Chapter 8 What about Now
Brenda lay awake in her bed, Dylan had been gone two hours and she had tried to go to sleep but she couldn't. She wasn't sure what she would even say to him, but he had left so abruptly that she couldn't help but be worried about him. Brenda thought about what she had told him and she began to think about how selfish she was being. Here was Dylan, the man that she had always loved, pouring his heart out to her for once and she couldn't get over an amazing 4 year old little boy, which he and Kelly shared. Sammy may have been a surprise but far from an accident. She also knew Dylan had a disconnection with the boy already and she couldn't help but think her having issues with them having a child together would make Dylan resent the boy more. Then Brenda began to think about what if she had just stayed in New York. She had lived away from Beverly Hills for 14 years and had made a life for herself. Dylan was out of sight out of mind, her career was blossoming and she had an incredible apartment on the upper west side. Who was she kidding, Brenda knew that just because her life looked picture perfect from the outside, there was always something missing and he had a sexy little smile and sideburns. Brenda sat up quickly as she heard her front door open.
"Dylan." She whispered. Brenda got up and walked out of her bedroom. She turned the corner.
"Where have you been?" She froze as she saw Dylan and Kelly standing in her living room. Brenda looked at them confused, "Everything ok with Sammy?"
"Oh yeah he is fine, I had Donna come over to stay with him for second." Kelly said giving her a small smile.
"What are you doing here?" Brenda looked at Kelly.
"Can we talk to you?" Kelly said looking down
"We?" Brenda let out a small laugh, "This is like déjà vu". Brenda soon realized they weren't smiling and from the looks of both of them it looked serious. "Ok what's going on?" Brenda crossed her arms.
"Bren, maybe you should sit down." Dylan said quietly.
"Oook, you guys are scaring me." Brenda walked over and sat on her couch.
Dylan moved in and sat close to her but Kelly stood. Kelly looked at Brenda as she stood there staring at her intently waiting for her to tell her.
Kelly began pacing, "Look Brenda, this is really hard for me…us to tell you and on the drive over here I was a lot more ready than I am now." Kelly paused.
Brenda looked at Dylan, her eyes gleaming, "What?" she whispered. Brenda looked back at Kelly.
Kelly swallowed hard, "Dylan isn't Sammy's dad." She said with tears in her eyes.
"What are you talking about?" Brenda said looking back and forth between the two of them.
"I am not Sammy's dad."
Brenda was so lost, "Who is?"
"Sammy's dad doesn't know. At the time when I found out I was pregnant, I had went to Dylan for advice and help. I couldn't have an abortion. I had wanted a baby and because of my history with the miscarriage and the possibility of not carrying a baby to term, I couldn't get rid of it."
"I stepped up and told her I would help her and support her." Dylan said as he pushed her hair off her shoulder.
Brenda looked at him, "Why would you do that? I mean why would you lie?"
Dylan didn't answer but Kelly stepped in, "I asked him too. Bren it's really complicated and I didn't want the real father to know."
"Kelly, how do you know he would have reacted badly, don't you think the actual father has a right to know."
Kelly sighed, "He was married Brenda."
Brenda didn't know what to say. She was shocked. "Does anyone know the truth?"
Kelly shook her head, "No everyone thinks its Dylan's. He even took me to the hospital and helped me in the beginning. The problem was Dylan and I haven't been together for 8 years and there was a reason for it. He had tried to be a dad for Sammy but us living together at that point was a huge mistake and no matter how bad I wanted it to be his, just because it was easier, there was always that space between them."
"I don't know what to say, Kelly I understand about the father being married but so what? I mean obviously he cheated on his wife, you could get help from him, why are you protecting him?"
"I don't want his money." Kelly said crossing her arms.
"Well fine but still, he cheated on his wife; he gets to sit pretty without a care in the world, without consequence?"
Dylan looked at Kelly, "Tell her."
Kelly fidgeted nervously, "Well the thing is everyone knows him, it made things even more complicated."
Brenda's eyes got big, "Don't even tell me its Steve's."
Kelly let out a small laugh, "Uh No."
"Oh thank God."
"It's…it's… Brandon."
"What?" Brenda mouth dropped. "You never told my brother that he has a son?" Brenda said rudely.
Dylan placed his hand on Brenda's knee, "Bren, he is married."
Brenda got up, "I don't care, for the last 4 years he has been totally in the dark. Not to mention my family. Sammy might be the only grandchild they ever have and you kept it from them." Brenda tried to calm down. "Why now Kel? He has missed so much."
"Actually I have been thinking about it for awhile and after Donna told me he was coming out here, then Dylan came over and confirmed we had to do the right thing. I don't know if Brandon will ever forgive me but I think he should have the chance to meet him and I am sorry Brenda but you and Dylan belong together and I am stick of getting in the way of the two of you guys. Our lie affected so many people but at the time it just seemed like the only option." Kelly walked closer to her friend, "I was selfish, can you forgive me?"
"I don't know." Brenda said quietly, "You have to tell Brandon."
"I know. I will but I just need to know we are going to be ok, I mean your Sammy's aunt."
Brenda took a deep breath, she stood there quiet. She didn't know what to say. "This is all a lot right now."
"I know and I should go, I need to get back. I know this is a huge shock Brenda and I hope you will able to forgive me someday, along with your brother and your parents." Kelly waited a second and after not getting a response for her she turned around and left.
"Are you ok Bren?" Dylan said making his way over to her.
"These last few weeks, when I was telling you about my issues with you and Kelly and everything else, you didn't tell me the truth." Brenda felt betrayed. "I am going to go to bed." Brenda said with little emotion. She was so stunned still by the news she just had no idea what she was feeling. Partly sad she had missed the joys of waiting for her nephew to be born, the joy of her brother getting ready for his first born. She also knew how upset Brandon was when he found out Kelly had a son with Dylan that she knew all too well because it was the same sadness she had. Then on the other side she was selfishly happy and relieved, for herself and for Brandon.
"Bren, I am sorry I didn't tell you the truth, I wanted to and when I came into town to see you, that was some of the stuff Kelly and I discussed. It just wasn't the right time for her and I promised."
"I understand Dylan; it's just so much to think about right now." Brenda looked over at Dylan, "My brother is going to be devastated."
Dylan felt horrible, he hadn't wanted to make Brandon feel sad or angry. It was a rushed decision at the time that Kelly had thought of and Dylan not thinking agreed to be apart of. They hadn't really thought about how it would affect everyone else. The most important thing in Kelly's mind was keeping the fact that she had slept with a married man and that Brandon had cheated on Emily out of everything.
Brenda sighed heavily, "This is insane, my brother is coming next week and not only do we need to build our relationship back up now that he and Emily are splitting up, but he is going to be slammed with this."
"Maybe he will be happy?" Dylan knew the situation was not perfect but someone he tried to make Brenda feel better.
Brenda shrugged, "I don't know, I barely know Brandon anymore, cheating on his wife, totally loosing touch with me and my parents. I don't know how he will react." Brenda paused, she looked emotionally drained. "Whatever… I am going to bed."
"Can I join you?" Dylan said innocently
"No, it's not a good idea." Brenda said turning to face him again.
"Bren...why? Now we don't have anything standing in our way.
"Except your lies. Good night." Brenda turned and headed into her bedroom.
Dylan sank down and rested his head on the back of the couch. "I can't win." He murmured.
Sorry for the short chapter, I am working on Brandon coming back so it should be up soon. I know so far the story has been predictable but it's kind of supposed to be, I said soapy right? lol hope you are still with me. Please review.
