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Forever, No More

Chapter 6 - Dazzling and Finding Your way

Bella POV

"You're going to take Jacob away?" I gasped, my legs suddenly feeling like jelly

"I considered it at first, but decided against. Jacob deserves so much more than you," - she said the word as if it gave her a bitter taste - "Jacob is staying, however your feelings for him…" she trailed leaving her words uncompleted, but I got the message.

"You're taking my feelings for Jacob away?" I felt like I was choking

`Nemi sighed, "Yes. Duh." she sounded bored, "And his feelings for you."

"Why?" I asked hysterically

"That way, when you break his heart, it won't hurt as much for either of you, it's easier that way."

I crumbled to my knees, my breath seemed to be stolen from me, I felt like screaming, yelling, hitting something. This was not fair. I knew with deep sorrow that my daughter existed no longer because of me. I had ended my forever with Edward because I am in love with Jacob, now I was having my feelings for him taken away. What kind of cruel world was this?

"You're pathetic you know, so weak." Nemi sneered, inspecting her already perfect polish black nails. "I can't believe you have so many that love you."

I ignored her hurtful remarks, feeling more questions linger in my mind. I knew I deserved this but I could not help but question curiously to myself. Why was she doing this? Hadn't I been punished enough for 60 years? Was fate really that against me?

"Please Nemi. I'm really sorry, I know I deserve nothing but give me another chance. Please." I put my hands together and looked up at her, unable to keep a pleading tone out of my shaken voice. "Don't take our feelings away!"

"Mmmm…." Nemi looked at though she was actually considering my thought. Yes! Things were looking up. I shouldn't have felt that hope though, Nemi had told me she was the Angel of Balance and she looked dead set on her decision. I wasn't sure I could sway her. She seemed the stubborn type.

Nemi was silent, the whole house was silent, even Emily. In this silence, I could do nothing but get lost in my own thoughts. On the inside, I was screaming at myself. Hating myself for believing in fairy tales and happily ever afters. After I had met Edward, I had this deranged idea of forever that used make me sigh when I thought about it, how perfect everything would be. Now it made me gag. I had dreamed that Edward, the Cullens and I would be beautiful, fast, clever, and young forever beings. I would be an equal. Now I felt like screaming at myself. Nevertheless, nothing had been the same when I had changed. Nothing. What I thought would be heaven, was/had been my own personal hell.

Some of my feelings for Edward faded after I was changed; I started to notice things about him that were unperfected. Even though I was mad at Jacob, when he imprinted, I loved having him around. That was when I realized I loved him more. As a vampire, I could see so much more clearly and Edward's words and actions became a little…well…I wouldn't say boring but more out of fashion….Jacob remained his normal jokester loving self, giving me his friendship even when I didn't deserve it. Oh, I believed right now my feelings for Jacob were much more intense than they had ever had been for Edward. I wanted to devour him, claim him as my own. I wanted to make sure everyone knew he was mine. Everyone.

When Belle had appeared, I had felt so much hope, and had felt so lucky. It was too good to be true. I had imagined my new everlastingly relationship with Jacob and the Pack, Billy, Charlie, Sue, surprisingly no Cullens in my new future….Now I would not get it. I had lost before I even had it because of my foolish mistake. Because of my selfishness. ~Why oh why hadn't I chosen Jacob when I first had the chance? Why…

"How can I be sure you won't go back to the Cullens?" Nemi finally asked

I felt my eyes widen in shock. That was her problem. She was afraid that I'd break Jacob's heart again. That was it.

I slowly stumbled to my feet, gripping the counter for support, "I'd never do that, I love Jacob with all of my heart." I admitted truthfully

"It didn't stop you before," she put forward, almost hatefully. I knew she was talking about Italy.

"That was different, Edward was going to die," I argued

Nemi's nostrils flared, "No he wouldn't have. He wouldn't have died, he is too precious to the Volturi. They need someone like him." She stated firmly through gritted teeth.

"Then why did Alice take me?" I asked in a small voice, Nemi's fierceness was scaring me

"Alice is a vampire. You are human. Why didn't she rescue him herself? Because she wanted you, back in her family, because she knew the Volturi would want to change you, leaving you no choice but to do so! It was your only option other that death. That is all Vampires are! Fucking Selfish!"

Nemi's words had left me speechless. Was that the true side of Alice? I did not want to think about it. I should have suspected that anyway, Edward had told me vampires were selfish but I had refused to believe it. Stupid me. Again.

"Going back to our previous subject. How can I know you won't run back to them?" Nemi asked again, the furious fury from her earlier comment remaining aflame in her piercing auburn masked eyes.

"I won't, I promise." I told her, even though I believed this was one hundred percent true, one thing remained. Why would she ask unless there is a valid reason? Did she know something?

Nemi heaved a sigh, she composed herself, strolled toward me and stood a metres away from my face so that I was looking up at her, "Isabella, what did you think when you first saw Edward?"

I frowned, confused by the question. Why was she asking me this? How was this valid?

"I. err…how is it important?" I avoided the question

"It's important, tell me," she said impatiently

"But…"

"Just answer me!" she said sternly, "stop stalling!"

"Why?" I put every ounce of bravery in my body into my voice; I don't think there was much of it. "It's none of your business!"

"Isabella!" she hissed

I flinched at her harsh tone, shaken with fear. "I thought he was beautiful." I told her, not entirely truthfully

"How about the first time he smiled at you?"

I wondered back to the memory, "It was amazing, so beautiful…He dazzled me…" I faltered, finally getting it

Dazzled. He dazzled me. He fucking dazzled me! That was Nemi's point all along. He dazzled me. Dammit! He dazzled me. When I used to be in the dazzling daze, I would forget the world, I'd forget myself, I wanted to lie at his feet and do everything he wanted. I wanted to die for him. I would do anything for him. I would hurt the ones I love for him. I'd give him my blood willingly. If he dazzled me, I would leave Jacob for him…

"NO!" I yelled, feeling my legs fail beneath me, if that was the case, what was the point coming back? Could I ever escape Edward's claws?

Nemi knelt beside me, her eyes surprisingly soft, and sympathetic. It looked good on her. She looked more like Belle. "You figured it out, huh."

I nodded slowly, fear and shame engulfing me, I had to hold back my tears from spilling. I was sure I would cry enough to flood the house. "Help me, stop it happening."

"I'm sorry Isabella, you can only help yourself."

"Please!" I sobbed expressively

"I'm sorry…Isabella…I can't help you now…you will find your way." and with that, there was a red poof of smoke and she was gone, I leaned my head against the wooden cupboards. Feeling as though Nemi had taken a piece of me along with her.

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Belle POV

I chuckled to myself as I watched a human couple across the street bickered nosily. They seemed to arguing about something, I wasn't sure what. It was a male and female, I noticed that the male had aggression in his answers, face and neck red, while the female looked emotionally undone, as if she was about to burst out crying.

Humans, always fighting. Always arguing. Always loving in the end. They were such intriguing creatures, so unpredictable but yet so predictable all the same. It was fascinating to watch them, all the things they did. Their routines. They were a very intelligent race. However, they could be dumb in certain aspects. (Relationships)

My wondered back to my last relationship encounter. Isabella Swan/Cullen. I had watched her since they day she was born. I have watched her childhood friendship with her soul mate. I had watched young Jacob black fall for her at the age of six (he didn't know what it was yet). I watched her remain oblivious to him. I saw her get taken away the Phoenix. I saw her return. I watched her fall in love, with the wrong man. I saw Jacob's feelings resurface. I watched her heartbreak because of that wrong man. I saw Jacob patch her up. I saw her break Jacob. I saw her fall for Jacob also. I saw her change. I saw her regrets. I saw her shame. I saw all the betrayals she did after getting back to the wrong man…that fucking wrong man…..Edward Cullen.

I knew vampires are the most selfish beings on the planets, even if they do care for another's welfare. They always put themselves first. Carlisle Cullen is a strange kind of vampire, the least selfish of them all. However, if you look carefully, not even he is perfect. If he was altruistic, he would have warned Bella to stay away and not lured her in, he should have sent her far, he should have never returned. None of them should have!

Rosalie Cullen, a unique vampire…wanting to be human…but I knew she could never give this up…all this vampire power…I had been on the bridge of changing her back when her thoughts turned selfish. Revolving around fact of Bella dying so she could have full custody of the baby. She hid it though, knowing Edward's mind reading.

Jasper, Emmet and Esmé Cullen weren't the worst culprits in this. They mostly went with the family's decision. Otherwise, they were marionettes to Edward's words.

The Cullen that fascinated me the most was Alice. I could never figure her out, even as a human. Sometimes I thought she actually cared about Bella but other times I just thought she was lonely and needed a friend since Rosalie was useless at that.

I sighed, heavily, remembering something that not even Bella and Charlie knew. Something Renée failed to tell them. Something Edward failed to see in her mind.

Bella is Edward's singer; we all know that, everything rounds on that fact. Well, let's go back….way back. Back to the point when Bella was born. Something had happened then. Something only Renée knew about. If she had survived. Then maybe circumstances would be different. Bella wouldn't have been Edward's singer. She would have. Bella was Jacob's soul mate. She was Edward's soul mate.

Weird thing was; Bella wasn't the only person that came back to this time. Another person, closely known by Bella, also returned.

My fingers tingling jolted me back to earth. I shot up from my bench…tuning into my magic, which was tinkling my insides, begging to be used. This time it was a vision, not a wish. "I'm sorry….Isabella…I can't help you now…you will find your way…" my sister Nemi's loud clear voice echoed through my mind. What…? Why was she talking to Bella? Wait a second! Find. Your. Way. Those words. The words Nemi used before everything went to hell.

Oh No! Oh Great God of Heaven! NO! Shit! This couldn't be happening! Nemi had done it again!

"Great powers of heaven. I summon you now with every molecule of my body. Take me to Bella Swan!" I screamed inside my head, I felt the familiar dizzy feeling sensation explode through my body before I vanished.

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