I sit thinking for a while. I have to get Joey out of my mind, it can never work. He'll always cheat on me and that's that. Unfortunately, now that my anger is gone all I can think about is being with him and how happy I was right before stupid Sophia showed up. That's when it hits me that I actually slept with Ross and I cringe remembering what I did solely out of revenge. I also realize Joey didn't even mention my betrayal. He apologized even though he could have equally been angry at me for my actions.

I hear my stomach growl and it occurs to me I haven't eaten all day. I decide to go downstairs and see if Monica can whip me up something. She's of course still in the kitchen and she's thrilled to make me a meal. Obviously, she makes enough for herself and we sit to eat together, just the two of us.

As we're eating, I decide I want to confide in her. She's always been so sweet and told me I could talk to her anytime I needed. So, I tell her the whole situation with Joey and Ross and now Sophia. I express my honest heartbreak in the situation.

"The truth is I do want to be with Joey. I want at least a chance to see if we can make it work, but what's the point in trying? It can't work," I sigh after my long story.

Monica finishes a bite full of food and then takes my hand.

"I think it is worth trying," she says.

"But he can't stay loyal. He left with Sophia seconds after meeting her. He became a different person," I argue feeling cold from the memory.

"I believe people can change, even people like us. I did it myself. For a whole year I decided I wanted to beat my sin and not overeat and you know what, I did. I lost over 100 pounds and I felt amazing!" she shares with me.

I'm shocked to hear this revelation.

"Really? And what happened?" I ask shyly hoping she's not offended.

"I lost my motivation and no one was around to keep me going. So, I gave in to my temptations and overate until I gained it all back. See, our guides aren't here to help us beat our sins they're only here to make sure we don't go crazy or harm others. But I think you and Joey could help each other and you can make progress, so can he," Monica encourages.

I smile, inspired by her words.

"The thing is I wouldn't know where to start," I say.

"By talking to him. If you and Joey are serious about being together than I think you can fight your sins. They're just vices, there are a lot worse vices out there," Monica helps.

I smile again, everything she's saying sounds so amazing. I can almost picture a world where Joey and I are in love and helping each other become better people and everything's wonderful. I want to make it a reality, but I have my doubts.

"Thank you Monica."

I hug her tightly. I sit back down realizing what my first step has to be.

"I think I know what to do," I note.

"Great!"

I stand to leave.

"Are you gonna finish that?" Monica quickly inquires, pointing at my plate with food remaining.

"Have at it," I chuckle and leave her my food as I head back upstairs.


I walk upstairs and for the first time today I go to see Ross. When he answers the door he's thrilled to see me.

"Rachel, hey how are you? Come in, come in," he greets me with a bright smile.

"Hey Ross, uh listen I need to talk to you," I get right to the point.

He immediately sits down.

"Okay, sure what's going on?" he asks.

I take a breath in, nervous how's he's going to react.

"Okay, listen I need to be honest with you... I don't have feelings for you," I tell him.

He looks at me strange.

"But... last night..."

"I know, I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that... I did that for the wrong reasons," I confess.

He shakes his head.

"No, last night was special. I felt it, I-"

"Ross, I'm sorry, but you have to accept this. I know you like me, but I can't give you what you want - I can't return your feelings," I state firmly.

He looks devastated by my words, I feel bad. I know anyone else would think I would be furious with him for what he did, for purposely sabatoging my relationship with Joey. The truth is, I'm not mad at him anymore because he only showed me the truth sooner. I was oblivious to thinking Joey's sin was harmless. Eventually another beautiful woman would have crossed our path and the same thing would have happened. The other truth is I'm probably the reason it happened so easily. Joey was actively trying to control his urges. He kept his distance, he never made a move on me or Phoebe or anybody until I started tempting him and bringing him food and persuading him to loosen up. I'm at fault here too.

"Rachel, if you just get to know me," Ross tries.

"I don't think-"

"Really, I'm a great guy. I can get you whatever you'd like," Ross continues to try and change my mind.

"No, Ross-" I start, but he keeps cutting me off.

"Rachel, look how about we go-"

"Ross, I'm in love with someone else!" I blurt out.

Did I just say love?

"It's Joey, isn't it?" Ross automatically guesses right.

I nod my head, I can't believe I'm in love with Joey. Of course, I have to fall for the guy who can't be faithful.

"Why do you even like him, he's never going to treat you right?" Ross fights.

"Maybe...," I start, but Ross stands in a fury.

"Rachel, you're being naive. I can treat you right. I will always being loyal to you and do everything to make you happy," he insists.

I look at him, already annoyed at his persistent manner.

"Ross, we don't even know each other. We barely spoke before last night," I argue.

"Well, who's fault is that?" he hisses.

Now, he's getting on my last nerve.

"Ross I'm here to tell you it's over. You need to stop. Stop trying to win me over and stop sabotaging my relationships," I warn and walk out.

Well, that didn't go great. I don't know if I made things better or worse but I knew I had to cut the chord with Ross. Hopefully I did something to help.