I arrived back home on Sunday, like I said. I walked in to see Roxas in the kitchen, he was holding himself crying. I placed my duffel on the floor and went in to see what was wrong.

"Roxas, what's wrong. Did something happen."

He nodded and began to shake even more.

"I c-couldn't keep food down, s-so I went to the shop to get some cold medicines thinking maybe I was catching a cold." He sniffed I grabbed his hand, thinking this would be about pence.

He doesn't know I know yet since his mother told me, that he didn't want me to know what happened. She didn't tell me he got hurt though. She surprisingly missed that bit out, luckily only minor wounds which from the looks of it are gone already.

"I went past the pregnancy tests and saw a girl staring at them, she was crying she turned to me and asked if I knew anyone who had a baby and which brand was best, I told the brand I used. She bought 2, one for herself and one for me to show her how its done. I stupidly agreed."

He took a deep breath, he lifted the book with a pregnancy test on it handing it to me after obviously placing a piece of tape on the bit I was holding.

"I'm pregnant, again" he looked scared, I knew he would be scared, all the crap we went through after Roxel's birth. I knew it was scary but I was so happy at the same time, I began to cry.

"you not happy either" Roxas remarked.

"I'm bloody happy…either?" I questioned he looked away.

"I…I'm scared…Axel, what if, should I have an abortion." He asked with a solid face. I instantly grew mad

"ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS" I shouted he flinched back. I threw the book next to him at the wall.

"you want to murder our baby! How heartless can you be, we made this child out of love and care and you just think yeah lets I don't know throw it away!" I continued to scream.

"I can't do it!" He cried crumbling to the floor making me instantly calm down to tend to him. I leaned down with him, he had more tears on his face.

"I'm scared, i-pence is dead, I'm not, I should be dead, why aren't I dead" he kept asking why he wasn't dead, I grabbed his arms which were locked around his head and pulled him towards me, he tried to struggle but I could tell he wasn't eating properly or getting sleep since he was so weak. Once he was against me he let his tears flow fully making a "wah" sound. I held him close rocking him on the kitchen floor, I continued to rock him until he stopped crying and began making sniffing sounds, then nothing but breathing, I looked down to see he'd fallen asleep. I picked him up and carried him to bed. Once I got to the bedroom I stripped him down to his boxer and began putting his pyjama bottoms on him, once he was changed I put the sheets over him and gave him a kiss and left the room.

I walked into the hallway and saw his phone on the side charging I picked it up an went through his contacts and began ringing the phone.

"Hello, Olette it's Axel, I need you to tell me everything that happened with pence" I began, she gasped knowing full well this was Roxas's phone, I never use Roxas's phone.

"I can come around tomorrow morning if you'd like and explain everything." She replied I thought it through, would Roxas be awake and would he not let her tell me.

"okay you come here around 8 so you can still get to school on time." I told her

"um…we don't have school until Wednesday, police are checking the area, Setzer woke up got away from police custody, since it happened at the school they are keeping it closed until Wednesday at earliest if they catch him. my mum will drive me around 8:30 since she heads to work then." She explained to me.

"okay Olette I'll see you tomorrow." I hung up and had a shower and decided to watch telly for a while. I was half way through live at the Apollo when Roxas came in the room sitting next to me and snuggle up against me and put his head against my chest. I pulled the blanket which we kept on the back of the sofa on us.

"I love you" he whispered.

"I love you too" I kissed his head

"thank you for being there and for giving me this child" he whispered.

"we'll talk about that tomorrow. A proper talk, I over reacted, I don't have to carry the child, a possible danger to your health." I held him closer and pressed play on a film, his favorite film to be exact. After some time he was sleeping on me. Before I knew it I was waking up in the morning. I noticed the weight of Roxas was still there but he was looking at something on his phone.

"hmm" I moaned as I moved to stretch, he jumped and looked at me, he realized I was awake and leaned back on me.

"do you want to cuddle by any chance" he nodded without word, suddenly the door knocked I knew that was Olette, I moved and got up while he stayed lying on the sofa. I opened the door and saw Olette with a ripped skirt on and messy hair, she had tears in her eyes.

"whoa what happened" I opened the door to let her in. she walked in slowly and shook her head.

"its nothing bad, well too bad, my mum didn't give me a lift since she wasn't feeling well" she began, I closed the door, she sat down while Roxas stayed where he was.

"I was walking down the street a few weeks ago, some guy wanted my bracelet, he pushed me into the an alley way, I just gave him my bracelet so he'd leave, luckily because he just wanted my bracelet and money he left without even trying to take my bag. I was scared when I thought I saw him and climbed a metal fence, caught my skirt and arm." She told us, the story made no sense, why only a bracelet and adding money so it didn't look like a particular rob.

"Was it the bracelet Setzer gave you?" Roxas asked, she hesitated then nodded.

"Yes, it was, he got so mad at me for losing it." she looked down at her skirt.

"Roxas, come here sit next to me." She gave me the signal she wanted to help him, because he was like a zombie.

"I'll go make some tea." Then I left the room. The house phone started ringing and I answered it.

"hello"

"where the fuck is Roxas!" shouted his friend Hayner

"whoa calm down"

"I will not calm the fuck down, he is late, he said he'd help and what does he do not show the fuck up!" he screamed. I felt bad but I knew Roxas was not in the right frame of mind for this.

"relax before I come around there and punch your lights out, can't you postpone the thing you're doing!"

"it's Pence's funeral planning, his parents asked us to plan it since they couldn't even look at the forms, now tell him to get the fuck down here!" he shouted once again

"now you shut the fuck up and listen to me, Roxas is not coming. He is upset and barely eating so get a fucking grip on yourself, I know your upset too but think about this Roxas was there, he practically saw it happen. So do me and yourself a favour and stop whining like a little bitch and think about how he's feeling as well." I shouted loudly hanging up.

"what's going on?" Olette inquired at me.

"what? Where did you come from?" I asked confused as both Olette and Roxas were now in the room. They both looked at me, Olette with worry, Roxas with shock. He came over and hugged me, face against my chest. Olette stared at him surprised.

"thank you" he muttered into my chest.

"for what?" I asked putting my hands on his shoulders.

"you are the best thing that ever happened to me" he held on tighter and I smiled and hugged him back.

"thank you Olette" Roxas spoke as he turned to look at her. I held him close to me while he spoke to her, I zoned out

"so when are you two going to get married?" Olette suddenly asked causing Roxas to try to change the subject.

"well, I believe that if we go to the police about your bracelet the police will catch this guy" Roxas spoke.

"Roxas, the guy didn't hurt me just took the bracelet, he didn't do any worse than Setzer did, so tell me, are you two going to get married." She persisted, I decided to put him out of his misery.

"yeah, I'm going to marry him." I answered. She squealed and hugged us both.

"oh my god, please let me plan your wedding, I want to be a wedding planner when I leave school, this will be a great chance for me…pleaseeee" She begged us. I nodded knowing my father wanted nothing to do with the wedding, hell he still thinks he can marry me off to someone else.

After a little while longer Olette left I asked Reno to give her a lift home, he came around and picked her up.

"okay Roxas I'm going to go the shop and get some chocolate for you and some real groceries okay. Love you" I kissed him on the cheek, he grabbed me and pulled me in for a kiss on the lips.

"we'll talk about the baby when you get back, oh before I forget mother is bringing Roxel back after the…funeral. She said to help us settle down, before having to look after a baby." He told me, I pulled him into a hug.

"I love you, take as long as you need to feel better. I will be here for you" I told him.

"thank you, I spoke with Olette while you were pretending to make tea, she made me feel better, maybe I wouldn't have helped getting killed as well. She reminded me, I have you, Roxel to love and look after, you wouldn't be able to continue if I wasn't around" he spoke, I kissed him deeply.

"it's been a while hasn't it. When your ready, we are going all night long-"

"hah should have known you would-"
"making cupcakes" I finished interrupting him. he kissed me knowing I was joking anyway. Once I left the apartment I walked to the parking lot seen Reno's car was still there, it was reasonably dark when Olette left but now it was almost dark, mainly street lights kept it light outside. I worried since about what happened with Olette and walked over to his car to further inspect, once I got close enough I could see it was shaking, I was curious none the less and peeked through the window to see Reno and Olette having sex in the back seat, and having a good go might I add. They'd left an hour ago, and they were still there when I got out. I shook my head, minding my business, he knows the law, he'd been caught for public sex before, So I left. I went to the shop after grabbing all the things we needed, I remember my mother gave a card, in a separate bank account, she told me she had originally planning on leaving my father with how much money she's snuck into this account, he cant see it. However she gave it to me to help support us food and bills with it until, I get a better job. I have a promising future in my game art design career since you know I great at art, I was planning on getting a job with my uncle this fall after graduation, well paid and plenty of time off, my main concern was a nanny, we couldn't expect Sarah and Derek to look after him forever, and with another on the way I was concerned. I parked up outside our apartment seeing Reno's car was still there. I got out of my car to see Roxas standing by the car he was about to know the window when I walked over and grabbed his arm.

"I don't think you should knock on the window." I told him he smiled lightly.

"they're asleep, I just wanted to offer them hot Choco, I made some for us as well." He explained. I smiled and handed him some bags with light stuff to take in, while I got the rest and the heavies. Once I was inside Roxas was looking at himself in the mirror, I put the shopping bags down in the kitchen and walked behind him. he put his hand on his abdomen and looked unsure, I put my arms around him.

"always beautiful, no matter size, or height." I told him lightly he leaned back into me.

"I took another one after you left, I'm not pregnant, and that was a faulty stick" he told me.

"oh, are you sure, did you try more than one?" I asked concerned. He nodded.

"I tried three, which means we only have two left, sorry I'm not pregnant." He looked away from me as if ashamed for letting me down.

"I love you, and we have a son. If another comes along then we get another child. I don't mind waiting. C'mon lets put the shopping away and have some dinner" I nudged him and grabbed his hand and pulled him into the kitchen.

Everything seemed to have gone smoothly up until Pence's funeral. I held Roxas in my arm as he burst into tears during the ceremony, Hayner was crying with Olette, even Reno showed up, I don't think for Pence entirely. After it was over I took Roxas home we noticed that the apartment next to ours had a to let sign-which had been there for weeks- being taken down. Roxas decided he couldn't be bothered to meet anyone so he went inside, I followed him. three days later we had a knock at the door, Roxel began crying, since he hated loud noises during feeding time, which to Roxas's displeasure meant he wouldn't settle after feeding and would continue to suck even though to taking any. I opened the door to see a black hair girl, she was short, about the same height as Roxas.

"hello I'm Xion, I just moved in next door with my friend, Terra moved in next door and-Ventus?" she stopped walking right past me, as a male comes over from hearing her. He walks in after her.

"sorry she's like this" he apologized as he walked past. I close the door, smirking.

"I don't mind" I responded.

I go into the living room and seen Xion looking around for something. Roxas comes out of the bedroom with a yawn, he stopped at the sofa.

"Terra it's him" she spoke. I stared at her completely confused. I looked to Terra for some insight, he sighed.

"it's not him he said he-" Terra paused. He looked at Roxas and ran over hugging him.

"I didn't think I'd see you ever again. I love you so much" he spoke then pulled Roxas into a kiss. I couldn't believe my eyes.

"hey" Roxas shouted as he pushed Terra off of him. Terra looked sad.

"look I know you said you wouldn't take me back, but I'm off the drugs, me and Xion are still fucking like before, it can be like it was all three of us in a three way relationship." This man was blurting his heart out to a complete stranger.

"I…who do you think I am?" Roxas asked, in the time this happened I moved over to where Roxas was standing next to him.

"don't be like this, you must be forgetting everything, don't you remember that night on your birthday when we went out to the store and we had sex on the shop counter, then again in the freezer." He continued recalling memories, of which me and Roxas had no business being in.

"my name is Axel, this is my boyfriend and fiancée"

"you're marrying him, after you said you would only marry me if was rich, look at this dump and this deadbeat and you are going to marry him!" he shouted, suddenly Roxel began to cry Roxas turned and began to leave Terra reached out and grabbed him.

"I'm not who you think, I am here, I've been here all my life. Please let me go" he asked Terra didn't let go.

"let him go" I intervened by putting my hand on his arm, he let go. Roxas went into Roxel's room, submerging a few moments later with said child.

"only a few more weeks and he'll be 1, time sure flies doesn't it." Roxas chuckled.

Terra started again "raising a child with this man, what's got that I don't." Roxas gave Roxel to me, he went into the draw where his driver's licence was and showed it to Terra.

"my name is Roxas Marne, I'm 17 years old, I got to school in this town and all my records are in this town. So please could you stop mistaking me for someone else, this is Axel my fiancée who is the father of my child, do you understand" he explained to him. Terra stayed silent for a moment until he sighed.

"I'm sorry, but you could be his twin."

"I already have a twin, trust me he's already with someone as well." Roxas laughed, Terra smiled lightly.

"I'm so sorry, I said some stuff I shouldn't have, please accept my apology and please we are having a feast tonight and inviting all the neighbours please come." He asked us, Roxas looked at me, I nodded in a sense of telling him it's up to him.

"okay, let us just find a babysitter" he told them.

"okay well come around about 6" he told us, the evening was uneventful until we got ready, Sarah had Sora and Riku's little one so she said she'd make a play date out of it. I just told her she was too exited some have them as much as she does. The night was nice we laughed we drank wine and we had fun. Roxas drank a lot and was nearly off his feet, I wasn't much better, after most people left we left last.

"okay…I loved your table setting. Please come again" Roxas said, making me laugh, we were at theirs not the others ways around. We all said our goodbyes. We got into bed, since the last time, we were concerned and noise we made would wake up Roxel so we moved the bed to the wall next door. Suddenly we heard bed creaking, and moaning.

"ah yeah Terra harder" moaned Xion, I laughed slightly at the fact they were having loud sex next door. Roxas however had other ideas; he climbed on top of me, without anything on.

"Let's fuck, so loud, they'll orgasm just hearing us" he groaned as he grind-ed against me, leaving me with not much choice. We had a bit of foreplay before we heard their bed creaking heavily. Consistent moans and screams, Roxas climbed on top of me, and inserted me into him, and began riding me. Now if you know me my favorite position is when someone rides me, less work for me unless I want to and sexy as hell to watch. So Roxas began riding me and speeded the pace until he stopped. He leaned down and whispered in my ear.

"I want you fuck me so hard into this bed, the frame will go through the wall." I heard him and threw him on to the bed, instantly pounding into him an amazing speed. The bed kept hitting the wall and we also heard theirs hitting the wall. Roxas moaned loudly as did Xion. I continued to pound into him until I couldn't hold it in anymore and came inside him, this caused him to come as well. We slowed down after that, noticing that all noise had stopped next door. Roxas rolled over breathing heavy. I collapsed on the bed, dosing straight away. Last thought (did I remember to use a condom) and (did I come inside) both left as I black out.

The next morning I woke to find Roxas on top of me, his eyes closed and he was breathing on my nipple tickling me. I tried moving him then he fell off the bed and I chuckled accidentally causing him to growl at me. He got up and rubbed his arse and complained I didn't treat him right. He went into the bathroom, he screamed loudly and I got up and ran in. I saw him staring at the floor.

"you peed on my white floor!" he looked at me accusingly, I frowned.

"I did not, it was you" I blamed him, he pulled a face at me and turned away.

"did not pee on the floor" he muttered. He turned on the shower and hopped in, he decided I wanted to snuggle with him, I got in with him.

"hey, what do you think you're doing?" he asked me, I kissed him shutting him up. After making out in the shower and cleaning each other I looked at the time noticing it's almost noon, the door knocked and Roxas answered it.

"mum what you doing here…oh yeah Roxel." He giggled.

I made three cups of tea and while I played with Roxel Sarah and Roxas sat in the kitchen chatting, I heard Roxas chuckled and Sarah change the subject.

"Kairi's pregnant…" she began, Roxas spat out his tea.

"what really! I thought she didn't want to have a baby"

"it's not her boyfriends" I got up and took Roxel into the kitchen.

"What do you mean it's not her boyfriends?" Roxas questioned.

"a few months ago Sora met a lad named…I think Mitch, was it Mitch. Anyway he introduced him to Kairi and they hit it off and week later they were dating, all kind of fast you kids take relationship when I was your age we waited before having sexual relations with each other." She had gotten completely off track, Kairi is my little sister and she didn't finish. Roxas spoke up, by nudging her.

"mum this is Axel's 15-year-old sister please tell us what's happened." He asked.

"your father kicked her out and called her a slut. Your mother called me and asked if I could look after her until she calmed him down. I agreed, but I feel she should be with her family, since her boyfriend won't even talk to her" I froze, he kicked my sister out, one thing kicking me out but her, really.

"that bastard!" I snarled and Roxas turned quickly, and smacked me.

"your holding Roxel, watch your language." He told me off, I really did love that about him, anything could happen and our baby came first.

"sorry" I muttered back at him, he turned to his mother again.

"did you drive here?" she nodded.

"okay we'll call Beatrice and tell her to get Kairi some clothes and relax bring them here when she comes later anyway. You go home and get Kairi and have her come and stay here, with Axel her she should feel a lot better" he told her, she nodded again, grabbing her keys and kissing him and Roxel then me. I smiled and closed the door behind her turning to see Roxas looking at me like he did something wrong.

"you did good, don't feel like you did bad." I told him and he looked relieved.

"I'm worried so many people your dad hates in one home, he might come and blow us up." He laughed as did I. Roxel began moaning and looking towards Roxas, who grabbed him and began unbuttoning his shirt, staring at me.

"I think you should tell your mum, since she visits on Wednesday anyway." He told me, I nodded.

After I got to the phone I called my mum, she answered.

"hello"

"Who said you could answer the phone!" my father's voice came in booming sternly.

"Sorry I'll hang up" she didn't though she left it on, as if to continue the call.

"I told you, no answering the phone, we can't let them know our children aren't here, we have slutty children, just like their mother" I felt like he was being too mean when suddenly I hear a slapping noise and her cry, another following that one suddenly she stops crying and he slams a door, she doesn't come back to the phone. I threw the phone down and put my shoes on and ran out the door. Roxas shouted me but I ignored him. I ran to my car and speeded down to my parents' house, I tried to open the door then realized it was locked, I knocked once, and then a bunch of times after. My father answered the door with a surprised look on his face.

"where's mum I need to speak to her!" I told him, he pointed inside.

"she fell down the stairs" he told me I smacked him in face.

"no she didn't you bastard! You hit her!" I shouted at him, she came limping in scared.

"you have no proof!" he replied getting up.
"you leave her the fuck alone!" I screamed, he had the nerve to laugh.

"or what!" he asked laughing.

"I'll call the police" I told him, he smirked at me and looked at her.

"Nothing has happened Axel, I just fell down the stairs" she told me, she was scared so she would lie to the police as well.

"You…" I looked at him, clenching my fists.

"However I will divorce her, give her half the stuff if…"

"If?" I asked, he looked between us.

"You leave Roxas" I froze. My mother could die if I stay with Roxas. Was my happiness worth her misery?


id been gone for some time, Christmas was not helping with me writing, i will try to keep up i'm trying to get better at updating as fast as i can, let me know what you guys think okay. i'm starting the next chapter already, so it shouldn't be too long before i update again.

thanks for reading

Emdem xxx