Oh. My. God. This took me liek forever to update! I'm soooo sorry! I had a ton of end-of-the-year test, and a ton of stupid homework, and a ton of other family problems. I'm so sorry this took so long! I also couldn't think of good way to do this chapter. I wrote it, then rewrote the whole thing, then rewrote that whole think, and so on. But, I'm satisfied with how it is now. I hope you are too. ^^

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Chapter 8

Mello just sat there, against the door, crying, for who knows how long. He didn't care how long it'd been. All he could think about was that kiss. The scene played in his mind, over and over again: Mello and Matt staring at each other, then Mello pulling him into a kiss, then right after, and finally how Matt had looked afterwards.

That was bad, Mello…

You shouldn't have done that, Mello…

No Mello, that was wrong…

Now he'll never talk to you again…

He doesn't want to be friends anymore, now that you've that…

"SHUT UP!" He screamed at the voices in his head. "Just be quiet already! I know that was bad!" He clawed at his head, hoping the voices in his head would go away. They wouldn't. The voices continued to tell him what he did was wrong. Images of Matt slapping him in the face and hurting him came to mind.

That's what's gonna happen next time you see him…He's gonna hurt you…

Another image. This time, Matt was holding a suitcase, and walking out the door, away from a crying Mello.

And he's gonna leave you…

Mello couldn't take it anymore. More variations of the previous images flashed through his mind, and stopped clawing and pulling at his hair, only to find blood under his nails when he looked at them.

Mello curled up on the ground, and closed his eyes. He soon found himself in a deep sleep.

When Mello woke, he didn't remember anything. He looked around. Pitch-darkness all around. He wondered where he was. Then he remembered.

The kiss.

"Oh yeah…" He said quietly. He was in the janitor's closet. He sighed. He had to leave sooner or later. He had no idea how long he'd been sleeping for. Getting up, he stretched his arms high above his head and yawned. He felt along the walls for the door. When he found it, he grabbed the handle, turned it, and pushed the door open. He was shielding his eyes from the light from the hallway. But, there was none. It was dark in the hallway. That could only mean one thing: It was nighttime, and he should be in bed. Groaning, he looked around to try to decipher where he was at this moment. The gym was to his left, so he should head right to get back to his room. The one with Matt. Great. How fun this was gonna be once he got back. He walked quietly down the hall, so he wouldn't wake anyone. After a few minutes of cautiousness, he was face to face with his door. He noticed the door was a crack open. Reaching out, he slowly pushed the door open.

What he expected to see was not what he thought he would see. He expected to see his room empty (besides his own stuff). He expected to see Roger waiting for Mello to get back, to tell him that his roommate didn't want to room with his anymore. Instead, he saw Matt, sitting on Mello's bed. Matt wasn't really doing anything. He was just…sitting there. The blonde opened his mouth to say something, but found that his vocal chords wouldn't work. So he pushed the door open further and walked over to the redhead on his bed. He tapped him on the shoulder.

Matt jumped at the touch, and fell forward. "M-M-Mello…" He said as he looked up at the blonde. His goggles were around his neck.

"Matt…" Mello said as he averted his eyes from Matt's. "…About earlier…" He bit his lip. He really had no idea how he was supposed to handle this. So, he handled it the first way that came to his mind.

"…Yeah…? What about it?" Matt didn't look comfortable.

"It was a test. And you passed." Mello hated lying to Matt like this, but it was the only thing that he could think of. He had to get Matt to believe him now.

"A…test?"

"Yes. A test. A test to see if you would be a loyal friend. You see, by doing what I did earlier," He couldn't even say the word 'kiss' now. "I put you in a strange situation, and wanted to know your reaction. I wanted to know if you would leave me if something weird like that, or worse, happened. I wanted to know if you would still stay with me." This was a lot easier than he thought it would be.

"Oh, okay. I understand. So…that kiss was a just a test, right?"

"Yes, it was only a test. Don't worry."

"…Okay." Matt squirmed a little, and shifted his eyes away from Mello's.

"Is something wrong, Matt?" Could Matt tell he was lying?

"No, I just have a few questions, that's all."

Matt was silent. "Well?" Mello asked him. "Are you gonna ask them?"

"So, you're not gay then?"

"No," That wasn't a complete lie. He wasn't gay, he was bi. "Why?"

"Oh, just wondering."

Mello thought for a moment. Could Matt be gay? "Matt, are you…?"

Matt snapped up his head to look at Mello. "Am I what?"

"…Gay?"

Matt looked calmer now. "Oh. No, I don't think so."

"Okay." Mello couldn't help but feel a little sad with the redhead's answer. "So, anyway, what were the other questions you wanted to ask me?"

"Uh…Well nevermind. They're not that important anymore." Matt looked away.

"Come one, ask," Mello whined. He really wanted to hear what Matty wanted to say.

"…No."

"Fine." Mello crossed his arms. "But next time you wanna know what I wanted to ask, I'm not gonna tell you." He stuck his tongue out at Matt.

Matt snorted. "Fine with me." Matt picked up the Gameboy beside him, clicked a button, and smiled a little. Soon, the silence between the two boys was filled with various beeping noises, music, and clicks.

Mello was glad that Matt believed him. He could never tell Matt that he liked Matt a little more than a friend. Matt would surely abandon him.

Matt yawned. "Well," he said. "It's pretty late right now. We should probably sleep. Don't we have to wake up early tomorrow? Roger told me that we have exams right after and early breakfast." He closed his Gameboy.

Mello gasped. How could he have forgotten? Matt was right, exams were tomorrow! "Oh my god, I completely forgot about that! I have to study!" Mello raced around the room. "Where's my books?" He said as he began throwing things around to look underneath them.

"Mello, are these your books?" Matt held up a few books that had been in a pile next to him. He looked at the cover of one. "History." He said.

Mello's head shot up to look at Matt. "Yeah, those are my books. Give." He said holding out his hand.

Matt did what the blonde asked him to do.

"Thanks, Matty."

"No problem." Matt replied, getting up. "Hey, what time is it?"

Mello looked at the clock. "11:13," He said. "If you wanna take a shower before bed, you should probably do it now. Roger turns the warm water off at 11:30."

"Okay, I guess I'll take a shower while you study for a while. But once I get out, we should really get to bed. We gotta wake up early, remember?" Matt paused for a second. "Uh, Mello…?"

"Yeah?"

"Um, seeing as I came here without a suitcase, I don't have any clothes…" Matt looked down and scratched his head. "So…can I borrow some…?"

Mello thought for a moment. "Just as long as you don't wanna borrow underwear. But you can borrow other stuff, I guess. You can go look through this." Mello walked over the place where he kept his clothes, and opened a drawer. "This is where my shirts are, and this," He opened another drawer. "Is where I keep my pants. There should be something you like in here. Just stay away from the leather, that's off-limits."

"Okay." The redhead went over to Mello, and looked in to the shirt drawer. He looked at Mello.

"…What?"

"Everything's black…" Matt looked back at the clothes, hair hiding his face.

Mello was confused. Of course it was all black. It was his favorite color, after all. "Well, yeah. I really like black. It contrasts well with my blonde hair."

"Uh, okay. Do you have anything that I would like?"

"Well, what do you like? What did you like to wear before you came here?"

Matt froze, and his breath caught in his throat. He was still for a few seconds.

Mello realized that he shouldn't have asked about his past. Most of the kids who came here had a very terrible past. Matt would be no exception. "I'm sorry, Matt. I didn't mean to bring up anything about your past."

"It's…okay."

It sure didn't look like it was okay. But Mello didn't wanna stay on that subject any longer. He didn't want Matt to feel uncomfortable or anything. So, he started digging in his shirt drawer. He pulled out a gray short-sleeve shirt. "How about this?" He asked.

"Um, do you have anything long-sleeved?"

"Why?"

Matt was silent again. Mello didn't think he should press on that question anymore. It was obviously something Matt didn't feel ready to talk about, either. "Nevermind. Yeah, I think I have another long-sleeve…" He dug around a little more, before revealing a red long-sleeve. "That's weird; I don't even remember having this. I thought everything in here was black." This should be good for Matt. He handed it to him. "This?"

Matt took the shirt from Mello and smiled. "Yeah, this should be good."

"Now, let's get you some pants…" He closed the shirt drawer, and opened the pants drawer.

"No, it's fine. I can just wear these pants again. They're not dirty or anything." He turned and headed for the other side of the room, where the bathroom was located. He went in, and closed the door.

Mello went to his bed, flopped down on his stomach, and opened the book. Sighing, he began to review the chapters he was having a little trouble with.


Well, that was chapter 8. As I said earlier, I'm am so super sorry that this took sooo long!

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