Chapter 8

Alice and Jasper

As I got dressed I thought on all that I had heard while I was in the bathroom and what it would mean to me. Alice... I was really surprised that she was not here before now. She was the one I knew that had told Carlisle about me and where he and Esme were to find me and what I was now, I just hoped she had not said everything. I would tell them all everything one day, how I ended up this way but not this day I was not ready, I know that Carlisle and Esme would not push me on the details but I did not know if Alice would be the same way.

Would Alice be here soon? knowing her possible. I know she and Jasper probably were not to far away and would come now that she knew it was safe for them to come, but was it yet? I did not know. I felt better than I did when this first happened but still.

I walked down the staircase a little to fast, I was still getting use to the way I moved now and vampire speed was not helping me, but at least I did not run into the wall. Emmett would have let me have it if that had happened although the only one hurt in that situation would have been the wall as I would have thrown Emmett threw it. I laughed at this thought, then I shook my head as my emotion changed again when I thought that as Esme would not like a hole Emmett shaped in her wall, even though she would not blame me.

I found them in the living room, Carlisle was reading the newspaper and Esme was going through some boxes probably trying to find more clothes and things for me. I smiled at that, Alice would not like that, she would probably take one look at what I was wearing and what was in those boxes and shopping would be the first thing she would do or maybe she would shop on her way here. I started laughing again at this thought only to be met with two sets of curious eyes.

"Some ones in a better mood" said Carlisle, his eyes going from me to his paper again.

"Hello sweetheart I am glad those clothes fit you. Do you need anything else?" Esme asked smiling at me and then when I shook my head she went back to the boxes. I went and stood by the window. I did not know how to say that I had heard them.

"Bella say what ever it is you have to say. You know it will be fine" said Carlisle looking up at me and Esme was also looking over to me, I decided to tell them.

"I heard the two of you talking while I was in the bathroom. So I know that Alice being Alice, will be here soon, wont she? and I am not sure how I feel about that. But I know that she will do what she wants whether I am ready for her or not" I said then froze as I saw a car pull up the driveway.

Carlisle got up and crossed to where I was and placed an arm around my shoulders pulling me into him. I was trembling, I was going to try to be calm and met them but all my instincts said to run that this was too much, but then Carlisle said into my ear.

"You can do this. You know she will not hurt you in any way, I will not let her. All right baby girl" I just cuddled into him. Daddy I thought, although I had not said this to him but that he is to me at least as much as my real dad.

I watched as Esme went to open the door as Carlisle stayed with me holding on to me. I knew that nothing will be the same and Alice will try to pull me out of my way of thinking that I was currently sees me as a monster and a killer straight away but I still knew the truth and that changed my trembling form into one that needed comfort and I turned my head into Carlisle's shoulder hiding from the world.

At the door Alice was peeking under Jasper's arm taking in how very frightened I was. When they did not advance I looked at them now from my position in Carlisle arms. I could see that Alice was grinning at me but that was not what I was looking at the most. It was Jasper's scars. When I was human I could not see them but now I could see that the scars left over from fights he must have had and they were his most dominant feature.

Instinctively, I growled and leaped out of Carlisle's hold placing myself up against the wall. I could see now how dangerous Jasper could be. How many had tried to kill him? would he try and kill me? I growled again as they now both moved closer. Moving slowly but still too close. Much too close.

"Bella we will not hurt you in anyway, everything will be alright. We will help you, scared as you must be, it is going to be fine"Alice said to me. I could see she was not the same person that left all those months ago, she was maybe a little more serious.

I stopped growling but I only let Alice get any where close to me. As Jasper moved towards me I started to growl again, I did not want him to touch me.

"Jasper I would not come any closer. She is not ready for some one like you. Besides you can help her from a distance so do not worry. She will warm up to you soon" said Carlisle as he came over and gently ran his hand through my hair. This calmed me down again, like it had in the car on the way here.

I realized I could not handle this, I suddenly jumped up and landing on the first floor I looked down at them all as they looked up at me. I trembled again worst than before, then I ran into my room and shut the door. I knew that one or other of the Cullens downstairs would come up here to see if I was alright.

I felt the waves of calm flowing over me but for once I did not want them. I shut my eyes and said in my thoughts stop it Jasper. Then I realized as my eyes opened again that I could not feel them any more. What was going on? maybe I had some kind of power, more than just a shield. I was thinking on that when I heard them talking downstairs.

"She is blocking me Alice. That power that blocked Edward from hearing her. Well it is stopping me now too and do not tell me you can see her future any more either, I know you have only been getting flashes since she was changed" Jasper said. He sounded worried "maybe I will not be able to help her like you said I would".

"I know Jazz and I know I was right by sending Carlisle and Esme to her first. Even though we were closer, Bella needed some one to talk to her like a parent"Alice said "and I know she is probably listening right now" oh great I thought and if I had been human, my face would have been bright red.

"Alice, why don't you go up and talk to her. I know she still loves you, she just is too confused about all of this to think clearly" Esme said. Yes I still cared about her, but how could I trust her when I did not trust myself.

Then I heard footsteps on the stairs and a knock at my door and Alice saying "Bella please may I come in?" I did not know whether that would be a good idea but I knew that if I did not do it she might stay outside my door until I did open it.

"Okay Alice come in... say what you have to say then get out. I am just not into company" I told her. I watched from the bed I was sitting in as she walked into the room. She came over and sat with me, she placed her hand in mine and gently gave it a squeeze.

"Bella, I am sorry I did not see this happening to you before it did. I promised him that I would not look and I have not but when I saw you on the beach in pain, crying out for him, for your father and mother too, I knew I had to do something so I sent Carlisle and Esme. Now that Jasper and I are here, we will do everything in our power to help you. Even going and getting my pig headed fool of a brother for you" she said with a smile.

I looked at her, the smile was that of an eight colored rainbow. So beautiful. I knew what I needed and she might be the one to help me get it.

"Alice do you mean that?" I said looking straight into he golden eyes. When she nodded I continued "I think I need to find out what is happening at home with my dad. I think I need to know that he is alright"

The feeling that I had to know how my human father was, was indescribable. Also I knew he would have news on Jacob too. I watched Alice as I saw the wheels turning in her mind. Would she say no that? that it was not possible?.

"Fine we will call him but we will do this my way Bella, no ifs, no buts, no maybes, got it" she said looking straight at me looking for the first time like a vampire.

"Yes, my sister" I said.

An: sorry for the late update, made it nice and long to make up for it. Hoped you liked Alice and Jasper coming into the story and they will not be the only ones.

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