Chapter 7: Frustration Caused By Secretiveness

Saedi's P.O.V.

Flashback: Returning from Sunset Hill

After we sat, for the first time, in each other's arms, we headed back to Axel's room. To my surprise… it was clean.

"So this is your room?"

"Well it's not just mine anymore."

"What do you mean?"

"This is your room too. We didn't realize there would be this many Nobodies coming to our Organization so you and I have to share. If that's ok?"

"No it's fine, but how about we go to my house and bring back some of my stuff?"

I start to pull on my uniform.

"Is this all we can where?"

"No sometimes we get to wear regular clothes, but that's only when we have our vacation time and after our missions."

He showed me around and then helped me set up my bed close to his, but we're still separated by his nightstand.

"I feel as though we're that happy white nerdy couple from the, The All American Rejects' music video for "Gives You Hell"."

I fell asleep facing the opposite side of Axel's face. (meaning he faced his window while I faced the door.) I wanted to hide the blush creeping across my face from him.

"I hope he didn't see that, because I'll never hear the end of it."

End of Flashback:

The days after were nice. To be honest as the days went on… they became sweeter. But when we started to go out… he started to become my worst enemy. Today wasn't exactly what I'd call normal. Actually what I'm trying to say is… My boyfriend has become a total weirdo. It's been a month since Axel and I have been going out and somehow everyone knows it. I blame Roxas and Xion for that, but strangely I don't mind. I talk to everyone who is left in the Organization. Some I've become more attached then the others, but I still learn from everyone all the same. But lately it seems as though I see them more then I do Axel. When I asked him about it, he just laughed and told me not to worry.

"He makes me so angry. Sometimes… I don't wanna see his face, other times… he's all I think about . This isn't going as I'd plan. It feels as though he's running or hiding from me. Oh Axel why won't you tell me what's wrong?"

This secretiveness has to stop. He's running me ragged. Especially today. He scared the Hell out of me when I woke up and he was grinning like The Cheshire Cat in my face.

"What the FUCK! Axel why-"

"Come on you gotta get up. We have a mission and then after that I have a surprise. Come on."

He practically yanks my arm out of my socket when he tugged on it. We ended up going to Twilight Town. The Mission: Search and Destroy the Six hidden Heartless. The first one was by the Old Manson. It was a similar version of the Chameleon that attacked me the first time.

"It's not exact… but it'll do. This is where I will prove myself worthy."

Axel's at my side. Both of us stare into the eyes of the Heartless. I charge first, both weapons in hand, ready to slay the immoral beast ahead of me.

The battle didn't take to long, but it would have gone much smoother and quicker if Axel would've put more of an effort into the fight. This pattern of laziness continued for the rest of the five battles we were involved in.

"This is starting to piss me off."

By time we were finished the sun was already setting.

"We missed our sunset."

I clutched my fist in frustration and anger. I'm ready to release my furry on him. It's because of him I'm stressed out. I turned to face him with an accusing finger, causing him to jump back but still kept that stupid grin on his face.

"YOU! WHIP THAT FUCKING GRIN OFF YOUR FACE! DO REALIZE HOW MUCH STRESS YOU WERE PUTTING ON MY BODY? I'VE TRYIED AND TRYIED TO WRAP MY BRAIN AROUND THE ANSWER TO WHY YOU WERE DOING THIS! BUT I HAD NO ANSWER! TELL ME AXEL WHY?!"

He did nothing but stand there and smile. I could feel tears threatening to spill from my eyes. He just raised his hand to summon the black portal. He turned to the portal, but cooked his head to the side, facing me, with an even bigger smile on his face.

"If you want your answer… CHASE ME!"

And just like that he ran into the portal disappearing from my sights.

"I'm not letting you get away with this…"

"*growls* AXEL!"

I chased him into the portal. Running and running into the darkness until a light came into view. I ran faster, almost stumbling when I came out. I looked around only to discover that where he led me was a wide open grassy field in Neverland. I continue to look around; the sky is dark with a full moon and billions of stars hanging in the sky. The scene almost calmed me… that is until I realized my soon-to-be ex-boyfriend was still missing. My fists are still clinched, tighter than before, as I looked around for him.

"AXEL! COME OUT NOW!"

"As you wish."

His voice echoed before a black portal appeared right in front of me, allowing Axel to submerge with that same stupid grin that makes me furriest and drool at the same time.

"Hey sweetie."

"DON'T "HEY SWEETIE" ME! I'VE FOUND YOU! NOW TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON WITH YOU! TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS GOING WITH US!"

Tears were starting to spill from my eyes as he pulled me into a heart-felt hug, but I was to blinded by my furry and sorrow to care how much of his "heart" was in that hug. I tried to release myself from him but he was to strong.

"It seems as though he's not even trying."

After about five minutes of struggling, I just gave up and cried into his arms. I didn't hug him back… I just cried and hit his chest without any force repeatedly… And the whole time he just held me while rubbing circles into my back. When I was all cried out, I slowly pulled back and just stared into his eyes. He removed his glove and used his thumb to whip away the rest of my tears.

"You done? You let it all out? Do you feel better?"

I nodded.

"Good." He puts his glove back on and just continued to hold me while he rested his head on mine. "Before I show you why I've been so secretive, I wanna say I'm sorry for causing more stress then I intended to. Please forgive me."

I hesitant for a few seconds, but I started to smirk and just nodded my head while I snuggled closer into his chest. He turns me around to wrap his arms round my waist while placing his head in the crook of my neck.

"You ready to see what I planned for you?"

"Go ahead."

"Ok guys you can come out now!"

At first I was confused about his strange request.

"Who was he talking to?"

When I turned to ask him he just turned my head back.

"Just watch."

YOU WOULD NOT BELIVE YOUR EYES

IF TEN MILLION FIREFLIES LIT OF THE WALL AS I FELL ASLEEP

CUZ THEY FILL THE OPEN AIR

AND LEAVE TEARDROPS EVERYWHERE

YOU'D THINK ME RUDE

BUT I WOULD JUST STAND THERE AND STARE

When I looked up there were billions of these little lights floating down towards us. I he released me as I start to walk towards them. They surrounded us. I laughed as they tickled me and when Axel tried to swat them away. I cupped my hands so Tinker Bell could land in my hands. I watched as they flew around a trail of pixie dust was left in each wake.

"Ha-ha they remind me of teardrops."

Axel stood next to me, slipping his hand in mine. All we could do is just stare in awe.

"It's cute how he's even fascinated by his own surprised."

*CHOURS*

I'D LIKE TO MAKE MYSELF BELIVE

THAT PLANET EARTH TURNS SLOWLY

IT'S HARD TO SAY I'D RATHER STAY AWAKE WHILE I'M ASLEEP

CUZ EVERYTHING IS NEVER AS IT SEEMS

*CHOURS*

CUZ I GET A THOUSAND HUGS

FROM TEN THOUSAND LIGHTLING BUGS

AS THEY TRY TO TEACH ME HOW TO DANCE

A FOX TROT ABOVE MY HEAD

A SOCKHOP BENETHE MY BED

THE DISCO BALL IS JUST HANGING BY A THREAD

Unable to leave me alone, they start to spin me around. When I looked for Axel, he was floating above me with his hand reaching out. I gently placed my fingers in his hand as he helped me get use to the whole floating thing. When he was sure he I was used to it, he began to lead me in a waltz… in the sky.

"I'm not use to this. At all."

While we were dancing, they seem to wanna dance to. Some above, making themselves look like a big halo. Others below. Then they formed a sort of dragon for me and Axel to ride on. I held my arms as we flew through the air, Axel held my waist. When we flew by the ocean I dipped my fingers in the water, feeling it rush through my fingers.

"This is unbelievably impossible. It feels as though is a dream and I'm about to wake up in my bed any minute now."

*CHOURS*

WHEN I FALL ASLEEP

LEAVE MY DOOR OPEN JUST A CRACK

"PLEASE TAKE ME AWAY FROM HERE"

CUZ I FEEL LIKE SUCH AN ASOMEICA

"PLEASE TAKE ME AWAY FROM HERE"

WHY DO I TIRE OF COUNTING SHEEP?

"PLEASE TAKEME AWAY FROM HERE"

WHEN I'M FAR TO TIRED TO FALL ASLEEP

We jumped off the fairy dragon into the field. They turned back into a glob of light and started to fly off into the distance. I was snapped out of my thoughts when Axel held his hand out towards me.

"Wanna follow them?"

I grabbed his hand as we started running after them. Laughing and smiling the whole way. We released our hands so we could race them. After running for a few minutes, we fall backwards onto the grass, head and hair touching the other. Arms and legs sprawled out on the grass as we watched them dance and form hearts in the night sky above us.

TO TEN MILLION FIREFLIES,

I'M WEIRD CUZ I HATE GOOD-BYES

I GOT MISTY EYES AS THEY SAID "FARWELL"

BUT I'LL KNOW WHERE SEVERAL ARE

IF MY DREAMS GET REAL BIZZARE

CUZ I SAVED A FEW AND I KEEP THEM IN A JAR

*CHOURS 2X*

I'D LIKE TO MAKE MYSELF BELIEVE

THAT PLANET EARTH TURNS SLOWLY

IT'S HARD TO SAY I'D RATHER STAY AWAKE WHILE I'M ASLEEP

BECAUSE MY DREAMS ARE BURSTING AT THE SEEMS

I reached my hand out to touch them, but they were just beyond my reach. So I just sat up and put the jar full of a few fairies in my lap to stare at them. Axel sat up too and we leaned back-to-back, smiling in silence. After a few minutes I began to look up and they started to disappear one-by-one.

"Where are they going?"

"Home."

"Well I guess it's time to let you little guys go huh?"

I opened the jar to release the ones I held in the jar. I felt tears sting my eyes for what appeared to be the fifth time today as they slowly floated away.

"If they leave… that means this day is over. I don't want this day to be over… not yet."

"Hey cheer up. Just because they're going home doesn't mean that we have to. If you want to… we can stay here for another minute."

I smiled as I nodded. "I'd love that."

"Oh by the way…"

He turns around to face me with a blood red rose in his hand and an even redder blush on his face.

"It's beautiful."

"They picked it. They said give it to you."

I took the rose and held it close to my heart. We turned to wave good-bye to them as they waved back. Axel lied down on the cool ground with one arm under his head. I crawled towards hen so I could lay onto of him, using his chest as a pillow while holding the rose in clear view. His hand rested on my lower back, messaging it. We stayed like this until I started to get sleepy.

"Come on its time to go home."

"Can you carry me?" I said yawing.

"Sure."

I moved so he could sit up with me in his lap. He put one arm under my knees and the other caress my back. The arm holding the rose was resting on my body while the other swayed with the movement of his body.

"I'm sorry Axel."

"What are you sorry for? I should be the one on my knees begging for your forgiveness."

"No. I should say I'm sorry too. I made a big deal out of nothing and almost ruined something wonderful."

"I guess we're both at fault here."

"Axel, let's make a promise to not keep secrets, unless they're surprises from the other."

"Promise, but only if you promise to don't ever leave me again."

"Deal."

My eyelids were getting to heavy for me to keep open. Once my eyes were closed I snuggled closer into his chest.

"I wanna keep that promise but I don't know if I'll be able to."