Hello all, sorry it has been so long since I last updated but between a sick kid in and out of hospital and flooding in my town, I'm a Queenslander, I just haven't found the time to finish this chapter. This chap is all me, there has been no prereading or betaing, I figured you waited so long I didn't want to make people wait any longer. I apologize in advance for any mistakes I made.
Just for a change this chapter is Jasper's point of view, I think he has more to say but it might be in a few more chapters.
I still don't own twilight, shocking I know.
Work has been kicking my ass big time these last couple of weeks and boy was I dying to get out of here and down to the local. It would be good to just hang out with the gang and unwind, forget about all the other shit that's been happening. Who really gives a fuck about a drug trafficking ring involving the college students? On most days I would, but today I couldn't give a fuck if they were beating each other with coke laced baseball bats. I just want a fucking beer, is that really so much to ask. Thankfully Jacob walks in and saves the day by telling me it's knock off time.
Now we can finally meet the gang for drinks. Jacob's missus, Bella, going to be there and I'm not going to lie but she grates on my fucking nerves. She's practically glued to Alice has been since I introduced them, after Jacob and myself were first partnered together a few years ago. They now own a bar together, it's always been Alice's dream to own a bar. Alice, dear sweet Alice, she's a fucking fantastic sister-in-law and a whole lot of crazy. I do believe her first words to me were, "You're really fuckable for a gay guy, you into threesomes?" I burst out laughing while informing her that I was not going near her girly bits ever and we've been best friends since. Then she married Peter, who is equally as fucked up as her, and became my sister and unfortunately bought Bella with her along for the ride.
Outside the bar we're met by Peter, Bella, Rose and Emmett. Rose is my bitchy twin sister but I love her and the big ass oaf she calls a husband, although him and Peter together can get damn embarrassing. Alice is manning the bar tonight meaning I get to spend time with Bella, and I thought this day couldn't get any worse. I really don't know how Jacob isn't an alcoholic having to spend so much damn time with her.
Immediately after we walk into the bar I could feel someone's eyes on me. Unable to contain my curiosity or irritation at being stared at I looked in the direction I could feel the stare coming from. I was prepared to flip the fucker off until I got a good look at him. The first thing I noticed were deep emerald eyes focused entirely on my body, moving ever so slowly over every inch of my body. Normal it would piss me off having someone so obviously ogle me but damn I could feel my dick reacting. The last thing I needed was for him to see how my body reacted to him, and with the way his eyes were locked on my jeans he would definitely see. Trying to distract myself from his pale skin, coppery hair and luscious lips that he was now licking I started walking towards my table. I quickly nodded my head in greeting to Alice, still a little pissed that I had to spend the evening with Bella instead of her. I force my eyes to not look back at the beautiful man at the bar.
My eyes eventually won the battle and found the strange man despite my efforts. Noticing that he was locked into a conversation with Alice, not an easy thing to get out of, I allowed myself a few moments to just ogle him. There was no doubting his beauty but what I noticed more was the air of vulnerability to him. His shoulder's were slightly hunched clearly displaying his lack of confidence. There was a sadness to him that I just couldn't place but I couldn't deny that I wanted to spend a lot of time figuring out the reason behind it. Never, and I mean never, before have I cared enough about a stranger to wonder what was going on in there head. I'm not going to pretend that I haven't gotten friendly with a few strangers because I have but they were just quick fucks, there was barely any talking. The words that came out of their mouths were anything but deep and meaningful, maybe a version of the word deep came out a few times.
Completely forgetting about the people at my table I quietly observed the man with the staring problem at the bar, although now I'm the one with the staring problem. He was a mystery and damn me if I wasn't fucking intrigued. He had looks that could rival any Calvin Klein model, believe me I have studied their pictures personally and thoroughly, and yet he seemed so insecure, so unsure of himself. His uncertainty was almost tangible making him seem so fragile and vulnerable. I couldn't help but watch him as he had a conversation with Alice, the poor thing seemed so lost and out of his depth. The way his eyes slowly trailed over my body as I entered the bar kind of alluded to the fact that he was attracted to me so when he sent me over a drink I wasn't all that surprised. What was surprising, however, was that he had sent over my favourite drink. I'm guessing that Alice had something to do with that, the girl just had to meddle. As Alice was dropping off the drink she whispered in my ear, "He really likes you Jay and he's so sweet." I looked over at him, watching me with anxiousness and nervousness rolling off him in waves. Not wanting to see that look on his face any longer I held up my drink with a smile, silently informing him that I accept his drink. There are so many other things I would accept from him as well. His answering smile was beautiful, I got a glimpse of how truly beautiful he could be if he just relaxed.
Alice walked back over to him and began another conversation with the mystery man, by now my curiosity was out of control and had propelled me from my seat until I was standing next to the intriguing creature. I could see every muscle in his body tense, he was bracing himself but for what I had no idea. Sweet Alice introduced him as her friend and he looked at her as though he was trying to determine when it was exactly that they became friends. Poor thing doesn't realise yet that now there's no getting rid of Alice, once she claims you as a friend you're a friend for life. I was so busy being entertained by his reaction to Alice's statement that it took me a moment to realize she had introduced him as Edward. Edward, it kind of suited him, it's a little stiff just like him.
"Hello Edward." I drawled, accentuating my accent just a little bit. It had the desire affect as I noticed a slight flush to his cheeks. His blushing was no where as annoying as Bella's, all that girl did was blush. "Thank you for the drink."
He smiled widely as I thanked him and I swear my heart skipped a beat. Wow I sound like a fucking pansy. His voice was like crushed velvet and went straight to my cock when he answered. "You're welcome Jasper. It's a pleasure to meet you."
"Not yet it's not." I mumbled hopefully to low for him to hear. He had no idea how pleasurable I could make this meeting. My cock drooled at the thought.
"I'm sorry, what was that?" He questioned trying to sound innocent but it came out a little squeaky, I wonder what he was thinking about. Not wanting to admit to my thoughts I quickly answered. "I said, it's a pleasure to meet you as well darlin'."
I slid onto the stool next to him purposely brushing myself against him enjoying the warmth that spread through me at the contact. I was so tempted to pull him onto my lack, just to have that warmth in contact with my dick. Edward sniffed me, no fucking joke, the guy actually took a great big whiff of me. He must have enjoyed the smell as he slowly starting leaning towards me again, but caught himself at the last moment. Rather than creeped out, I found it fucking amusing that he was actually sniffing me. It took all my self control not to laugh.
In an attempt to draw my thought away from his strange sniffing and hold in my laughter, I decided to strike up a conversation. "So what brings you to Austin, Edward?"
Edward's reaction to my question was very interesting. A few emotions crossed his face, lust, fear, guilt, sadness, loneliness and finally determination before he answered. "I was offered a job at the elementary school and was ready for a change."
Hmm, it would appear there is more to his move then he wanted me to know. I couldn't help but be curious at to why the real reason behind his move but something about him reminded me of a wounded animal and I realized I had to tread carefully. Instead of straight out questioning him, like the cop in me wanted to do, I decided to just keep asking innocent questions.
"Really, what do you teach?" I asked a little too intrigued by the answer, hoping it would give me some idea about this mysterious man. Something in me desired to know everything about him.
"I'm a music teacher," he replied somewhat weary and confused.
I just smirked at him as I realised he would be working with my mama. Now I'd have more of a chance to figure him out, if Rosalie didn't eat him first. He seemed so confused by my smirk that I decided to take pity on him and let him in on who his new boss is. "My mama is the principal and my twin sister teaches first grade."
Edward sort of paled at my answer and I could see the thought churning in his head. He seemed worried for a few seconds and then that earlier look of determination was there again.
"Well, I guess I'll be meeting them on Monday." He replied smiling beautifully at me. It's amazing how gorgeous he is when he's not uptight and anxious. I had no doubt that this man had some secrets but everything about he screamed to me that he was a good person, just reserved with a few issues. I hoped that I could get him to let his guard down and relax a little more often, because this Edward I wanted to know. Edward was lost in thought for a few minutes so I spent them tracing his facial features with my eyes.
"I have to go home as I have to get up early to unpack some more and do my lesson plans before Monday, but would you like to meet me for coffee tomorrow?" He sounded confident but I could still detect the doubt in his eyes. There was no fucking way that I would be turning him down.
"That sounds great, darlin'." I replied with a smile that caused his breath to hitch. Edward and I then swapped numbers with the promise that he would call the next day and I offered to walk him out.
"Well I should be going," Edward reluctantly mumbled.
"Mmm, you should," I think I answered him although most of my attention was focused on his tight ass. Hmm, the things I could do to that. His ass looked so fucking hot in those jeans, what did he do paint the fuckers on?
Once Edward turned around and busted me shamelessly checking out his ass I didn't have the decency to look ashamed instead I redirected my attention to the front of his pants. I was lost in my study of the slight bulge in his jeans that it took me a moment to realise that Edward was slowly leaning towards me. I wanted to speed this kiss up and just crush him to me but I was afraid that would freak him the fuck out. Edward's soft lips pressed against mine and I began to slowly return the kiss when thing got out of hand. Edward pressed his firm body against my, slowly dragging his tongue along my bottom lip and I wasted no time in granting him entry. My mouth was assaulted with the taste of peaches and a hint of vodka. His taste alone had my cock leaking like a faucet, the damn thing had a mind of it's own and pressed itself against Edward's thigh. We both broke apart when the need for air became apparent.
"Well, I'll talk to you tomorrow darlin'." I said somewhat breathlessly before quickly pecking his lips.
"Yeah." Edward replied sounding equally out of breath. "I'll call you in the morning. I really should be going. Goodbye, Jasper."
"Goodbye, Edward." I farewelled before going back inside the pub.
Once I was inside Bella was there attempting to wag her eyebrows suggestively, but only ended up looking like a complete wanker. Fuck I couldn't stand her. I stayed for one more drink before getting the hell out of there. Listening to Bella's grating voice, my brother and Emmett's teasing and being subjected to Alice's staring was starting to piss me off. At home I stripped down to my boxers and jumped into bed contemplating the strange but beautiful man I had met tonight.
I was in no way an innocent man but there was something about him that made me feel out of my depth. I wanted to know the source behind the pain in his eyes, I wanted to fix it. This wasn't the Jasper I was used to, if a relationship seemed like a lot of work, I was out of there. But this man made me want to be around long enough to get my questions answered. All I could do now was go to sleep and hope that he actually called tomorrow.
When I woke the next morning I couldn't stop the doubts from swirling around in my head. Edward seemed so unsure of himself that I doubted he would have the confidence to call me. I knew that I could call him any time I liked but I wanted to be sure this is what he wanted. There was just something so innocent about him and I didn't just want to be his experiment, I wanted him to be sure that I was what he wanted. The morning passed without a word from him, the more time that passed the more resigned I became.
I was lounging on the couch in nothing but my pyjama pants when I heard the familiar sound of my cell phone ringing. Looking at the screen excitement shot through me at the name, Edward.
"Hello," I drawled my excitement making my accent thicker and I heard him release a deep breath. Poor Edward, he must be so fucking nervous.
"Hello Jasper, it's Edward." He spoke sounding somewhat confident, although I could hear his voice shake slightly.
"Well, hello darlin'. I was hoping to hear from you today." I tried to put him at ease. That and I really was hoping to hear from him today, even though I doubted he'd actually have the balls to call me.
My comment worked just as I had intended to and when he next spoke it was with more confidence. "I was wondering if you were free around two for coffee?"
Fuck yes and then when we're finished I'm going to bend you over the table and... So not what I should be thinking about. Fuck now I need something to make my dick go down. Bella, yep thought of her always had him shrivelling up. I was so caught up in my coffee table fantasy that I failed to answer him so I quickly replied, "Two sounds great. There's a little place across from the bar. We could meet there if you like?"
"Sure, that's just down the road from me. So I'll see you at two then?" He went back to sounding nervous, he really was just too adorable. I should just hand him my balls now.
"Yep, sure will darlin'." I responded still embarrassed about the adorable thought.
"Anyway, I should go because I've got a couple things to finish before this afternoon." Edward broke me out of my thoughts regarding me embarrassment by sounding flustered and nervous.
"Okay then, I'll see you at two?" I didn't even attempt to hide my disappointment about our conversation being cut short. I wanted to keep talking to him, find out all his secrets, hopes and dreams. Oh fuck, there goes my balls again. I'm a fucking Ranger I do not to hearts and rainbows. I may be gay but I'm no fucking fairy.
"I'll see you then." Edward replied sounding fucking rushed, like he couldn't wait to get off the phone.
"Okay bye," I spoke quietly before ending the call.
Now I had to find something to do to entertain myself until I could see him later today. I decided to call Alice and find out what she thought about Edward.
"Hey honey," She answered overly cheery.
"Hi Alice," I reply a whole fucking less cheery. "I was calling to find out what you thought about Edward last night."
The other end of the line is quiet and it started making me nervous, maybe she didn't like him as much as I thought she did.
"He seemed nice," Alice finally broke the silence but her voice was hesitant.
"But?" I ask unsure what about him made her so hesitant.
"But there's something so sad and lost about him. I just wanted to hug him and offer him some comfort. I didn't think he'd be your type, you're usually into easy uncomplicated relationships and I have a feeling that being with him will be anything but easy and uncomplicated." Alice rambled on at top speed, man could that girl talk. She was right though, usually I wouldn't have considered meeting someone like Edward because I wouldn't want to deal with his "issues". All my past relationships have been fairly simple and only ended because there was no real spark. It took just one look at Edward to know that being with him is going to have its own problems. For the life of me I can't figure out why I'm willing to give him a shot.
"I know Alice but there's something about him," I say quietly, feeling a little lost.
"Jasper I saw it too and I think this may be a good thing for you," Alice responds sounding somewhat sympathetic. A few minutes later Alice and I said our goodbyes and I started getting ready for my coffee date.
I settled on a simple outfit of jeans and a button-up shirt, casual yet still showing off the body that I work damn hard for. It was finally time to leave so I grabbed my keys and started walking to the coffee shop, it was only a couple of blocks away.
Once I was outside the coffee shop I noticed Edward looking around with a panicked expression on his face. After a couple minutes of panicking Edward finally noticed me and replaced the anxiousness with lust as he full out eye fucked me.
Edward broke the silence by whining, "What, no badge and hat today?"
One look at his face and there was no stopping the chuckle that escaped my lips, the boy was completely mortified and apparently into men in uniform. I offered him a simple explanation, "No, no badge or hat today. I'm off duty."
His eyebrows scrunched up in the most adorable way, and there goes my balls. What grown man uses the word adorable? Although that is the best way to describe him, he's adorable
"But why were you at the bar last night if you were on duty?" Edward asks looking uncomfortable with the idea.
"I wasn't on duty last night," I answered simply. The poor boy still looked confused so I continued on, "I had just finished my shift and was still carrying one of my guns. I don't take my badge off while I am still armed."
Never before have I met a person who could go through so many fucking emotions in a short period of time. First he looked like a little boy who had just been scolded and then he shifted straight to lust, which then morphed into embarrassment. Edward's embarrassment transformed into pure fucking nerves. Not only did he have so many mood swings but he seemed to be operating in a constant state of anxiety. The question was, what made this gorgeous man so nervous about everything?
"Well darlin', how about we head inside and grab some coffee?" I ask hoping to calm him.
"Yep sure," Edward replied seeming relieved. I smiled and entered the coffee shop with Edward right behind me, and his eyes firmly glued to my ass. He pulled out his fucking wallet to pay, excuse me but if anyone on this date is the man it's me and as the man I will be fucking paying.
"I've got this," I say firmly leaving him with no room to argue. Edward hesitated for a moment, debating whether to argue or not, before giving in and putting his wallet back in his pants. It required all my self control to not roll around on the floor at the look Edward was giving the cashier. He looked as though he was considering strangling her with her own extensions. It would appear as though Edward has a little problem with jealousy.
Edward was so busy glaring at the girl behind the counter that I had to ask him what he wanted twice before he answered. "Um, a skinny mocha thanks."
"And you?" Blondie asked attempting to sound seductive and failing miserably.
"Just a straight black, thanks." I stated simply dismissing her before Edward's eyes did some serious damage to her. I quickly paid before leading Edward to a table in the back corner, wanting to be alone with him. Glancing back at Edward as I guide us towards the back of the room, I notice he looks a little confused and possibly hurt. What is it with this boy and his strange emotional trips? I quickly explained to him why I was leading us towards the back of the room. Edward seem to relax at my statement. Well, that a complete fucking lie, he had one of his mood swings where he went from sulking to have in no time. I couldn't help but smirk when he eagerly threw himself into the chair.
"Why don't you tell me about yourself darlin'?" I ask, my eyes never breaking contact with his deep emerald ones, more than qualified to see through any bullshit he may say. I've been on a few dates where they've claimed they were in the navy or a fireman, but thanks to my ranger training I knew they were full of shit. I'm curious about what tales Edward will try to spin.
"Well, I'm twenty-six and I just moved here. I enjoy music and love teaching." Edward replied completely truthfully. That threw me for a loop I was expecting some bullshit story but his answer was honest and simple. He seemed a little defeated when he uttered, "There's really not much else to tell you."
"How about I tell you about me then?" I ask wanting to distract him for what ever caused him to sound so defeated. I raised my eyebrow in question and had the pleasure of watching Edwards eyes darken with lust. "Okay then, I'm twenty-nine and have been a ranger for almost five years. I'm technically the youngest as Rosalie was born three minutes before me and the bitch won't let me forget it."
Both Edward and I chuckled at my lame attempt at humor. "As you know, my mama is the principal at the elementary school," I continued on when he nodded his head. "Well, my dad is a surgeon at the hospital and my brother Peter is a mechanic along with Rosalie's husband Emmett."
We, well I, spent the next twenty or so minutes talking about or families and friends. It didn't escape my notice that the more I spoke of my family, the sadder Edwards eyes became. He was extremely hesitant when he talked about his family and I just knew there was more to the story. My favorite parts of our conversations were the moments where Edward would let his guard down and display a little more of the man inside.
For ninety percent of the date Edward was tense and uptight, but for the brief ten percent he was easy going and breathtaking. Edward was truthfully one of the most beautiful people I've ever met. I was so fucking curious about the reason behind his tension but mostly he was making me horny. As he was talking about his life, or should I say dodging questions about his family, I was watching his plump red lips form words. I may or may not have been imaging how fucking hot those lips would be wrapped around my cock as he hollows his cheeks.
I was brought out of my dirty, dirty thoughts as a rare true smile graced his face. And like a fucking pansy my breath hitched, seriously he made my breath hitch. I do not handle this mushy shit well, in fact I'm seriously disgusted with myself right now. But there was no denying how fuck hot he was, and my cock has gone back to twitching. The only time Edward let his guard down was when he was discussing his piano or talking about teaching. I could never understand what my mom and sister loves so much about spending there days surrounded by snotty nosed little brats. I wouldn't last a day before I seriously considered shooting one of them or myself, probably myself. Edward was my complete opposite and spoke animatedly about his memories of teaching the little creatures, I mean children.
Everything was going well, by well I mean I had several fantasies and my cock was straining so hard against my pants in an attempt to escape and meet Edward, oh fuck he really wanted to meet Edward. Our obnoxiously big titted waistress put an end to our date when her tits spilled my fucking coffee all over me. Nothing cures a boner like a boiling hot cup of coffee, the skank.
"Holy shit, that's hot!" I yelled trying to pull the shirt away from my stomach before it melted and forever became a part of me. Edward however wasn't one for missing an opportunity and promptly began dabbing, caressing, my stomach with napkins. I could feel a heat rush through my body that had absolutely nothing to do with the coffee.
"Fucking hell. Now I'm all wet." I was getting real fucking angry and only slightly grateful I wasn't armed, well I should say that waitress should be grateful that I wasn't armed. My twitching hands were willing to forget that I ever took an oath to protect and would be more than happy to do a little harm.
"My place is just up the road and I could lend you a clean shirt if you like?" Edward offered looking extremely hopeful. Who was I to squash his hopes?
"That's sounds great darlin'. Lead the way." I accept his offer grateful for the chance to get out of my melting clothes. I may have watched his ass cheeks rise and fall with every step he took all the way to his place.
"Do you want to stay and watch a movie?" Edward asked sounding a little anxious and unsure of himself. I wouldn't turn down the chance to spend more time with him. I'm sure what it is about him but the more time I spend with him the more I'm drawn to him.
"Sounds good." I replied smiling as Edward went upstairs to retrieve a shirt for me.
"Um, the bathroom is upstairs, second door on the right." He mumbled handing me the shirt and looking at me all lustfully, my cock pressed against my pants wanting his introduction.
"Nah, it's alright darlin'. I"ll just change here if that's okay with you?" I asked in a polite tone attempting to conceal my own lust. Edward seemed incapable of speech as he just nodded mutely and I think he may have been drooling.
Knowing that I had his attention I decided to give him a little show and slowly unbuttoned my shirt. Edward inched closer with every button that I opened until he was standing before me. Out of nowhere he leaned in a pressed our lips together and that heat spread through me again. I ran my tongue along his bottom lip silently requesting permission which he all too eagerly granted. My tongue made quick word of massaging and dominating his. What I was not prepared for was what shy, mysterious Edward did next.
He very slowly moved his tongue down the side of my mouth and neck causing me to moan loudly. Not phased by my moan Edward's tongue continued its dissent down my body, stopping to run over my nipple. The moan that ripped from my body could be heard down the block. My moans only seemed to encourage Edward as his sinful tongue became acquainted with every dip and groove in my stomach. Edwards slightly trembling fingers released by aching cock from their denim confinement. Deep emerald eyes locked with my blue ones, silently begging to let him continue, begging me to not reject him. I nodded because there's no way I would deny him nor would I ever reject him. Without any further hesitation Edward tore my jeans down my legs.
My cock sprung free, happy at the chance to finally be introduced to Edward. Edward just stared at my erect member for a minute before finally continuing his decent down, his tongue trailing a path through my curls and lapping up my precum. His tongue felt so fucking good I had to talk myself out of coming straight away. Without any warning Edward's warm mouth engulfed me, sucking hard. All coherent thought left me after that and all I could do was feel. I felt his tongue massage the underside of my cock, and I felt his tongue swirl around the head as though it was a fucking lollipop. It was all too much when he started massaging my balls and his head bobbing up and down my length.
"Ung... ah.. E-Ed...ward... I'm... cum," I tried to warn him but it seemed to come out as a series of moans. I was barely holding together and hoped to fucking god that he decided if he was going to spit or swallow quickly or else he wouldn't have a choice. My control was seriously slipping.
Edward finally decided and grabbed a handful of my ass holding me in place while he sucked harder, hollowing his cheeks. There was no better sight then his plump red lips wrapped around my cock while he hollowed his cheeks. The sight alone caused me to lose my shit and my cum shot out of my body and down Edward's throat. Edward released me with a pop and my body wanted to whimper at the sense of loss. As I was trying to recover from my fuck awesome orgasm Edward went and picked out a DVD.
"So how about that movie now?" He asked looking all proud, he damn well should be I don't think I've ever blown my load that hard before. I was a little confused that he didn't want me to return the favor, I was more than willing.
"Are you sure?" I asked pointing to his erection, fucking hoping he'd let me taste him. A strange look crossed his face before he smiled that beautiful care free smile.
"I'm sure." He replied patting the seat next to him. Now I've never been much of a cuddler but the chance to sit around with that man in my arms was not something I was going to pass up. I sat on the couch and wrapped my arms around him, bending to place a soft kiss on his lips. Something about the whole thing felt right, as corny as it sounds I felt at home sitting here on the couch with him in my arms. We cuddled for the entire movie and I've never been happier to cuddle, nor have I sounded like such a fucking girl. I'm a gun carrying sissy.
"Will you come over tomorrow night after work and I'll make us some dinner?" He asked looking all hopeful and fucking adorable. And there goes my man card, maybe I should cut off my balls and just hand them to him. It's not like it would be the first time he handled my balls.
"Of course I will darlin'. I get off around seven so I'll see you at around half past?" I replied placing another soft kiss on his lips. I'm not sure what it is about him that brings out my tender side, I'm usually more into the passionate kisses and groping then all this heartfelt tender shit. Something about him makes me want to protect him and treat him right.
"Okay, I'll see you then." He replied kissing me heatedly, which may have scrambled my brain for a minute.
"Goodbye, Edward." I said quietly before turning to leave.
"Goodbye, Jasper." He replied in the same tone.
I went home threw on my boxer and sat on the couch watching TV, although my thought never strayed from my bronzed haired boy. He was still on my mind when I decided to turn in for the night so I sent him a quick text.
Goodnight darlin
My eyes had just closed when my phone beeping forced them back open and my heart to race.
Night Jasper
As I closed my eyes waiting for sleep to claim me I wondered how Edward had wormed his way under my skin, and awfully close to my heart.
Well that was a little dive into Jasper's mind. Please review and let me know what you think. I promise the next chapter won't take so long.
