Yes, I know its not Sunday but I feel like to update :D On sunday would be my last updateuntil my exams are over, so wish me luck! :D AND for those who reviewed thanks a lot! I LOVE YOU GUYS! :D So here it is chapter 8 of Life was never meant to be easy

Disclaimer : If even there was a jet plane right now I couldn't pretend it as a shooting star cause no matter how much I wish VA belongs to me it won't come true...RIchelle Mead owns VA, I'm just borrowing it

"and I said I want to stand," Kirova ushered Dimitri to force me to sit. "Uh, I'll kill you next time Dimka,"

Ms. Kirova started her oh so famous lectures and damn I got to admit she's good. When she was done, Dimka escorted Seraphina to her room while we were drag to the guardian's room by Alberta.

"So since both of us are here what guardian duties should we do?" I ask as soon as we arrived in the room "and don't even dare ask me to sit, I've spent most of the day sitting and I'm sure my hot ass can't bare to sit anymore"

Alberta just shook her head in disbelief while Zhandra just rolled her eyes at me, I stood across Alberta with Zhandra sitting beside me, Alberta went through some papers the look back at us "Well I've been notified of your involvement in patrolling at your previous school, You'll be doing that with addition guarding some classes,"

I raised an eyebrow while Zhandra just remain silent "You two won't be taking any classes except for guardian theory from now on, you would be expected to follow Princess Ivashkov in her classes. You would also be expected to help some of the teachers with handling guardian classes, do you have any question?"

"How about our patrolling?" I ask

"You would be either having morning patrolling or night patrolling but since you two are technically still students, I would be giving you night patrolling with a few morning patrolling," She answered in a matter-of-fact tone. "If either of you have free periods, you might as well enroll in some of the classes,"

We were brief about the whole patrolling then Zhandra lead me to my room, which fortunately I'm not sharing it with her. "Tyler misses you," I said suddenly, I mean she's was pacing around my room, I might as well make conversation with her "Abigail and Britanny are taking our reign already,"

"Does your poetry have anything to say about this?" I flinch, for some reason I'm really attracted to old and new poetries, it isn't an ordinary attractions, it's like I've been pulled towards it. Every poetry I've read has always something to do with the future.

"I'll see what I can do," I grab my poetry book and concentrate on it, just after a few seconds I was staring at a poem entitled 'A new life' How ironic I took a deep breath and started reading it out loud

I've been sitting around this life for years,
Not enough laughs and too many tears.
Trying to figure out where it all went,
These wasted years that I have spent.

Searching for something to go beyond,
Life's a stone skipping across a pond.
At the last skip, it hits with a splash,
Down the stone sinks, gone in a flash.

Pushing and pulling, it's tearing apart,
Poking and prodding an underused heart.
This dark velvet curtain that hides my soul,
Living this life has taken it's toll.

In a flash of bright light, the curtain is torn,
Tumbling down all tattered and worn.
Revealing new life, a child within,
Born free of hate, of suffering and sin.

Now my eyes see what has never been told,
Striving forth happy, confident and bold.
Into a world that's unfamiliar but friendly,
Into this new life my spirit will send me.

Living and laughing, loving it all,
I stood myself up and answered the call.
The darkness has gone, replaced by the light,
I gave up the darkness with hardly a fight.

I've been sitting around this life for years,
With laughter aplenty and hardly a tear.
Now I can see just where it all went,
Cherish every moment of this new life I've spent

"That's weird, so what does that mean?" Zhandra ask sitting on the edge of my bed, I stare at the page then suddenly the pages flip into a new poem.

"Here's another one," I sigh and read it

Flower blooms on a spring summer day
That never withered, never die
Purity and honesty falls into it
As well as the sweet scent of love.

The sun smiles, what a happy day!
A day of joy, a day of happiness
Time to change, time to love
And a good start to forget!

Learning to Love you, a good start for me
Forget my past, forget all things
Wind carries me along the way
A rainbow appears to save me.

A rose's petal across the way
Two flowers intertwined
Sharing each other
Angel's voices,
Its rhythm and rhyme
Makes the flowers
To forget
To love
Starting a new life.

Zhandra was concentrating so hard that if it were a normal situation I would make a remark about her concentration, But my 'reading' isn't just a normal thing. "Well from what I can understand the first poem was about moving on and the second one was about 'founding love'"

"So you're saying is we have to move on and enjoy our life?" I nodded, putting the book aside.

"I'm also saying that you have to move on," Zhandra just narrowed her eyes at me.

"Coming from someone who didn't even dated anyone after her relationship ended," She sneered at me, this is why I hate it when I bring up about Riley. I know they were deeply in love with each other but I also know that Riley would have wanted Zhandra to move on and not dwell on the past.

"I know that sounds unconvincing but hey! I did try but he's a jerk," A small smile was playing on her lips "He only had me for one day and he already turn possessive,"

"Are you talking about Damien and Rick?"

"Rick, obviously…If Damien was possessive we wouldn't last long," I shrugged, Damien and I have dated for almost six months, but I ended it because it wasn't going anywhere. I still see him as a brother, even though he love me

"Talking about Damien, how far have your relationship gone?" I stare at her shocked, Usually I would avoid that question but knowing Zhandra, she would beat the crap out of me If I don't tell her.

"Well we did do 'it—"

"'it' as in sex?" she cut in, her voice getting too eager.

"Not 'it' as in holding hands," I said sarcastically "of course sex you dimwit!"

"I thought you only love him as a brother?" I'm dead, I'm not a slut of course!

"Well lets just say we were two very drunken people in a party" One on of the parties, both me and Damien had drank around 10 shots of Russian vodka, we had a very hot make-out sessin that leads to-well you know,umm—sex.

Zhandra just laugh out loud "Let's stop talking about my past relationship how about here? Is there any hot guys? How about that cute guys with the freckles and red hair,"

"You mean Mason? Well he's cute but he's just not my type, there's Shane, Ralph, Jesse and…oh yeah! Eddie and I think he's totally your type,"

"Can't wait to meet him," I said seductively "So how about your twin?"

"Sisters, we aren't twin"

"What! are you fucking sure? You two look exactly the same!"

"Yes, I'm fucking sure, of course we look the same, we're sister for god sake!" Zhandra said, she glanced at her wrist watch "speaking of my sister, we have practice with her, Dimka had ask us to help her with her training and if you're wondering, yes! Rose's mentor is your brother," She went to the door and open it only to bump into Seraphina.

"If I have a camera right now, I would've capture the moment it would be so epic," I said helping both of them. Seraphina and Zhandra just glare at me. Seriously? I think today is glaring-day! The three of us went to the gym only to see Dimka reading his books.

"Old habits die hard huh?" I said, hand on hips "Seriously Dimka? I thought you would've change,"

"And I thought you would grow up for once,"

"Oh burned," I heard Seraphina and Zhandra muttered.

"I think I'll take that as an invitation," I said in pure venom, I went towards him and pin him to the wall.

"Seriously Marya?" He ask narrowing his eyes

"Well if I wasn't serious you wouldn't be pinned on the wall would you?" I smirk at him in seconds we were standing across each other, both of us launch at each other the same time, I try to punch his stomach but I only manage to graze it. He got hold of my hand and pushed me to the wall where I just pinned him earlier. Suddenly he just let go "What the hell?"

"You were about to give up, might as well release you so you can save your breath," I bit my bottom lips, he's right. "I got to go," before either of us said anything, he was already out of the gym. I got to admit my brother is fast for a six foot Russian.

"At least he had gotten rid of your anger," Seraphina said grabbing both my shoulder in comforting way

I shrugged and we went off to dinner. Mason called us over to his table and I notice this hot guy with black hair, let's just say he's totally my type. He was staring at me too but his head snapped to Zhandra when she called his name "—Eddie, this is Marya," she motioned to me "and Seraphina," So his Eddie, Zhandra's right he's totally hot.

"M and S, this is Mason, Eddie, Shane and Meredith," Zhandra said sneaking a wink at me.

"Were you the one who knock down Rose this morning?" Shane said suddenly, I just nodded and he gave me a smile that doesn't look friendly, Well Shane is good-looking but he's just not my type.

" So how many molnija marks do you have?" My smile falter when Meredith ask that, she's totally on my hate-list now.

"I got four molnija marks and of course a half-promise mark," I said in a cold tone. People thought the marks were badges of honor but it isn't, its taking someone's life and sometimes I feel like a murderer, I felt Zhandra nudging me, I stare at her and she just nodded at me as if saying : Don't let it get to you

"Umm…Guys excuse me for a second, I think I need some blood,"

"I'll go with—" I was about to stand up when Zhandra cut in

"Don't worry about it M, I'll bring her to the feeders," I mentally curse her, as she and Seraphina made their way to the feeders. I wonder if she gotten over it already. Since she's been bitten by strigois she's very sensitive about going to the feeders. So just let me state that today is the first time Zhandra went to the feeder for three years.

"So…If you don't mind me asking," Meredith said, I force a smile "When will you get a complete promise mark?"

"After Seraphina graduate, well I will get it completed along with you guys," I shrugged sneaking a glance at Eddie when he saw I was watching him, I turn to Mason "Have you seen Rose? I need to apologize to her about this morning," Mason just chuckled.

"Not sure actually, hadn't seen her since class," He said shrugging.

Suddenly Meredith stood up "I got to go guys, have some project with Jesse," we bid our farewell to Meredith, soon Shane left the table too leaving me with both Mason and Eddie. They were giving me insights of the school. Stan Alto was the jerkiest douche bag in school, after few laughs S and Z were back.

"M, did you brought S's blood bags?" I look through my bag and gave a bag of blood at Seraphina, the guys were bewildered when they saw it.

"Sorry, well Seraphina here only drink little amount from the feeders, she would get rid of her starve for blood by drinking this…" I try to explain at them.

"Well she's the first ever Moroi I saw drinking from a blood bag," Eddie said.

"I'll take that as a compliment," Seraphina said as she punctured the blood bag with a straw. "You'll get used to it soon enough,"

We started talking about the past, Zhandra had brought up the event where I broke Abigail Conta's nose, I mean she was being a bitch, I might as well break her so she would know not to mess around with Marya Belikov. Before we know it, it was over curfew was my shift tonight, so I have to escort both Mason and Eddie back to their room. Mason was the nearest so I drop him off first, now I was alone with Eddie. We walk in silence neither one of us trying to make conversation.

"Well here's my room," He said when we arrived.

"Well good night then," I smile and turned around, I could hear a faint 'goodnight'

How was it? Please review and tell me who you like? Is it Zhandra? Marya? or Seraphina?