Hola everyone! I'm so happy to be back! My brain's finally on the play button! Halleluyah! lol j/k

I'm so sorry for the long update, I hope you can forgive me :(

well, I'll stop talking and let you read on...

Previously on WHAT DOES IT MATTER? ....

"I'm serious Hinata, please help me, please!"

Hinata shook her head vigrously. "Y-You c-can't! You can't!" She looked at him pleadingly.

"I have to Hinata. You know how it feels to get picked on everyday of your life because of how you look. Nobody even tries to get to know the real you, they just judge you with how you look. We're both alone Hinata, even though we have each other. Everyone has a lonely hole, and most get out of it. I haven't gotten out of the lonely hole, and I need you to help me Hinata. Please help me Hinata, I need to get out of that hole, and the only way I can do that is if you help me Hinata. You're the only one that can do that, that's why you're my friend Hinata, because you help me. No one's ever helped me before you know. My father abonded us, and brother to, so only me and my mom were left. She was kind and warm towards me, and was a great mother, but she couldn't help me, since she couldn't help herself."

Sasuke's eyes were filled with so much sorrow, Hinata felt a pang of guilt hit her hard. What he was saying was true, and she had caused it. Her only friend was now angry at her, because she wouldn't help him. He would hate her forever if he didn't help him, but he might die...Hinata didn't know what to do.

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Hinata looked deeply into Sasuke's eyes, and tried seeking the emotion that overpowered him. Determination, that's what she got, determination to change, to change for his own good and for other's love. Yes, he was doing all this for the hideously disfigured, slut, her tormentor...Sakura Haruno, and also for he could be accepted. She was hurt, definately. Her first friend, best friend, was willing to give up his life for her, and she probably wouldn't care, unless the potion worked its charm. Either way, Hinata Hyuga was given the most difficult task at hand ever in history given to a human. Have your best friend hate you forever or let him have an attempt at death.

"I'm going to tell you something I've never told anyone," he spoke this so low, Hinata had to strain to hear him, "but you musn't tell anybody, got it?" He looked at her intently, hoping to get the trust he wanted, and the nod that he wanted, in which he got both.

"Well, when I was a about six, or somewhere around that age, I was skinny and muscular, and popular. Actually, I was the guy back then."

Hinata looked at him in suprise, she couldn't imagine this Sasuke skinny, muscular, or popular, but then again the world works in a weird way.

"Yes, I know. Me, skinny, that's a huge change, but I was. I was like every boy. Heck! I was the hottest guy in Konoha, and that's the reason why I meet Sakura, because of my looks. She was so...sweet, charming, and nice. I instantly feel in love with her, and she with me. Yet, something happened when I was nine. My mother... started doing drugs, and soon she was addicted. That's when my whole life changed. My father, who usually came home every day once dinner got served, started staying out late, and soon he just left and never came back. Itachi, well, Itachi changed to. He became more serious, more mature, more...evil. Sakura had heard about this, and decided I was a lost cause, so she dumped me, but I don't blame her. I thought I was a lost cause to. Afterall, I was alone in the world, my family was a wreck. My mother wouldn't admit she was broken, and so she couldn't be fixed. Even with rehab. For her addiction, she lost her ability to be herself, and that is the worst thing that could ever happen to someone. Losing yourself. That's when I was left to fend for myself, and my mother, seeming Itachi decided to leave and head out for business far from Konoha, and so I was forced to become an adult as a child. Plus, it also caused me to focus my troubles on food. That's the reason I'm like this. You see Hinata, I think if I change , well then maybe everything else will change."

Hinata was quiet. Never in her whole life had Hinata expected this. If only she had known how much he suffered, if only she had meet him before then maybe she might have been able to help him. Suddenly, a light bulb went on inside her brain. She could help him. All she had to do was give him the potion.

"T-That must have been very tough for you Sasuke, and now I see why you want to change. Still though, if something goes wrong, you're....d-d-d...d-de.." Hinata bit her bottom lip, she couldn't bring herself to say the horrid word.

"Dead, I know, but I've faced worser things than that." Hinata bit deeper onto her bottom lip, enough to draw up blood.

"Well....o-okay, but promise me... you'll still be my best friend after this." Hope, and terror was clearly displayed in her eyes. Sasuke warmed up at this, and gave her a warm smile.

"You'll be my best friend no matter what Hinata." He walked over to her, and gave her a huge bear hug, which caused Hinata to laugh.

"You promise?" She looked up into his obsadian eyes, and was pulled into the whirlpool of emotions coming from his eyes.

"I promise, heck! I swear it!" Hinata let out a smile, and hugged him. A small unoticed blush appeared on his cheeks.

"Well, let's get this started." They untied from their hug, and both looked away in embarasssment.

"H-Hai, let's go over to my house."

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It seemed like Hinata came from a rich family, considering the size of her home. Even though the exterior of it was fascinating, the interior was even more fascinating. Seeing all these fancies in such a small amount of time put Sasuke to shame, and amazement.

"Gomen, but my room might be kinda messy." Hinata smiled sheepishly as she led him up the stairs to her room, where the potion was hidden.

Once inside the room, Sasuke realized Hinata hadn't been lying.

"So this is your room huh?"

"Hai, you can sit on the bed if you want. Meanwhile I'll go get the materials." Hinata raced off to her restroom, which was connected to her room, while Sasuke walked over to her bed, and examined the room some more. That's when he caught a picture of Hinata with Ino, and Sakura...WAIT?! SAKURA?!! Sasuke's eyes widened, and he walked over to the picture, just in case he had misinterpreted something. He was shocked to realize it was indeed Hinata, Ino, and Sakura, but even more shocking was that it was those two with her, and they seemed...happy? What did this mean? He didn't remember Hinata ever mentioning her being friends with Sakura and Ino.

Prefixed with confusion and suprise Sasuke stood rooted to the spot.

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By the time Hinata had gotten back to her room with the materials, which was ten minutes later, she had discovered Sasuke looking at something with the most curious eyes.

"What are you looking at?"

Rather than answer her question he prompted her with another question.

"You were friends with Sakura and Ino?"

Hinata instantly paled, and the materials that were in her hands were now on the floor.

"W-W-Why are y-you a-a-asking me t-that?"

Sasuke instantly noticed her nervous state, but why? Was she hiding something?

"Gomen, I shouldn't have asked. I was just wondering about this picture." He held out the picture to her, which she took quickly with shaking hands.

Catching sight of her eyes widening, and her shaking hands only lead Sasuke's curiousity even further.

Hinata's Pov...

I knew I should've burned this picture long ago! Jeez, I'm such a retard! Now, Sasuke will figure out about....

Lord, what have I gotten myself into? Why couldn't I have just gotten over with it once the whole incident happened? Maybe it's because I still..., no, that's stupid. It's clear the three of us hate each other, so why don't I burn it? Maybe I should...or not...Ugh! This is what I get for leaving it out in the open!

Normal Pov

Sasuke watched in utter confusion as Hinata stared at the picture for the longest time. What was going on inside her head?

"Hey Hinata..."

No response.

"HHHHHinataaaaa..."

Still no response.

"HINATA!"

Finally, Hinata was swarped back into to reality as she looked up at Sasuke's eyes.

"Huh? W-What'd you say?"

"I was calling your name," He looked at her with a serious face.

"Gomensai, I didn't hear you..." She was cut off by his interruption.

"what were you thinking about?"

Her eyes widened, and she looked anywhere and everywhere, but at Sasuke. No way was she about to tell him about her past, it was to painful. Yet, it didn't seem fair not to. Afterall, Sasuke had told her about his childhood. It was her turn now.

Taking a deep breath, she looked down at her feet.

"T-The p-picture you saw, that was Ino, S-Sakura, and me..." She paused, and took another deep breath.

Sasuke nodded, and encouraged her to continue.

"When we were friends."

Sasuke's eyebrows lifted, and he looked at her in suprise. Since when had Hinata hung out with them? It seemed like she would rather die than be with them now. What had happened?

Hinata caught the expression, and felt butterflies stir in her stomach. How could she tell him about her past? It was grand, for a while, and then... well, it became the opposite. Yet, if she told him, he'd hate her forever. No! She couldn't risk it, she'd just have to lie. Even though, it felt like she was betraying him, which was worser than having a knife stacked through her heart.

"Let's just say the day my mom died, the friendship died along with her. Sakura and Ino, were only my friends because I was rich, and I had a family. So when my mom died, I died with her, which led to the death of our friendship. That might not make sense, but that's the best I can explain it."

Hinata looked anywhere, but Sasuke's eyes. She feared if he caught her eyes, he'd see right through her lies. Altough, it seemed like Sasuke believed her.

"Ano, I'm sorry about that." Sasuke placed a hand on her own, and with the other lifted her chin.

"But you'll always have me." Hinata's pearl Hyuga eyes produced a small tear as she gave him a wide smile.

"Yeah...I'll always have you." Hinata tightened her grip on Sasuke's hand. Holding hands, that's how the stayed for awhile, until they began the transformation.

o.o.

It was a small simple bottle, an extremely small bottle in fact. Yet, somehow it attracted Sasuke's attention.

"Is that it?" He asked her as she started mixing it with some weird ingrediant.

"Y-Yes," Hinata cursed herself for stuttering. Why'd couldn't she be more calm about this, but then how could you be calm when you were in stuck in a stituation like this? Either way, Hinata decided to keep her calm, and let her thoughts drift of to her past.

The air was filled with silence for awhile, until Sasuke spoke out.

"Umm...Is it ready yet?"

Shaken out of her thoughts, Hinata looked at Sasuke in suprise. Then realization hit her, and she looked down at her hands.

"Ano, it is." Looking up at Sasuke, realization hit Hinata. There was no way to get out of this now. That's what made tears fall down her face.

Sasuke saw this, and was quickly by her side.

"What's wrong?" His voice was filled with so much warmth and concern that it only made Hinata's tears triple in size.

"I-I mi-might not ever s-see y-y-you a-again," then she broke down into sobbing. Sasuke looked at her with the saddest eyes.

"Nothing's going to happen Hina," Hinata looked down at the bottle.

"A-Anything could h-h-happen S-Sasuke," Then she looked up at him, and expanded her arms to fit his form, but she stopped and left her arms fall down to her side. "W-What if you d-die?"

Sasuke looked away from her now. He could not let Hinata see the fear her words struck her, he needed to make her believe he was not afraid.

"Don't be afraid, I won't die." Now, he returned his gaze at her, and the questions that had formed at her tongue left once she was hit with the intensity of Sasuke's eyes and words. Somehow, she felt what he said rang true to her heart, and so she simply looked at him through her huge framed glasses with tears in her eyes with the happiest glow to her eyes.

"O-Okay t-then, l-let's," Hinata paused, trying to stop her stutter," start."

Scooting away from each other once more, Hinata started to shake the bottle until to it started to glow, to Sasuke's total amazement. Afterwards, she poured a small portion of the bottle onto a spoon that had been laying on her bed.

"Drink it slowly."

Sasuke looked at the spoon with hesistion for a few seconds, but quickly took it when he saw Hinata sending him a questioning look.

Sasuke's P.O.V

Once that potion was inside my system, I knew I was changing. I could feel the change. It was like a rocket going of into space, it left a huge impact. I'm sure that's what I was going to do once it had worked it's affects. Yet, now...I feel dizzy? Why is it I'm seeing multiples of everything?

Oh, ugh, it feels like somethings tearing at my flesh. It hurts, it hurts a lot. I don't think I can stand any longer. MY BREATHING! I FEEL LIKE A FISH OUT OF WATER!

NO! NO! NO! THIS CAN'T GO WRONG! IT CAN'T!

I WANT TO LIVE!

I WANT SAKURA!

I PROMISED HINATA.... I'D Be with her friend forever, I swore...

Gomensai, Hinata, I'm sorry...

.o.0.

Those were Sasuke's last thoughts before his body hit the floor, and Hinata began to scream.

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