Hey hey! I'm finally back…finally. Anywho thank you to everyone who reviewed!! Now, without further ado, chapter 7….
Disclaimer: twilight is all Stephanie Meyers….lucky...: D
BPOV.
I was floating, drifting, across miles of pure white cloud, without any particular need to go anywhere. I was wearing the most beautiful white dress you could ever imagine. It flowed around my body and was made of a material so amazing you wouldn't believe me if I even tried to explain it to you. It felt awesome on my skin and for the first time in a long time I felt peaceful…happy. I floated across clouds for hours, or maybe it was minutes, before I saw it.
The light. A big bright beautiful light. It was calling me and I knew deep inside me that beyond that light was where I wanted to be. I floated towards this bright light, and then I saw them. Through the bright light shining at me, I saw my parents. Charlie and Renee…mom and dad. A vast bubble of joy and emotion moved up my chest into my throat where I couldn't contain it anymore.
"Mom!! Dad!!" I called to them in delight, desperately waving my hands as I drifted towards them.
Mom turned immediately as I called her, swiftly followed by dad. Dad looked horrified as he watched me float towards them, while mom looked simply bemused.
"Bella?" mom asked, confusion evident in her voice, "What are you doing here?"
She looked from me, gradually floating towards her and at dad who was gazing at me with a horrified expression. I felt the smile fall off my face as I took in dad s expression.
"Why? Don't you want me to be here?" I said, my voice breaking as rejection panged in my stomach.
"Bella, honey, we know how much you've been hurting, but you don't belong here. You have your whole life ahead of you! You can't die, not now." Dad said gently as I grew ever closer.
I could almost touch them now, almost but not quite. Mom, having finally realised what my being here meant, began crying softly
"Oh mom, don't cry! I don't mind! Everything I want is here anyway!" I said, trying to soothe her.
I reached out to hug her, desperate to ease her pain when I suddenly jerked back. I yelped out in surprise. I jerked back again. I looked up to see my parents watching with grief ridden expressions.
"Mom!! Dad!! What's going on!!??" I called, as I was jerked further and further away from them.
"You're being saved honey. Live you life, we'll be watching over you the whole time and when the times right, we'll meet again. Just know we'll always love you." Dad said.
Mom nodded weakly "we love you Bella" mom called to me.
"No, no!!! MOM!! DAD!! Help me!! I don't want to go back! I want to stay with you!" I cried, reaching my arms out in a desperate attempt to stop myself from being dragged backwards.
Slowly but with gathering speed, I was being pulled away from the light, from the happiness I felt, from my parents. I continued to cry as I watched my parents get smaller and smaller. They watched and called their love to me. Then after what seemed like an eternity or no time at all, Charlie and Renee disappeared from view. I cried, wanting desperately to be with them. The light got smaller and smaller until it totally disappeared and I was left once again in darkness.
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I was slowly becoming aware of a steady beeping sound, soon followed by the sound of people whispering. The smell of Dettol and sickness assaulted my nose and I immediately knew where I was. Forks general hospital. I'd been here enough through my childhood to immediately where I was.
I could feel the gowns papery material against my skin and nearly groaned. It was nothing like the dress I wore in my dream…my dream. Memories flooded back and my eyes filled with tears. I missed mom and dad so much; it hurt to lose them again, even in a dream. Yet somehow I knew, in the pit of my stomach that it wasn't a dream. And at the thought I was filled with hope, while mixed with my grief still made me feel better than I had in months. Yes my grief still made me feel better than I had in months. Yes I missed my parents and I was still grieving for them. But they told me to live my life and that's what I'm going to do.
I focused again on my surroundings, namely the whispering people in the room. "Ya….her…..Bella…cliff" I could only hear disjointed words. I decided it was time for me to wake up. I tried to open my eyes, and could barely manage to flutter my lids. I heard the whispering stop but all I could think about was how much my body ached, as if I hadn't moved for days. My throat moved a lot too, like it had been scrubbed with steel wool, making it raw and sore. On my 3rd attempt, I managed to open my eyes. The light hurt my eyes and I squinted to see 3 people I didn't recognize on either side of my bed.
There was a boy, about my age, with strange bronze coloured hair. I studied him briefly and decided he was very handsome, tall and muscular. He was standing by the door, watching me with concern. Sitting on my left was a girl, who though tiny in frame, looked about my age. She had black pixie cut hair and absolutely stunning. On my right, smiling kindly at me was a woman with caramel coloured hair and looked about 40.
They were all watching me, smiling, making me feel self conscious and uncomfortable. The bronze haired boy pushed himself off the wall and walked up to the bed.
"Hey" he said softly "how're you feeling?" he asked, still speaking so softly it was like he was afraid I would break if he spoke too loud.
I starred blankly at him, slightly stunned. He had the most stunningly green eyes I had ever seen in my life. I realised after a moment they were still waiting on my reply.
"Em I'm ok" my voice broke, embarrassing me, I cleared it and tried again "ya I'm fine…erm why am I in hospital?" I asked the most important question first, I needed to know first if they knew what I had tried to do. I winced at the thought.
A quick shocked glance passed between them before the woman with caramel hair spoke,
"Bella honey what is the last thing you remember?"
My eyes began to sting with tears as she spoke, she spoke to me with such motherly affection that it made me long for my own mother even more.
"Em… I remember driving to la push cliffs and I remember getting there and walking up to the cliffs and…" I stopped myself, aware I was on a slippery slope and not wanting to give away too much "after that…nothing" I finished lamely, trying desperately to cover my tracks.
"Bella…" the bronze haired, green eyed gorgeous boy spoke "you fell off the cliffs. I was on the beach and saw you fall. I swam out and rescued you and called an ambulance" he stopped, noticing the sudden change in my expression.
As he spoke I felt my insides turn cold, then blazing hot with an irrational anger I could barely explain to myself.
"Thank you for saving my life" I said woodenly.
Irrational as I knew it was, I was angry at him. Angry that he had interfered with my choice, my decision to end my life. I was so sick of everyone trying to interfere with my business, even though I knew that this boy saved me from making a huge mistake.
"Who are ye anyway? And how do you all know my name?" I asked rudely, still gripped by my irrational anger.
They all seemed startled at my sudden change of tone and expression, all the same the bronze haired boy hastened to reply
"Oh right sorry" the boy stammered "I'm Edward, Edward Cullen. This is my twin sister, Alice and our mother Esme." He said, indicating to each person as he introduced them.
Alice waved excitedly when introduced, while Esme smiled kindly.
"Were new in town, so that s why you don't know us" Edward added as he saw my confused expression.
"Edward dear, we should really let the doctors know Bella's finally awake, they'll want the examine her." Esme said, smiling at me all the while.
Edward nodded and left the room. Something clicked with me as he left the room…finally??
"Finally?! What do you mean finally??! How long have I been out??!!" I screeched suddenly panicking.
Alice answered before Esme even opened her mouth; she had clearly been waiting for me to ask this question.
"Oh about 3 days 6 hours and 45 minutes" she said, winking at me.
I gawked at her in awe. What the fu…
"It's a gift" she added quickly winking again and obviously referring to her overly accurate account of how long I had been unconscious.
I was still gawking at her with my mouth slightly open when the doctor swept into the room.
"Evening Bella, how re you today? I swear you're finding much more inventive ways to get yourself in hospital these days" chuckled, clearly forgetting that the last time I had been in here was to identify my parent's bodies.
I shuddered. "I'm good Dr.G thanks!" I smiled at the man who had been my doctor my whole life.
"Right well you have some bruising from the impact of the water and a sprained wrist but besides that you seem miraculously unharmed!" He said with a slightly confused expression as he saw how lightly I got off.
"Right perfect Dr.G when can I leave?" I said desperate to be home.
"You can leave today Bella as long as you promise to be more careful and take it easy for a few days" he said, glancing at the remaining Cullen's who took the hint and left. "Now Bella I've done my duty as your doctor, I'm now going to do my duty as a friend of your parents and more importantly your friend. I need to know, did you try to commit suicide on the cliffs? I know this is hard and blunt but I need you to answer me honestly." He finished his rant with a piercing stare.
I gulped I should have known this was coming "Dr.G I didn't. You know me and you know how I was raised. I would never do that." I lied bluntly through my teeth, but I had to protect my secret.
Dr.G sighed, a sigh full of relief "that's nice to hear Bella because I was seriously worried about you. You shut yourself down so completely after your parent's accident I thought I was going to have to admit you to a hospital"
A lump of emotion built up in my throat. I could see how much Dr.G didn't want to say that and how scared he had been that he would have to act on his doctor instinct.
"Oh err ok" I said awkwardly, unsure how to answer. "Well I best be getting ready to leave" I said cheerily trying to lighten the atmosphere
"Ok Bella. Ill see you soon no doubt" he chuckled, waved and left the room quickly.
I was left to my thoughts for approximately 2.5 seconds before Alice bounded in the door.
"Your free you're free!!!!" she sang, reminding me of the old guy from the old guy in the hunchback of Notre dame that I grinned at her (A/N IM FREE IM FREE...DAMN IT…awesome movie)
I was so relieved to just go home that I didn't mind her squealing. That was until she threw clothes at me.
"Here Bella! Throw these on! We didn't have the key to your house and we didn't want to break down your door so I got you some new clothes!" she squealed, getting closer to ultrasonic sound every second.
She ran out of the room laughing at my shocked face. I quickly threw on the clothes she gave me, grumbling about annoying pixie demons the entire time. Soon ill be home I thought…and smiled.
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