bent knees which were pulled to his chest and his head in turn, resting against his forearms.

I blinked a few times to ensure that the vision in front of me was correct but I only became fully alert when I heard his deep voice.

"Are you alright?" His voice didn't sound concerned. His question was said in such a flat monotonous voice that it sounded like a statement.

I raised a hand to my head and pushed my hair from my face. I ignored the dizzy feeling as I sat upright and stared at the creature beside me.

"You're shaking." I noted, to which he replied with a stoic; "Yes."

I sat watching him for a moment. "Why are you shaking? Vampire's don't feel the cold."

"The blood." His tone was abrupt and I knew immediately that he didn't want me to broach the subject further.

I turned my face from his and looked out at the fire ahead of me. The flames were dying down slowly with black smoke bellowing above.

"You saved me." I whispered.

"Yes." He clearly wasn't a man of many words and given my catatonic state for the previous months; one would imagine that I would show sympathy...

However, I didn't. "You know you could answer in sentences. It's rude not to." I snapped.

"You're one to talk." I heard him mutter.

I fumed at his comment and turned my glare towards him, shifting my body so that it was directly in front of his lowered face. "And what exactly is that supposed to mean? You don't know me!"

He let out a dark chuckle and slowly lifted his face. Once again I saw his perfect features and my breath caught slightly in my throat.

"I've been watching you for weeks, remember?" He taunted with a small smirk. "I know more about you than you think."

I took a deep breath; my nostrils flaring slightly in indignation. "What do you THINK you know?"

He watched me in silence as I huffed in his face. "I know that you refuse to talk to anyone. I know that you have been searching for this place for a while now but you kept getting lost. I know that you cry every morning and night. I know that you distance yourself from people and most of all I know that as in your sleep; you said the name 'Edward' before you passed out."

Tears filled my eyes as he gave me a rundown of my life. Is that all I've become? My mind questioned the truth in his words and I soon realised that he was correct. I wasn't a person anymore. I ceased to exist. The most hurtful aspect of his declaration however, was the mention of his name; the name that had been forbidden since his departure.

Unwilling to show my hurt, I turned to anger. I huffed as I stood up and started a brisk walk away from him. "Well if I'm so pathetic, what does that make you? You're my stalker!" I shouted over my shoulder as I walked into the shade of the trees.

I kept walking away and I was glad that he didn't follow. I trudged through mud, leaves and logs as I tried to find an exit from the forest. I hastily wiped the fallen tears from my face as I stomped through the woodland and after a while I realised I was lost. I stopped walking and looked at my surroundings. There was nothing familiar about the area I was trapped in, I didn't know where in the woods I was. I looked at my watch and realised that I had been walking for nearly two hours. I looked upwards and saw that the sky was darkening, giving way to the stars that shine at night.

Giving up I sat with my back against a tree and hoped that someone would find me soon. I let my mind wander as minutes began to tick away at a fast pace. It was almost fully dark when I turned my mind back to the stranger. There were so many things I wanted to ask him. I realised as I sat there, that I didn't know his name, his age, why he was looking for the Cullen's and most of all I didn't know why he had showed such consideration for me. He had placed me to rest in my bed when I had been hurt and now he had saved my life.

I didn't understand any of it.

I was shook from my thoughts as an owl hooted overhead in one of the surrounding trees. A shiver ran down my spine as I realised that it was completely dark and I was alone. It was nothing new really; I always felt alone these days. There was a difference however, to being alone in a warm house and being alone in the woods. The difference was fear and slowly I began to cry as I wondered if Charlie was worried about me. Did he even know I wasn't at home? I had come home from school many times of late and gone straight to my room, only resurfacing to take a shower. He rarely checked on me anymore.

I placed my face in my hands as I sobbed. I sobbed through fear of everything. Would I ever get home? Would this pain ever go away? Would I ever see Edward again? I cried for it all.

"Why are you crying?" My head snapped up at the sound and I felt an immense amount of relief at seeing his face. I quickly remembered his taunting words from earlier and stayed silent for a while.

I don't need any help from him.

I folded my arms across my chest and although I realised I was acting like a child, I refused to look at him; willing him away with my mind. He stood still for the longest time, waiting patiently for me to answer him. Soon, he moved to the side of me and sat down against the tree also. We were silent for a long time. I started to hear sounds of rustling around me and I knew the creatures of the night were out to play. I knew that I had vampire beside me, but the thought of nocturnal animal's scurrying around me terrified me.

I grudgingly ended my silence. "I'm lost. I don't know the way back home."

Without a word from my companion, he stood and swept my up in his arms. He cradled me to his chest as he began to run and I closed my eyes tightly in an attempt to control my motion sickness. I felt my eyes prick with tears as memories of running with Edward flooded my memories. I kept them at bay and soon he was jumping lithely through my bedroom window with me in my arms. He placed my feet on the ground and after a few unsteady steps I made my way to my bed.

"What's your name?" I asked in a small voice, feeling embarrassed by the way I had treated him.

He looked at me out of the corner of his eyes and gave a sigh. "Christopher."

A smile filled my face. I finally knew something. I wondered if he would allow me another question and I was grateful that I had tried, but confused at his answer.

"Why do you keep helping me?" I asked as I watched his figure cross to the window.

He lifted himself up onto the ledge and, before he jumped, he answered. "Penance."