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I felt the pain in my heart increase the farther we went from the airport but I knew there was no helping it

Honestly I thought bitterly it's not like I deserve any worse

But the thing was even though I brought this on myself I couldn't help but be selfish

I wanted the pain to disappear

I wanted bella here holding me telling me that it was all just a bad memory

But I don't deserve what I want

I don't deserve bella

No matter what I do I will never be worthy to even be in her life

But still… if we get through this I will spend eternity trying to gain a smidge of bellas love, love that I don't deserve

Edwards been quiet for some time now the thought knocked me of my thoughts and who better to do it then my father that I don't deserve I wonder why? Is it bella? Did she take I later flight because they booked the tickets too late? No, Edward would never allow that. But then what reason could she have to stay at volturia? I wish I could talk to Edward but it doesn't look like he'll answer me. I guess I have to wait…

Oh poor Edward he looks so sad but why? And where is bella? It's not like her not to follow Edward, did she get on the next plane? No, Edward would never allow it. But what if…

"please" my voice was low but I knew they could hear it "stop , I'll explain when were all together but please stop thinking of her"

"I'm sorry son, we'll wait" Carlisle apologised even though it's not his fault

I knew we were close and the others were following

For once in my life I had no idea what to do, it seems as though every decision I make ends in tragedy from the moment bella stepped into my life

But I wouldn't have it any other way because even though meeting bella has turned my entire life upside down I still got to spend some time with my angel and that is something I would never regret

But… I know that bella would surly regret this now

How could she not?

How could she feel anything for me besides hatred?

How could she forgive something that is unforgivable?

I truly never deserved such a creature

We were coming up to the house now and I could see the familiar white paint on the house but all beauty that once make it a home was lost as was bella

We pulled up to the drive and rosalies car followed seconds after

Edward alices thoughts hit me lets just get it over with, theres no avoiding it any longer

I nodded my head but no one but alice saw it

********************************** inside the house*************************************

I sighed as I sat on the couch and everyone followed suit

Alice sat next to me with jasper and everyone else sat across from us with their mates

"would one of you like to explain what happened in volturia?" Carlisle asked breaking the silence

"well… its kinda hard to explain" alice spoke up knowing that I didn't what to talk about it

"why don't you start from what happened when you came back after the vision of bella"

"ok. After I saw the vision the only thing on my mind was to save bella and ways to prevent what I saw from happening" alice explained "at first I knew I was too late so I decided to go to Charlie and help him however I can but as soon as I got through the door I saw bella sitting on the couch watching Romeo and Juliet, it appeared as though nothing happened but I noticed things like how she wasn't surprised that I came barging through the door"

"wait are you saying that she was expecting you" jasper asked trying to think of ways on how that would be possible

"yeah she said that she was sorry to disappoint me for calling me to her when nothing was going to happen"

"wait, I'm confused how would she know that and how would she fake a vision?" Emmett interrupted

"that's what I want to know" I spoke up for the first time

"when I asked her she said that she knew I would be watching her and she knew that if she decided to do something crazy then I would surly see it and come straight away" alice said in her mind replaying that moment

"but we never explained it to her" I said remembering crystal clear that we only told her that she sees but not how or what triggers it

"son, you worry too much bella has always been observant, it's no surprise that she would figure it out" Carlisle told me in a calm voice

Of course I knew how observant she was but it took us years to figure out if these visions were random or if they were caused by something but I didn't speak it cause it did make sense in a way

"ok, now continue alice" esme said beginning to feel impatient and wanting to know what happened to bella

"ok, after that…"

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sorry for cutting it off like that but I need to go and I can continue after

promise to update soon! XD