I'm not calling the hiatus officially over but this is more of a break in the hiatus. I was listening to my ipod and heard the song I used and I was inspired. So much so that I couldn't concentrate on work and wrote a chapter :) Love you guys.
This will definitely contain spoilers through In the Realm of the Basses and Gone With The Will.
Disclaimer: I do not own Gossip Girl or its characters
Rated: T mostly for language. This one isn't really M but it is a pretty high T lol.
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Blair really didn't want to answer her phone. She was well aware that it was Jack and she didn't want to hear anything that he had to say. It was bad enough that she was having to walk to school this morning. Chuck would have picked her up but he had his meeting with the headmistress. After the third call she decided that if she didn't answer Jack would just get angrier and do something stupid. "What do you want Jack?" Blair asked into the phone.
Jack's voice was nice at first. "Good morning to you too sweetheart." Then it suddenly changed, becoming biting . "Here's the deal, from now on you answer your phone when I call. I'm not going to tolerate being ignored."
Blair had known that this was coming. It was Jack after all; he was probably the biggest control freak on the planet. More so even than her. "Fine Jack, is that all? I answer when you call me? Okay good, nice that we had this chat." Blair said rapidly getting ready to hang up.
"Not so fast Blair. I did actually have a reason for calling you." Jack said almost scoldingly. "I did originally want to wish you a good morning. And to tell you that I've thought about it and I really don't want you seeing my nephew anymore. If we are going to date then I want it to be public."
At first Blair thought that she must have misheard him. There was no way he had said what she thought he did. At that, she couldn't help but laugh.
"I'm serious Blair. I want you to stop hanging out with Chuck all the time." Jack said into the phone.
Blair almost snorted. "You've got to be kidding me Jack." When Jack didn't say anything she continued; now realizing that Jack wasn't joking. "You're not kidding. Oh my god, Jack there's no way I'm agreeing to that. In fact that defeats the whole purpose of our little arrangement doesn't it? If I break things off with Chuck who cares if he knows what I did with you on New Years Eve?"
Jack thought about it for a minute; Blair's points were valid. He was stupid for not realizing that she was entirely too smart to be manipulated by him. It was one of the things that drew him to her. He liked to be in control of every situation, every relationship and Blair was something he had no control over. It was intoxicating to be challenged and talked back to the way she did. So if he wasn't going to be able to get her to stop seeing Chuck; he would just have to get Chuck to stop seeing Blair. "Okay Blair you win this one; keep seeing my little nephew."
She was rolling her eyes. How could he have been stupid enough to think that he could win that argument. She was just glad that he had given in quickly; it would have been annoying to continue the argument. "Okay good, so are we done now? I'm almost to school."
Jack could help but smile. Blair obviously had no idea that he was parked across the street from Constance in a town car. "Yes Blair we're done for now. However, I am having something sent over for you today; be sure to wear it tonight. I'll pick you up at eight." Jack continued watching as she approached the school completely oblivious to his presence and seemingly to the fact that he had just spoken to her. He loved just to watch her walk. The way her hips swung back and forth made a heat rise up below his gut. This girl, no Blair Waldorf was certainly more than that, this woman, was going to be the death of him; he was sure of it. He was lost in his thoughts of her; watching her speak to her various subjects like the Queen she was. Still on the phone with Blair, Jack got out of the car to watch her ascend the stair steps of the school. "Blair are you still there? Did you even here what I said, I'll pick you up at eight."
Blair couldn't help but smirk as she spoke next. "Yes Jack I heard you. Is that what you're wearing tonight on our date because if it is you might want to change your pants."
Jack was confused what was Blair talking about what he was wearing and changing his . . . "SHIT!" Jack cursed into the phone as he felt someone bump into him and something steaming hot soaking his pants; specifically in the area of the crotch. He looked towards a giggling group of girls that he recognized as some of the very subjects he had been thinking about previously. Over the phone he could hear Blair laughing. By this time she was at the top of the stares. "Fucking bitch." Jack spat into the phone.
Blair turned around to face him as she spoke; her voice cold and challenging. "That's the second time today Jack that you have thought me less observant than I actually am. I don't suggest doing it again." With that she snapped her phone closed and continued into the school. She needed to get to the headmistresses office; Chuck needed her.
Jack watched as Blair Waldorf continued into the school like the Goddess she was. Most men would have been pissed off at her at that moment but instead he was incredibly turned on. Oh yes he was looking forward to tonight.
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Blair was waiting outside the headmistress's office door when Chuck emerged. His head was down and he looked so beaten; so defeated. Blair's first thought was that he hadn't been allowed back in. That had to be crushing for him. She instantly felt awful what if this set him down that awful path again. But then Chuck looked up.
Surprise registered in his eyes. He immediately tried to change his whole demeanor; to appear happy. He knew it was too late and he saw Blair shake her head and turn to leave. "Blair wait, please." She stopped but didn't turn around. "Damn it Blair I'm trying."
When Blair turned around she wasn't angry like Chuck expected; instead he saw that she was close to tears. "Blair." Chuck said this time in a softer voice; one he reserved for her alone.
Blair closed her eyes trying to stop the tears that she felt burning behind her eye lids. "How much exactly have you been faking around me?" She said opening her eyes and looking at him.
It was Chuck's turn to look away. "A lot." He said quietly. "I'm trying though Blair."
Blair shook her head. "You still don't get it do you?" When Chuck didn't answer she continued. "You can't do this alone Chuck. You have to tell me what you're thinking and how your feeling or you're not going to get better."
Tears
are forming in your eyes,
A storm is warning in the skies,
The
end of the world it seems,
You bend down and you fall on your
knees,
Well get back on your feet ,yeah,
"It's hard okay." Chuck said defensive once more. "I want to let you in; I want to tell you what I'm going through but I don't think that you can handle it. I don't think that you can really handle all I'm feeling." Chuck was almost screaming. "Everything inside of me is scrapping and ripping me to shreds and I spend all my time worrying about whether or not you're believing me when I say I'm getting better." Chuck was lashing out at her again and he knew it. But this was one of those times that he didn't care.
Don't
look away, don't run away,
Baby it's only life,
Don't lose
your faith, don't run away,
It's only life.
Blair couldn't hide the hurt from her eyes; but she recovered quickly. "Chuck there's nothing that will make the pain stop. There isn't a cure and I know that but there's some things that you need to realize. You can't keep going on like this, hiding things inside is only going to make everything hurt more because you are dealing with it all yourself."
You
were always playing hard,
Never could let down your guard,
You
can't win, if you never give in,
To that voice within, saying
pick up your chin,
Baby let go of it , yeah,
"I really am trying Blair; today was just a bad day and I didn't want to put that on you." Chuck said quietly.
Blair walked over to him and hugged him tightly to her. "I can handle it; I promise. If I couldn't I wouldn't be here. The way you are living isn't good though Chuck. What's the point in being alive at all if you hole yourself up in your room drinking instead of living. Your Dad wouldn't want you to do this to yourself."
Don't
look away, don't run away ,
Baby, it's only life.
Don't lose
your faith, don't run away,
Baby it's only life.
"I'm here now aren't I. The headmistress let me back in and I start my classes today." Chuck said mustering a small smile for Blair.
She laid her head on his shoulder. "You're going to get through this Chuck. I'm here, Nate will be here, and so would Serena, Eric, and Lily if you would let them."
"I don't want to talk about them right now." Chuck said with a frosty voice.
Blair had felt his body freeze up. She turned her head to his neck kissed him once. Pulling him closer to her until he relaxed. "Sorry." She whispered.
Take
your hesitance, and your self defense,
Leave them behind, it's
only life,
Don't be so afraid of facing every day,
Just take
your time, it's only life,
I'll be your stepping stone, don't be
so alone,
Just hold on tight, it's only life,
Blair stepped back and took his hand.
"I couldn't do this without you Blair." Chuck said in a sincere voice. "You are the only person who stood by me through all of this with my father. Even while I was off doing God knows what; you were here doing nothing but worrying about me."
Blair squeezed his hand and gave him a smile. What she had done with Jack was going to haunt her for the rest of her life. Even when she was protecting Chuck it hurt because he had so much faith in her that she couldn't help but feel guilty knowing that she in no way deserved that kind of faith.
Chuck who was still anxious said in a voice whose confidence level was much higher than his own. "Let's do this."
She looked to Chuck and said with a large smile on her face. "You sure?"
Oh..don't
look away, don't run away,
Baby it's only life,
Don't lose
your faith, don't run away, baby, it's only life (repeat),
It's
only life, it's only life,
Don't look away…
Chuck grinned and instead of walking forward he pulled her into a kiss. Blair pulled back giggling as she heard phones snapping. She looked around and shrugged before pulling him towards where she saw Nate standing. Chuck could do this; she knew he could as long as he never found out about Jack. As they were walking Blair made her decision final; effectively sealing the deal once and for all. "By the way, I'm going to have to cancel our plans for tonight. I'm really sorry I'm just behind in my homework."
Chuck leaned down and kissed her forehead. "With all the time you've spent with me, I'm not surprised. I'll be fine by myself for one night. Do what you need to do." Chuck said managing a slight smirk.
So it was done. Blair had officially started it. The deal with Jack was all hypothetical before this point but now she had started lying about it. Blair was going to go out with Jack tonight; she was going to play his game, whether she wanted to or not.
Hello my little Upper East Siders. I hope everyone is having a glorious morning. I spotted a tender moment between B and C. Somebody pass me a hanky or a barf bag. Where are the sparks when you need them? Come on B, don't get boring on us.
xoxo
gossip girl
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Jack still hadn't left the front of the school when he got the text from Gossip Girl. When he saw what it said and the attached pictures from several different angles he threw his phone at the windshield. Damn them. Chuck for having everything he wanted and Blair for doing this to him. For making him fall for her, then turning around and running off to his nephew. He placed his head in his hands with his elbows propped on the steering wheel. He needed to get Blair in a compromising position and he need Chuck to see it and after a few moments he knew the perfect way.
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A/N: Sorry for the delay, I love you guys :) Reviews are appreciated.
Song: It's Only Life - Kate Voeguele
