The Awakening

A Brian and Justin Fan Fiction

Ch 7: A Light Forming In the Middle of a Seemingly Lightless Tunnel

The next day, like Brian had said, Lindsay was bringing Gus over. I was excited and it was the first time since the attack that I woke up and thought of something other than the pain. I decided to sleep in Brian's bed again but I let him know I wasn't ready to be held the whole night; just as I fell asleep. He complied and I felt really glad that I had a boyfriend as supportive as Brian. I never thought I would use supportive and boyfriend in the same sentence to describe Brian Kinney but there it was. When we first met and he took my virginity I always knew we would end up together somehow. I was right. I fully appreciated everything he had been doing for me since I had been back. He had been a complete gentleman. He brought me breakfast every morning on a tray. I found it funny considering I taught him everything he knew about cooking and he taught me everything I knew about sex. Brian had gotten up a few hours earlier to attend a business meeting at Kinnetik. He left me a note and in it he said how peaceful I looked and he couldn't bear to wake me. He signed his name and underneath was a small P.S. that I almost missed that said 'I love you. Always and forever.' Who would have thought Brian would turn out to be a romantic? Not me, that's for sure.

I finally got out of bed to get ready and before I knew it Lindsay and Gus were at the door. Gus was already interested in comic books at the age of 5. Michael taught him all about Rage and how Rage was modeled after his daddy. He got a kick out of it and he always asked me to draw a page of it while he was watching. He said something that almost broke my heart but instead ended up warming it. He told me that he wanted me to draw a happy picture of Rage and JT. He knew that I represented JT in the comic and he told me he noticed I always looked sad lately. I swept Gus into my arms and I hugged him.

"Justin! Let go!," Gus said in between fervent giggles.

"Never!" I laughed and I began to tickle him.

"What's going on in here?" Lindsay came into the room with cake batter on her face and she put her hands on her hips. She was making a cake for a house party she was throwing later that evening but she told us we could lick the frosting off of the bottom of the bowl. At this announcement, Gus squirmed out of my reach and ran for the kitchen. The drawing he had suggested I make actually sounded like a good idea so I did exactly that. Gus was right, the picture made me feel better.

Before I knew it, Brian had come home. I walked into the center of the loft and watched as Gus ran up and jumped into his father's arms. That made me feel warm inside and I noted that there was nothing as pure as the love one had between a parent and their child. If only my own father had showed that he cared about me. He didn't give a damn and it made me feel down again considering how worthless I felt, and sometimes still do feel, since the rape. I looked up into Brian's eyes and he reciprocated my glance and smiled. The smile melted my heart like butter and I too ran up to him and kissed him with a passion I thought I had lost. I loved him so much that words could not express.