Author's Notes: I do not own Big Time Rush or any of these characters, and I make no money off this whatsoever.

I know Kenlos isn't a pairing a lot of people can get behind, and I admit it took me a while to see it myself, but once I did there was no going back. This is a sequel to Because I Wanted the Best, which was the story of James and Logan meeting and falling in love. Now we have Kendall and Carlos, because as I wrote that story, Kendall kept whispering to me that he was lonely. He wanted Carlos. I tend to stay away from Carlos, but in this case I gave in because...well, because it's Kendall and I can't say no to him. I explained to him it would be a challenge to make Carlos fall for him, but he said he lives for a challenge. Yeah, I don't know. So here we go.

Dedicating this to my two awesome betas, kathrynew30 and Aranelle. They're both happy to see Kendall going after what he wants, and happy to see more of Carlos for once. And this is still fun to write, because it's lighter than what I normally do and makes me laugh. I hope you like it, too! Thanks for giving it a try.

Apparently I was wrong! I can't believe how many people told me they were excited to see a Kenlos fic. I had no idea there was a lack of them because I don't read the pairing much myself. Happy I was able to fulfill a need, though I'm pretty sure it won't ever happen again. This one only came about because of the other.

So it has been brought to my attention that I goofed in the previous chapter. Our resident expert on Disneyland informed me that there IS in fact no Fastpass available for the Matterhorn ride. I did not do my research, and I haven't been there in ten years so I've lost my Disneyland mojo. But thank you epicinthelibrary for calling that to my attention, because it led to some serious bonding over our favorite song in the history of the universe and our mutual love of the Spanish recording we hear at the end of the ride. We also came up with a conversation that went on between Logan and Carlos upon discovering that there was no Fastpass available, in which Logan got pissy and Carlos calmed him down with the suggestion they return to their respective guys so Logan can make out with James some more and Carlos can suck on that corn dog. And then he'd discover James threw the corn dog away and he'd be all sad, but Kendall would cheer him up by letting him wiggle some more on his lap. I had fun with you, my crippled spirit animal! :D

I hope you enjoy this chapter. From the reviews I got on the last one, I'm pretty sure you will. ;) It's a shorter chapter, but there's a lot going on.


After a huge dinner and a long drive home, the four of them gathered in James' massive entertainment room to watch a movie. Carlos and Kendall had brought along a bag for the night, already knowing they'd be staying over, and everyone changed into comfortable clothing before getting cozied up on the couches. The lights went down and the movie started, some cheesy 80's horror film that James swore was a classic. It turned out to be ridiculous, but in the best way possible, and they made fun of it more than anything else.

It wasn't the movie that mattered anyway, but the opportunity to spend time together as couples, which is how Kendall was starting to think of themselves. He knew Carlos didn't, and was fine with that, especially when Carlos stretched out over him without a second thought. The blanket kept them warm while Kendall's hand rubbed absently over Carlo's back, his lips close to Carlos' hair. He didn't think he'd ever been happier than he was on this day. Waking up next to Carlos, sharing physical contact almost constantly, having Carlos laugh with him and devoting attention to him and no one else (Logan and James didn't count), it was everything he'd ever wanted. He had to admit the flirting was a little hard to bear at times, but at least since Carlos knew the effect it had on him, it was no longer awkward. Instead they laughed about it.

About a half hour into the movie James' and Logan's comments began to taper off as their mouths were busy with each other, and forty-five minutes in conversing with them became a lost cause. Kendall mostly kept his eyes on the movie but couldn't help noticing Carlos' gaze straying to them more and more.

"You okay?" he asked softly.

"Yeah. Just...wow."

"If you're uncomfortable we can go to our room-"

"No, it's fine, I'm just not used to seeing that."

"Guys making out or Logan making out?"

"Both?"

Kendall chuckled. "Really, you're not uncomfortable?"

"It's fine."

"Okay. Dude, are you stupid?" Kendall asked the character on the screen. "You don't wander off into the woods by yourself, not when you know there's a murderer around."

"I know, right? What an idiot. And look at that, his friends are totally not even paying attention because they're too busy making out in the cabin."

"So what does this guy do? Go farther away from the cabin."

"Stupid. And see? Now they're really not paying attention because—whoa. Is she going down on him?"

Kendall licked his lips. "Mmm. Definitely a blowjob."

"You'd better not get hard under me."

"Too late. Fuck, I miss that."

"Perv." Carlos grinned and bit Kendall's neck, bringing a surprised gasp out of him.

"Carlos, now is not the time."

"I love teasing you."

"It's not nice."

"But you really seem to like it. A lot."

"Watch it or I might show you how much."

"Give me a demonstration, you mean?"

"I'm horny enough I'd even give Logan a demonstration at this point."

"I don't think James would like that."

"No, he wouldn't," James said, surprising them. "Don't even joke about it, Kendall."

"Leave him alone, he's kidding," Logan replied. "And get those lips back here."

James hummed and obeyed Logan's command, Carlos back to watching them. Kendall studied his face, trying to gauge his thoughts and wondering if maybe tonight he really should take a shot at it. There was no question Carlos was mesmerized by James and Logan; what Kendall didn't know was why.

And then Kendall felt a twitch against his own hardness and his breath caught. "You sure you're okay?" he whispered.

"Not really. I shouldn't be turned on watching them, should I?"

"Depends on why you're turned on."

"I'm...not sure."

"Do you find them attractive?"

"Not really."

"So then-"

"I don't know why, Kendall. I don't know."

"Okay, sorry. Didn't mean to push."

"I just want that so bad, want to be part of something like that. Someone to want me like that, to be turned on by me."

"I'm only laying under you with a hard dick, dude."

"Because you're watching it on T.V."

"You are so-"

"Okay, that's enough for me!" Logan stood up suddenly, dragging James with him. "Sorry guys, this was fun, but I need to be alone with James."

"Don't be alarmed if you hear screaming. It'll just be me rocking Logan's world."

"But we'll try to keep it down."

"Maybe."

"Goodnight," Kendall called after them.

"Don't forget, breakfast in the morning!" Carlos added. A door slammed and they both giggled. "They're so horny!"

"You are, too. You should let me do something about that."

Carlos laughed, shaking his head. "Now you're the one teasing me."

"What if I'm not?"

The movie seemed to grow loud suddenly as they were quiet, staring at each other in the darkened room. Kendall was frozen waiting for a word from Carlos, anything to give a clue as to whether or not he'd finally done it and Carlos would go screaming into the night. He felt Carlos' heartbeat against his chest, sensed that Carlos was terrified, but he couldn't recall the words.

"You wouldn't do that for me," Carlos whispered.

"I told you. I'd do anything for you."

"But this...I would never ask you-"

"I want to. You're dying for a blowjob and I'm dying to give one. It doesn't have to mean anything."

Carlos licked his lips, his cock twitching again.

"Let me do this," Kendall whispered. "I can see how badly you need it."

"But you wouldn't...it doesn't gross you out?"

"Why the hell would it?"

"Because it's me."

"How many times do I have to tell you you're hot? I'd consider myself lucky to blow you."

There was a tiny smile and a deep blush creeping up Carlos' cheeks. "Stop."

"It's true. I know I'm not what you want in life, but until you find that, can I do this much for you?"

"Kendall, I think it would make things weird between us."

"It doesn't have to. Please, Carlos. I know you miss it. Let me do this for you."

Carlos didn't reply, he simply continued to stare into Kendall's eyes as if he wasn't sure about anything anymore. Kendall sat up slowly, lifting Carlos with him and then laying him back onto the other end of the couch. Almost afraid to say something to ruin the mood, he kept his mouth shut by lifting Carlos' shirt up and kissing the warm skin below his belly button. When his lips touched down Carlos gasped and buried his fingers in Kendall's hair, bucking up slightly. Kendall closed his eyes to fight for control, amazed that already he was having trouble tamping down on his arousal.

He waited a beat, making sure Carlos wasn't about to stop him, and when there was nothing he slid his tongue beneath the waistband of Carlos' sweats, Carlos again bucking up but adding a whine this time. He was shaking but his grip on Kendall's hair was tight, the whine convincing Kendall to take the next step.

When Kendall had Carlos' sweats and boxers down to his thighs, he glanced up to meet Carlos' eyes. They were darker than he'd ever seen them, even in the lack of light Kendall could see that, and see that Carlos wanted this. He may not want Kendall to be the one doing it, but he wanted a mouth to fuck, so badly he was trembling. "I got this," Kendall whispered, then moved his head down. When his chin brushed Carlos' cock, Carlos moaned, not even trying to keep it in anymore. This wasn't going to take long.

Sensing that this might be his only chance, though, Kendall was in no hurry to finish the job. He took his time, using his tongue first, then adding his lips to it, glancing up a few times and wanting to combust at the look on Carlos' face. His eyes were hooded, mouth parted and panting slightly, and Kendall was doing this to him. Me. I'm making him crazy, making those sounds come out of those soft lips, making his hands pull my hair hard enough to bring tears to my eyes, and fuck I don't ever want this to stop.

He continued to tease Carlos as long as he could, until Carlos was thrusting up into his mouth and silently begging for more. Kendall gave him that finally, groaning as he bobbed his head up and down, sucking as Carlos met each movement. "Kendall," Carlos moaned, suddenly not holding back and fucking up into the wet suction hard enough that Kendall gasped before completely losing control and swallowing Carlos down his throat, humming as Carlos slid back and forth inside.

"Kendall! Fuck! Harder!"

He complied and within ten seconds it was over, Carlos coming with little whiny noises that drove Kendall close to the edge. Not questioning the instinct, he reached into his own shorts and pumped himself a few times before he came as well, moaning around Carlos in between swallows.

"Kendall. Oh my god, Kendall. Oh my god. Fuck."

Slowly Kendall slid his lips off, Carlos' dick falling back limply against his stomach. He laid his cheek on Carlos' thigh, kissing the patch of skin he could reach. He could now die a happy man.

One hand was still tangled in Kendall's hair. It stroked over Kendall's head weakly. "I can't believe we did that."

"No weirdness. We promised."

"Right. I know. I just...wow. Can't believe we did that."

"I can't either." Kendall let out a sigh, getting his breathing back to normal.

"My heart is racing, dude. It won't slow down."

"That's the mark of good sex." There was a light chuckle, and then Kendall finally felt he could risk looking at Carlos' face again. He saw a tenderness that touched his heart.

"Uh. Thanks. You're...pretty amazing."

"It's because I love doing it so much."

Carlos nodded, licking his lips and taking a deep breath. "Did you...you came, didn't you?"

Kendall's cheeks reddened. "I was horny."

"It's cool, dude, I'm just surprised you were that horny."

"Giving head does that to me." I'm so lying, it's all you. Fuck, let me do that again. In five minutes. Every hour on the hour. Make those sounds and pull my hair and-

"I don't know if it's because you're a guy or what, but that was the best blowjob I've ever had."

"It's just me," Kendall grinned, eyes dancing. "You can have two more days of that if you want."

"Like I'm gonna turn that down? Jesus, Kendall. So you really like it that much?"

"You couldn't tell?"

"Yeah, you really were enjoying yourself."

"Anytime you want it, dude. Anytime."

"And you promise there's no weirdness between us?"

"Not on my end. If it's too weird for you, just tell me. I'll totally understand."

"It's a little weird, but not enough to make me stop. I'm sure the next time it won't be weird at all."

"Next time." Kendall grinned. "I like the sound of that."

"We uh...still get to cuddle, right?"

"We'd better." He sat up and stretched over to grab the remote, figuring out how to shut everything off but then it was pitch black. "Well, fuck. I can't see anything."

"I remember where our room is. Come on."

Kendall heard Carlos fixing his pants, then felt a hand grab his in the dark. He squeezed it tight, letting Carlos guide him and surprised they didn't bump into anything. Carlos found a light in the room and Kendall closed the door, blinking against the brightness.

He watched Carlos go down to boxers again before climbing into the bed, and hesitated.

"Come on, dude." Carlos patted the mattress. "No weirdness, remember?"

"It's not that, it's...I need a shower."

"Oh. Yeah. Okay, well don't take too long. We have cuddling to get back to."

Kendall smiled. "I'll do my best." He pulled out a change of underwear and disappeared into the adjoining bathroom, then closed the door and leaned against it, finally taking a moment to freak out.

Oh my god oh my god holy shit I just blew Carlos I just sucked his dick oh my god it was amazing and I want it again want more he's so fucking perfect and his hands in my hair fuck fuck fuck so good Carlos love me please love me please don't leave don't let me be alone anymore I need you why are you so perfect fuck fuck fuck-

He fell to the toilet, sinking down when his legs went weak.

Wake up. See it, see what I can be to you. I'm everything you want, everything you need, open your eyes I'm everything.

With shaking hands Kendall pulled his phone out of the pocket of his jeans and texted Logan.

"Are you awake? I need you. If you're busy I'm sorry ignore me but I need you."

A reply came back a minute later. "What's wrong? I heard him screaming your name. I thought that was a good sign."

"I blew him. I blew him. Logan. I BLEW HIM."

"Are you guys okay?"

"I don't know. I think so. I'm so scared he's gonna wake up tomorrow freaked out."

"Where are you?"

"Bathroom."

"Where is he?"

"Bed."

"Go to him. Don't give him time to freak out."

"It was amazing. I can't live without it anymore. I can't. I just fucked myself."

"Calm down. Go back to him. Make it okay."

"I need him."

"Kendall. Go back to him. Hold him."

"I can't do this. He's gonna live with me and how am I gonna not touch him?"

"Don't think about that right now. For tonight just hold him."

"I love him."

"I know you do. Go to bed."

A text from an unknown number came in. "Go to bed, Kendall. I'd like my husband back."

Kendall frowned. "When did you two get married?"

"Shut up, in my head we're married."

"Good thing I'm in the bathroom because I'm puking."

"I threw Logan's phone across the room. He says goodnight."

"Goodnight, guys."

Feeling a little better and a lot more calm, Kendall set his phone down and stripped, then stepped into the shower. A washcloth probably could've done the job, but he'd needed a moment to himself.

Two minutes later the door opened behind him, and arms slid around his waist. His heart stopped. He spun around slowly to find Carlos staring up at him.

"You were taking too long."

You're so beautiful. "Carlos, I only have so much self-control," he pleaded.

"Let it go."

Carlos dragged him down, crashing their lips together, and it was over. Kendall pressed him up against the wall and kissed him hard, Carlos' legs coming up to wrap around his waist.

"I'm sorry, I forgot how good it feels, I couldn't stop thinking about it."

"Don't be sorry," Kendall groaned. "I know what you're feeling."

"So fucking lonely."

"I'm right here."

"Don't leave me again. Please, Kendall, don't ever leave me again."

"I won't. I was an idiot. Live with me. You can have this every night."

Carlos moaned as Kendall's hand reached between them to stroke him. "I don't know what I want. Maybe just tonight."

"Whatever you want. It's yours. I'm yours." He kissed Carlos again, desperate now that he knew for sure this was it. If Carlos only wanted tonight, he was sure as hell going to get it.

He reached out to shut off the water and then carried Carlos back to bed, Carlos clinging to him and forcing his tongue into Kendall's mouth. Once in bed he reached down again to stroke Carlos, who immediately responded by thrusting into his grip.

"Kendall...yes..."

He'd waited ten years to hear those words, to hear Carlos beg him like this, feel Carlos moving under him. The session on the couch had been amazing enough, but this time Carlos was more than a bystander; he was a willing participant, hands and mouth on Kendall as he eagerly bucked into everything Kendall offered.

"Carlos, you're so hot like this, oh my god." Kendall's lips trailed down his body, nipping at random spots until his mouth was where Carlos wanted it most, and then Kendall sucked him down again, Carlos squirming in his need to be closer, deeper. It slightly choked Kendall so he placed his hands on Carlos' hips to hold him down, and when he did that Carlos moaned loud enough to wake up the neighbors.

That's right. He likes to be pinned. Fuck, I need this every night for the rest of my life.

Kendall straddled Carlos' ankles to keep him from moving, then reached up to grab his wrists, pinning them to the bed.

"Fuck! Kendall!"

He grinned wickedly at Carlos, who looked like he was about to lose his mind. "What's wrong? Can't move?"

"Jesus, don't tease me, hurry Kendall, hurry!"

As usual, Kendall couldn't say no. He wrapped his mouth around Carlos again, sucking with enough pressure to get Carlos up off the sheets if he'd been capable of moving, but of course he wasn't.

"Oh god oh god Kendall yes fuck Kendall fuck!"

Carlos' whole body quaked as he exploded in Kendall's mouth. Kendall took it all, waiting until the shaking had stopped a bit before releasing his grip and moving up the bed to pull Carlos close. "You okay?" he asked, kissing Carlos' temple.

"Fuck. Can't breathe, but uh...yeah. Good. You?"

"Never better." He smiled and pulled the blankets up over them, shifting so that Carlos was cuddled up against his chest. He wanted more, but knew he always would and hadn't expected to even get this much. For this reason, the smile wouldn't go away.

"Thanks. Really, dude. Thank you."

"You act like I'm doing you this big favor. I love it as much as you do, okay?"

"Well, like you said. I know I'm not what you want in your life, either, but...for now, this works."

"It does."

They laid there lost in thoughts for a while, Kendall's fingers gently brushing over Carlos' shoulder, until Carlos finally said, "Goodnight, Kendall."

The smile was still there. "Goodnight, Carlos. Today was a lot of fun."

"Wasn't it? I knew you'd love Disneyland."

"It wasn't my first time, dude. We've been there before."

"Yeah, but...today was different."

Today was different. That pretty much summed up everything perfectly. "It sure was."

"And we still got to cuddle."

"We'll always get to do that, Carlos. As long as you want it."

"Might want that for a long time. Even after I move in."

"And I said I'm fine with that. More than fine."

"You like cuddling with me, don't you?"

"I wouldn't do it if I didn't."

"What about the other stuff? You like that, too, right?"

"Same answer."

Carlos nodded. "Okay. Night, buddy."

Even the use of the word "buddy" wasn't enough to break through his euphoria. "Goodnight."

"Do I get chocolate chip pancakes tomorrow?"

"With whipped cream."

"Fuck yeah."

Kendall chuckled, kissing Carlos' temple one last time. "Anything you want, Carlos. Anything you want."