Uruha was staring out from his balcony, smoking a cigarette. He wiped his eyes as he remembered the scene between the drummer and the bassist this morning. As soon as Reita saw him, the honey blonde, ran out of the apartment and rushed home. He started drinking some beer and decided to sit out on his balcony. Just as he was going to take another drink, somebody knocked on the door. He tried to ignore it, hoping that it would go away, but it wouldn't stop.

"Come on Uru. Open the door." It was Reita. "I know you're here. I saw your car in the parking lot…I'm not going to leave, so open up."

The guitarist sighed as he got up and opened the door for the other. The bassist came in and removed his shoes as Uruha walked back outside. He walked out to the balcony and the honey blonde offered him a beer, which he gladly accepted. They stayed quiet as they took sips from their bottles.

"Uru," Reita spoke up. "You know, you've always been a great friend. You've always been there for me and helped me. I know that I've hurt you and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I can't love you more than as a friend. I…Ruki. God, Ruki. The day I met him, I fell so fucking hard for him. You were the first person I told and that probably killed you. I'm sorry for that too. I loved him and I knew you felt uncomfortable when I talked about him around you, so that's why I started going to Kai. He was very supportive, he gave me advice, and just listened when I needed someone to hear me. I've also felt different towards Kai. Closer I guess. Since you and Aoi were good friends of mine and Ruki was my crush, I figured the feeling I had was like him being my brother. But now…now I think it was more. When I allowed myself to let Ruki go, I found Kai. Maybe it's the fragile state he's in now, but I feel as if I need to hold him. It's like the feeling I had towards Ruki, but stronger. I'm sorry. I tried, but I can't feel anything more than friendship for you."

Uruha sighed. "I thought I could be the one to make you happy again."

"I know and you have. You've helped me much more than you think, but I think it's better if we just stayed friends."

The honey blonde blinked a few tears away. "I guess being friends is better than nothing."

Reita smiled and gave his friend a hug. "Thank you."

Uruha hugged back as tight as he could, then they let go. They remained silent , sipping their beers and smoking. The blonde sighed as he leaned on the wooden railing, but shot back when it creaked and moved.

"Careful," The guitarist shouted. "It's loose."

"I noticed." Reita gasped as he looked at the two story drop. He swallowed hard. "You need to get it fixed."

"I know. I'll tell the landlord later."

"Good." The blonde said, then sighed. "I should get going. Kai's probably thinking that he destroyed the band right now."

They giggled. The guitarist smiled. "Well, go calm him down."

"Alright, I'll see you tomorrow."

"Yeah, see you." Uruha said then watched as the other left. As soon as he knew the blonde wasn't coming back, he threw his beer bottle into the left wall above his tv.

"It's not fair." He mumbled, falling to his knees. A single tear fell from his cheek. "It's not fair."

~~At Reita's~~

Kai jumped up from the couch as soon as the blonde walked in. Reita smiled and made him sit back down.

"We decided to just be friends."

The drummer looked down with a frown. "I'm sorry."

The bassist raised his friend's chin. "It's not your fault. I was going to end it anyways."

"Still… about us… I don't know."

"It's ok." Reita said with a smile. "I didn't expect you to want it, but I wanted you to know."

Kai shook his head and hugged the other, which made the blonde feel something he hasn't felt in the past few weeks. He felt happy.

~~At Aoi's~~

The raven sighed as he quietly walked into his bedroom, where Ruki was sleeping. He sat on the bed and rubbed the red head's cheek. It was just two hours ago when Aoi walked in on the other's break down. A little after Ruki started crying, the poor vocalist passed out in the guitarist's arms, and now Aoi was waiting for him to wake back up. Just as he was going to leave, he heard a moan. He turned to find to the younger one's eyes opening.

"Ru." He gasped, sitting back down. "How you feeling?"

"Tired." He mumbled sitting up. "What happened?"

"You passed out in the shower."

Ruki looked up at him then at the mirror on the wall across from them and saw the hand prints on his shoulders. He grabbed the blanket and covered himself up with it. Aoi sighed as he looked back down.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I just lost my temper."

"You scared me."

"I know. And I'm very, very sorry. What can I do to make it up to you?"

Ruki turned away for a second then looked back at him with a smiled. He quickly wrapped his arms around Aoi's neck and pulled the guitarist on top of him. The raven raised his head up to find their faces only a few centimeters apart.

"Lay in bed with me and hug me and cuddle with me and kiss me."

"I'll see what I can do." Aoi whispered with a smile, then planted a small kiss on the red head's lips. Then they closed their eyes as he closed the gap again and this time, his tongue slipped in for some fun.

~~The next day~~

"Eh?" Aoi and Ruki shouted.

"Yeah." Kai said blushing. He leaned on Reita's shoulder as the blonde stared out the window, trying to hide his red face.

"How did Uruha take it?" The red head asked.

"Well," The bassist mumbled. "He took it well."

"So," Ruki started. "You and Uruha aren't dating anymore, but are still friends. You and Kai are thinking about going out and are pretending to while Miyavi's around?"

"Yep." The drummer said with a smile.

"Good." Aoi said pulling the vocalist closer. "That means we can be more open."

Ruki blushed as he smiled and Reita even smiled. "Ru, I want to talk to you real quick."

The red head shook his head and followed the bassist out to the elevators. Then Reita turned and gave a gentle smile. One Ruki hadn't seen in a while.

"Are you happy with Aoi?"

"Uh…where did this come from?" The red head giggled.

The blonde shrugged his shoulders. "Are you?"

Ruki smiled. "Yes."

"Alright. If he ever hurts you, tell me."

"He treats me very well Rei. Better than any partner I've ever had."

"Good. If anything ever happens, you can tell me. I'm here for you and I'll protect you."

The vocalist gave a warming smile. "Ok, but what's come over you?"

Reita shrugged. "I just realized a few things these past few days that I should have a few years ago. Anyways, if you ever need me, call me."

"I will, but doubt I'll have to. I'm glad you're back to your old self."

The blonde's eyes got wide, but then they softened and a smile appeared. "Let's get back to the others."

~~Two weeks later.~~

Uruha was pissed. His rage grew more and more everyday when he saw Reita being so close to Kai. Even though they said they weren't dating, they were flirting all the time. They didn't even need to pretend to be dating because Miyavi left to do some concerts in Europe. The blonde was always rubbing Kai's back, messing with his hair, or touching the drummer some other way. Then the guitarist was constantly seeing Ruki leaning on Aoi and they were holding hands whenever they were together. Uruha wasn't just pissed, he was jealous and depressed that he didn't have anybody. He was alone. He sat up all night contemplating whether he should go through with a plan he made the night Reita broke up with him.

'I will, but not them, no, I won't hurt him again. I'll get the other two to separate. Then…then…'Uruha sighed. 'Why am I doing this? I should be happy for them all. Even if I'm alone. I shouldn't do this.'

"Ok," Kai sighed. "That's enough for today. We need to be back here early tomorrow so we can get to Kanagawa, make the video and get back here."

"Why do we have to go all the way there?" Reita whined.

"Better scenery for the shoot."

They all sighed and started putting their instruments away. Uruha looked over to find Reita moving the drummer's hair to the side and closed the gap between them with a quick kiss. The honey blonde felt his blood boil, but he took a deep breath and looked away only to find Ruki hugging the raven from behind. He didn't need to look close to notice the singer grinding against the older man and something inside Uruha snapped. He watched as Reita and Kai walked out, he saw them grab each other's hand when they were in the hallway. Aoi and Ruki got up to leave, but Uruha pulled the guitarist back.

"We need to talk about something important."

"Ok, shoot."

Uruha looked at Ruki. "Um… it's something private. I need advice."

The red head smiled and shook his head in understanding. Aoi walked him to the door and pulled him into a kiss.

"Go ahead to my place and I'll be there in a little bit."

"Alright. I'll order some dinner then." Ruki said as he walked out.

Aoi walked back and plopped down on the couch. "So what do you need help with."

"Nothing. I needed to talk to you about something serious. I feel guilty enough as it is and I really can't take it anymore."

The raven raised an eyebrow as he took a cigarette out.

"You see, Ruki and I both love Reita. We have for a long time now. We needed a way to sort this out, I mean we both couldn't have him, so we came up with a bet. The one that got you to fall in love with him, wins and got Reita. Ruki jumped right on it, but then…" Uruha paused when something popped into his head. "Then Rei confessed to me. Ru took it hard and ended up using you as a replacement."

Aoi's face had mixed emotions on it. Sad, confused, pissed, and jealousy. Then his face turned red with anger and he jumped to his feet. "You're lying…you're just jealous!"

"I am jealous, but I'm also telling the truth. I feel bad—"

"Shut up!" The raven yelled. "You…you—"

"How long did it take for you two to kiss?"

Aoi's eyes got wide and he looked at the ground.

"The only reason you two kissed in front of us that day was because I told him that you two didn't look like you were dating. I told him to prove it." Uruha said. He was satisfied at Aoi's reaction, but he wanted to push it some more. "Have you two had sex yet? Of course not because he wants Reita to take him."

The raven gasped and was walking back and forth. Uruha saw the devastation in the other's eyes.

"Aoi." He whispered, reaching out for him, but the raven slapped him away. He glared at the honey blonde with teary eyes, then stomped out of the studio.

~~At Aoi's~~

Ruki took a deep breath.

'Tonight's the night. I've waited long enough and now's the perfect time to tell him.'

The red head smiled sitting the plates on the table and then he wiped his clothes off. He heard the door being unlocked, so he quickly grabbed the beer and sat them on the table as Aoi closed the door. Ruki ran up and kissed the guitarist's lips, but when he didn't get a response, the singer pulled away. He looked up at his lover's scowling face.

"What's wrong?" Ruki asked as he rubbed the raven's cheek, but Aoi pushed him back. Before the singer could speak, he was on the floor, gripping his throbbing cheek. He looked up at the guitarist with teary, shocked eyes. The guitarist had punched him.

"A-Aoi?"

"Shut up!" The raven yelled, clenching his fists. "You…you bastard. You used me!"

"Wha—"

"You used me as Reita's replacement, you bastard! If you loved him, you should have taken him from Uruha. You should have never tricked me! I gave you my heart! Damn it! I-I loved you!"

"Aoi." Ruki cried, tears dripping from his cheek. "I'm sorry—"

"Shut up!" The raven yelled. He leaned down, grabbed a handful of the red head's hair and started dragging him down the hall. Ruki screamed until he was thrown face down onto the bed and he turned over to find Aoi removing his shirt.

"You played with my heart. So now I get to play with your body."

The singer shook his head. "A-Aoi, I'm sorry, please—"

"Shut it!" The guitarist yelled, taking his belt off. He tied the vocalist's arms to the headboard posts and started removing the red head's pants.

"Aoi, please! I'm sorry!" The singer cried.

The raven slapped him across the face and continued removing the pants. Ruki shivered when he felt a draft on his thighs, then he realized that his boxers were also gone. Aoi removed his own pants and boxers before climbing onto the other's chest. He grabbed his limp cock and pressed it against Ruki's lips.

"Suck me you whore."

"I'm sorry. Please." The red head whimpered. Aoi slapped him across the face before forcing the singer's mouth open and shoving his member in it. Ruki gagged and more tears rolled out of his eyes. The guitarist just grabbed the other's hair and started thrusting slowly.

'His lips…God his lips are so amazing!' Aoi thought. 'His tongue feels so good. It's just as good as the first time. The way he swirled his tongue around me, got me so excited and—"

Aoi moaned, but opens his eyes and noticed that he had thrown his head back. He remembered that Ruki used him and he felt his blood boil. He pulled his fully erect cock out and moved down between the vocalist's legs. Aoi forced Ruki's legs wider and raised the red head's hips up.

"Please, Aoi!" The vocalist begged. "I'm sorry, Don't! Please don't!"

"Bitch! You think I'm going to let you have the pleasure of being broken by Reita? You're wrong! You used me, so now I get you virginity as payment!"

"No! I don't want this!"

Aoi ignored him and started pushing inside him, making the red head scream. "So fucking tight." He gasped.

"Please! No! It hurts…" Ruki's voice cracked and gave out. He gasped at the feeling of being ripped and the guitarist going deeper inside him.

'No!' He thought. 'No! This can't be happening! Not this way. I wanted you to take me gently. I didn't want you to rape me!'

The raven finally pushed all the way in and glared down at the mess beneath him. He grunted as he tried to pull out, but it was too tight.

"Fuck!" He yelled as he forced his dick out, but then he shoved it back in, making the vocalist scream out again. Then he started rough pace, closing his eyes to avoid the other's face and he ignored the pleas for him to stop. Thrust after thrust, the begging went down as the whimpers and moans got louder. The singer had given up on trying to stop the raven and just tried to overcome it on his own. Aoi opened his eye and stopped when he looked down. He found Ruki's face covered in sweat, tears, it was completely red, and his eyes were squeezed shut. Nothing, but pain was expressed on the red head's face and Aoi felt a wave of remorse go through his body.

'What am I doing?' The raven thought. 'He's completely defenseless. I've hurt him. I…Oh God, I…I'm raping him. I…I didn't even give him a chance to explain.'

Aoi slapped himself in the face and blinked his tears away before carefully pulling himself out. He fell onto the red head and hugged him.

"I'm so sorry Ru!"He repeated the apology, but Ruki would only respond with whimpers and sniffles. The raven sat up and reached over to free the singer, but as soon as he did, Ruki pushed him off the bed. the red head jumped off the bed, grabbed his pants and made a dash for the door. Aoi jumped to his feet and grabbed the other's arm.

"Wait—"

Ruki slapped him across the face. The raven let go and the singer ran out of the room. He slipped into his pants before opening the door and then ran out of the apartment.

"What have I done?" Aoi whispered. He punched his wall and screamed then started punching the wall with both fists.

~~At Ruki's ~~

The singer locked his door and ran to his room, where he collapsed on his bed. He curled into a ball and started crying his heart out.

"Why?" He asked. "Why? I loved you! I was going to tell you!"

Then it hit him. 'How did he find out? Who told him?'

He sat up as his whole body filled with rage. "Uruha."

He jumped to his fee, dug out some shoes, then slammed his door as he left.

~~At Uruha's~~

The honey blonde was on his balcony, staring at the setting sun.

'… then again, Aoi was pissed when he left.' He thought. ' I wonder if they're going to break up. I hope not. I fucked up. I shouldn't have told him that. I—"

Knocking at the door interrupted his thoughts. He put out his cigarette, then walked to the door to open it, and when he did, Ruki pushed his way in.

"You bastard!" The red head yelled. "You told him, didn't you?"

Uruha sighed closing his door. "Yes."

"Why? Everything was ok and you ruined it!"

"It was the truth. You should have told him in the first place!"

"I was going to!" Ruki began to cry more. "I was going to tell him tonight! I was going to apologize and tell him how I felt!"

It got silent. The honey blonde sighed as he walked back out to his balcony. "I'm sorry Ru."

"You're sorry?" The singer yelled stepping out onto the balcony. "That isn't going fix anything. It's isn't going to fix what happened."

"Well I'm sorry, but you're not the only one that got his heart broken!"

Ruki gasped. "You…you did this on purpose. You bastard! You're pissed at Reita and taking it out on me? Don't ruin my relationship because Reita doesn't love you!" He yelled pushing the guitarist.

"Don't you dare!" Uruha yelled, pushing Ruki back. The red head stumbled back and there was a loud snapping noise as he hit the railing. "Ruki!"