Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or his characters, and have no right to it except as a long time fan.

Love Emerging Through Pain

Chapter Seven: Decisions and Determination

Inuyasha sighed and crossed his arms as he stood next to the God tree he used to be pinned to and waited for he knew not what.

Kagome didn't want anyone near her in case her wish on the jewel took her back to her time, and he understood that. He didn't want the others to see his reaction if she was taken away, but if she wasn't then she knew where he was.

I wish I knew what she was going to wish. He thought as he lightly tapped his foot against the dirt and grass beneath his feet. It was a useless thought since Kagome had refused to say what it was and just assured him that she believed it to be selfless.

He sighed again and blinked lazily and suddenly Kikyou was there, walking toward him through the trees. He hadn't heard her approach at all; as if she had just appeared.

Inuyasha was confused at how she had done it, but then his eyes widened as he heard her heart beat. He looked closer and noticed she was no longer deathly pale, she had color in her cheeks. Her brown eyes sparkled with life instead of the flat surfaces they had been. He took in a breath and sighed as her scent came to him. No longer was it that of graveyard soil and death, but the fresh scent she had when she was alive.

She stopped before him and he instantly reached out to her. She came to him willingly and he hugged her and realized she really was alive. His Kikyou was alive! He held her tightly, not even wondering how she was suddenly alive. He was just so glad, so happy.

"I missed you." Kikyou said softly. "I cannot believe I am alive." She added excitedly as she rubbed her face against him, feeling his firm warm chest. "We should take advantage of this." She suggested with a light smirk. "There will be plenty of time for questions later."

"You're right." Inuyasha said before he kissed her, uncaring of their surroundings.

The simple kiss turned into two, then three before they lapsed into a continuous loop that quickly turned passionate as Kikyou pressed herself against him. Inuyasha responded by moving his hands along her back, and up and down her sides before sliding down to roughly grab her butt.

Kikyou moaned at the feel of his hands on her, grateful to be able to really feel it as opposed to before when her body was clay. When he touched her then she had been able to feel it against her skin, but it was as if the sensation went no further.

Just as she was about to wrap her arms around Inuyasha's neck he pulled away and spun her around, pressing her against the bark of one of the large roots of the God tree.

She turned her face to the side as she shifted her arms until the palms of her hands and her forearms rested against the bark as she felt him untie her obi. She shivered lightly as her long bright red hakama slid down her legs, sighing at the feel of the cool air hitting her skin.

Inuyasha reached his hand around Kikyou's slender waist and moved his hand between her thighs. He rubbed her womanhood with his clawed fingers until they became moist, then paused as he untied his own obi, unmindful of his sword falling to the ground, and pushed his fire rat hakama down to free himself.

He pulled her hips back slightly so she wasn't right up against the tree and felt her step back until she was slightly bent over against the tree.

He lifted both their haori's and drove himself inside her hot wet body without a second thought, groaning in pleasure at the tight feel of her and the fact that she was no longer cold and hard.

Kikyou cried out at his abrupt entry then moaned quietly as he began to move in and out of her. She moved her legs as far apart as they would go, being trapped by her hakama as she was, and started pushing back against him.

It felt good. So good. Not only was she enjoying the pleasure, but the ability to feel at all. She was feeling pain as well since he was being rather rough with her, but at the moment she didn't care. She just rejoiced in the fact that she could actually feel those different sensations.

She closed her eyes and began to breathe faster and louder as he continued to move within her. He was being so dominant, which wasn't unexpected since he was part dog, but it was surprising since he had never been that way with her.

Maybe it only came out now because I am alive. She was unsure if she liked that. Perhaps if it was only when they were intimate she wouldn't mind since it appeared to be in his nature.

Inuyasha gripped Kikyou by her hips and moaned deeply as he slid in and out of her at a fast steady pace. He briefly recalled trying to use the same position with Kagome but she had fought him on it and got away before he could.

The thought slipped from his mind just as quickly as it had come as he listened to his woman moaning and panting.

He worked his hands beneath her white haori and slid them up to grasp her breasts. He caressed and squeezed the orbs as he increased his pace, thrusting rapidly against her smooth round butt, working toward the release he could feel building.

Kikyou moaned and breathed harshly through her parted lips, her body jerking forward with her half demon's every move, her face brushing lightly against her arm where it rested against the tree root.

She opened her eyes as she felt her long hair slip over her shoulder, drawing her eyes down to the impressions of his hands beneath the rumpled fabric of her haori.

She was definitely enjoying the feel of his hands grasping her and wished her haori wasn't in the way of her view. That thought had her looking over her shoulder to see Inuyasha's wild white hair swaying around him, his lips part as he breath harshly, exposing his fangs.

She watched his eyes blink open to show his unique amber gaze, and she moaned lowly as the combination increased her desire.

Inuyasha leaned forward and claimed his woman's lips in a hard wet open mouth kiss as his thrusts became frenzied.

He moved one hand down to grip her hip and squeezed her breast hard as he pounded into her hot body. He listened as her moans and cries became louder through their kiss before her body began to tighten and pulse around him, her body shuddering as he held her.

He pulled his lips away and increased his speed once again as he gripped her other hip, his head falling back, listening to the sound of their skin slapping together as he worked toward his looming release. Then he suddenly groaned, long and deep, as his body stiffened and his hips jerked in his release.

He moved one hand to rest against the tree to hold himself up on his trembling legs as his body relaxed and his breathing calmed. As he focused on breathing he realized he had never had such a good rut with Kikyou before.

It was probably because her body had been cold hard clay before where now it was warm soft flesh. They had never had the chance to get that far before she had died and he had been sealed.

And he didn't want it to end. She was alive and with him, and he wanted to feel more of her body and the pleasure she could bring him.

Inuyasha pulled out of her before he turned her around and kissed her intensely. Then he leaned down and pulled her hakama back up her legs.

"We should go somewhere more private, so we can continue our time together without anyone bothering us." He said as he tied her obi.

"Lead the way." Kikyou said with a smirk as she watched him pull his clothes back into place and resettle his sword.

Inuyasha lifted Kikyou into his arms and took off at a quick run, not wanting to waste any time.

-oOoOoOo-

After running through the forest and circling around the village of Edo Inuyasha and Kikyou eventually arrived at a cave. It was one he had claimed for himself some time ago, around the time his pack had grown to include Sango.

He stepped inside the opening and placed her on her feet as he looked around. The furs he had acquired from some kills were still there, and by the scent in the air nothing else had taken up residence since he was last there.

"Is this your cave?" Kikyou asked and he nodded.

"I'm going to go gather some wood so we won't have to worry about being unable to start a fire later." Inuyasha told her and watched her nod before he turned and took off for the trees.

Minutes later he returned with arms full of wood, and arranged them for the fire they would need when it began to get cold.

Kikyou had spread the furs out in the back of the cave and was sitting there waiting for him. He joined her and noted that she had removed her tabi socks and sandals, leaving her delicate feet bare.

Inuyasha stared at his woman, still surprised that she was really there with him and alive. She was soft and warm and obviously ready to stay with him instead of going off to wander and deal with demons.

"I can't believe you're here with me, and very much alive." He said quietly as he cradled her face in his hands. Even with what they had done earlier it was still difficult to believe that her being alive was real and not some wishful dream.

"I really am here and alive." Kikyou stated. "I cannot explain how, but you are welcome to continue where we left off if it will help prove that this is real and not a dream."

Inuyasha grinned and leaned forward and kissed her. He quickly had her on her back resting on the furs, and lay on top of her as they exchanged kisses of increasing intensity. He didn't want to waste any more time. He wanted to feel her skin against his, her warm skin, so he lifted himself slightly and reached between them and untied her obi.

He had his own obi undone and tossed aside with hers before he sat back on his heels and loosened his haori. He removed it and tossed it aside as well before he focused back on his woman. He loosened her haori and spread it open, revealing her breasts to his eager eyes. He lowered himself back to her and kissed her as he grabbed a breast.

Kikyou wrapped her arms around his neck and ran her hands along his shoulders and back, enjoying the feel of his warm skin. She instantly parted her legs to allow him to rest comfortably between her thighs, enjoying the feel of the evidence of his desire for her.

She watched as her lover shifted his head down and took her unoccupied breast into his mouth as his fingers continued to manipulate the other. She arched her back slightly and moaned quietly as his efforts began to build her arousal.

She watched him for a few moments before she gently stroked and rubbed his ears then combed her fingers through his thick hair. She held his head to her as she shifted her hips against him, wanting to feel his hardness against her.

Inuyasha growled lightly before he ground his hips against hers, feeling the heat between her thighs building through her hakama. Heat! Glorious heat! He couldn't put into words how much better it was to feel heat coming from her instead of coldness.

How did I ever keep my desire with no encouragement from her body? He wondered.

The thought made him impatient to feel that heat against his skin. He sat up and began to take her hakama off, not bothering to worry about the quickness of his movements. She already knew what was happening and was obviously all for it. What did it matter if he skipped some of the touching?

He pulled her hakama off and tossed them aside before quickly relieving himself of his own, and returned to cover her body with his, bringing his hard length to press against the heat he had wanted to feel so badly.

He groaned in pleasure before claiming her mouth in a rough kiss.

Kikyou moaned into his mouth and wrapped her arms around his neck, tangling her fingers in his hair as she pushed her hips up against his.

She rolled her hips just as he ground against her, and before she could finish enjoying the sensation she felt him pull away and flip her over onto her stomach. He pulled her hips up into the air and she barely got her knees beneath her before she felt him shove himself into her.

She gasped loudly and jerked forward with his movement. She lifted herself onto her hands and wanted to spread her legs but his own legs prevented the movement. So she let her head hang and focused on breathing as he moved in and out of her.

It wasn't at all long before he was moving rapidly, hitting a place inside her that had her crying out each time, the sound bouncing off the cave walls around them. She gasped suddenly and her whole body shuddered as her release flowed through her.

Inuyasha watched as his shuddering lover collapsed, her face pressed against the fur beneath them. He paused his movements and took that moment to take off her haori and her hair tie, releasing her long hair, before shifting her legs so he knelt between them. He gripped her hips, his claws digging into her skin, and continued to pump into her with his rapid movements.

He watched her spread her legs, which pleased him, and moved one of his hands to grab a fist full of her hair. He pulled and her head jerked back, which caused her to rise up on her hands to try and relieve the tension, then she began to rock back and forth against his movements.

He smirked as he panted, loving that his Kikyou was so passionate and involved in their play. He also liked that she wasn't loud, but she wasn't quiet either. She was just right for his ears, but he found himself wanting to hear her scream. To scream his name at that.

Kikyou's breath came quick as her body jerked with her lovers movements. She glanced back before reaching back and dragging one of his hands to her breast, hoping he would understand what she wanted.

She moaned as he leaned over her back and grasped her breasts in his hands, squeezing and pressing them nearly flat as he used her as leverage to continue his quick thrusts. She cried out lightly as pleasure flowed through her body, then again in slight pain as his claws cut into her skin. But surprisingly it only added to her pleasure.

Moments later she dropped to her forearms as he moved his hands back to her hips, and she squeezed her eyes shut as his movements became harder and faster, moans escaping with the air she managed to breathe in. Then she gasped breathlessly as pleasure burst inside her, her body quivering as it spread to seemingly every part of her body.

Inuyasha watched his loves body quivering, her inner hot walls squeezing him, and he decided in that moment that he was going to mate her and make her his forever.

He kept thrusting, his movements turning short yet still hard and fast, as his own release finally began to surface. He leaned down and caged her body, bringing his face to her neck and nuzzled, instinctively waiting for his demon half to surface as his release began to overcome him.

He growled low and deep and jerked his hips as pleasure took over every feeling inside him, but despite his pleasure he was aware that his demon half hadn't surfaced. He didn't understand. He instinctively knew it was supposed to surface in order to mate his chosen female and tie them together, and yet it wouldn't come forward and make it happen.

There was no reason why it shouldn't come forth. Kikyou was the woman he wanted to mate. He was sure he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her, so why wouldn't his demon side come out and make it happen? If it could come out when he was enraged and didn't have his father's fang then it should come at such an important and instinctive time.

Despite his confused thoughts his body relaxed and after a few moments he sat up and decided to try again, hoping this time it would happen. The next release would see him mated.

It didn't happen, but that didn't stop him. He spent the rest of the day and night with Kikyou, satisfying them both and trying and failing repeatedly to mate her, without a thought of Kagome.

-oOoOoOo-

Inuyasha woke slowly the next day and opened his eyes to see Kikyou curled up against him. He tightened his hold on her and looked to the cave entrance, judging by the light he could tell it was late in the day. The sun would be setting soon.

As he looked back to Kikyou's still sleeping face he was finally reminded of Kagome, and recalled she was supposed to make a wish and get rid of the jewel.

She must have made the wish by now. He thought as he shifted his gaze to the low burning fire. I still wonder what it was, and if she's still in this time.

He hoped she was, because he still wanted her.

In fact, now he could have both her and Kikyou. He didn't think Kikyou would mind since she knew she was always first in his life. He knew that Kagome would come around to the idea eventually. She always gave him what he wanted in the end.

Except her innocence. He had yet to claim that despite his numerous tries.

Inuyasha held in a sigh and decided to go hunting for Kikyou since she was bound to be hungry. He carefully got up and put on his clothes before he grabbed his sword and dashed from the cave.

He came back a half hour later to see Kikyou still sleeping. He put more wood on the low fire and tended it until it was high again then put the fish on sticks and arranged them around the fire.

The scent of the cooking fish eventually woke Kikyou and she sat up and dressed, idly wishing she could bathe.

"I want to go check in with my friends since Kagome was supposed to get rid of the jewel yesterday." Inuyasha told her as she ate, and Kikyou nodded also wanting to make sure the sacred jewel had been destroyed now that she was aware it was supposed to have been done.

After Kikyou finished eating they left the cave and travel to Edo, Kikyou riding on Inuyasha's back, to see his friends. When they arrived she slid off his back and they walked to Keade's hut and found everyone there, not at all looking surprised to see Kikyou alive and with him.

"You guys don't look surprised to see Kikyou." Inuyasha stated, curious and slightly wary.

"We were already informed about her presence in the area." Miroku said plainly.

"What do you mean?" He asked with a frown. How could they know she was here?

"Lady Kagome told us earlier today that Kikyou was alive." Miroku answered.

"It's Kagome's wish on the jewel that you have to thank for that!" Sango said angrily. "She wished for your heart's desire. Obviously it was selfless enough to get rid of the jewel, but it revealed who you truly wanted despite what you've been saying and how you've been acting for months."

Inuyasha blushed but didn't say anything to that.

"Where's Kagome? Is she still in this time?" He asked instead of replying to Sango's words.

"She is still here, but she is gone." Keade spoke up. "She has gone traveling."

Inuyasha frowned. He didn't like the fact that Kagome was out there alone. Out there at all for that matter, and he wanted to go find her.

"I need to find her. We need to go find her." He said.

"No! I'm not going anywhere with you." Shippo said instantly. He wasn't interested in even being near Inuyasha after what he had done to Kagome. He could still see the disturbing blank look in her eyes and the careless expression on her face.

"No." Sango said just as instantly and Miroku nodded.

"I agree with Sango and Shippo." He said. "The sacred jewel is gone. Naraku and his incarnations are dead. This is Lady Kagome's choice, her decision. There's no reason for any of us to go hunting her down just so we can have her with us. She obviously needs time to herself. She'll return when she's ready." He said reasonably.

Inuyasha didn't agree with any of what Miroku said. If Kagome was serious about needing time to herself she would've gone home through the well. The fact that she had brought Kikyou back to life was a sign to him that she was finally coming around. He knew now that he would have them both.

He conveniently disregarded the fact that Kagome had wished for his heart's desire, and not specifically for Kikyou to be alive again.

"I'm going to find her." He announced. "She doesn't need to be out there on her own, especially since we all know she draws trouble right to her and can't defend herself if her life depended on it."

Keade, Sango, Miroku, and Shippo frowned at him in disapproval. Not that he cared to notice.

"When did she leave? Did she say where she was going or what direction?" Inuyasha asked determinedly.

Kikyou sat quietly listening. She didn't like hearing that Inuyasha wanted to go find Kagome. As far as she was concerned her reincarnation had given up on having Inuyasha and had left to leave them to their lives.

She held back a sigh and considered that since he was so set on going after the girl she might as well take advantage. She might be alive but since Kagome was still alive that meant she still needed to retrieve the rest of her soul.

There was no way she wanted her new life to end because her soul wasn't complete. If that meant her reincarnation had to die then so be it.