Hey guys :)
I know I haven't updated in a while. I actually thought I would stop...
As you know, I wrote a book. It will come out in 2 weeks ! -i'm so excited- anyway, my point was, I usually write my own story, with my own characters. Lately, I've received several comments and inbox messages telling me that I'm getting way too OOC...
Well, that's why I usually don't write fanfictions in the first place. I'm afraid about how I will represent the characters – so yeah, I don't write fanfics a lot although I'd like to. When I'm writing my own stories, I can do whatever I want to do, without people telling me that they don't recognize the character.
Again, I'm truly sorry if I've been writing the chars too much OOC. As you may know, if you read what I write before every chapter, I'm french, and... I have to keep writing in English to practice, so that explains the weird narration thing. I feel like I'm getting badder and badder at talking english. :[
* cough *
Anyway. I hope you'll enjoy.
Chapter VIII
"I thought I was in love with Katniss, when I actually just couldn't see the obvious..." Peeta had told to the crowd in District 9. The boy's words couldn't leave his mind. "The obvious." The simple truth about him. About them. "The obvious." He didn't know why, but hearing Peeta saying that was not making him happy. Maybe because it was fake. To Peeta, at least.
To Cato, it was different. He had liked Peeta from the start. The reason he didn't want to kill him in the arena was because he cared about him. When he saw Peeta running towards Katniss to save her after that the tracker jackers attacked them, he had desperately thrown the sword at the boy. He couldn't afford to see Peeta love someone else than him. He immediately regretted that.
That's why when he woke up after the games, his first thought had been if Peeta was okay.
"The obvious."
Did the other boy felt this way since the beginning of the games too ? Cato didn't think so.
What was really obvious now was that they were in trouble, all of them. Peeta and Katniss were going to be seen as liars, and himself as a couple breaker. Or even as a whore. But there was no step back.
He and Peeta kept seeing each other. Going out, hand in one another's hand, in each District.
District 8. District 7. District 6, ...
Everything went so fast. Soon he realized that the public relationship between Peeta and Katniss, that was now over, was like his own with Peeta henceforth. They hadn't had a moment for themselves without people asking them questions about their couple.
Cato was tired.
District 2 was for today. He really had some apprehension.
He hoped it would go well. Of course it wouldn't go well. He had let Clove die... He regretted it so much. All that because he was looking for Peeta after the tracker jackers episode. And Thresh had killed her.
As the train was arriving at the station, he sighed. That was it.
Peeta put his hand on Cato's. The boy looked up.
"It's time" he whispered.
"I know it is... I wish I just could stay here."
"But you can't." Peeta said before hugging him.
"I know I can't" Cato mumbled, in the other boy's hair.
He backed off. Peeta took his hand and they started walking towards the corridor, in the way out.
Peeta stopped on the doorstep of the wagon. "Remember, we can do anything as long as it's together. We will get through this... you, and I."
Cato swallowed. A Peacekeeper opened the door. The boys and Katniss got out.
OoO
"That went well", Peeta said after the speeches.
Cato shrugged. At least it didn't go bad.
They had the day off to be with Cato's family. The boy weren't really looking forwards to it.
The night, he, Peeta and Katniss went to his house. He knocked and entered before getting the answer.
The smell inside was weird. It cheered him up a bit : it reminded him of the time when his parents cared about him.
After the presentations, they all sat down.
"So... For how long have you two been together ?" Cato's mom asked.
"Come on, mum" the boy mumbled. " Like if you actually cared."
"I do care, Cato."
"We both do" his father added.
"Whatever." Cato said. "I'm not hungry."
He found himself walking towards his room. It soon wouldn't be his room, because they were going to move to the Victor's village.
He didn't want to talk to his parents. What was the point ? He knew that they were going to talk bad about him right after they leave.
Someone knocked. Cato didn't answer. He didn't want to see anyone.
"It's me." Peeta's voice softly said.
He opened the door and looked around.
"So, this is your room ?"
"Don't start that. There's no point."
He frowns. "Why ?"
"Now that the Star crossed lovers of District 12 story is over, we are the ones that get people of Panem's attention. WE are the star crossed lovers, Peeta, don't you get it ? That's what Snow wanted from the beginning."
He punched his fist against the wall.
"From our visit in District 1, we won't see each other anymore. Never, ever."
Peeta looked down.
"What... are you suggesting ?"
"I'm suggesting that we stop playing Snow's games. You and me... we have to break up."
Peeta swallowed, nodded and left the room. Cato moved towards the window and looked through it.
He knew what he was doing.
The games really had changed him. He remembered the old himself. Tough, strong. And never able to like, or even love someone.
He liked to be that person, and hated what he had become. The old him were able to do so many things. The games had left him harmless, taking his only friend away : Clove.
He sighed.
Peeta... Peeta and he was a mistake.
OoO
The visit in District 1 went fast. The boys acted like everything was still normal. But what was normal anymore ?
In the train towards District 2, no one talked. Then, the moment Cato feared came. That was the last time he ever saw Peeta – and Katniss.
Two Peacekeepers entered the wagon.
"It's time to go." one of them said.
Cato swallowed.
The girl came and hugged him. He wrapped his arms around her. He did not realize, it really was the last time that he could see her. His friend.
She slowly backed.
Without a word, the other boy stood on tiptoe to reach Cato's lips, that he softly kissed with a stroke on his cheek. He sadly let him do it, then Peeta backed off. "Goodbye." the boy whispered.
One of the Peacekeepers took his arm.
"I said it's time to go." he repeated.
Cato couldn't look at Peeta. The man pushed him in the corridor. He started walking, and quickly exited the train. A lot of citizens were waiting for him, including his parents.
Peeta and Katniss were looking at him through the glass of the window. The expressions on their face just made his heart drop.
He was alone, on his own, in this ocean of people that did not even knew him.
OoO
Cato was bored. He had a new, giant house for him and his parents. He had nothing to do, and all he could think about was Peeta.
He decided to go out. The sun was shining bright this afternoon.
He stopped on his terrace. Then, he did what he did best... He started practicing.
After a hour of sport, he got home and took a shower. While showering, he thought about Peeta. He couldn't dissociate the water rolling down his face with all the tears he was sharing.
Ok, it might seem like this is a whole different story... If it does, I'm sorry. I kinda had the writer's block for a few days... you know what I mean. I'm on 3 different stories right now, not to mention all the things I have to do with the publication of my first novel (yeah, it finally got published ! This is the best day in my life :D) anyway.
Maybe you've noticed I had started another fanfic about cato/peeta (even /marvel) so if you want to take a look.. please do. :) I really enjoy this second fanfic. I hope you will like it too. :)
xx
AC
