"I want to know her to" Those words kept going in and out of Meredith's head as Derek just stood there looking at McDreamy as he waited for a response from Meredith.

"Y...Y...you do?" She asks, finally.

"I do. I want to know her." He says

"There is so much more you have to know, Derek. Her favorite color and favorite television show won't cut it."

"I know that. That is why I am saying I want to know her. She is my daughter."

Meredith nods

"Will you let me know her?" He asks

"Of course I will let you know her."

"How though? You don't live in Seattle. You live in Harrah. That is not exactly close. I can't just come out there every day to see Lilly."

"I know." She says and sighs, looking at him.

They are quiet for a minute and Derek just looks at Meredith. He really did love her and wanted to live his daughter, their daughter. For a moment he imagined those two being together and being happy, a family. It made him smile.

"You could move back." He blurts out after the moment of silence the two shared.

"What?" She asks

"To Seattle, you could move back." He says

"I'm not sure if that would be such a good idea." She says, with no emotion

"Oh. If you don't mind me asking, why?" He asks, curiously.

"Well for one, I have a life in Harrah now. My job is there, my apartment, my roommate is practically my best friend, Lilly's school, basically everything I know now." She says

"You grew up here though." He adds

"It's bad memories." She adds in addition.

He sighs

She sighs as well.

"How can you not be angry with me Derek? I hid this from you. You stand there, tell me to move back, and are not mad? Are you not mad?" She asks

"I'm upset that you did it, but I'm not really sure how else to feel."

"You can be angry. You deserve to be." She says

"I am angry with you Meredith, but I can't yell at you anymore." He says, walking closer to her.

"Why? Yell at me. I deserve it!" She says

"Oh, you do deserve it, but I can't yell at you because if I yell at you, I might hurt you again and I don't want to do that." He says sweetly, sitting in the chair next to her.

"You won't hurt me. Just yell at me if you want to. Come on. I know you want to." She says

"Meredith, I do not want to yell at you." He says

"Yes you do! It's not good to build up all that tension and release it later. Do it now." She says, standing up.

He comes over to her and touches her face. She stands there gazing into his eyes. He leans in to kiss her and she leans to.

The door opened and they backed away from one another.

"Oh. I am sorry. I just came to check on Lilly, but I can come back later." Addison says.

"No, Addison go ahead and checks on her please." Meredith says

Addison nods and checks on her.

"Well, her fever is breaking, which is good, but as you know she will need to stay overnight, just for precaution." She adds

"Off course. She is getting better right? I mean I haven't heard her cough and her breathing is better." Meredith says.

"She is fine." Addison adds.

She nods and Addison walks toward the door.

"I'll be back later to check on her."She says and leaves.

"So, she is okay?" Derek says.

"Yeah. She is okay." Meredith adds to his question. Meredith looked away with tears in her eyes.

"Meredith?"Derek asks

"I'm fine." She says and wipes her eyes.

"No you're not." He says and takes her hand.

"I am."

"What is wrong?" He asks

"It is just. I know she is not going to die, but if I would lose Lilly, I'd be lost." She says

"She is healthy, you know that and I know that." Derek says

She nods.

They both stand there, not saying anything. Finally Meredith spoke

"Derek?"

"Yes?"

"Back when you uh chose Addison over me, why did you?" She asks. This was something she has wanted to know forever.

"Why did I what?"

"Choose her. Why did you pick Addison if you didn't love her?"

He sighs. "Because I loved you."

She looked confused.

"I loved you and I still love you. I love you in that crazy what was it? Hold a radio over my head while it's raining, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, definitely pretend to like your taste of music, but I could never hate you love you because I always just loved you." He says.

Hello guys!!! I am so incredibly sorry that it took me this long to update. It is a short chapter, but here is something. Please review and let me know what you think. Fourth semester has begun, so it may be awhile until I update again. Sorry. Thanks!