SPENCER"S P.O.V
We've been kissing for a while now and as much as I want to keep going I can't.
"Ash we need to stop"
"really?"
"I can't just sleep with you again"
"Why?"
"I don't think us sleeping together will help anything"
"I can think of a few things it will help"
When I rolls my eyes she just laughs.
"I'm just joking but can I ask you a serious question?"
"okay"
"This afternoon when you said you weren't mad and you were over everything that happened on Thanksgiving you were lying, weren't you?"
"I may of over exaggerated how much I was over everything"
"Why weren't you just honest with me"
"I don't know I guess I was embarrassed"
"Why would you be embarrassed?"
"Come on Ash you'd just heard me tell Aiden it was my first time and I really didn't want to talk about"
"Spencer if I'd of known what that night meant to you, I wouldn't have acted the way I did"
As much as I want to avoid this conversation, we need to clear the air.
"I've spent so long just sleeping with random girls.."
"Ash I don't really want.."
"Spence just let me finish"
"Sorry.."
"Spencer you're not just another girl I've slept with, if you were I wouldn't care that you hated me and I wouldn't have spent the last eight months hating myself"
"I don't hate you Ashley I've never hated you"
"Spencer it's okay if you do"
"I don't, I just thought it would be easier to act like I did and push you away, then admit how much I cared"
"Spence I care about you as well that's why I came on this trip"
"You came on this trip because of me?"
"Of course I did. I hate deep water and I really don't like the idea of floating around in the middle of the ocean"
"So that's why you changed your mind?"
"Yer I wanted us to be friends again and I just thought being stuck on a cruise for ten days would help"
"I don't know what to say Ash"
"You don't have to say anything Spencer I just want everything to be okay again"
I want that to.
"Spencer I had no idea you were gay"
"I'm getting pretty good at hiding it"
"I just thought we were two drunk friends messing around and I didn't think it meant anything"
"I know"
"I'd never thought about us like that before"
I'm taking everything she's saying a lot better than I thought I would.
"but Spencer that's all I can think about now"
"Really?"
"Yer these last few days have been crazy and I can't stop thinking about you, that's why I kissed you tonight and that's why I followed you back to the room"
"What does all this mean?"
"I don't know Spencer all I know is when we kissed it felt amazing"
"I need some time to sort everything out, can we just try being friends again?"
"You just want to be friends?"
"I think it's for the best"
"Spencer if that's what you want, then I want that to"
"Really?"
"Spencer I just want everything to be okay again"
"It will be I promise"
We didn't say anything else we just slept and when I woke up this morning she was still sleeping.
When I look at the clock it's twelve thirty, I can't believe I slept this long I missed breakfast.
"Hey"
"Hey what times is it?"
"It's twelve thirty"
"Really?"
I only nod.
"It's late"
"yer I was just thinking that"
"Spencer why is everything still awkward?"
"I just wasn't sure how we'd be this morning"
"Well we agreed we'd be friends right?"
"Yer"
"So we're going to be friends"
"Okay cool. So what's your plan for today?"
She hops out of bed and reaches her hands above her head, stretching.
Her shirt lifts up so you can see her stomach, she has an amazing body.
"I think you're drooling Spence"
"Shut up"
"It's alright I have an awesome body and if I were you I'd check me out to"
"You're so full of yourself"
I'm going to go swimming.
"What are you looking for?"
"my other pair of bathers, I want to go swimming"
"Are you going with Aiden?"
"I hadn't really thought about it, why?"
"No reason just asking"
I forgot she didn't like Aiden.
"Are you and Aiden still not getting along?"
"maybe"
"Oh come on Ash"
"he's an ass"
"he's just protective"
"I don't care he's still an ass"
"can you just try and maybe sort things out?"
"no, can we talk about someone else?"
"okay fine"
"Was that our first argument as born again friends?"
"I don't even know if that makes sense"
"You've got a bit of drool.."
She wipes the side of my mouth.
"Very funny Ash"
"So I've decided I like swimming and I want to come, is that cool?"
"You don't need my permission to go swimming Ash"
"I know but I want to go swimming with you, I was just being polite"
"You can come if you want"
"Well I want.."
"You know everyone's going to be a little confused when they see us swimming together"
"probably but we're still going hurry up and get changed"
Maybe us being friends can actually work.
ASHLEY'S P.O.V
"Spence can we go to the buffet and eat first i'm starving"
I haven't eaten in a long time and i'm really starting to feel it.
"You should probably stop eating Ash"
"I saw your face this morning and I know you don't really think that"
"actually i'm still trying to figure out what I like and don't like about you"
"Well I think you should definately put my body in the like column"
"Is that right and what should I put in the dislike column?"
"That's a tough one Spencer, but if you had to choose something I'd probably say talking to much"
She's laughing, I like when she's laughing it's a lot more fun than her shooting daggers at me with her eyes.
"I love buffets so much"
"agreed"
"You know technically we can't go swimming for a half an hour"
"I think we can risk it Ash"
"What happens if i drown"
"I don't really know, I guess you just drown"
"that's harsh Spencer don't act like you wouldn't miss me"
"Lets go"
I want more from her but she's not ready, i'm just glad we can at least be friends.
It's a start.
