I do not own Edward and Bella or any of the Twilight characters. They are borrowed from the amazing Stephenie Meyer.
Sorry for not updating last night, I have been trying to be consistent, but I am currently camping and I have a hard time getting an internet signal!
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BPOV
Ok I had just finished the encore, and I had to go back and face them. I stood side stage and stared numbly at the crew disassembling the band's equipment, but I knew I could not delay this forever. They were all waiting for me, and despite the fact that I wanted them. I knew I was going to have some explaining to do and that it would be hard. There were so many things they did not know about me yet, and I was worried they would think less of me.
I don't know what I had been thinking at costume change……okay I had not been thinking……when I perform, I tend to lose all sense of everything else, and I really am not accustomed to having visitors in my dressing room. But to almost undress before noticing them there…..how stupid could I be? Emmett was never going to let me forget it. The rest of the family understood I think, except for Edward. I saw the way he turned his head not wanting to look at me…..I groaned just thinking of it. He probably thought I was pulling some female trick and trying to be suggestive to him. The last thing I wanted to do was to make him uncomfortable by allowing him to see that I still had feelings for him. Ones that I knew he did not reciprocate.
I sighed, plastered a bright smile on my face and pushed open the door to my dressing room. "Er….I am done for the night. Anyone want to get out of here?"
Everybody turned to me at the same time. Alice ran over to me pulling me into another tight hug "Sure Bella, anything you want" she smiled up at me.
"Well," I called over my shoulder, trying to keep it light "I have to change again, but this time I think I will do it in here. I mean, I can only give so many shows in one night." I heard Emmett's big laugh booming over everyone else's quiet snickers.
I quickly pulled on a pair of washed out jeans and a light blue cotton v-neck. I grabbed my silver necklace and fastened it around my neck. I was worried that the necklace would only cause more questions, but left it on anyways. It had been a gift, and I had promised I would always wear it. It was cool against my skin but familiar and comforting. I wrapped my hand around the pendant for courage and took a deep breath then stepped out of the wardrobe.
"I know you all have questions for me, so I thought we could retire to my home where we will be able to talk freely" I offered shyly.
"Oh Bella," cried Esme "Oh my daughter. Please come here" she held her arms open to me. I hesitated for a brief second and then allowed her to wrap her arms around me again. "We thought you were dead, we had no idea Bella. I can't believe we have found you again. It is a miracle." She pulled back and looked into my eyes "Bella you understand we don't want to let you go. Carlisle and I want you to join our family. We always wanted that. Please tell me you'll think about it" she pleaded softly.
Everyone started talking at once, except for Edward. He just stared at me with his face unreadable. I was elated, eager and confused all at the same time. I had wanted this for so long, but was scared to trust myself to be enough, and I was scared that Edward really didn't want me around. I felt a wave of reassurance fall over me and I stiffened and turned to Jasper.
"Don't" I glared at him. I felt the wall go up in my mind, and Jasper looked at me in amazement when he felt it switch off. I let go of the pendant then and clenched my fists shaking with the effort to maintain my control. I was tired, and it was taxing me. I needed to get home and soon.
"How are you doing that?"he asked me, dumbstruck.
Before I could answer Carlisle spotted the pendant I was wearing. He narrowed his eyes and his face became serious. He walked up to me slowly and looked at me for permission. I nodded slightly and Carlisle reached out to pluck the pendant from between my breasts.
I heard Edward hiss from across the room, and spun my head in his direction. He was standing with his fists clenched glaring at me. I could not understand what I had done wrong.
I looked up at Carlisle's questioning expression and he asked me what I had been dreading "Bella, why are you wearing the pendant of a Volturi guard? Where did you get this?"
I composed my features again, squared my shoulders and looked at the family. They were staring at me horrified. "I am not with the Volturi" I reassured them.
Carlisle looked at me skeptically. "How did you get the pendant then? Only the inner guard members are allowed to wear them, and it is a sign of stature and honour. They would never part with one so easily, it is of great importance to them" he added.
I bowed my head. This was my shame and I knew I would have to face it. It still hurt to think about it. I seemed to be constantly hurting others. I raised my head, smiled sadly and said "Felix gave it to me" before my legs buckled out from under me and I sank to the floor.
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