Title: Gundam Diaries Part 8 ~ Wufei
Author: Makoto Sagara
Pairings: 5x2
Warnings: Language, OOC, angst, confuzzlement, and yaoi

Disclaimers: I don't own Gundam Wing. I only wished I did. It's owned by Sunrise, Sotsu, Bandai, and some other companies that make lots of money off of it. I don't make any money off of this, but my muse does let me live as long as keep up to her schedule.
Additional Warnings: Also, this part will be yaoi, and if anyone has problems with it, um, don't read it. ^_^ You have been warned. I will not be held accountable by you not paying attention to all the warning you have had so far. ^^;

April 3rd, AC 195… 22:00

I'm writing this while I am piloting Nataku to the position of my next mission. I have been in Nataku for about 4 hours now. I ache to be in the arms of my small American baka. I long to kiss him. I just really miss the braided boy.

A few nights ago, while I wrote, I would have given my soul to have a solo mission. But after my tryst with Maxwell, I want nothing more than to be with him. Ironic how a night with him could make me WANT to behave differently.

I suppose that I should explain how I ended up spending the night with him. It's still sort of confused in my mind, but I will try and make it as clear as I possibly can.

After Duo slammed the door in my face, I went back to my room to think. I needed some time to meditate, and while outside was tempting, it meant that I would have to pass Winner. Not something I was up to at the time, so I cleared a space on the floor, and tried to clear my mind.

After fifteen minutes or so, I realized that I wasn't getting anywhere. I just couldn't get Shinigami's glare out of my mind. Oh, yes, it definitely was Shinigami, and not Duo. I have seen that glare many times, but it has never been directed towards me. The sight of it was enough for me to make a hasty retreat.

I couldn't come to a conclusion that night, so I spent the night thinking about it.  Unfortunately, I still didn't have a solution, though my body screamed every time I saw Maxwell.  He was changed those three days. So quiet, not talking, barely making any noise whatsoever. It tore at my heart to see him like that.

I didn't look at him. I couldn't. It hurt too much. Every time I saw him, I had to turn away. Winner would not leave him alone. He was hovering. It would have been comical, had D.. Maxwell been in any proper situation to tell him about it.

I avoided him as much as possible, taking my meals in other rooms when I could.  I spent most of the days in the hangar, or outside practicing my katas.  But last night, as I was meditating in my room, again with no results, Maxwell's face appeared before me.

Giving up on meditating, I just sat on my floor thinking. I really care for Maxwell. No, I take that back. I love him. I just don't want to be used by someone I love to make someone else jealous. I do not know one person who does. And while I do not believe that Duo would ever do something like that, I did not want to put myself into that situation.

I suppose I was thinking along that line for a while, because my body suddenly screamed at me. I stood up, and discovered one of my legs had fallen asleep. I walked the blood back into my leg, and found myself in front of my door. I stood there for a moment and realized that I should at least apologize for my harsh treatment of the braided boy. I slowly opened it, and walked down the hall to Duo's room

I was about to knock, when all of a sudden, the door opened and Duo was standing there, looking as shocked as I felt.

"Fei?"

"Maxwell, I need to…" I started, hesitantly.

"Before you say anything, I have to apologize to you."

"Nani?" He had to apologize to ME?

"You… you were right. I am sorry." A bright blush appeared on the violet-eyed boy's face, and he hung his head. I couldn't stand it. I gently cupped his delicate chin in my hand and slowly brought his eyes up to meet my own. He didn't stop me, either.

"I am sorry, as well. This is hard for me to say…. But I care for you."

"I…I know."

"You, you do?" Who is letting out all my secrets in this house?

"You can't hide anything from Q-bean, you know. He's good at reading people. And, he sucks at keeping secrets." He weakly smiled at me.

"Well, I don't think I will be sharing any sensitive information with him anytime soon." I was flabbergasted at this news.

"You never share any kind of information with anyone, Wu-man." He snorted.

I then felt the strongest urge to kiss him, and I followed up on it. It was as wonderful as the kiss earlier had. And it had the same effects upon my body as the last one had. He leaned against me, for it seemed that he was about to collapse. Suddenly, Duo moaned and started to drag me into his room.

I pulled back and looked into his amethyst orbs. "Are you positive that this is what you want? It would be dishonourable to regret this later."

He gave me the most lust filled gaze I had ever seen. "More than anything else, I want you." He then grabbed a handful of my shirt and yanked me inside his room, closing the door with his foot.

I looked around his room. It was a disaster area. "Maxwell, do you ever clean in here?"

"Only when packing for the next mission." He smirked merrily.

"Ye Gods. I'm terrified now."

"Shut up, Fei." Before I had a chance to say anything else, he had silenced me with another scorching kiss, while jumping on top of me. I managed to maneuver our fall onto his bed. I wrapped my arms around him, and deepened the kiss that was sure to steal my heart even more than I thought was possible.

"Duo?" I had stopped kissing him, and I had to look at his beautiful face.

He nodded, acknowledging that he still had that function right then. I wasn't sure I did.

"I have no knowledge in these matters." The actual talking about this subject was much too uncomfortable for me to continue. I felt my face get red, and I started to unwind my arms from around him. He stopped me.

"Wu, chill. I figured as much." He then kissed me. I could see that it would be entirely too easy to become addicted to his kisses. All of a sudden, he started to unbutton my shirt with quick movements. He pulled up as he finished working on my shirt, and his eyes grew wide.

He took a longing glance at me, which made me melt right then. I would have done anything for him at that moment. Then to my amazement, he started to kiss his way down my body. When his lips first touched my body, a jolt of electricity shot through me. He started this exquisite torture at the spot where my neck and shoulder meet, where he kissed and nibbled the area. My eyes grew enormous and a small moan escaped from my lips. He slowly kissed his way down to my chest, and started to suckle on my nipple. Oh gods, he is so talented with his mouth. I was making more noise then than I ever did.

"I love you, Duo." I whispered to my braided lover.

He then nipped me, and automatically I drove my hips up at him. He suddenly stopped his kisses, and I did the one thing I never thought I would ever do. I whimpered. Nataku, I was so weak with need at that moment that I didn't even care.

"Now, Fei, you are going to have to behave while I work, or I'll stop."

"No, don't stop." I begged him. He smiled coyly and started back to kissing my body. He finally made his way down to my pants.

"Hmm, now these are just going to have to go." He replied, and tugged at the string tying my pants. Then, in one fluid movement, he yanked my pants right off of me. He took an appreciative look at me, and then he smirked when he noticed my black silk boxers. His slight shock only lasted a second before he had managed to take those off too.

He licked his sweet lips and moved to take my manhood into his mouth, but I grabbed his arm. "Not yet." The thought of him giving me oral was beyond my mind at that point. I quickly grabbed both of his arms, flipped the both of us so that I was on top of him.

I ripped open his shirt and tugged his pants off. That's when I noticed he wasn't wearing any underwear. Oh my, he was so gorgeous. And the sight of him in his naked glory was too much for me. I growled at the spectacle.

I felt his member spring at that action, and I had to smirk.

"Oi, Fei, don't tease." I suppose it was his turn to whimper and beg.

I ran my hand over the head of his cock. "Fei, I need you." He begged.

I looked down at my squirming lover. "How do you need me?"

"I want you to fill me. I want you to take me, make me yours." He panted.

"Tell me what to do and I will."

He reached into the nightstand by his bed, and pulled out a tube. He handed it to me.

"Put the lube on your fingers, and then prep me for your…" He glanced at my erection. "…Your large friend there."

"How do I… prep you?"

"Put some of the lube on your first three fingers." I did as he said. "Now, place one at my entrance… and then work it in and out. I'll tell you when I want more, but you should be able to tell when I'm ready for the next step."

I was slightly uncomfortable with this, but I did as instructed. I placed my index finger at his pucker, and slowly waited for it to go in while I added a little pressure. I felt his body relax, and my finger slowly slid in. I started to move it around his tight cavern.

"More." He moaned.

I added my second finger and waited for him to adjust, and then started thrusting my fingers in slowly and roughly. He started squirming yet again.

"More." I added my third finger, and he started moaning loudly. He looked like he could have orgasmed right then.

"I want you, Wufei. Give me all of you. Prep yourself, and then enter me."

I looked up at him, grabbed the neglected lube, and put a generous amount on my straining erection. The friction that my hand caused felt so good, I moaned.

"No, baby, not like that. In me…"

I stopped touching myself, and slowly lined up to his entrance. I slowly worked my way inside him. When I was totally seated in him, I stopped. Oh, Nataku, it was heaven there with him.

"You, ok?" I managed to grunt.

"Y…yes."

"Gods, you feel so good. I want to come right now."

"Patience."

I started to slowly pound into him. It took a few minutes to find an acceptable rhythm, but finally I found it.

"Faster. Harder. I won't break."

I started to really pound into his soft and gorgeous body. I was in ecstasy. I was so close, and the screams coming from his mouth were driving me closer and closer to the edge.

I felt a hand sneak between us and it brushed against my stomach. I looked down and noticed that he was starting to stroke himself. I just couldn't take it. I moved his hand out of the way, and started to stroke him in time with my thrusts while using my other hand to keep myself from crushing him.

I managed to find a way to keep my pace changing, neither of us could really find release. I knew I couldn't possibly keep up with the original fast and hard pace. I was too close.

"Fei, please, stop teasing. Let me come." He was down to a husky whisper from all the screaming. The sound went straight to my cock, and I started pounding into him once again and all but yanked on his arousal.

Finally, he spilled his seed all over my hand and his stomach. At that moment, his muscles clenched down on me, and I gave one last thrust into his perfect body before I exploded inside of him.

"Felt so good." I was so weary that I collapsed on top of him. "I'm so tired." I looked at his flushed face. He was so amazing. "You look so beautiful."

"Hmmm, Fei. You were amazing." My eyes were drooping at this point in time. "You gonna sleep here?"

"Don't want to move."

"I don't want you to, either. Stay here with me."

"Fine by me." I closed my eyes, moved beside him, and wrapped my arms around him.

I faintly felt a cool sheet touch my flushed skin before I fell asleep.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

I was awoken in the morning by sunlight. I tried to move around to block the light in my eyes, but there was a solid, and very warm, mass next to me. My eyes flew open. Duo was there next to me. I was in his room. I was naked, next to Duo.

But then, what happened last night came back to me. He really wanted me then, but how would he feel once he woke up? I decided not to let those worries get to me at that moment.

He was so beautiful when he slept. His hair was slightly coming out of his braid, his face relaxed, and peaceful looking. I just was content at that moment to lie next to my sleeping lover, and watch him.

An hour after I had woken up, Duo started to move around.

"Dun wanna wake up. Make the sun go away, Fei."

"I can't, Duo. It's morning. Besides, its your turn to make breakfast."

He seemed to wake up considerably after I mentioned food.

"Hm. Food. Sounds good to me." He looked at me. "How long you been awake?"

"About an hour."

"Why didn't you wake me?"

"Because I was enjoying you next to me, and quiet. I figured you had to be quiet sometime."

"Oi, Wu-bebi, that's mean."

"Wu-bebi?" I arched an eyebrow at the new nickname.

"Hm, you don't like it?" He stuck out his bottom lip and pouted.

"It's…. new." I kissed him. "Come on and get up. You have to cook."

"I have something else to show you." He gave me a devil-may-care wink.

"More lessons?" I was a little worried about the new lessons, but I had a feeling of what they were anyway.

"Yes, it's called, "How to deal with morning wood." Something that every boy should know." He leaned up and gave me a quick kiss.

He then ripped the sheet off of us. His eyes got large as he took in the state of our undress. I must admit that I was very aroused and had been for about the last 10 minutes of looking at him sleep.

Duo crawled seductively down until he was facing my aching member, and licked the tip. I moaned, and he looked at me long enough to smirk. He then proceeded to take my whole cock into his mouth, licking and sucking the way down to the bottom of my shaft. Next, he took my testicles in his hands and squeezed lightly. All I could do at this time was moan. I was in too much ecstasy to say anything intelligible.

I felt something lengthening against my leg, so I reached down and grabbed his turgid member. I started to stroke him in time with his licks, which make him moan in the middle of a suck.

"Ahhnnnnn. Feels so good, Duo." All of sudden there was a warmth that started in my stomach and traveled down my body. I start to quicken my pace on his shaft. I was trying hard not to beg him to let me release.

Finally, I did, and then to my utter surprise, Duo swallowed every drop of my seed. I moaned at the sight of him doing that, but I also felt him quiver violently. He was close too.

"Ah, Fei, I'm gonna…"

I knew that my braided lover was going to come, so I dipped down and wrapped my mouth around his pulsating shaft.

"Gonna come. Can't stop." He rasped. "Ahhnnnnn." He came, and I swallowed every drop of the salty liquid.

I looked up and smirked, cockily. "Hm, now that is an interesting way to deal with morning issues. Now, I suggest a shower, and then I'll help you cook breakfast." I stood up and searched through the mess for my discarded clothing. "I'll see you in about 20 minutes, otherwise, you cook alone." I winked at the sated boy and headed towards my own room.

Just as I was about to enter my room, there was a squawk behind me. I turned around, and there was a very red Winner standing in front of one of the empty rooms.

"Winner. Morning." I said, and entered my room. I didn't shut the door fully, so I could hear every word that passed between Winner and Duo.

"Good morning, Wufei. What the hell?"

"What do you mean?" Duo managed to ask innocently.

"Allah, you SLEPT with him??? HOW? On second thought, why? I thought you were in love with Heero."

His reply sounded genuinely amused. "I don't know how I feel about Heero anymore, but when I went to apologize to Wufei, he was standing here at my door. That made me realize that I care for Fei a lot. I'm not really sure how I should feel, but while I was with him, I felt at peace. The only way I thought I could have peace was to die." He stopped talking.

His conversation with Winner touched me, and I totally lost my heart to the violet-eyed boy.

"Are you ok, Duo?" Winner asked, puzzled by the other boy's silence

"Well, I need a shower, and then I have to meet Fei to cook breakfast. So, I have to hurry. I'll talk to you in about 20."

I smiled and hurried into the bathroom across from my room. I took a very quick shower. It was just long enough to wash the sweat and dirt from my hair and body. I rushed back to my room and dressed comfortably for the day.

I was in the kitchen beating the batter for waffles when I heard Duo all but run into the room.

"Gonna leave anything for me to do?" He asked, coyly.

"Yes. I have left all the HARD things for you to do." I retorted.

"Was that a joke, Fei?"

"Possibly. Now, cook, or Winner will starve." His stomach picked that moment to growl quite loudly. "And you too."

He giggled. "Well, what is there still to do?"

"The batter for the waffles is finished. You just need to get the waffle iron out and to make them. I'll make the eggs, since we don't want a huge mess. And there is still fruit that needs to be sliced."

"Well, I'll set the table and help slice the fruit." Quatre spoke up from the doorway.

"Hm, I thought it was MY turn to cook." He said, pouting just every so slightly.

"Well, we could just leave you to cook it all, by yourself. If that is what you would prefer." I added quickly.

He stopped. "No. I enjoy the help." He grabbed the bowl of batter and placed it on the counter. "Q, where's the waffle iron?"

"Under the counter, near the toaster. Where it always is."

Duo then bent over and looked for it. I got the best look at his perfect little ass, but then he started to wiggle it. Shit, he knew I was looking. I cleared my throat to let him know that his efforts were noticed.

He straightened up and proceeded to throw himself into fixing the waffles. Winner and I also did what we had promised to do, and the cooking passed in amiable silence. I enjoyed it immensely.

We sat down to breakfast, and I made sure to sit next to my American lover. Yes, I had started to think of him as mine. Winner and Duo chattered about things, and I joined them.

I left Duo to clean the kitchen, and headed out to do some more Tai Chi practice. Just because I wasn't on a mission, it didn't mean I was going to neglect my training. I suppose I spent quite a few hours out there, because when I looked up, the sun had moved across the sky dramatically.

I headed back inside. Duo was watching TV. Winner was nowhere to be found. I went upstairs and took another quick shower. Then I went into the TV room and sat next to the braided boy.

He was watching some silly program that I really had no interest in, but I sat there just to be near him.

"Something the matter?" He asked.

"No."

"Fei?"

"Yes, Duo?"

"What is wrong?" He turned off the television, and faced towards me.

"Nothing is the matter. I was just enjoying your companionship."

I kissed him. He just looked so cute with his slightly confused expression. He waited a few moments before wrapping his arms around my neck. I pulled him closer to me and deepened our kiss in response to his action. The next thing I knew, he had removed one of his arms and had grabbed one of my hands, placing his long braid in it.

"M… Duo? What are you doing?"

"Giving myself to you. Last night was something special for me, and I wanted to let you know the only way I know how."

I growled and pinned his small body to the couch. "So, last night was not just some capricious thing for you?"

"Nothing I do is capricious. I always plan everything I do to some degree. Granted, I hadn't planned on making love to you, but I don't regret it."

I leaned down and placed my head close to his ear. "Wo ai ni."

"Oh, Fei." He pulled me down, so I was lying on top of him on the couch.

I became instantly aroused and could feel him grow in response. He then started to rub against me. The friction that ensued was wonderful. He actually moaned into the kiss, and I ran my free hand over his lithe body, while still holding onto his braid with the other.

One of his hands found its way up my shirt and was rubbing my chest and stomach, while his other hand pulled out the tie in my hair, allowing it to fall around my face. I was about to lean in for another kiss, when the sound of a very surprised squeak came from the direction of one of the doors.

"I'm so sorry. I'll just let you two alone." Quatre said, obviously flabbergasted.

"Hm, maybe we should save this for another time?" I asked the disappointed boy beneath me.

He stuck out his bottom lip. "I suppose I could be persuaded to hold out on this. But I would need some real convincing."

I snorted. "Of course you would. How about I promise you a repeat of last night later?"

"Um, kay."

"Good." I kissed him again, and then walked out of the room.

I went to my room and set to meditate. This time I was much more productive than the last time I attempted to do so. I was broken from my trance by an annoying beeping coming from my laptop.

It was the mission I had requested from Master O the night before. A mission that would take me away from Duo for a week. A mission that said I had to leave as soon as possible. Shimatta, the only possible time I didn't want the old man to reply so quickly, he does.

I had to tell Duo. I sent of an email saying that I had accepted the mission, and quickly packed my clothing and shoved all of my things near the door. I then headed down the hall, and knocked on my lover's door.

He opened, and took one look at my face. "'Smatter?" He asked, and let me inside his room.

I took a look around for the last time in a week. The result scared me. "You cleaned?"

"You noticed. Anyway, what's the matter?"

I sighed and sat down on his bed. I didn't want to tell him this, but I motioned for him to sit next to me.

"Uh oh. Tell me what's wrong." He asked me seriously.

"Duo, I have a mission."

It was his turn to sigh as he finally took the spot next to me on the bed. "Oh?"

"Yes. Master O just mailed me with my specs."

"Ok, so why do you look so upset about it?"

"It's for a week."

"A week? There's more, isn't there?"

"Aa. It's a no communication mission." I looked away. I couldn't see any pain on his face.

"Ah, that's why you are upset? Because we won't be able to talk for a whole week."

"Yes, partly." I looked at him again and brought his face close to my own. "I don't want to leave you, but the mission has to be done."

"I understand that. Don't worry. If I get called away, I'll find a way to contact you. If I have to email you like 500 times, I'll do it." He kissed me softly and quickly on the lips. "I promise."

I was relieved to see him taking this so well.

"So, when do you leave?"

"As soon as possible."

"You, mean as soon as you leave my room?"

"Well, yes, that."

"Fine, I will see you in a week." He crossed his arms over his chest.

"I thought you would put up more of a fight about this." His behaviour is far from what I had expected.

"What could I do about it? Yell? Get angry? Cry? Not talk to anyone? That's not reasonable. Nor would it be very "honorable." The only thing I can do is to wait for you to come home. And make you want to come home sooner."

"Ah, yes, that. Well, I will try and get back quickly." I stood up and headed for the door, before this became any more unbearable for me.

He followed, and placed a hand on my shoulder. "Wo ai ni, Wufei." He said, and accompanied with a deep and passionate kiss.

I groaned in frustration, and kissed him back. "You are making this hard, Duo."

He rubbed up against me suggestively "I know."

I shook my head to clear it from the thoughts of just throwing him to the floor and fucking his brains out. "Wo ai ni. Seven days till I see you again. I will be back by then."

"I know, Wu-bebi." He softly pushed me out of the room. "Now, go, before it gets worse."

"Okay." I retrieved my things from my room, and headed into the hangar for Altron. I got into the cockpit of my Gundam and set everything down in its place. Then, I rummaged around until I found the CD that Duo gave me.

I put it into the drive again, and played every song on it about 5 times.

I miss him. He may be a baka sometimes, but I love him.

Hmm, my laptop is beeping.

KUSO! He just got a mission with the same specs as mine. So, this means I won't even get to have about 50 emails a day. I suppose I will just have to practice more of my "dragon-like" patience, as Duo and Winner have described it.

Until next time, good-bye.

~ Chang Wufei