I walked around in circles for hours. I finally went home let myself fall on my bed. i turned my head towards the computer. I wonder if MusicKing messaged me. No, I wouldn't think about him, but I let curiosity get the better of me and two minutes later I was logging back onto my computer. There was one email from him with only 3 words. Go here tonight. I looked at the attachment file. It was a ticket to some underground place. I printed out the ticket but stared at it. I wasn't sure whether or not to trust it. It was at a place I've never heard of before; I looked back at my computer screening thinking about why he sent this to me. I took a decided breath, I trusted him and I would go. I had nothing to lose.
I got changed into black jeans and tank top leaving the house not sure what to expect. What I didn't expect was an underground concert, but there I was listening to bands I've never heard of before. Some were good, some⦠not so good. I went to the bar and got a drink. While sipping it I looked around at everyone here, there were at least over 200 people but I didn't recognize anyone.
"Oh my god." I heard the guy beside me whisper. I turned around to see him staring right at me. "You're Stevie Baskara."
How does this person know me? I was starting to get scared.
"I saw you perform with Gravity 5! You were AMAZING! I can't believe I'm actually talking to you right now! I'm a huge fan of yours, you're my favourite band member of all time." He was practically jumping. Soon people turned around.
"It's STEVIE!" I heard one person yell. Everyone started crowding around us. People were yelling left right and centre telling me how much they loved my music or how I was there inspiration. They'd tell me how they wish I would have my own solo!
I was overwhelmed. I didn't know what to say. "You guys know who I am?" I guess that wasn't what should've came out of my mouth but normally fans would come up to us and talk about how awesome Kacy's voice is or how cute Zander is. I never had people come up to me before, until now.
Some of them even knew about my break up with the band and they still stuck beside me. I couldn't believe it. "I didn't think I had fans like you guys." I talked to all of them about their music, some of them were even in band of ages.
"Did you enter? You know you can sign up as a solo? You'd be great! Kick them in their asses and show them what they're missing." A girl said.
"I didn't enter. It's just not me, I don't really sing for everyone like Kacy does." I gave them a weak smile. I felt like I was disappointing them.
"You don't need them. All you need is you; you've been letting them shine for too long, now it's your turn. You can be your own person someone you've been hiding all this time."
I looked up when I heard that voice. It sounded so familiar with his encouraging tone. It sounded like Zander. I looked around but didn't see him.
"Sing us a song!" I heard someone yell. Everyone joined in. "Sing! Sing! Sing! Sing!"
As they chanted I felt someone pushing me towards the stage. I struggled at first but I felt like I know this person pushing me, the way it fit on my back. It felt like Zander's. I turned around once I was on stage. I scanned the crowd and caught my breath when I saw the same curly short brown I would never forget. I couldn't see his face but I had that gut feeling that it was Zander.
My heart started beating uncontrollably. Part of me wanted to tell him how much I still cared but the other wanted to show him how mad I was at him. He left me for the dead. I could feel my anger building up. I wanted to show him how much I didn't need him anymore. How I no longer needed him to be the person I would hide behind, that even though they made my life a living hell I lived through their bullshit. All of it.
"This is a song inspired by some people I used to know. Hope you like it." I said into the microphone as I grabbed the electric guitar in the corner.
I started strumming hearing the song in my head. I opened my mouth and let my emotions create the lyrics.
Insecure
In her skin
Like a puppet, a girl on a string
Broke away
Learned to fly
If you want her back, gotta let her shine
So it looks like the joke's on you
'Cause the girl that you thought you knew
She's so gone
That's so over now
She's so gone
You won't find her around
You can look but you won't see
The girl I used to be
'Cause she's
She's so gone
Here I am
This is me
And I'm stronger than you ever thought I'd be
Are you shocked?
Are you mad?
That you're missing out on who I really am
Now it looks like the joke's on you
'Cause the girl that you thought you knew
She's so gone
That's so over now
She's so gone
You won't find her around
You can look but you won't see
The girl I used to be
'Cause she's
She's so gone away
Like history
She's so gone
Baby, this is me, yeah
She's so gone
That's so over now
She's so gone
You won't find her around
You can look but you won't see
The girl I used to be
'Cause she's
She's so gone
She's so gone
You can look but you won't see
The girl I used to be
'Cause she's
She's so gone
So long
She's so gone, she's so gone... gone, gone, gone.
Everyone cheered. Their screams echoed in my ears and it was something I would never forget. This feeling was the best moment of my life, like everything didn't matter anymore except the fact that I was here with all these people who believed in me.
I let out a long breath smiling and waving at everyone. I jumped down and someone handed me a flyer. A flyer for the Band of Ages. I said my goodbyes taking a last look around for Zander, or at least who I thought was Zander but when I walked outside and started for home there he was, with Molly at his side. I was wrong. That person in the underground wasn't Zander. He was with Molly the entire night.
I wasn't sure if I was disappointed or relieved, but I guess it didn't matter. In the end, it wasn't about them anymore; it was about me not being scared anymore.
"Aww, lonely Stevie walking all alone like the loser she is." Molly said as she got closer. I didn't say anything. I had nothing to say to them. I looked at Zander but he stared at me with his same blank expression he always does. "I'm talking to you." Molly shouted but I just kept on walking in my silence. "What nothing to say?" Molly asked trying to bait me as we were almost side by side. All I did was take the flyer and push it into Zander's chest walking away, not even look back to see him stumble back a little. I knew he was looking down at the flyer with Molly. A smile crept onto my face; bring it on.
