So I'm updating early this week. My dad, sister and I are throwing a birthday party for my mom and because of that I knew I would not be updating tomorrow night so I wanted to get this out. The conversations are conversations, as Elena says, that needed to happen. I think they help to explain a lot although they did not flow exactly like I wanted them to. A lot oftThings did not necessarily go in this chapter like I expected them to so that's why the second part is called surprises. Damon and Elena tend to have a mind of their own.
Once again, thank you for the reviews, favorites and follows. I am going to do my best to reply to the reviews on Sunday. I keep meaning to and then I get started on the story and completely forget. Please forgive me.
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Chapter 8: Conversations and Surprises
Apparently this is the week for having conversations that I don't want to have. First Damon and Jenna. Then Matt, Stefan and Jenna, again. During our free period on Monday, Matt decided he wanted to talk about where we stand with our past relationship, friendship and current relationships. It was a conversation that we needed to have but I hate confrontation. However, I am glad that he wanted to have it at school and not whenever Damon was around. It was bad enough with Rebekah staring daggers into me.
Anyway, Matt sat with me during our free period which he spends with Rebekah now. I have an empty seat next to me because Caroline is sitting with Stefan. Ah, the intricacies of the seating arrangements of high school.
"So, can we talk?" Matt asked, when he sat down.
"Sure." I said apprehensively.
"Well, I don't really know how to start this but I feel like we should get some stuff out of the way since we spend so much time together."
"You're right, we do. I want to apologize for breaking up with you when I did. I know it seems like it came out of nowhere but it wasn't like that for me."
"Okay. How was it for you?"
"You were my best friend and I loved you. I still love you. For the first couple of years, everything was great. Then junior year things started to change. You were talking about a future with me that I couldn't see and it scared me because we were so young. We are still young."
"I can see that. Why didn't you say anything?"
"Looking back, I should have, but at the time, I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't realize how much more I was hurting you by not letting go. I thought I was going through a phase and everything would go back to normal."
"But it didn't."
"No, it didn't. Then my parents were killed in an accident that I walked away from. I realized that I couldn't lie to you or myself any longer. The timing was horrible, I know."
"I thought we broke up because of your parents that you needed time to grieve, and we would eventually get back together." Matt paused and I knew he was thinking about me and Damon.
"Then I started seeing Damon." I filled in.
"You started seeing Damon and you seemed to go from one date to a serious relationship."
"I agree that it seems sudden, and it has been. I'm not sure how much you want to hear about us but when I met Damon it felt like a fresh start. He didn't know the girl I was before the accident and he just accepted me. There were no expectations."
"I had no expectations either." Matt protested.
"I'm not sure that's completely true but I felt like everyone expected me to be that girl again and I just couldn't. Regardless of that, there was also an instant connection. He makes me feel safe, cared for and loved."
"And I don't?"
"Not in the same way. I know you love me, Matt, and I love you but that love comes from friendship and it is a friendship love that I never want to lose." It's true, I love Matt for the best friend that he is and I hope it's always like that with him.
"I don't want to lose it either but it has been hard seeing you move on with Damon."
"I know and I'm so sorry."
"It's been a good thing in a way."
"How?" I asked.
"It spurred me to move on and to see something that had been right in front of me."
"Rebekah?" I couldn't help the judging tone that came out.
"No judging. Remember, you're dating the infamous Damon Salvatore."
"You're right. I'm sorry."
"She's so much fun but more than that, there's a depth to her that most people miss. She's overshadowed by her brothers but she's also very spoiled by them. She's the only girl so she gets away with everything except with me. I don't put up with her crap and she respects that."
"You challenge each other."
"I think so and that's why we work."
"I'm so happy for you, Matt. I really am despite my previous attitude. If you're happy, that's enough for me."
"I'm happy for you too, Elena. Friends?"
"Forever."
While not a conversation I wanted to have, it turned out to be a great conversation. We now know where we stand with each other and Damon and Rebekah. She and I may never be the best of friends but as long as she makes Matt happy, that's all I care about.
Then the next afternoon while I was waiting outside the locker rooms for Caroline and Bonnie, I ran into Stefan and he decided he wanted to talk to.
"Elena, can I talk to you for a minute?"
"What's up?" I ask curiously.
"I wanted to talk to you about Damon."
"Okay."
"This is kind of weird with you being one of my best friends and being Caroline's best friend."
"You know we can talk about anything. Regardless of Damon and Caroline, we are friends and whatever happens with our relationships, I hope we always will be."
"Me too. So, to get right to the point, Damon is way more serious about you than he has been with anyone since Katherine."
"Katherine?"
"Katherine was his one and only relationship before you and she broke his heart. I won't tell you the whole story because it's not mine to tell but I will tell you this. He was completely in love with her and she was not nearly as in love with him. She liked the status of dating Damon and how good they looked together."
"Stefan, that's horrible."
"It goes deeper than that but I'll leave it there. Damon can fill in the rest if he wants to. Then there's his relationship with our father." Stefan sighed and ran a hand through his hair. "It has never been a great relationship but over the years it gets worse. They both like to have their own way and they both want the last word on everything. And Damon doesn't want anyone controlling him which is what he thinks Dad tries to do."
"I know they have issues but I didn't know what they were."
"Neither one likes to talk about it. Add in the fact that our mom died 7 years ago and you can look back and see that was the beginning of the end. She loved both of us but they were especially close and then she was taken from us."
"I'm so sorry, Stefan. It's so hard to go from having your mom and then not."
"Between Katherine and our parents, Damon has a hard time accepting love which is why he's surprised me by how serious you two became so quickly. I guess my point is be careful with him. Not just for your sake but for his as well. I think he has genuine feelings for you and I don't want you to hurt him or him to hurt you."
"I would never hurt Damon."
"Elena, I know you would never intentionally hurt him but if you think there's a chance that this isn't serious or you don't see this lasting for a long time, let him go now."
"Stefan, I appreciate your concern and I understand what you're saying. I love that you want to protect your brother but I mean it when I say, I'm all in."
"That's all I can ask for at this point." Stefan agreed. Then Bonnie and Caroline came out and we left quickly.
Although, I knew Damon had a serious relationship once before, I had no idea what happened. At this point I didn't feel like it was my place to say anything and I wanted to let Damon tell me whatever he felt comfortable sharing. I would never want to impose on him but if we are going to go forward, I would like to have some insight into his past. If there's more to the Katherine story that what Stefan shared, I'm not sure I want to know. I can't stand the thought of anyone hurting Damon. He is so good to me that I can't imagine anyone wanting to hurt him.
Damon has shared bits and pieces about his father with me and when I add what Stefan has shared and the little bit that Caroline has told me, things start to make sense. He spends way more time at our house that at the Boarding House and while I would like to think that's all because of me, I know it's not. He plays Xbox with Jeremy, drinks with Ric and is teaching Jenna and me to cook. Or at least, he's attempting to. Neither of us make the best students. I'm too busy watching him to pay attention to what I'm doing and Jenna has no idea what she's doing.
So it's surprising when I get home on Thursday evening that he isn't there when he's usually in the living room with Jeremy. In fact, no one's home but Jenna.
"Jenna, where is everyone?" I ask as I drop my bags in the front hall and join her on the couch.
"Damon and Ric are having dinner at the Grill and Jeremy is with Kol," Jenna answers.
"Why is everyone out?"
"The fact that you include Damon as someone who is supposed to be here is why they are all out."
"What are you talking about?"
"I wanted to have some time with you before this weekend to make sure that you know what you are doing."
"Jenna, we've talked about this. I love Damon and want to be with him."
"But are you sure that Damon feels the same?"
"Where is this coming from?"
"I'm trying to find the happy balance between 'fun, awesome Aunt Jenna' and being your mother figure."
"Jenna, you do a great job of that. You always help me lay out my choices and weigh my decisions but you also trust me to be honest and to let me go my way."
"I know and I need to help you do that right now."
"Jenna, I know what I'm doing. Damon is not pressuring me and he would be fine with waiting if that were what I wanted. Obviously, he doesn't want to wait but that's not what this is about."
"Ric thought I should mention that Damon is not usually a one woman man and we don't want you to get hurt because you think this is something it's not."
"I know that this is an unusual situation with my history teacher dating my aunt and my dating said history teacher's best friend but I don't think my relationship with Damon should be up for discussion."
"Elena, we care about you."
"I understand that. What no one seems to understand is my relationship. I know Damon is not a saint but we're different. He's here every night with us, not just me. If he only wanted to screw me, I don't think he would be putting all this energy into us. Besides, if that's what happens, then that's what happens. I'll deal with it and get over it."
"As long as you are okay with whatever happens, I will support you."
"Thanks. That's all I can ask for."
Later on that night, as I'm writing in my diary before going to bed, Damon calls.
"Hey, how was your evening with Ric?"
"Probably as much fun as yours with Jenna."
"Yeah, I wasn't crazy about this divide and conquer but since it didn't work, I don't care." Damon's silent. "Damon, it didn't work right?"
"Elena, of course not but are you sure?"
"Damon quit it. I am sure. I love you and I cannot wait to make love to you. It's all I can think about these days."
"Me too. It's been really hard to concentrate at work this week. A lot of things have been extra hard this week." And he's back. I can hear the smirk in his voice.
"Damon!" I shriek, shocked.
"Thinking about you tends to do that. On top of that, we haven't had a moment alone all week."
"I think there's a conspiracy going on in this house. Plus I'll be glad when football season is over so we'll have Friday nights alone."
"Yeah, hanging out with the teenagers of Mystic Falls is not exactly on my top list of fun things to do."
"I know and I'm sorry but I promise to make it up to you."
"I'm counting on it. Look, I really need to see you right now. Is there any way?"
"Ric, Jenna and Jeremy are all here but in their rooms. The only way it's possible is if you park your car around the block so they don't hear you pull up and then you would need to climb the tree by my window and climb in through the window. But, Damon, aren't you past doing all that just to get into a girl's bedroom?'
"Not when the girl in question is you but we may have to skip the late night visit."
"I think so too although I am disappointed."
"Me too. I guess I'll see you at the game tomorrow night."
"Great. I love you."
"I love you too."
DPOV
I know I said I would see her tomorrow night but after the week we have had with everyone trying to talk us out of being together, I need to see her. There is no way I'll be able to sleep tonight and work all day tomorrow if I can't look into her eyes and see our truth. So here I go to sneak into a girl's bedroom like a teenager. She's right, this is undignified.
I park my car around the block, while I love the sound of the engine and the power it represents, Ric and Jenna would definitely hear it and even if I don't care, Elena does. Then I get to the tree which I remembered as being smaller than it actually is but it leads to her bedroom window which is directly above the roof of the porch. Apparently, the Gilberts didn't consider boys sneaking in when they placed Elena in this room. Luckily, her light is still on so at least one thing is on my side.
Up the tree I go, slowly, out the limb to the porch roof. So far, so good. Once I reach her window, I realize it opens to the inside and is perfect to climb in. I knock and wait for Elena. She opens the window, shocked to see me.
"What are you doing? Are you crazy?" She hisses. Damn, she's in a navy blue tank top with tiny plaid shorts and her hair is in a high ponytail. I don't think she's ever looked more beautiful.
"Cute PJs," I say and I fall into her room, forgetting about the window seat. I hope Ric and Jenna are either already asleep or otherwise occupied. Elena catches me and helps me stand up straight. "Whoops. I told you I needed to see you."
"I know but I thought we decided tomorrow night. I'm not even dressed."
"Elena, we're spending the night together in two nights. I think I can see you in your PJs. Also, you look beautiful." I say as I look into her eyes and it's there. The love I always see when she looks at me. I cup her cheeks and kiss her softly.
"Damon, I'm so glad you came," She says as she wraps her arms around my waist and nuzzles under my neck and I kiss her on top of her head and breathe in the scent of her hair. This is exactly what I needed.
"Me too." As usual, when we are alone together, things got heated very quickly. What started out as an innocent hug quickly turned into us devouring one another. I ran my hands down her back and noticed she wasn't wearing a bra. Curiously, I slipped my hands under the band of her shorts to cup her ass and discovered she was not wearing panties. My girl does not wear underwear with her pajamas. Noted. Underneath the prim and proper Elena is a naughty woman that only I get to know about.
Elena breaks our embrace to go shut her door to her shared bathroom with Jeremy. When she comes back, she gently pulls us down until we are lying down on her bed. I am on her left side. She is running her fingers through my hair and nipping at my right ear while I am pulling her tank top over her head. Her tongue can do things to my ears that make me shiver so I know she's going to be fantastic at anything she does with her tongue. I take her right nipple into my mouth and suck while I slide my hand under the band of her shorts. I've barely touched her and I can already feel the heat coming from her and I slide a finger down her folds.
"God, Elena, you are so wet already." I moan, as I enter her and gently begin working my finger in and out. I add a second finger and she nearly convulses.
"Damon," Elena moans as she takes her hand and rubs my dick through the denim of my jeans. "I don't think I can wait until Saturday. I need you now."
"Elena, I need you too but if we do this now we have to be extra quiet. Let's try to not get interrupted by your family."
"Now, Damon."
"One thing," I say as I withdraw my fingers and she whimpers at the loss of contact. "Sorry, baby, but we have to have this conversation. I don't have a condom with me."
"It's okay. I've been on the Pill for over a year."
"That's great. I get tested every 3 months on the dot and so far everything has always been clean. Were you and Matt both only with each other?"
"Yes."
"Awesome." I start kissing her again and then she pulls my shirt over my head and we are finally skin to skin and one step closer. I pull her shorts off and for the first time I see Elena completely naked. She is breathtaking and so hot. Cheerleading has been really good to her. She takes this moment to unbutton my jeans and lower my zipper. I spring free.
"Commando? Really Damon?" Elena asks, not really surprised.
"Would you expect anything else? There's a lot less in our way." I smirk and help her take my shoes, jeans and socks off. I lay her back down on the bed on move over her so I'm between her legs.
"Damon, I'm not sure you're going to fit."
"Don't worry, I'm going to help you with that some more." Again, I start stretching her with my fingers and she is once again, so wet. She's also moaning causing me to smirk. "Elena, you need to be quiet."
She reaches between us and takes hold of my length, surprising me. She then starts to move her hand up and down causing me to moan. "Damon, be quiet."
"Point taken," I say. "Okay. Are you ready?"
"Ready," She nods.
I have stretched her as much as I can and I don't know how much longer I can hold on if she keeps stroking me. Her hand is perfect. I enter her slowly, inch by inch, until I'm all the way in. God, I can't believe I am actually in Elena Gilbert. She is so tight and fits so perfectly that for a moment I forget to even breath much less move. Then she kisses me and I remember where I am. I slowly slide in and out of her. She wraps her legs around me waist and tilts up.
Elena matches me thrust for thrust and we find our rhythm. We continue kissing to control our moans. When she starts tightening around my cock, I reach down and rub her clit sending her into her orgasm. As I swallow her moans, I feel my balls tighten as my thrusts become more erratic and I come inside her. It's easily the best orgasm ever. Making love to Elena is nirvana.
"Elena, I love you." I whisper as we ride out our orgasms together.
"I love you too," She reaches up and brushes my hair off my forehead and just holds me to her. "Can you stay?"
"As long as you'll let me." I answer as I mover off of her and turn her on her side so we are spooning and facing her bathroom door. "I'll set my phone alarm for 5 and then leave. Is that early enough?"
"No one wakes before 6 in this house, even on a weekday."
"Good, I want to hold you as long as possible." I kiss the top of her head and hold her to me. Then we fall into a deep sleep and it's the best I've slept in a long time.
