The day we met,
Frozen I held my breath
Right from the start
I knew that I'd found a home for my heart...
... beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
I've been staring at that kid for over two hours, unable to move, unable to say a single word. It's almost four in the morning, I should probably be resting by now, but I just can't imagine leaving him here, alone. I know that he's not actually alone, his dad is right there, next to him... But he's sleeping, while Mateo's awake and he doesn't seem to like the idea of falling asleep. He looks so much like my dear, sweet Calliope and he makes me want to hug him to make him feel better. I have so many things in my mind, his life is in danger and I am scared I might not be able to help him... It would be devastating. We had Callie, Mark and the girls tested for the bone marrow transplant and I am hoping with my whole heart to find a match, because it would help the child a lot. Mateo looks at me from his little bed and tiredly smiles at me. I smile back, hoping to give him a littl bit of comfort. I should probably walk away, I don't want Mark or anybody else to notice me stading here, with no apparent reason. I lay down in the nearest on-call room, waiting for tomorrow morning to come.
When I wake up, it's almost seven a.m and I feel exhausted. Callie should be here around nine and I have absolutely nothing to do as I wait for her. I was thinking about askign Owen to allow me to come back to Seattle and I should probably go ask the nurses when I can meet him. Luckily, I find one very quickly.
"Good morning, I'm doctor Robbins and I was wondering when I could meet doctor Hunt."
"He's been working for the whole night, you can find him in the E.R, he's going home at eight." The nurse tell me and I feel extremely lucky. I walk to the elevators and go to the E.R to meet Owen, just to tell him that I need to talk to him as soon as he has a minute.
"Owen !" I wave at him, who's in fron of the main desk, looking at some charts. He smiles at me and I suddenly understand that the night was harsh, he lookes exhausted.
"Hey, Arizona." He says.
"Rough night ?" I ask him, jokingly.
He nods. "I had to page basically the whole staff to come and help, it was crazy."
"Owen... I came here because I need to talk to you about something." I begin and he puts the charts back on the counter. "I was thinking about coming back to Seattle."
His eyes widen as he stares at me. "To work ?"
"Well, yes. That's obviously not the main reason." I think I might be blushing a little.
"Torres ?" He asks, with a huge smile on his face.
"Yeah, we're... Trying to get what we deserve." I admit. "I thought I might as well come back to work here."
"That would be great, actually, but we should talk about it when I get back. I'm way too tired to talk abotu contracts and shifts." He laughs, but I can see that he's really tired.
"Thank you, Owen. I'll see you around." I tell him, before walking back to Mateo's room. When I get there, Mark's still asleep and I am happy to notice that Mateo's asleep as well. Mateo's surgery is scheduled for this morning, at ten and I am getting really nervous about it. What if I screw up the whole thing ? Callie would never forgive me for killing her child. I keep looking at him and I can't help but feel sad because this could have been my life. I could be watching at my son and not a patient, I could... No, I can't life my life based on what if's. I am here as Mateo's doctor and I can't fail him, I will save this little boy's life. He has so much to do and to discover, his life is in my hands.
