Liam ran to the place where he and Mike agreed to meet. When he saw him standing there, alive, his heart lept out of his chest. Dropping his bags he ran to the bleachers that Mike stood at. Their mouths smashed together kissing frantically. Their hands gripped at everything they could reach. Mike moaned loudly into his mouth, making sure to hold nothing back. The noise drove Liam crazy knowing he could make Mike feel that good. His hands inched under Mikes shirt, however they stopped when he felt his ribs. He drew his mouth away, furrowing his brows as he felt around more. "Have you been…." "Its nothing baby." Mike tried protesting but threw his head back against the metal bleachers when Liam rose up his shirt to reveal stuck out ribs and a caved in stomach. "Mike when was the last time you ate?" Liam said carefully. "I don't know. Four maybe." "Four o'clock?" "Four days." "Holy shit Mike why?" Mike flinched at his raised voice, "why would you do that yourself?" "I was just bad. With the pills and everything." Liam searched his breaking voice for answers. "Let me ask you something. If we were not together would you have let the pills kill you." He looked away before answering, "yeah. I was planning to anyway. That place was killing me and i felt dead already so i just thought i would beat it to the punch. I gave myself a month of school. And i met you." "You don't feel that way anymore do you?" He thought before saying anything, thought about lying to make Liam feel better, "i did when we said goodbye." Liam pulled him into a hug, "promise me you won't do that again. Promise me you'll eat at least once everyday." Mike nodded, "only if you promise me something. Promise me we won't let people rip us apart again." Liam looked into his eyes, "i promise. Hey why don't you come over? My parents left and i could make you something to eat." "That sounds good."

Liam stirred something in a pot while Mike sat on the counter, watching Liams hips sway to the radio. Mike watched him in awe, appreciating every part of his body he had yet to see again. And wow did he want to. "Liam what do you think about sex?" He looked over shocked, "in what sense?" "Us having sex. What do you think about that?" "I mean we never talked about it. I want to of course but you never brought it up until now. Figured you would tell me when you wanted you." "I do. A lot actually, but i just have some questions." "Alright." "So like, who would top? And where would we go? And do we eat before or just go?" Liam closed his eyes as he shook his head and smiled, "i always thought we could go on a road trip and stay at some nice hotel in the city, order room service. Just let it happen naturally. I want our sex to be something good, not just in how it feels but with emotion and love and care. I don't know a lot about sex but i think we can learn over time together. Learn what our bodies want you know?" Mike smiled down at him, "i do. But seriously who tops this has been something that has bothered me for a while." "I really don't have a huge preference though i always kinda liked bottoming myself." Liam grinned at Mike. "Liam a bottom! I would have never guessed!" "Ass hole." Liam flicked water onto him. "How about thanksgiving break. Its in a week, i could say its a school trip. That way we would have a couple of days." "Id like that. However we have seen each other naked already so were half way there." "Wow." Mike threw a towel at him.

Liam brought out a huge bowl of spaghetti. Mikes mouth drooled. There was a lot of silence while Liam watched Mike eat plate after plate. At one point he thought he might make himself throw up. But he kept eating. Liam began to wonder where it all was going. Finally he gave up and sat back very pleased with himself. "Got enough there?" Liam joked. Mike threw his hand up to rub his belly, "yeah i think so. Thank you Liam. Really thank you. No ones ever done anything like this for me." Liam smiled while he out his hand on the back of Mikes neck, his thumb brushing against his cheek, "of course baby." Mike sighed, "can we go make out now? I have to get home in twenty." "We better get started soon then."

Mike laid on the bed, letting Liam crawl over him, slipping off his shirt. He smiled when he saw Mikes full belly, happy he was no longer starving. His lips fell there first, sucking on every part he could. His mouth left marks all over his body making Mike sigh and moan. HIs back arched when Liam reached his pectoral. "Right there huh?" he continued around that area sending Mike in hazes. It was the most indescribable feeling having Liams body next to his, his mouth sending him to that world where no one bothered him, except now he wasn't alone there. They kissed until their lips were swollen, never wanting to stop.

They pulled away with a few minutes left, just laying together. Laims head laid on Mikes chest, eyes closed while his hand ran circles over his body. Mikes hand laid in Liams hair, brushing it away. "Can we just stay here forever?" Mike groaned. "Yes. Just wait until we don't have curfews." Liam felt Mike laugh.

Mike arrived, immediately surrounded by his mothers questions on where he was. "Detention lasted longer than i thought I'm sorry." "You need to tell me next time you plan on staying out late Mike." "I will." He was almost out of the dog house she stopped him just as he tried to leave, "is that a hickey?" she yelled. He grabbed for his neck, "uh no it was just i fell." he cringed at his lie. "Mike where were you?" she screamed. "No where!" That was when his dad came in, "whats going on?" "Mike just lied about being in detention and he has a hickey on his neck!" "Mike are you having sex?" his dad was calmer about it then he expected. "No! This is not happening I'm going upstairs." "No wait we need to talk about this!" his mother yelled after. "No we really don't!" he yelled from up the stairs.

He shut the door and rose his shirt up, seeing marks all around his chest and stomach. His fingers ran over them, biting his lip. He dropped his shirt when he dad knocked on the door and came in. "Hey." Mike said nonchalantly. "Hey i just wanted to talk to you for a second." He waved for him to sit. "So i can tell you're active with someone even if youre not having sex yet. I just need you to know I'm here and if you have an questions i will try my best to answer them." "Were fine don't worry." "Ok good. And you know wed love to meet her." His head shot up, "oh yeah i mean ill ask." His dad hit his arm gently and left. He fell back, groaning.

It was friday night when the full family was over for dinner. Aria his parents and his two sets of grandparents. Everything was pleasant until Mikes mother spoke up, "Mike when are you bringing over that girl for us to meet." Aria turned, "you have a girlfriend? When? Who? Do i know her?" Then his grandparents chimed in, "I'm sure she's the most lovely girl I'm very excited to see her." "Yeah son why don't you invite her to the thanksgiving party?" "I uh can't." Mike finally said, looking at the floor. "Why not?" his dad said, "did you who break up?" Everyone swarmed him until he felt tears threatening to fall. Before they could he ran upstairs, sniffling with his back huddled over. They looked at each other, confused. "Ill go talk to him." Aria said. She knocked on the door carefully, opening it to see Mike breathing out heavily, hiding his face. "Hey whats going on?" she sat next to him. "Im not dating a girl." he whispered. "What do you mean?" "I mean I'm not dating a fucking girl there is no girl there never has been not with the dates not now." "Did you make her up to make dad and mom happy?" "No." Her voice became stressed, "Im confused Mike you said there has never been a girl but then you said she's not fake so-" "Its a guy. Im dating a guy. I have been this whole time and now I'm in love with him and i don't know how to tell them because i want more than anything to introduce him but he punched dad when he was getting violent with me and…." "Wait he hit dad?" "Dad was getting aggressive and hit me. Liam happened to be there and he got protective." "Since when did Dad hit you?" "It started a couple years ago. Liams the only one to ever do anything about it." There was a long pause, "so his name is Liam." "Yeah." "Whats he look like?" Mike smiled at the thought of him, "he's got light brown hair, kinda long. He plays lacrosse. I have a picture if you want to see." "Yeah show me." Aria looked excited. Mike got up to get a frame and handed it to her. It was a picture Liam took while Mike was asleep curled up on his chest. She looked at it for a while, smiling sadly, "now i see, he was the one who came running in the house. Gave mom a heart attack. And the school thing, why you were holding hands." Mike nodded. "You two look so happy here." "Yeah we are." Mike laughed at a thought, "last week he saw i wasn't eating so he made me this giant bowl of spaghetti and watched me eat the whole damn thing." his laughs became hysterical. His sister laughed with him to. "Its good he takes care of you. You need that now that I'm gone most of the time." He looked down knowing she was right.

They began driving to the mountains to a cabin in the middle of the snowy woods. It was all beautiful except for the canyon driving. As soon as Mike woke and saw the drop off he grabbed Liams thigh tightly. "Good morning. Sleep well?" Liam coddled. "Uh yeah where are we?" "About forty two minutes away." "Why are there no bars on the roads? What if people swerve?" his voice panicked. "Were fine, people drive on these all the time." Liam laughed. "Thats dangerous." "Im a very good driver don't worry. Plus i wouldn't let us die when we have so much to do with our lives." "You are hilarious Liam. Really you should do stand up comedy." "Not to bad yourself maybe you can be assistant." "Assistant?" "Yeah every comedian needs a hot assistant." "Such a dick." Mike laughed to himself.

The cabin was found after nearly an hour of searching for the snow covered road. It was a tiny square building surrounded by trees and white fluffy snow. There was nothing within twenty miles. "Four days all to us." Liam kissed Mikes hand before they went out to the bitter cold and brought their bags in. Inside there was one king bed, a small kitchen area, a small bath tub in the corner completely exposed to the rest of the room, and a fireplace. "No heater." Mike shivered. "Thats what the fire place is for." "Right didn't see that there." Liam shot him a grin as he tried to start a fire with the wood by the door. It didn't take long for the small cabin to warm up but Mike continued to shiver. "Why don't you take a bath? it'll help you get warm." "Its out in the open." "Ive seen you naked before Mike don't tell me you're getting cold feet from that." "No its just, weird." "Yep. But its ours." Liam kissed him, "now go before you get hypothermia." Liam hit his backside lightly but enough to make him jump. Liam unpacked their things while he waited for Mike to finish. "Hey Liam?" "Yeah?" "Wheres the toilet?" "Outside." Mike groaned loudly as he slid more in the tub.

They laid by the fire after eating a quick dinner. "No cell service tv or heat. What are we going to do for four days?" Mikes chin rested on Liams chest. "Well i can think of a couple things…." Liam teased. Mike laughed against him. They fell asleep right there to the sound of the fire crackling. Liam was nearly all the way asleep when he felt Mike grip his shirt and cry beneath him. "Baby wake up. Hey come on its just a dream." Mike slowly opened his eyes but his grip did not fade. "You ok?" "No." He got up from Liams chest walking to the bed and rubbing his face tiredly. Liam sat up to see him better. "What is it?" he moved to comfort him. "Why are you with me Liam?" He looked at Mike his heart hurt from the question, "what do you mean? I love you." "Yes but why? Why do you love me? I have caused nothing but trouble since we became friends." "Because you make me happy." Mike laughed painfully, "no that can't be it. I am nothing Liam look at me! All i am is depression and anger and abuse all wrapped up in a nightmare! Why would you love this thing?" he shouted with tears and a red face. Liam watched him cautiously, knowing everything he did needed to be done with care. He moved closer, putting his hands on his arms. "I love you Mike, i know this is an awful time for you right now but i want to help you through it." Mike threw off his hands and got back up, pacing in circles. "Why are you doing this?" "Because we are about to share something that is the most intimate thing two people can share and i can't figure out why you want me why you love me and why you would ever want to be with someone like this! Someone who is so messed up its apart of their character! Why did you choose me? Why did you get me on the lacrosse team? Did you just want to fix up a broken up toy? Were you mad your parents never cared to do that for you so you took the saddest looking person and decided to fix me? What is it Liam? What made you think i was a good person to pursue?" Liams heart was pouring out on the floor as tears filled his eyes, "you made me smile. Thats it. You were handsome and your smile made my chest flutter. I saw someone who was drowning in shit and just wanted to be happy. Like i was to. I hadn't smiled in a year and you made me smile with you and your sluggish walk and stupid smile. I just wanted to make you happy, thats still what i want. Because you did that for me by just giving me a chance." Liam was now walking towards Mike, "i know somewhere in all that depression and anger theres someone who loves to play lacrosse and thinks chemistry sucks but still works his ass off to get a good grade. Theres the person who just wants to live a good life. I love that person but i also love the broken and beat up one who needs someone to hold onto. I love them both because they are you. I just want to be the one to make you happy because you tear my heart apart with everything you do and it is the best feeling Mike. The best feeling." His hands were now on him, "please let me in. Let me be that someone who you give your whole soul to. Because you've already taken mine." He put his forehead against Mikes, "please Mike let me in."

Mike nodded, biting his lip, "ok." he whispered. "Yeah?" "Yeah." They inched towards the bed in a long slow kiss. Liam went under Mike, pulling his shirt up first then his own. Without any time in-between their pants were thrown off. They explored everything carefully. It was slow and wonderful, both of them memorizing everything about each other. Breathing and moving together. But there was still one more barrier before they were totally and entirely one anothers. Mike looked at Liam for a sign of doubt, but there was none. Liam only nodded to give permission for him to remove the last bit of clothing separating them. Mike looked at his entirety in utter awe. "Wow….you are….beautiful." he breathed. Liam smiled unlike a smile he had ever made. Mike then took off his, letting Liam look at him again. They remained there for a long time, just looking and feeling and kissing. It wasn't until Mike moved his body down that things were blasted into reality. Liam broke a kiss as his mouth opened widely at the feeling. Mike moved against him carefully, never taking his lips away from him. He smiled when he felt Liams legs go around his hips. They looked at each other one last time, "are you ready?" Mike asked him quietly. Liam kissed him in response, trusting him fully. Mike cried out in Liams neck, holding him closely so he could feel Liams small whimpers. Liams vision became hazy when he felt Mike all over him in every way, pleasure surrounded by every movement. Mike kissed Liams neck to muffle the loud noises coming from him. The feeling has no explanation, no description, no way to tell how it truly felt.

The next time Mike opened his eyes when he was beside Liam, still getting down from his high. HIs hand reached for him, making Liam open his eyes too. They hugged for long moment, Mike burying his head in Liams chest. "That was nothing like i thought it would be." Mike said pulling away only a little so he could see Liams face. Liam was speechless on what had happened. "Did you like it?" Mike asked worried after he still hadn't said anything. Liam smiled tiredly, "that was the best thing I've ever felt. I don't even know what to say except you were incredible. And that i may get very addicted to this." "Me too." Mike kissed him lovingly. Neither of them knew quite when they fell asleep, only that is was easy.

Mike woke to the burning urge to use the bathroom. He got up carefully enough to not wake up Liam. He slipped on pants a coat and boots before running outside. His body stung from the cold. He was inside instantly taking off his clothes and getting back into bed. Liam woke from the cold feeling of his body. "Where did you go alaska?" "Bathroom." Mike laughed. "Come here." Liam hugged Mike until he was warm again. "Can we just do nothing all day?" "For the first time yes we can." Mike leaned into Liams had that went on his back. "Thank you." Liam said. Mike opened his eyes confused, "for what?" "Letting me in."