Bulletproof
::i wish i could take back all the tears you caused me, and fucking drown you in them::
I stood outside, in the rain, staring at the walls of the Gallagher Academy. Wishing I could be inside those walls, watching Cammie, no matter how bad it hurt.
Been there, done that messed around
I'm having fun, don't put me down
I'll never let you sweep me off my feet
Dillon came up to me and threw his arm over my shoulders. "Dude," he said, "Forget her. She's a Gallagher Girl. You can't be with her. She's not-,"
"Dillon, I know. It's just that.." I trailed off, looking at the walls again, wishing I had the power to make them fall down.
He finished my sentence. "It's just that you're not over her." I nodded, knowing that it was the true. The awful, wonderful, painful truth.
I won't let you in again
The messages I tried to send
My information's just not going in
He turned me away from the Academy using his shoulder.
"Come on. It's DeeDee's 16th birthday party tonight. And I know she wants you there." He waggled his eyebrows.
I raised my eyebrows at him thinking, DeeDee will never be Cammie. You can't replace a true love. No matter how much it hurts.
Burning bridges shore to shore
I break away from something more
I'm not turned on to love until it's cheap
I turned away from him and back to Gallagher. I could see the faint glow of lights in the distance and wondered what Cammie was doing. Probably eating.
Dillon's voice pulled me out of my daze, "You are pathetic. Come on. I'm sure you'll see her again."
I smiled slightly at that thought, Yes I will, won't I? "Alright Dillon. You win. Where's DeeDee's birthday party?"
Has Cammie ever had a birthday party? When's her real birthday? I wondered as we walked away.
Been there, done that messed around
I'm having fun, don't put me down
I'll never let you sweep me off my feet
Dillon replied, "I'm pretty sure it's at the roller skating place. You know, the really old, antique one?"
I nodded. I had thought about taking Cammie there once. She might've like it; old pictures of Marilyn Monroe and others lined the walls and there was a huge disco ball.
Maybe seeing DeeDee will help me get over Cammie.
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
"Come on Dillon. Let's go tell DeeDee Happy Birthday." I punched him the shoulder and he grinned.
"Let's go, man."
And with that, we turned a corner and I gave one last fleeting glance at the Academy and its walls. Walls forbidden to outsiders, walls forbidden to civilians. Walls forbidden, period. To protect whatever secret they were hiding.
I won't let you turn around
And tell me now, I'm much too proud
To walk away from something when it's dead
"DeeDee, hey!" Dillon's voice boomed as we entered the roller rink and saw the birthday girl herself smiling like no tomorrow.
"Hey Dillon. Hi Josh. Thanks for coming." I don't know about you, but it seemed as though that last remark was to me. Only me.
I smiled at my best friend. "It's good to be here DeeDee."
Do, do, do your dirty words
Come out to play when you are hurt?
There's certain things that should be left unsaid
She smiled back. "Can I talk to you Josh?"
Confused, I followed her to the vacant kitchen and she hopped onto the counter.
Looking at her shoes and then finally back at me she said, "So, I know you're having a hard time with Cammie….," she trailed off not looking at me.
Hopping up to sit next to her, I threw my arm around her shoulder, "And?" I asked.
Tick, tick, tick, tick on the watch
And life's too short for me to stop
Oh baby, your time is running out
She looked back up at me and smiled gently. "And I want you to know that I'm here for you if you want to talk, or anything. You're my best friend and I don't like seeing you hur-,"
In the next instant I surprised the both of us when I pressed my lips to hers. Pulling away I said, "DeeDee I'm sorry, I -," A soft pair of lips pressed to mine and cut me off.
When we pulled back she smiled.
I won't let you turn around
And tell me now I'm much too proud
All you do is fill me up with doubt
Smiling back at her I thought, you know, maybe this whole heart break thing won't be as bad as I thought.
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
Prompt: krorange
