This Time - Chapter 7
[WARNING - MATURE SCENES]
Despite Lily's idea, Sirius has spent the last couple of days in near complete silence. He's just sat all day, doing things he's clearly not interested in. I came back from work to find him reading one of my books, but his eyes weren't focused on the pages he turned.
The day of the 'swap' is tomorrow. If all goes to plan, then tomorrow we should all be back here, Sirius and Andromeda included.
While he's been staying here, Sirius has slept in my room. I've been sleeping on the sofa; I can tell that he needs his space. Should this all go wrong, god knows what will happen to us, especially him.
The front door clicks, opens and shuts again.
"How was work?" I ask, knowing it's Lily who has come back in.
"Fine. Sev was there as well since Minerva was catering to a party. He asked me out for tomorrow and I turned him down. I don't think he believed me when he said I had bigger things to do."
"That's his prerogative as being obsessed with you. Did you speak to Minerva?"
"Yeah, she gave us the all clear for tomorrow."
"Fantastic. I think we owe her one." I sigh with relief.
"That we do. She needs a week off, so when this is all over, we can convince her to take one."
"Sounds like a good idea."
Lily sits down next to me. "How has he been?" she asks in a whisper.
"Quiet, he's only said a few words, though I've heard him sing to himself a couple of times."
"He does know it's all going to be okay doesn't he?"
"I think he's sceptical, I mean if this doesn't go okay, he's going on a one way trip back to the Caucasus with his 'favourite' people."
Lily straightens up. "You should talk to him, properly. Remind him how much he means to you and how you wouldn't let him go."
"Yet I was the one who agreed to the swap."
"He would have agreed anyway. I've heard him talk about Andromeda, how much she means to him. He'd have made the choice you have."
I sigh. "I'll talk to him. It's not the end of the world, and you're right. No way am I going to let that bastard take either of them."
Lily laughs. "That's the spirit. Now, Pizza or Chinese?"
A half hour later, It's just Sirius and I in the apartment. Lily has left the apartment to go get the food.
"You sure you didn't want Chinese?" I ask Sirius tentatively. He's sitting by the window, a book called Fate and Destiny in his hands.
"I'm sure." he says softly, not really paying attention.
"Sirius, we need to talk."
"Not now." he says, in that same soft tone, "I'm reading."
"Then when?" I ask. It's pretty much the last chance now.
Sirius takes a breath. "Tonight, I want you to come off the sofa and back into your room, with me."
I look at him. His dark curls of hair fall before his face. He's in profile with the sunset, still reading the book.
The doorbell rings suddenly. "I'll get it." I say, standing. Opening the door I see... Tonks.
"Hey..." I say, trying to sound pleasantly surprised, not nervous. I haven't seen or spoken to her since she kissed me.
"Hi Remus, you're not busy at the moment are you?" she asks, sounding as nervous as I feel.
"Kind of, but I can spare a minute or two."
"Oh, thanks." I step outside and shut the door. "Look, about the whole thing with the, the kiss. I'm sorry, I didn't mean for it to happen."
"Tonks..." I take a deep breath, before continuing. "It's not you. I think you're lovely and fantastic all at the same time, but I haven't felt anything for a woman in years now. It couldn't work and anyway, I'm not at all right for you. You deserve someone fantastic, and whilst I'm fantastic and modest, that isn't me."
Tonks looks at me, eyes wide, before hugging me. I can understand how she must feel. All I've said is true, and I know how broken she must feel since her mother died, but it's better to say no then to give false hope.
The hug ends. "You know Tonks, you should really talk to Hagrid's son Harry. He's my age, and I think he thinks you're very pretty."
Tonks laughs. "Really?"
"Really. Now, if you don't mind, I've got things to do."
"Of course, and thanks Remus, for being honest with me. It's not something you see as often anymore, and It means so much."
"Take care Tonks."
She turns and walks away, passing a returning Lily.
"Why was Tonks up here?" she asks curiously.
"It's a long story, now hurry up. I'm starving."
The clock chimes eleven in the city. I lift the covers and slide into bed. Sirius is already lying here. I shuffle close to him, eager to warm up.
"Remus." he says quietly to the dark room.
"Sirius." I reply, equally as quiet.
"If, if tomorrow doesn't work..."
"It will. Sirius, you are the moon to my earth, I refuse to let you contemplate leaving me. Andromeda too, she's not going."
"But..."
"We discussed the plan, and it will work. I refuse to let it not work."
"If it doesn't, then I have to go. I can't let him take her."
"I understand that, and will make sure the plan doesn't fail."
"If it does, then tonight is my last night here, with you. I... I want you, it could be the only time..."
"You have me, and always will." I whisper in his ear.
Sirius turns to face me, and I him. Our eyes find each others in the darkness. I bring his face towards mine and interlock our lips. The kiss starts slow, but it grows, fiercer and more passionate. He grasps at my head, pulling me closer, hungry for more. I just respond, pulling him closer, running my hands over his back, the muscles below my palms.
Sirius' hands skim the top of my boxers, roughly grabbing my hips, pulling me closer. I feel him, the warmth, and the hardness, all against my own. I moan at feeling him, as does he. His mouth against my throat, hands delving, exploring my body. His hands, so warm, clip the elastic of my boxers again, this time heading down. I gasp again, and his fervour intensifies.
"You'd better hurry up, even at this rate I'll be done before you know it." I gasp.
Sirius takes my words seriously, in a few swift motions losing both of our boxers. Snaking my hands down, I take him in my hands, moving up and down at the rate of my gasping breaths. Sirius moans, pushing into my hands. His hands fall to mine. Our panting breaths and moans fill the room. Sirius is still moaning so erotically, and his moans intensify as I slide down and take him in my mouth. His reaction keeps me going, if anything supplying the adrenaline to my body. It doesn't last long though, as Sirius pulls me up.
"Give me a chance to make this last."
"We'll have forever to make this last."
"Then now... let's do it now."
We sit up, still looking at each other. Everything's slow again, as Sirius turns and lies on his back, pulling me into him with his legs. I climb on his back, position myself and slowly move forward.
Sirius audibly groans as I push further and further in.
"I'll warn you, I can't contain myself for long." I groan in his ear, slowly picking up speed.
"I'm nearly there." he groans back.
I'm right, not a minute later, I fall onto Sirius, panting with him.
We lay there together, not moving.
"Sirius..." I half gasp half whisper.
"Remus... I, I love you..." Sirius gasps back.
I look him in the eyes, "now I can never let you go."
