"Rin" he called that name again as he was holding her. That voice, so warm, so loving. The voice that whispered with his whole heart and soul. The cold-heartless demons that always seem to have a loving heart around this time when he was having his way with her.
She hated it.
She hated that name.
Rin!
Because of Rin, Nao's life was ruined.
She did not know when it started, but before she knew it, she had come to hate that name so much that she wished that name never existed.
"Rin" the demon whispered softly as his lips trailed down her neck.
She wanted to push him away. She wanted to sew his lips together so he could never call that hateful name ever again.
Because of Rin. All of it was Rin's fault.
Without this woman name Rin, Nao would still have her life. She would still have a family, parents, brothers and sisters. She would still live peacefully in her village, happily married. Without Rin, Nao would still have a normal human life. The life that she had always dream of having.
But Rin had to come and took everything away from her. Rin turned her colorful world into darkness. Rin destroyed everything that Nao had known. Pushed her into the dark empty world.
Because of Rin, Nao was stripped out of her life. In just one day, she lost her whole world. The villagers turned against her, her parents threw her away because of fear and moneys; her so call lover abandoned her.
She had to let the demon violet her over and over again. She had to comply with his needs but she couldn't even complain. Her life had ended. Even her feelings were taken away from her.
Even her name.
And when it came down to it, it was entirely Rin's fault.
For whatever Rin did or did not do, Nao had to live the consequences. She became her replacement. The shameful fate she had to live in. The unstable life she did not know when it would end. If it weren't because of that woman, Sesshomaru would not need another replacement, Nao would not be summoned, and she would still have her life.
So she hated that name.
She hated it so much that it was unbearable.
Sesshomaru traced his lips toward hers, pressed it there, his tongue nudged giving a silence comment for her lips to part, which she had no choice but complied. But she did not respond to his kiss.
Another waved of anger washed over her.
She was now but a whore in the eye of the people in this palace. She was nothing but a toy to this demon.
That was all she was good for. Other than that, she was but a living shadow.
When did these hateful angers started, she did not notice. Why did she only care about it now, she did not know. All she knew was that, she hated that name.
And every night, she had to listen to it.
The more she heard it, the stronger her hated grew.
Such a warm and loving voice, the voice that spoke to a lover. Something she could never have. Because hers had been robbed off of her the moment Sesshomaru took her from that village.
She could never have her lover back.
She was now but a toy.
Why did she have to listen to him calling another woman in such a loving voce?
She didn't even have the choice to walk away from him or refused to listen.
She hated it.
Especially when it came from his lips in such a warm and loving voice. As if Rin was his life.
If he loved her so much, why was he not with her?
Why did Nao have to be tortured instead?
"Are you not well?" Sesshomaru paused from his activity and examined her closely. His claw hand came to inspect her forehead for temperature.
"I am fine," she answered coldly, a hint of anger in her voice. The demon's eyes widened slightly, but soon composed himself.
"What troubles you?" he asked.
She considered stay silence since it would do her nothing, but she couldn't.
"I hate it! I hate that name!" her voice was bitterer than she thought when it came out.
His cold expression was once again stripped off and replaced with surprise.
"Don't you ever call that name around me again!" her anger was no longer hidden. Maybe because she had kept it bottled up for a few weeks and now it had finally reached its limit.
Sesshomaru stared at her for a long while as he lay beside her. Nao, too, was wondering what he would do now that she said she hated the name he loved so much.
But what could he do to her? Kill her?
She would greatly embrace it.
But he was again surprised her. One of his claw hands gently stroke her cheek.
"Why?" he was not angry, just simply curious.
"It doesn't matter. I hate it." She was still wearing her cold mask.
"Hm," he hummed, stroking her cheek, accepted her answer. "You won't hear it again."
Never did she expect him to agree so easily and readily, but his next word shocked her to another level, "Nao."
The demon now had her whole attention, her cold expression disappeared and replace with a dumbfounded one, eyes searching for answers.
"You… how?" She did not remember telling her name to anyone in the palace. Did he stalk her when she went out?
"The humans. When you got here, they called you Nao," he explained softy in his cold voice.
He knew her name all along? Was that why he never asked?
"Then why? Why did you never use it?" she wanted to know. Maybe it didn't matter to him. Not that she should care.
"It didn't seem like you want anyone to use it." He gently pulled her to into his embrace.
"Oh," she murmured to no one in particular.
"If you like or don't like something, just say so," his voice was cold, but the meaning was sinking in.
She was still shocking through.
It seemed that she would have to be more wary of this demon. She did not understand him. She did not know what he wanted from her. His actions had always been unexpected.
And he seemed to know everything that had been going on in the castle.
Well, it didn't matter. At least she would not have to listen that hateful name again.
And that was good enough for her.
Still not feel like writing, however I've managed to update 2 stories today. Well, 3 if I could "Fabricated Memories" but since it's only 100 words. Anyway, I've wanted to update this account, but can't really write. I seem to be hanging out on the other account more (I have trouble writing there as well). I hope I will be able to get this story out of my hands soon. Fingers crossed.
Taraah36: Of course he would love her no matter what. She just didn't know it yet. :)
Lp: Thanks. I'm glad that you don't mind the slow pace. It should pick up after the next 1-2 chap. :)
Icegirljenni: It's not the fact that he has move on, but the fact that he moved on too fast. For someone who swears to love her forever but can't even wait for more than three month to get married to someone else. His love's not very convincing. :)
Smpt: Thanks. And no, it's not that she start to feel again because after that line, she still end the sentence as, "Well, it doesn't matter" as if she didn't care. :) But this chapter, she has started to feel again.
Ana: Thanks for putting up with me. :) She will realize eventually, but kind of slowly.
Rairkku: Thank you. :)
SesshyRin3: lol, the name seemed to bug a lot of people. :D Lol, Takashi has to play a big role on her personality changed right before she was sent away. I hope it doesn't get boring in these few chapters.
April, 13, 2013
