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Emily's P.O.V.

I sat there in shock, I had to get surgery on my side, and I only a 45% chance of living through it, a 45% chance of waking up, of sharing a life with Kendall.

My hand tightened around Kendall's at the thought.

"Em, you ok?"

His gentle voice snapped me out of my daze.

I nodded and looked around, Sam was sitting on the ground saying 'I'm so sorry' repeatedly while Logan, James, and Megan calmed him down.I saw tear stains running down his face, his eyes were red and filled with guilt and sadness.

I looked over at Carlos, staring off into space, deep in thought.

Kendall looked at me giving me a reassuring smile before squeezing my hand.

"When are you getting the surgery?"

Carlos's hoarse but innocent voice spoke up, asking the question that was everyone's mind.

" Tomorrow."

Kendall spoke for me.

The Latino's chocolate brown eyes widened.

Logan spoke up,

"Tomorrow? But Kendall what about..."

Kendall glared at him and he stopped talking.

" I have to go call someone. I'll be right back."

Kendall said.

He kissed my nose then walked out.

Suddenly Carlos's face lit up.

"As soon as Kendall gets back we can open the presents we brought for you!" He said gesturing to the gifts.

"You know, to lighten the mood a little." He said smiling.

I nodded my head,

"That sounds great Carlos!" I said with a smile.


Kendall's P.O.V.

Logan reminded me about what I had planned for tomorrow, but I would have to put it off because of Em's surgery.

"I have to go call someone. I'll be right back." I said kissing Em's nose before walking out.

As soon as I walked out I pulled out my phone and punched in the numbers.

It rang about three times before someone picked up.

"Hello?"

I smiled, "Hey mom!"

"Hi Kendall! How are you and Emily?"

My smile faded a little,

"Well, that's why I called."

"Is everything ok?" She asked, concern was laced in between her words.

"I'm not sure," I said looking down at me feet.

"The doctor came in to do a check up on her side and found out it was infected."

I sighed and took a deep breath before continuing,

"She's going to have to get surgery for it tomorrow and she only has about a 45% chance of waking up." I finished, my voice cracking a little at the end.

I heard her gasp through the phone.

"Oh Kendall I'm so sorry."

"We're thinking positive and praying that nothing will go wrong and that she'll be ok."

I sighed,

"So I'm going to put off you guys visiting her until she's better."

"Ok Kendall, whatever you think is best."

I could hear the slight smile in her voice.

I smiled, "Thanks mom, I gotta go. Love you!"

"Love you to sweetie!"

I smiled and hung up.

I walked back into the room, everyone was talking and telling jokes to lighten the mood.

Everyone turned and looked at me.

"Ok Kendall's back!" Carlos smiled.


Emily's P.O.V.

"Ok Kendall's back!" Carlos smiled.

Kendall looked confused and Logan explained why he was so exited.

Kendall smiled and sat down in his chair next to me.

Carlos handed me his present first.


~~********** Time Skip **********~~

"Thank you guys so much!" I smiled.

We were all talking when the doctor came in.

"It's after visiting hours, you can all come back in the morning and see her after surgery."

Everyone except Kendall, said ok.

Carlos started to tear up,

They all started hugging me and said good night.

"We'll see you in the morning Emily." Megan said hugging me before walking out with James.

Everyone left except for Kendall.

We were talking when a nurse came in.

"Sir it's past visiting hour you can't stay in here."

Kendall shook his head, "I'm not leaving her alone tonight." He said.

"You're not allowed to be here right now, it's 10:00 and she needs to get some sleep." She said calmly.

"I'm not leaving her alone, she needs me here tonight and that's final." He said firmly.

She sighed and walked out.

A few minutes later she came back with my doctor.

"He wouldn't listen to me when I told him visiting hours were over." She told him.

The doctor looked at us, then back at her,

"Kendall is allowed to stay here past visiting hours, he is one of our exceptions." He told the nurse.

She nodded and said good night to each of us before walking out

The doctor turned to us.

"But she does need to get a lot of sleep tonight." He said.

Kendall nodded.

"Thank you. And she will, promise." He smiled.

"Alright, the sooner the better, good night." The doctor said walking out.

"Good night Kendall" I said yawning.

He chuckled a little, and leaned back in his chair closing his eyes.

"Good Night Em."

He took my hand in his and started to drift off.


~~********** Time Skip **********~~

I haven't been able to sleep. I was to nervous about the surgery tomorrow. I've been trying to sleep for about two hours now.

I sighed and tapped Kendall's shoulder.

"Kendall, I can't sleep." I half whispered.

I really didn't want to wake him up but I just couldn't help it.

He opened his eyes waking up.

"Hmm?"

"I can't sleep, I'm to nervous about the surgery." I looked down, "I'm sorry."

"It's ok, there's nothing to be sorry about." He said, his voice a little scratchy from just waking up.

"Is there anything I can do to help?"

He smiles at me tiredly.

I nodded and scooted over in the somewhat big hospital bed and patted the empty spot signaling him to lay down next to me.

He smiled, got out of his chair and laid down beside me, gently wrapping his arms around me, careful for my side.

I smiled taking in his warmth.

"Can you sing please?" I asked him.

He smiled, "Sure."

He began to sing Worldwide softly.

Wait, a minute, before you tell me anything how was your day, cause I've been missing,

You by my side, girl...

The last thing I heard before I when to bed was Kendall's soothing voice singing,

"Cause you have my heart."

I smiled drifting off into a peaceful sleep.


~~****** The Next Morning******~~

I woke up in Kendall's arms, he was humming Nothing Even Matters.

I smiled "Morning Kendall."

He looked down at me returning a smile, "Good Morning Em."

I remembered I was going to get my surgery today and grew nervous.

"Kendall, I'm scared, what if I don't wake up?" Tears of worry started forming in my eyes.

He kissed my head,

"Shh, don't think like that, you'll be fine, I promise."

He smiled and kissed my head again,

"Just be positive alright?"

He gave me a reassuring smile and I nodded.

Just then the doctor walked in,

"Oh good, you're up. You have about twenty minutes until the surgery." He gave a slight smile.

I nodded and he walked out. Tears started streaming down my face.

"I'm scared Kendall."

"I know, I know, but you'll be fine ok?"

I nodded.

"Hey, look at me," he brought my face up to his,

"Everything will be fine, I promise." He said calmly, he kissed me and I smiled and nodded.

"Ok."

He started singing to me softly to help calm me down.

I smiled and started to sing along quietly with him.

~~********** Time Skip **********~~

The doctor came in fifteen minutes later to get me for the surgery. Kendall helped me up out of the bed.

"Everything is going to be fine. I promise. Think positive." He smiled and kissed me.

The doctor took me to the surgery room and put the breathing mask over my nose. A few minutes later I started to get drowsy. I gave in to the sleepiness closing my eyes and going into a deep sleep.


Kendall's P.O.V.

I was praying that Emily would make it through the surgery. I walked out into the waiting room and saw Megan, James, Logan, Carlos and Sam sitting and talking to each other.

I took a seat next to Logan.

"Hey Kendall." He said brightly.

Why were they so happy? Were they as worried as I was?

"Hey Logan."

"Em go into surgery?"

I just nodded and looked down.

"Oh Come on Kendall, don't be so sad. She's going to be fine."

"But what if she's not? W-What if something goes wrong?" I said, my voice cracking and barely audible.

He put his hand on my shoulder, I lifted my head and looked at him, tears starting to rim my eyes.

"Don't think like that ok? She'll be fine, just tired."

I nodded, a slight smile forming on my face.

"Thanks Logan."

He smiled and gave me a side hug,

"No problem. Just think positive."

"And think nice, happy thoughts about kittens!" Carlos chimed in.

We all laughed at his reference to Big Time Audition.

Logan was right, I just need to calm down a little bit and think positive.

"I think I'm going to go outside for some fresh air, I'll be right back." I said getting up.

"I'll come to!" Carlos said getting up.

He shoved his arms through his jacket sleeves and followed me outside.

To be honest, I'm glad Carlos was coming with me, I didn't really want to be alone right now.

We walked outside and sat on the bench by the door.

I looked up at sky, dark grey clouds, it looked like it was going to rain.

'Ironic, the weather matched my mood.' I thought.

I closed my eyes and breathed in the cool winter air.

Finally, Carlos broke the silence,

"You ok Kendall?"

I opened my eyes and nodded,

"Yeah, just a little worried."

He nodded understanding.

"Yeah, me to, but she'll be ok."

I nodded,

"I hope so..."

It started to rain lightly.

"We better get inside before it starts pouring." Carlos said getting up.

I agreed and we walked back in the hospital.

We sat back down in our seats and Carlos started messing around, making funny faces, and cracking jokes, helping to lighten the mood. We were all laughing and talking, trying not to worry.

So we sat and waited for her surgery to be over, for the doctor to come out and say that everything went perfectly fine, that Emily was ok.

A few hours later the doctor came out of the room.

"Emily Brown?"

We all immediately stood up.

"Yes?!"

We all half yelled loudly.

He walked over to us, his face almost unreadable.

"Is she ok?!" I almost yelled.

He nodded.

"She should be fine. She's asleep right now and is mostly unconscious from the dose of painkillers we gave her."

"Can we see her now please?"

I asked hopefully.

He nodded and smiled.

"Yes, but only one at a time for now, we don't want her to be overwhelmed if she wakes up."

I nodded and looked at Megan, from what Emily told me, they've known each other since before preschool.

"Megan, you go see her first." I smiled.

She smiled and hugged me real quick.

"Thanks Kendall."

I nodded and she walked to Emily's room. Room number 111, ironically being my lucky number.

We waited for about thirty minutes before she came out.

She gestured for me to go in now.

I nodded and started walking down the hall to her room.

I walked into her room and saw her hooked up to a few machines, including a heart monitor, which was beeping steadily.

I walked over to her bed and sat down next to her, taking her hand in mine.

"See, I told you it would be ok."

I spoke quietly.

I didn't know if she could hear me or not, but honestly, I was partly telling myself that, but that didn't matter, I was just glad she was ok.

Suddenly I heard a long loud beep instead of multiple beeps. I looked over and panicked, I got up as fast as I could and hit the call button as many times possible.

The doctor rushed in with some nurses to see what was wrong.

He saw what was going on and rushed over to me.

"I'm going to need you to leave immediately." a nurse said pushing me out the door.

"No!" I yelled as she closed the door.

I looked through the little window on the door but couldn't see her because the nurses were in the way.

I leaned against the wall, sinking down to the floor. I put my head in my hands, tears streaming down my face.

She couldn't be gone! I promised her it would be ok... A now broken promise...

I needed to get out of here, I needed to clear my head.

I slowly got up and walked to the waiting room.

"Kendall what happ-"

James started but I walked out the door before he could finish.


Logan's P.O.V.

Everyone was talking and waiting for Kendall to come out.

Kendall came out looking upset.

"Kendall what happ-"

James started but Kendall walked out the door before he could finish.

I got up,

"I'll go talk to him." I said about to walk out.

"Wait, I'm coming with you."

Sam spoke up putting the hood of his jacket up.

I nodded and put my own hood on and we walked out after Kendall.

We saw him sitting on the bench outside in rain, his head in his hands.

I ran over and sat down on one side of the bench while Sam sat on the other with Kendall in-between us.

I put my hand on his shoulder.

"Kendall, what happened?"

He sniffled and looked up at me, his bright green eyes now dull.

"S-She's gone!"

He choked out.

I looked at him shocked.

"G-Gone? What do you mean gone?!"

"She flat-lined Logan! I saw it! She flat-lined and all I could do was press the call button."

"I'm sorry... I'm so so sorry..."

Sam spoke up.

Kendall looked up at him, his eyes turning from sad to furious.

"You should be sorry! This is YOUR fault!" He sniffled before continuing on, "This is all your fault! She's gone and it' all your fault Sam!"

Tears started to fall from his eyes as he yelled.

"Kendall stop! It's not his fault!"

"No! She's gone and it's all his fault Logan!"

"Kendall, you're just upset! Stop yelling and just calm dow-"

"No! Stop, just stop! She's gone and it's your fault Sam!"

He gave Sam a mixed sad and angry look before storming off into the rain.

I looked over at Sam, who was looking at the ground.

"Sam I-"

"No," he stopped me, "He's right... It is all my fault..."

"No, it's not! Sam listen, Kendall's just really upset and angry right now, he didn't know what he was saying. He's just blinded by his emotions."

Sam sniffled and nodded.

"I'm sorry."

I nodded and side hugged him as he started to cry.

"It's ok Sam, it's ok."


Megan's P.O.V.

We saw Kendall storm out the door obviously upset, I thought the worst and started tearing up.

About twenty minutes later the doctor came out and told us the news that shocked all of us.

I leaned up next to James and started to cry.

I couldn't believe it.


Kendall's P.O.V.

I ran, I didn't know where, but I just ran, not looking back.

Finally I stopped and found myself in a park. I sat down underneath the nearest tree and cried.

I didn't care if it was raining, I didn't care if I was soaked, I was just upset.

Upset that she was gone, that I yelled at Sam like that.

I know I shouldn't have yelled at him like that, I mean, it really ISN'T his fault.. I felt really guilty now.

I sat and started crying harder.

Suddenly I got this strange feeling.

A mixed wave of emotions hit me, worry, fear, relief, concern.

Where did these emotions come from?!

I got up and started walking back to the hospital with my head ducked down.

When I got to the hospital I saw that Logan and Sam had gone inside.

I walked inside and almost instantly felt five pairs of arms around me.

When everyone stopped hugging me I looked at Sam.

"Look, Sam, I'm REALLY Sorry that I yelled at you like that... I-I just... I don't know what came over me... I didn't mean any of it, I swear, I-I'm so sorry. I-I really shouldn't have yelled at you. Non of this is your fault, I swear, I'm SO sorry Sam."

I hugged him and patted his back before pulling away.

He nodded.

"It's ok.."

"It's not... I'm so sorry."

Sam nodded and smiled slightly.

I turned to Logan.

"I'm sorry for yelling at you to Logan, you were only trying to help."

He nodded and smiled patting my back.

"It's fine Kendall."

I looked down, feeling the tears start to come to my eyes.

I sniffled,

"I-I just can believe she's actually gone..."

Everyone's faces looked shocked.

Did the doctor not tell them? Is this the first time hearing about this?

I felt the tears fall, streaking down my face now.

"K-Kendall,"

I looked up at Megan,

She smiled and continued.

"Emily's alive."

My eyes widened.

"B-but h-how?! I-I saw her flat-line and-"

"They used the shock paddles and brought her back."

James spoke up smiling.

"Kendall, Emily's alive." Carlos said smiling.

I started crying harder, not if sadness, but if happiness, joy and relief.

Emily was ok! She wasn't gone!

I smiled, tears of joy still steaming down my face.

"S-she's ok!? She's not gone, she's ok!"

I cried happily.

"She's ok. Emily's ok."

I repeated smiling and overjoyed.

I looked up at everyone.

"Why are you guys wet?"

James laughed,

"Dude, seriously? You're soaked!"

He laughed again, soon we were all laughing.

I felt the emotion of excitement hit me. But it wasn't my own. Strange...

We heard a door open.

"Emily Brown?"

The doctor called out, again, we all stood up immediately.

"Yes?!"

We all yelled, the doctor, who was normally shocked at our group, smiled.

"She's awake, you can see her now."

He said smiling.

We all smiled wide and rushed to her room.

We ran into her room and I saw her laying in her bed smiling.

"Emily!"

I rushed over giving her a big hug, still being careful of her side.

I felt overjoyed.

I was so happy she was ok. Safe in my arms again.

She hugged me back carefully.

She laughed lightly,

"Kendall you're soaked!"

I nodded and chuckled lightly,

"Yeah.. It was raining outside and..."

I told her everything that had happened at the park, including having the emotions that weren't my own.

I kissed her then pulled away,

"You have no idea how worried I was."

I told her.

She looked at me knowing,

"I think I might have an idea..."

I looked at her confused.

"Why?"

"Well, you said you felt feelings that weren't your own at the park right?"

I nodded.

"Those were my emotions... And afterwards I felt really sad and guilty, those weren't my emotions though."

"So are you saying..."

I started.

"We can feel each others emotions? Yep."

She finished for me.

"Huh, weird..."

She nodded in agreement.

"Hey! Where's my hug?" Megan walked over smiling and hugged Emily. The guys doing the same afterwards.

When we all finished hugging, Ect. , Emily spoke up,

"So what exactly happened that made you all freak out?"

"Well, um, you kinda, sorta, died.."

Carlos said.

"I WHAT!?"

She yelled.

"Ok, hold on, explain what happened please!"

She only half yelled this time.

I nodded and told her what had happened, how she flatlined, Ect.

She nodded, obviously still shocked at what she just heard.

Sam walked forward and hugged her carefully.

"I'm really sorry..."

She smiled and hugged him back carefully,

"It's not your fault Sam. Nothing to be sorry about. We're all ok and that's what matters."

The both smiled and Sam pulled away.

He nodded,

"I know, but I'm still sorry this happened to you guys."

I put my hand on his shoulder.

"It's fine Sam, and not your fault at all ok?"

He smiles and nodded,

"Ok."

Emily cleared her throat and smiled,

"So, um, when exactly do I get out of here?" She smiled.

The doctor came in then.

"Wow, good timing."

Carlos said laughing.

We all laughed a bit.

Emily spoke to the doctor asking her question again.

"Well, in about two, three weeks at most." He smiled.

She nodded her head.

"So, what are we going to do for three weeks?"

"Movie marathons?" I suggested smiling.

"Defiantly!"

"I'll bring the Harry Potter movies!" Megan spoke up smiling wide.

"I'll bring the Paranormal Activity trilogy!" Carlos said happily.

"I'll bring the Spider-man movies!" I said.

"And I'll bring the Batman movies!"

Logan said smiling.

"Don't forget The Avengers and Captain America!" James said smiling.

"Alright! Movie marathon it is!" She cheered smiling wide.

We started it of with her favorite movie.

How to Train your Dragon.


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